TOW the letters 7
This is the last part.
Monica didn´t sleep at all in the night. Surprisingly she hadn´t even been tired. She felt guilty for just leaving Richard. Always when something was wrong she just ran away, she had it done twice now. But only once it was a mistake. Monica knew that Chandler didn´t love her anymore and that Sara sure didn´t want her as her mother anymore but she wanted to talk with them, and the rest of her friends.
When Sara got up the next morning, she felt sick. She hadn´t slept much and she had a huge headache. " Morning, you don´t look good." Chandler said as she walked into the kitchen. " I don´t feel good." Chandler put a hand on her forehead. " You have a fever. I guess that means that will stay at home today." " With Rachel?" she asked. " No, I`ll stay at home as well." " Great, I`ll go to bed again." Rachel walked into the kitchen. " What is with her, she looks sick." " Well, she is sick." Chandler replied sighing. " Then I will be with her all the day, right?" Rachel asked. " Nope, you will have her and me." " That is even better." She said and they kissed.
Billy was happy that he didn´t have to go to school. Monica didn´t care for that right now, he was good at school so some days off would be ok. She was more worried about how to talk with the others. She wasn´t even sure if they still lived at the same apartments. But Monica at least wanted to try. " Billy I got to talk with you." Monica told Billy about Sara, what he already knew and about her leaving. He listened and just nodded. Monica thought where to go, but then she got a better idea. Billy had written letters to Sara, so she knew the adresse.
Sara lay in bed, she couldn´t sleep but she couldn´t get up either. Her stomach began to hurt, she had the feeling that something would happen today. Chandler often came into the room to check how she was doing. " Where is Rachel?" Sara asked. " What why?" " Just wanted to know. You know I don´t hate her. She practically was like my mother, but it is still a bit weird. She was moms best friend." " Your mother will never come back." Chandler said, sadly. " I know." They both went to their memories. Then Rachel came in. " How are you feeling?" she asked carefully. " A little better." Sara said. Suddenly the dorr bell rang. " I´ll get it." Rachel said and went downstaires.
Monica was very nervous when sh stood in front of the door, they still lived in the same house. Billy saw how nervous his mother was. " Why are you so nervous? You are gonna see Sara again, and well him, what was his name?" " Chandler." " Right. Calm down a bit, mom. They won´t kill you."
Monica knew what Billy said was a joke, and sure they wouldn´t kill her but she was scared that they might really hate her. Then Monica finally found the strenght to ring.
Rachel opened the door, and when she saw Monic standing there, she almost fainted. " Mo-Monica?" " Hello Rachel." Monica replied, already regretting that she came here. " I´ll go get...get you know... get Chandler." Rachel stuttered. " Chandler, could you come downstaires please?" Rachel said, as she entered Saras room. " Who is it?" " Someone form your past." Both, Sara and Chandler looked at her, kind of confused. " Who is it?" Chandler repeated. " It´s ... it´s ...Monica." Chandler looked at Rachel like he wouldn´t believe her. " Mom?" Sara asked, but it was more to herself. Chandler got up, without saying anything and went upstaires. Sara hopped from her bed, following him. Monica stood at the door, very nervous. Then she saw Chandler. She looked into his eyes, automatically. His eyes were completly blank. " What do you want?" he asked without emotion. Monica looked to the ground. She didn´t know why she was there, she hadn´t known where to go and she wanted to see them again.
Sara stood behind her father, looking at Monica. She didn´t change much since Sara had last seen her. She saw Billy, who hid behind his mother. He was obviously scared by Chandler, or by the situation. It made Sara smile a little. Rachel stood a bit behind. Though Monica had left so long ago, she was still a bit jealous of her. No matter how long she and Chandler were together, she would never have this what Chandler and Monica had. She saw the look on their eyes, they had so much to talk about before they really could go on with their lives. At least, Chandler needed some explainations.
