hidden angst 2

Mimi hacking is illegal, not to mention morally wrong! Izzy exclaimed.

please, pretty please? I plead, using my big brown eyes for all it was worth.

Okay okay Mimi, turn off the charm. I'll see what I can do.

Thank you thank you!

Don't thank me yet.

I am so glad you are always so involved with that computer, because now I know that will find the information in no time! I squeal happily.

Mimi are you sure you want to do this?

What do you mean am I sure?

I mean, being adopted doesn't change who you are.

I know that. I stamp my feet. Why wasn't he finding the information I needed already.

okay okay.

Izzy, your the greatest!

Mimi this is going to take some time, okay.

But I feel content. I know that if anyone can find out, Izzy can.

Izzy worked long into the evening. I had gotten bored, and went back home. How much could a normal person take? But I knew Izzy. He wouldn't let me down.

It was the next afternoon before Izzy called me. I ran practily the entire way.

Oh Izzy! I knew you could do it! Why do you look so serious? Whats wrong?

Its nothing Mimi. Izzy says. But I know something is bothering him. I can tell when people are distrubed.

Mimi, I haven't found exactly the information you wanted.

Why not?

I have a copy of your adoption paper.

Why was he so grim.

It doesn't tell us who your parents were.

know what I'm I going to do.

Don't look so sad Mimi. It can take years.

I cried.

Mimi, don't cry. I asked you to come over, because I did find something.



The original records are still at the agency.



We need to go up there, and physically go through the records.

Wonderful! I'll go right away.

Wait a minute Mimi, I think you should think about this.

What is there to think about?

Talk to your folks first. I'm sure that they would be glad to drive you up there during break~

Izzy, thats months away yet!

Don't do anything foolish Mimi. Izzy asks, almost pleadingly.

I won't Izzy.

But this is a promise I just can't keep.

I sit quietly on the bus, watching the rain. I know my parents won't understand, but this is something I have to do. If I find my birth mother, than perhaps I'll find the part inside me thats missing. Perhaps I'll find myself. I was startled out of my silent pondering when somebody sat down next to me.

Izzy! What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be in school?

So should you.

I'm finding my biological mother, so don't try to talk me out of it.

I'm not here to talk you out of it.



I'm coming with you.