Death, Pain and Anguish
Hey minna-san! This is the sequel to "Dealing with Loss~". This is From Quatre's POV. Warning this Yaoi!
Legal Crap: I still don't own GW…stupid cricket I still haven't forgave you…
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I don't know why I did it. I just didn't want my friends to fight and suffer anymore. One thing I wouldn't be able to stand would be for one of them to die, especially my angel Trowa.
I winced at the sight of his friends and family crying for him. His funeral…
"Duo!?!" I said. Duo had collapsed. He watched as Heero picked him and walked away.
Gomen nashi, I couldn't bear to lose another person I cared about so much. Shitmatte! Was I being selfish? My friends are dealing with pain I inflicted upon them.
Soon after everyone had left I sat there. Staring at the headstone, no, his headstone. It felt unreal. His headstone, which bore my name, read:
Quatre Reberba Winner
May your angelic smile
Always be in your heart
It still felt too unreal…
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"Duo" I moaned "please don't…"
I watched his former ally bring the gun to his temple.
Suddenly I clutched his chest. My Uuchu no Kokono still worked…
Can I do this for you Quatre? Would you want me to? No? You'd say it wasn't my fault it was yours, right? You'd blame yourself like you always do. Dammit! Duo's thought came clearly to him.
I watched sadly as Duo got up and walked out the room.
Just as I was about to follow, a picture on Duo's dresser caught his eye. It was a picture of all the pilots, on a mountain Duo and him had insisted on making them all climb.
What beautiful scenery… It saddened me that I would never be able to have fun with my friends like that again.
In the picture, Wufei had decided on sitting on a rock with Heero standing behind him. They had both managed smiles. Duo had his arm draped around Heero's shoulders with a cheeky grin on his face. Trowa had stood next to me with his arm around my waist, he was smiling! I loved it when he smiled. I was standing there looking flustered from running to and back from the camera to set it up.
I also may have looked like that because of Trowa's arm around my waist.
When I went down to find the braided pilot. I walked into a scene between Trowa and Duo. Trowa was crying.
"He knew Trowa" Duo said.
Who knew what? I thought a bit confused.
It hurt me deeply to see my love crying like that, it had surprised me to walk in with Duo's arms around Trowa, soothing him. How I longed to sooth him.
Oh, Trowa I'm so sorry, gomen nashi.
I walked with Duo up to Trowa's room , and watched as Duo talked to Trowa until he had fallen asleep. Soon after duo left. I watched Trowa sleep his chest softly rising and falling, I bent down and kissed his lips. I finally let a tear fall as my angel smiled.
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Duo, are your nightmares now cause because of me? I asked the sleeping figure, slouched over the coffee table, he was tossing and turning, not to mention thrashing out.
I leaned down and whispered in Duo's ear "Please don't hurt because of my death."
The moment I spoke Duo continued sleeping peacefully.
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"Come with me for a walk later" Trowa's voice awakened me from my sleep. I yawned.
I didn't know you still had to sleep when you were dead. Quatre winced at the thought.
I had been sitting here all day watching the pilots, his friends.
Wufei sat and mediated all day, every once and a while a look of pain crossed his face.
Heero was on his laptop writing the mission report finally. I flinched when I seen the sentence 'Pilot 04 died in battle'. Heero did too.
Duo was writing in his journal but soon gave up by swearing and going to take a nap. When I looked at his journal, I understood why he had given up, all the writing from the last few weeks were splattered with tears and the writing was undecipherable.
Trowa I guess was trying to read a book, but his eyes never moved and he never turned the page.
After awhile Duo woke up.
I watched Duo as he pulled the same cold gun out of his dresser an put it in his jacket.
"What are you going to do with that?" I asked frantically
Duo did nothing he just sat there, the gun untouched in his jacket .
About 5 minutes after the clock announced 10 pm, Trowa walked in on us, or rather Duo.
"Duo are you ready?" inquired Trowa to Duo. It appeared he'd scared Duo.
The great Shinigami got scared… I smiled at the thought
"Hey wait!" I yelled, after Duo and Trowa who had already left.
That was useless they can't hear me.
When I had caught up with Duo and his Angel. I replayed the events since his death in his mind.
I died fighting Mobile Suits, They had my funeral, the pilots, my faithful friends, grieve over me, now this walk…
"-Whoa!" came Duo's outburst.
That jolted me out of my thoughts.
Where are we? I gasped as realization bit me, we were at the same place we held my funeral.
My funeral replayed rapidly in my mind.
"Duo!?!" I exclaimed.
The 'untouched gun' that was in Duo's jacket, now appeared in his hand.
They were talking, Duo and Trowa, but the words were blocked out by horrific images racing though his mind.
I watched in horror as Duo brought a gun to my loves head and Trowa did the exact same thing to duo.
I came out of it when I heard my name.
"Yurushite Kureru Quatre, Honto ni Ai Shiteru." murmured Trowa
"Noooooo! Don't Trowa, Duo please don't!" I said frantically. I knew it was useless…
You can't! I died so you wouldn't have too!!
The last word out both Duo's and Trowa's mouths were the same words Duo had always spoken when he thought it was the end. But right now they were filled with more emotion because they both knew this was the end for certain.
"Boy's Don't Cry"
"Boy's Don't Cry"
I let out a wail of anguish as two shots broke the night silence.
~owari~
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Hi! I'm finally done! How'd you like it? Please R&R it! Oh yeah should I do a prequel? From Heero's POV, or from Trowa's? Shall I do an epilogue? R&R people!