Shades of Grey: Part 2
Author's Note: Here you have it loyal Taito fans. This is the second chapter to Shades of Grey. This will put you all at ease, for now... *laughs evily* This is dedicated to my partner in crime, Ashley. You're right Ash, corruption doesn't always have to be a bad thing!~Matt~
Okay, so let's recap. I started you off with this strange metaphor talking about the loss of all of the color in my life and of how depressed I was. Sure, it was really just an attempt to grab your attention and keep you listening, but you have to understand what I'm going through. I mean, c'mon, I've spent part of the last few days talking to an apparition of Tai that I think is really my subconscious, but considering the state I'm in right now, I'm in no position to conjure up an ounce of ration thought. Well, at least with you here I have somebody to talk to. Hell, I'm not even sure if I am talking to anybody right now. I'm so confused...
Anyway, enough talking about the past the past for now. Let's talk about the present. You know that bad decision that I was talking about? Well, I made it and now I'm about to make another, I think.
Where am I? In my room, lying on my bed and now I have another decision to make. If I do it, what method should I use? There are so many options when it comes to suicide that it's not as easy to choose one as you may think it is. I know where dad hides the gun. I have access to a surplus of pills in the medicine cabinet and my Swiss Army knife is sitting idle in my pocket. I just can't decide. There are too many decisions to make!
I have another question for you though. What led me to this pitiful moment? Well, why don't we take a second trip into the past and you can see for yourself?
~Tai~
"What's that?" Mimi asked. I had told her that I still had something to do in order to get ready for the dance.
"Um..." The real answer is that I have to confess my love to my best friend, but there was no way that I was going to let Mimi "gossip queen" Tachikawa in on that little tidbit of information. Otherwise, I'll have the whole school confessing my love for Matt. "I have to.... do my hair!" I said quickly.
"You what?" Mimi giggled
Nice save superstar! "I mean, Kari! She asked me if I would help her do her hair. It's her first high school dance and she wanted a custom hair-do from Hair Master Tai!" Mimi probably would have rolled on the floor laughing if she didn't have this thing about dirty, high school floors and new dresses.
"More like a hair don't from Hair Disaster Tai!" Matt was also in hysterics. Thank God the bell rang after that.
"C'mon Meems, let's get to class." Matt said as he waved goodbye to me and the pair continued laughing all the way down the hall.
"Well, There's always the dance!" I sighed. I was upset at myself for not doing what I had intended to do. Slamming my locker door shut, I made my way to class.
~Matt~
The rest of that day went by pretty slow. After the killer incident with Tai and Mimi, it's like the clock was against me. All I could think about is the stupid dance and what or how I was going to tell Tai. "I should have just got it over with!" I muttered. I had just finished grabbing my homework out of my locker when I noticed that Sora was standing beside me.
"Got what over with?" she asked.
"Uh, Hi Sora!" I chuckled nervously. "I was thinking that I should have um..." I choked!
"Well?" Sora giggled. She had to know that I was hiding something by now.
"Oh, what the heck! I'll tell you, but you have to promise not to tell anybody." I said.
"I promise!" she replied, looking much more interested in my little secret now, then she did five seconds ago.
"You swear on our friendship?" I asked.
"I swear!" she promised.
"On Biyomon's life?" I asked
"On Biyo's life!" she replied.
"On your tennis career?" I persisted. If I kept thinking of more things for her to swear on, maybe I could get lucky and not actually have to tell her.
"Yes, Dammit!! Would you get on with it?" she yelled.
"Sora, I haven't told this to anyone, but keeping it inside has been driving me crazy!" I began.
"Yeah right." she laughed. "Cool, calm and collected Matt Ishida is going crazy?" she joked.
"It's not funny Sora! I'm talking to ghosts in my car for God's sake!" I snapped.
"Oh." she responded. I could tell that she was at a loss for words, but if she couldn't handle that little tremor, she'd probably keel over and die after the quake.
"Sora, I'm gay!" I didn't mean to be so blunt, but how the hell does something like that come out any smoother?
~Sora~
Did I just hear what I thought I did? Did Yamato Ishida just come out of the closet? He did just tell me he was gay, right? What the heck am I doing talking to myself? Well, at least I haven't been answered by any ghosts....
"That's a surprise!" I responded. I didn't know what else to say. I mean, I had been through this about a year ago with Tai, but it didn't get any easier, trust me.
"What do you think?" Matt asked me.
"What do I think?" What kind of a question is that? "Um... What am I suppose think?" I asked in return.
"Well, am I any different in your eyes?" he questioned.
"No way, you're still the same old Matt and you always will be. I know a few other gay guys and they're no different from anybody else. Don't think that you're the exception." I told him.
"You know some more gay guys?"
"Yeah."
"Who?"
"I think I said enough. I'm late for tennis practice anyway. I'll see you around Matt." I waved goodbye and dashed down the hallway.
"Bye Sora." I head Matt call after me, but I just kept running. "This is such great news! I have to tell Tai!"
~Kari~
Tai walked in the house after soccer and headed straight for his room. I could tell that something was bothering him, but I decided to pick on him anyway. "Fine, don't say hello to your dear, younger sister." I pouted.
"Hello, dear, younger sister" he replied in a monotone voice.
"Have you heard anything about the dance?" I decided to ask. Bad idea! Tai exploded after that!
"No, Kari, Matt hasn't told me anything about Tk having a date, or even if he is planning on going! If I were you, I would get up off my ass and call the guy before he's taken!"
I was shocked! "How did you know?" he didn't respond. Instead, he kept going with his lecture.
"The dance is tomorrow night. Talk about procrastination! You both no that you're crazy about each other. I don't understand why you just don't fuck and get it over with!" he added.
"Tai!" I blushed. He paid no attention though, and continued making the way to his room. "By the way, Sora's called like six times!" I shouted.
"Okay!" he called back. I still can't believe that he made that comment about Tk and I having sex, but he is right about one thing... I better get on that phone before another chick gets a hold of my man!
~Tai~
"I've got some news." Sora told me as soon as she heard my voice. I had called her right after I had gotten settled.
"What kind of news? Good or bad?" I asked.
"Good for you and bad for millions of girls around the country!" she replied.
"So, what is it then?" I prodded.
"I can't tell you!"
"Why not?" I pouted.
"Not on the phone anyway. Meet me at school early tomorrow morning. This'll knock your block off." she teased.
"Why can't you just tell me now?" I whined.
"Sorry Tai, I can't. I have to go."
"But..." she hung up. How dare she tease me like that! She knows that I'm in a very fragile state right now! I guess I'll just have to wait until tomorrow. It's not that far away. In fact, it's only a day away...
~Matt~
I figured that I had better apologize to Tai for that hair comment that I made yesterday. He's really sensitive. Especially when it comes to his hair. I rounded the corner to his locker, then decided to hang back a bit. Tai was talking with Sora. I couldn't hear exactly what they were saying, but... "No way!" I gasped. Tai hadn't just KISSED SORA! It wasn't a little peck on the cheek either. I could handle that. This was a full-blown kiss ON THE LIPS! This is just way too much to handle! I can't face Tai now. He's in love with Sora! I can't believe that she didn't tell me even after I told her I was gay. Life as I know it is over. I might as well be dead if I can't have Tai. There's nothing left for me to live for.
So, you see now why I have to do this? Death is the only option now. Don't try to talk me out of it. I've made my decision. Matt Ishida is going to create his own St Valentine's Day Massacre and there's nothing that anybody can do to stop me!
THE END
~MPF