The Vague Memories of a Life Time
By Moony
Chapter 2
"It's so odd," Quatre said to the rest of the Gundam pilots at breakfast. On the way home from the hospital no one spoke, or didn't know what to say. They were still in shock.
"Yes, and what is this Odin nonsense?" Sally added. "I've never heard him refer to himself as that."
"None of us have. I mean he's my best friend," Duo said and shook his head.
"And did you notice how different he was? It's like he's some one else," Trowa said.
"That's because he is," Relena said and walked in.
"Oh, Relena you look completely exhausted!" Quatre said and walked to her. He took her arm.
"It's because he's not Heero. He's Odin. Heero died in that accident, or at least is locked up in Odin's mind for the moment," Relena said. Quatre lead her to his seat and had her sit down.
"What do you mean?" Duo asked.
"I've had plenty of time to think about it and I've come to this conclusion. Heero must have lost his memories when he was young and then was found by Doctor J; he then became the man we know today, our Heero, the perfect solider. Well, when he hit his head he regained those memories he lost when he was a child. Basically he has a chance to live the life he would have lived with out the pain of war and his training. I think, though, that he still has the strength and abilities that he had as Heero, but now he is Odin, the boy who Heero should have become. And if he knows what Heero has done he would not be able to live with it, so please try not to mention the lives he took, but mentions Heero's bravery and his courage and honor. I wonder if Heero is still alive in there or if he's really dead," Relena explained and sighed. "I'm so tired. I think I'm going to rest now. Pagon, please wake me up at noon. I promised Odin I would come and see him later today. Also I need an extra room made up for him. He will be staying here with me until he either decides he wants to live on his own or regains his memories of Heero."
"Very well madam," the servant said and walked away. Relena left the room.
"Do you think she's happy about this?" Hilde asked.
"No," Trowa replied. "I think if anything, she's ashamed."
"Yes, who wouldn't be?" Quatre agreed.
"I'm guessing that the party's over and we can go home right?" Duo said. Everyone looked at him.
"I'm sure it is, but do you really want to leave Heero like this?" Sally replied. Duo looked away annoyed.
"Heero's not here any more." Duo walked out of the room. Everyone looked around. Hilde got up and went after him.
"Duo! Duo, Wait!" she cried. Duo was almost to the door when he turned around to see Hilde.
"What?" He asked iterated.
"I, I want to come with you," she said quietly.
"I don't think that's a good idea Hilde babe," He said.
"But I want to be with you," Hilde whispered.
"I know, but I have some things I need to deal with right now," Duo replied. Hilde stepped back.
"Duo, it's been six years since I've seen you and then you said you had things to deal with. Why are you pushing me away?" Hilde said and placed her hands on her hips.
"I'm not," Duo voiced.
"You are too and now you're lying to me! Duo, will you please just tell me the truth? What's going on with you? Why are you going to leave Heero alone like this? I'd think that if you wouldn't stay for me you'd stay for your best friend!" Hilde cried.
"Because, Hilde I just can't handle what's going on with me right now."
"And what's that?" Hilde said.
"I think we should go up and see him," Quatre said quietly and sipped his tea.
"It might be a good idea," Trowa stated
"It also might be good for us to stay here for a while to help Relena out with this problem," Sally said and looked at Wufei.
"I don't want to stay here," Wufei said. "I said I'd come here for a day and that would be it. It's already been two and I'm ready to go home."
"Wufei," Sally sighed. "Don't you want to help Heero?"
"Heero has never needed help. If he is still in that man's mind he will come out on his own, weather we're here or not," Wufei replied. Every one thought for a moment. Maybe Wufei was right.
"But what if Heero's not there anymore?" Cathrine said.
"Then there would be even less point of us staying here. The ones who really care about Heero would hurt even more knowing that part of him is dead and maybe it would be better if we stayed away from Odin. What possible good could we do? Do any of us want the memories of our lives and what we have done?" Wufei said calmly.
"Then maybe this is a blessing for Heero. His life is new now and he can live it like a normal person," Quatre agreed.
"Then should we leave?" Sally asked.
"I think we should do as we feel. If you want to stay, stay, but I'm leaving," Wufei stated and stood up. "Sally, if you want to come with me you better get ready other wise I will not wait for you."
Sally stood up. "Alright Wufei. I'll be right there," She said quietly and left the room.
"Trowa," Cathrine put her hand on Trowa's shoulder. "I think we should leave too. The circus needs us." Trowa looked at his sister.
"You're right, Cathrine. Lets get moving," he said and stood up. The two walked out to get ready, leaving Quatre alone.
"Am I the only one who thinks we should stay?" Quatre asked himself.
"Hilde I don't want to talk about it," Duo replied and turned to the door "I'm leaving now." He opened it.
