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I love you Mimichan. It's going to be okay, I promise. Whatever it is, we'll deal with it together.

A small note shattered my entire being. A sinking feeling enveloped my entire being as I clutched the small rose ring.

Dear Sora:
I'm sorry I have to hurt you like this, but you deserve better than the little I can give you. Please don't hate me.

Love,

Mimi

A muffled sob escaped from me. I didn't even realize the tears streaming down my face until the cascaded over the words, smearing their meaning into pools of ink.

I found myself in the digital world a few days later. I wandered for days, I think. I eventually found myself on the beach. Not just any beach, but our beach. The very place I had proposed. I couldn't live without her. Know body understood how I felt about Mimi. In a trance I begin to wade out into the freezing digital ocean. The cold stung my limbs. I couldn't feel my legs. I kept walking, waiting for the water to keep me from feeling anything. As the water approached my neck my body began to feel as if it were on fire. I gritted my teeth, and began to swim, comforted by the knowledge that it would all be over soon.
My next memory is of rain water gently caressing my face. I lay on the beach, drenched to the core. My fingers were clumsy from the cold, but I managed to clutch my crest, and rip it off my neck. I was incredibly angry. At myself, at Mimi, at the whole world. I stared at it. Love. The one thing I did not need in my life. I stood up on shaky legs, and threw that damn crest of love into the ocean. Good riddance.


I ended up with bronchitis. But I managed to slowly climb my way out of the abyss of despair. I moved far away from Odabia. I purchased a flower shop with a small apartment upstairs. And I vowed that I would never believe in the emotion love again.

A persistent person knocking at the closed door startled me out of my reminiscing. Idiots, can't they read? I ignored the knocking, but it continued. I walked across the store. All I wanted was a hot shower, and to forget my miserable existence. I opened the door a crack.

Sorry, we close at 7.

I began to shut the door, but the cloaked figure spoke in a hauntingly familiar voice.

Please wait!

Who are you? I demanded of the figure.

The figure pushed back the cloak.

I gasped, and dizzily clung to the door frame. It was her. This had to be a dream.

Can I come in Sora? the figure asked meekly.

I guess. Shock, anger and fear were overcoming me in waves.

Where do I begin?

I don't know. You were the one that left, remember? I say sarcastically, wanted to hurt her the way she had hurt me. But I'm over it I reminded myself. I don't need anyone anymore.

I'm so sorry Sora. Mimi said.

Me too. I'm sorry that I loved you.

Sora, it was the worst day of my life the day I left you.

I paused. Something vulnerable inside of me was trying to break my tough nonchalant exterior.

Why did you leave then?

A question that had plagued my existence since the day she left.

I'm so sorry Sora, but I had too.

How did you find me?

Mimi removed a crest from her neck. But not just any crest, my crest of love.

But, how did you.....

Here Sora. She offers the crest to me.

No, I don't want it.

But it belongs to you.

Well I don't need it anymore. And I don't need you. I stated.

I had to leave because I was getting married.

I say dryly. I suppose it was some knight in shining armor.

Sora, please don't be like this. Let me explain.

I'm listening.

My parents went insane when I told them about our relationship. They had already planned for me to marry their friend's son.

So you were two timing me. That makes me feel so much better.

No Sora, it wasn't like that, really.

My parents owed a great deal of money to them. I had to marry him or else his family would take it out on his parents. Mimi wipes a tear from her eyes. Without meaning too, I mimic her motions, wiping a tear away from my own eye.

Why are you here then?

I have spent these last years with my heart shredded. I tried finding you but know body knew where you where. I was sorry to hear about your mom Sora.

I didn't want to talk about it, so I asked. How did you find me then?