Chandler just stared at Monica. Some part of him wanted to hug and kiss her, the other part wanted her to leave and never come back. " Don´t you wanna come in?" he finally asked, cause it was not that easy for him. " Thanks." Monica said and she and Billy walked in. Chandler hadn´t realized that Monica had a child with her. The boy walked very closely to her. `Is that the reason why she left?`Chandler asked himself. While Monica and Billy walked into the living room, Chandler and Rachel were in the kitchen. " You haven´t seen her since nine years and you just let her in?" Rachel whipered, but she was angry. " I just wannna hear why she left me and Sara." " But why? Why do ou still care for her? She left you and her daughter for crying out loud!" Chandler looked at her angry, she knew she was right but he couldn´t just send Monica away. Sara stood in the doorway, she was afraid to go into the living room. She hadn´t seen her mother since nine years, and she didn´t know how to act around her.
" See, he wasn´t angry." Billy whispered to his mother. Monica didn´t reply. Chandler of course was angry. How could he not? " Mom, did you live here?" Billy then asked. " Yes, I did." " Why did you leave?" Chandler entered. Rachel stopped in the doorway, Sara was behind her. Billy felt the urge to cry, he felt the tears building up. He clinged to Monica for support. Chnler looked at him. `Richards son`he thought. He couldn´t stop looking at Billy, who couldn´t fight the tears anymore. The staring of Chandler made it worse. " Can we talk now?" Chandler asked. Monica nodded and looked at Billy. " I´ll take Billy upstaires." Sara said. Chandler looked at her surprised. `Why did she know his name?`. As Sara walked over to the couch, where the two were sitting, Monica and Sara looked at each other. It was like they would look in a mirror. Sara took Billys hand and led him upstaires. Rachel left the room as well.
Sara and Billy just sat in her room, not talking. Billy had stopped crying, but he still felt very uncomfortable. " We always had to write somthing in the letters, and now we don´t talk a word." Sara said and smiled. Billy looked up and smiled as well. " Sorry, it is just weird being here." " Why are you here?" " Don´t know. Some night, Mom just drove off with me. Then she talked with me about you and your father. I listened, but I told her that we wrote each other. She knew it, she had found the letters." " Your father is Richard Burke?" Sara asked. " You know him?" " Not in person, just what Joey... a friend of my father told me about him." " Yeah, he is not nice." " How can you say that, he is your father." " We were never really close." Billy said and looked at the ground.
Monica an Chandler sat in the living room. It was a very awkward moment, but Monica felt like laughing. This was all so ridiciolous. Why did she come back? She looked at Chandler. Monica had never seen him that hurt. It made her sad that it was her fault. She wondered how she could still love someone so much after nine years, and she did love him. But she mostly came back because of Sara. She always felt a bit empty, because she had left Sara. And she knew that he would never forgive her, and she was kind of ok with that but she still wanted at least to talk with her.
Billy and Sara didn`t talk much. They always had to write something in the letters but now, where they sat in front of each other it was difficult. " Are you close with... you know Mom?" Sara then asked. " Yes, we are." Billy said, and felt suddenly guilty. " That is ok. It is not your fault that she left us." " I don`t know. Your mother left when she found out thst she was pregnant with me." " Yeah." Sara replied, she was very sad. She knew why her mother had left, she had cheated on her father and she got pregnant.
Chandler didn´t want to talk with Monica. A part of him was glad that she was there, though. All the time he had wished that she´d come back, even if it was just for an explaination. " So you came here to talk with me. Why don`t you just begin?" Chandler said without looking at Monica. He was trembling inside, but he hid it. Monica didn`t know how to begin, should she just tell him right away why she left? " I wanted to tell you why I left you and Sara. But just if you want to know." " If I want? I`ve been waiting for it since nine years!" " Fine, you know at this time we had some problems with our relationship. We didn´t talk, we didn´t see each other much." " That´s why you left?" Chandler cut her off. " Could I please finish? Anyway, I met Richard. We had lunch together from time to time. And then, I don´t even know why and how but we y´know. I felt so guilty, but that wasn´t the reason why i left. I left when I found out that I was pregnant. I knew you couldn´t live with Richards baby, so I just left." Monica looked at Chandler to see his reaction but he just sat there. No emotion on his face.