"Oh that's right, Duo! Run away from everything again!" Hilde yelled at him. He turned pulled his arm up to hit Hilde. She stood there with tears in her eyes waiting for the blow. He turned back to the door and walked out. The tears ran over Hilde's face. She gripped the door, then slammed it shut. She walked back into the kitchen where Quatre was now sitting alone. "Where'd everyone go?" Hilde asked. Quatre looked up at her.
"They're leaving," Quatre replied.
"They're leaving?" Hilde cried. "You mean everyone is? Are you?"
"I'm not, but everyone else is," Quatre replied. Hilde fell into a chair.
"Oh," she sighed. She put her chin in her hands and her elbows on the table. "Well I'm not leaving. I won't leave Relena or Heero like this!" Hilde cried.
"I agree with you Hilde, but no one else does," Quatre sighed.
"Then they don't matter. When Heero gets his memories back he'll know who his real friends are!" Hilde said angrily. Quatre didn't reply. The two watched everyone leave and didn't say a word. They were both quite upset with everyone. Hilde was most up set with Duo and Quatre was most upset with Trowa. At noon everyone had packed up and left, but Hilde and Quatre remained at the table silent. Relena soon appeared.
"What? Where is everyone?" she asked when she saw Hilde and Quatre at the table. "Have they gone to see Odin?"
"No, Relena, They went home," Quatre said.
"Home?" Relena cried. "I, well, I... I see." She sat down at the table and mocked Hilde's position on the table. She gave a long sigh. "It could be worse," she sighed. They looked up at her. "Dorothy could be here." They all smiled and nodded.
"I think we should go and see Heero, I mean Odin now," Quatre said and got up.
"I agree," Relena stood up. "Hilde are you going to come?"
"Of course," Hilde said and got up. They left together. Quatre drove. "Isn't it odd that we three are stuck together?" Hilde said.
"It is," Relena agreed. Quatre smiled.
"I think it's odd that Hilde is standing by Heero," Quatre said with a suspicious smile. Hilde stuck her tug out at him. Quatre and Relena smiled.
"I'm not," she stated. "I'm staying here for you and Relena." Relena smiled.
"Thank you Hilde," Relena said and put her hand on Hilde's shoulder. Hilde smiled at her. Quatre pulled into the hospital parking lot. They found a spot quickly and walked into the hospital.
"Oh hello Miss Darilan," a nurse said when she saw Relena.
"How is Heero today?" Relena asked.
"Oh, You mean Odin? Oh he's fine and such a wonderful man. So delightful," the lady smiled and kept walking.
"Heero, delightful?" Quatre said confused.
"He's changed Quatre. I don't know how, but he has. He's not Heero anymore," Relena said as they came to his door. She put her pointer finger to her mouth and shushed Quatre from making a reply. She knocked on the door.
She heard a cheerful voice say, "Come in." she pushed the door open and saw Odin sitting up in his bed. "Oh, Relena, uh, hi," He said and dropped the book he was reading. He tried to pick it back up while he looked at her, but he fumbled with it until it fell on the floor. She smiled.
"Odin. I have two friends, who want to see you," She said and came to pick up the book. "You met one last night." She handed the book to him. He looked nervous and confused. He took the book.
"Uh, thanks," he said and sat the book down beside him on the bed.
"Quatre, Hilde," Relena called to them. They walked in.
"Hi there Heero," Hilde said without thinking. She quickly covered her mouth. Her eyes were wide. Relena gave her a look. Quatre tried not to laugh. Odin gave her a weird look.
"Why do you guys call me Heero?" he asked.
"It's a long story, Odin," Quatre said. "And most of it, your, uh, other self only knows."
"Oh, well, fill me in on what you know," Odin said. Relena grabbed a chair and motioned Quatre to sit in it. Quatre gave her a questioned look.
"I think you'd better tell him. You know more than I do about everything that, uh, happened," She explained. "Hilde and I will go and get something to drink." Relena motioned for Hilde to come with her. Hilde followed Relena out of the room and Quatre began.
"It all started with something called Operation Meteor..."
"He is odd! That's not Heero in that room. I saw his eyes and they weren't hiding anything!" Hilde said as she and Relena sat in the hospital cafeteria.
"I know," Relena replied and stirred her coffee with a spoon.
"So this is what Heero would have been like with out all that training and stuff? Wow, he's a pretty cool guy. Maybe better than Duo," Hilde said incoherently. Relena knew Hilde was just thinking out loud.
"Hilde how old are you?" Relena asked.
"I'm twenty one, why?" Hilde answered.
"I think you and I both need to get over these guys in our lives," Relena said calmly.
"What do you mean?" Hilde questioned.
"I guess I've gotten over Heero, that's all. I mean I knew there was never anything there, or at least on his part and now I think it's time for me to move on and find some one new," Relena elucidated.
"Are you saying that I should give up on Duo?" Hilde cried.
"Well look at it Hilde! You've known him for six years and he's even lived with you and has he once shown you any affection other than friendship?" Relena pointed out. Hilde dropped her eyes and they filled with tears. "Oh, Hilde, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. I shouldn't have said anything." Relena put her hand on Hilde's shoulder.
"No, no, you're right," Hilde said and looked up at Relena. She wiped away the tear that was rolling down her cheek. "I've just been in denial about it lately. I guess when I first met Duo and we were both young I was hopeful that he would see more from me than just a little sister or a best friend, but he never did and I just now realized it."
"It took me a while too," Relena said quietly.
"But now Heero's a different person and maybe now you'll have a chance with him," Hilde noted.
"No," Relena sighed. "I'm afraid I couldn't do that. I'd feel like I was playing a trick on Heero, or he was playing a trick on me. I think I'll just have to look for love some where else."
"But what if there is no 'some where else'?" Hilde said. Relena looked at her wide-eyed.
"Then I won't get married or fall in love again," Relena sighed and looked back down at her coffee.
"Quatre is pretty good guy," Hilde said. "Maybe he..." Hilde stopped when she saw the bewildered look on Relena's face.
"You mean you don't know about him?" Relena gasped.
"No," Hilde said confused.
"He's in, uh, love with, uh, Trowa," Relena said bluntly. Hilde gasped.
"No!" she cried. Relena nodded and took a sip of her now cold coffee. "I never would have, I mean I thought they were just friends!"
"Well they are, just really, really, really close friends," Relena smiled.
"And you aren't bothered by this?" Hilde asked.
"No, well, I was at first, but I saw how much they care for each other and I just accepted it."
"Oh," Hilde sighed.
"We should get back," Relena said after a very long period of silence. "Quatre should be done with his story by now." Relena and Hilde stood up and went back to the room. Sure enough Quatre was done and waiting for them. Odin smiled when the two walked in.
"Hello Relena," he grinned. Relena still couldn't get used to him smiling.
"Hello," She replied.
"I was a pretty crazy guy," Odin smiled. "I did more stuff then I could have thought possible. I'd like to go and see the colonies someday."
"Did any of that make you remember anything?" Hilde asked.
"That is what's weird, I could sometimes remember stuff, but it's really blurry," Odin sighed.
"Don't strain your self, Odin," Relena smiled and took his hand and looked deep into his eyes. He looked like he was blushing. "If Heero's still in there he'll come out in his own time," she assured him, then smiled lovingly.
"Well Odin, we better get going," Quatre said and stood up. Relena released his hand
"Okay, I'll be leaving tomorrow right?" Odin said.
"Yes, tomorrow. We're looking forward to it," Relena smiled.
"So am I," Odin said in a strange voice. Relena nodded. They began filing out of the room. Relena was the last.
"Sweet dreams, Relena," Odin said. Relena looked at him for a moment. He smiled seductively at her.
"Good night, 'Odin'," Relena replied and shut the door.
By Moony
Chapter 2
"It's so odd," Quatre said to the rest of the Gundam pilots at breakfast. On the way home from the hospital no one spoke, or didn't know what to say. They were still in shock.
"Yes, and what is this Odin nonsense?" Sally added. "I've never heard him refer to himself as that."
"None of us have. I mean he's my best friend," Duo said and shook his head.
"And did you notice how different he was? It's like he's some one else," Trowa said.
"That's because he is," Relena said and walked in.
"Oh, Relena you look completely exhausted!" Quatre said and walked to her. He took her arm.
"It's because he's not Heero. He's Odin. Heero died in that accident, or at least is locked up in Odin's mind for the moment," Relena said. Quatre lead her to his seat and had her sit down.
"What do you mean?" Duo asked.
"I've had plenty of time to think about it and I've come to this conclusion. Heero must have lost his memories when he was young and then was found by Doctor J; he then became the man we know today, our Heero, the perfect solider. Well, when he hit his head he regained those memories he lost when he was a child. Basically he has a chance to live the life he would have lived with out the pain of war and his training. I think, though, that he still has the strength and abilities that he had as Heero, but now he is Odin, the boy who Heero should have become. And if he knows what Heero has done he would not be able to live with it, so please try not to mention the lives he took, but mentions Heero's bravery and his courage and honor. I wonder if Heero is still alive in there or if he's really dead," Relena explained and sighed. "I'm so tired. I think I'm going to rest now. Pagon, please wake me up at noon. I promised Odin I would come and see him later today. Also I need an extra room made up for him. He will be staying here with me until he either decides he wants to live on his own or regains his memories of Heero."
"Very well madam," the servant said and walked away. Relena left the room.
"Do you think she's happy about this?" Hilde asked.