" Do you thin our parents are talking right now?" Billy asked. " Why our parents? We just have the same mother, you know." " Sorry. But you know what I mean." " Yeah. I hope they do not fight. This is my chance to get to know my mother." " I can tell you everything about her." Billy said proudly. Sara looked at him, and smiled. " Thanks, but that wouldn´t be the same." " I understand. How was it, to see her again after so much years I can´t even imagine what it must have been like for you to see her." " I can´t explain, it was weird. It is like you meet your favorite singer. You know everything about him, what he did and that stuff and then you see him and boom, everything is different. You know, I never thought I would see her again. And now she is sitting in our living room." " She said that she missed you." Billy said, Sara just looked at him.
" Could you please say something?" Monica said. " And what? That i am happy that you came back to tell me this. I wanted to hear that nine years ago. But it isn´t that you left just me, you left your daughter. You never called, or wrote her. That´s what really hurt me." " I thought you wouldn´t let me talk with her and at this time I couldn´t talk with you." " So and why? Did you think I would hurt you?" Chandler asked angry. " No. And you couldn´t have hurt me, because I did that myself." Chandler looked at her confused. " When i left you and Sara, you don´t know how hard that was for me. My first thought when I found that i was pregant was, that we would be soon four. But then I remembered, that it was probably Richards child." " Wait, did you just say probably?" " Well, yes. I never really knew who the father was but i guess it was Richard."
Rachel entered Saras room. Billy looked kind of scared at her. " So Sara, how are you feeling?" she asked. " Ok." Sara replied, she wasn´t in the mood to talk with Rachel now. A moment of silence followed. Billy watched Rachel, she didn´t look like a friend of his mother. But then, that was long time ago. " Ok, I am gonna go then." Rachel said and left the room, sadly. She hated that Sara never talked with her anymore since she and Chandler were together. " Why are you so mean to her?" Billy asked. " What? I wasn´t mean to her." " Oh yes you were. I know you don´t like her but..." " Billy, you don´t know anything."
" You guess?!" Chandler asked mad. " Why are you so mad about it?" Monica asked. Chandler calmed down and looked at her. Why was he mad? Chandler didn´t know. " It is just.... there is a little chance that he is my son and that..." " He isn´t yours. I swear." Monica said. " Ok, I don´t care. I guess Sara wants to spend more time with you and you with her so you can visit her, lets say once a week and only with me together. I don´t want you to kidnap her. But I can´t promise you that she´ll forgive you. If I were her, I wouldn´t." " Thanks." Monica whispered. " You can bring your son as well." Chandler continued. Monica just nodded. " You will see Sara and maybe Ross wants to see you, I guess the others doesn´t want. But you have nothing to do with my family, that means Rachel and our baby." Chandler left the living room. Monica waited a moment before she left as well. Chandler called for Sara and Billy. " We´re leaving." Monica said to Billy. " Are you leaving again?" Sara asked, almost crying. " She is gonna visit you." Chandler said. Sara looked at Monica, then she ran over to her and gave her a quick hug before she ran into her room. " Thank you, Chandler. I mean that I can visit her." " She needs her mother, that is the only reason why I am doing this. It is not for you." " I know." Monica said and she and Billy left.
" How are you feeling?" Rachel asked Chandler. " I don´t know, mixed feelings. I`ve waited so long for her return. But now... you know I thought I would hate her but i don´t." " Well, you weren´t that nice to her." Rachel said. " I know, but she deserved it." Sara walked into the kitchen. " Are you ok?" Chandler asked her. She just nodded. " How did you know Billy?" Rachel asked. Sara looked at her. " How is that your business?" Chandler looked at her angry. " We wrote each other letters." She said. " Why didn´t you tell me?" " Because you would have been angry and I didn´t mean to write Billy, I wanted to write Mom. You know what, that is a long story and I really don´t feel like telling it to you." " That is ok, you don´t need to explain it to me." Sara was surprised by his reaction. " I am glad that he´ll visit me. You don´t know how long I wanted this. I am going to be now. Night Dad, night Rach." Sara went upstaires. " She said night to me." Rachel said happy.
" She is happy that she has Monica back, she doesn´t need to hate you anymore. Lets go to bed."
Bad ending, I know. I`ll write a sequel, if enough people want me to.
Written by Anika