"No," Trowa replied. "I think if anything, she's ashamed."
"Yes, who wouldn't be?" Quatre agreed.
"I'm guessing that the party's over and we can go home right?" Duo said. Everyone looked at him.
"I'm sure it is, but do you really want to leave Heero like this?" Sally replied. Duo looked away annoyed.
"Heero's not here any more." Duo walked out of the room. Everyone looked around. Hilde got up and went after him.
"Duo! Duo, Wait!" she cried. Duo was almost to the door when he turned around to see Hilde.
"What?" He asked iterated.
"I, I want to come with you," she said quietly.
"I don't think that's a good idea Hilde babe," He said.
"But I want to be with you," Hilde whispered.
"I know, but I have some things I need to deal with right now," Duo replied. Hilde stepped back.
"Duo, it's been six years since I've seen you and then you said you had things to deal with. Why are you pushing me away?" Hilde said and placed her hands on her hips.
"I'm not," Duo voiced.
"You are too and now you're lying to me! Duo, will you please just tell me the truth? What's going on with you? Why are you going to leave Heero alone like this? I'd think that if you wouldn't stay for me you'd stay for your best friend!" Hilde cried.
"Because, Hilde I just can't handle what's going on with me right now."
"And what's that?" Hilde said.
"I think we should go up and see him," Quatre said quietly and sipped his tea.
"It might be a good idea," Trowa stated
"It also might be good for us to stay here for a while to help Relena out with this problem," Sally said and looked at Wufei.
"I don't want to stay here," Wufei said. "I said I'd come here for a day and that would be it. It's already been two and I'm ready to go home."
"Wufei," Sally sighed. "Don't you want to help Heero?"
"Heero has never needed help. If he is still in that man's mind he will come out on his own, weather we're here or not," Wufei replied. Every one thought for a moment. Maybe Wufei was right.
"But what if Heero's not there anymore?" Cathrine said.
"Then there would be even less point of us staying here. The ones who really care about Heero would hurt even more knowing that part of him is dead and maybe it would be better if we stayed away from Odin. What possible good could we do? Do any of us want the memories of our lives and what we have done?" Wufei said calmly.
"Then maybe this is a blessing for Heero. His life is new now and he can live it like a normal person," Quatre agreed.
"Then should we leave?" Sally asked.
"I think we should do as we feel. If you want to stay, stay, but I'm leaving," Wufei stated and stood up. "Sally, if you want to come with me you better get ready other wise I will not wait for you."
Sally stood up. "Alright Wufei. I'll be right there," She said quietly and left the room.
"Trowa," Cathrine put her hand on Trowa's shoulder. "I think we should leave too. The circus needs us." Trowa looked at his sister.
"You're right, Cathrine. Lets get moving," he said and stood up. The two walked out to get ready, leaving Quatre alone.
"Am I the only one who thinks we should stay?" Quatre asked himself.
"Hilde I don't want to talk about it," Duo replied and turned to the door "I'm leaving now." He opened it.
"Oh that's right, Duo! Run away from everything again!" Hilde yelled at him. He turned pulled his arm up to hit Hilde. She stood there with tears in her eyes waiting for the blow. He turned back to the door and walked out. The tears ran over Hilde's face. She gripped the door, then slammed it shut. She walked back into the kitchen where Quatre was now sitting alone. "Where'd everyone go?" Hilde asked. Quatre looked up at her.
"They're leaving," Quatre replied.
"They're leaving?" Hilde cried. "You mean everyone is? Are you?"
"I'm not, but everyone else is," Quatre replied. Hilde fell into a chair.
"Oh," she sighed. She put her chin in her hands and her elbows on the table. "Well I'm not leaving. I won't leave Relena or Heero like this!" Hilde cried.
"I agree with you Hilde, but no one else does," Quatre sighed.
"Then they don't matter. When Heero gets his memories back he'll know who his real friends are!" Hilde said angrily. Quatre didn't reply. The two watched everyone leave and didn't say a word. They were both quite upset with everyone. Hilde was most up set with Duo and Quatre was most upset with Trowa. At noon everyone had packed up and left, but Hilde and Quatre remained at the table silent. Relena soon appeared.
"What? Where is everyone?" she asked when she saw Hilde and Quatre at the table. "Have they gone to see Odin?"
"No, Relena, They went home," Quatre said.
"Home?" Relena cried. "I, well, I... I see." She sat down at the table and mocked Hilde's position on the table. She gave a long sigh. "It could be worse," she sighed. They looked up at her. "Dorothy could be here." They all smiled and nodded.
"I think we should go and see Heero, I mean Odin now," Quatre said and got up.
"I agree," Relena stood up. "Hilde are you going to come?"
"Of course," Hilde said and got up. They left together. Quatre drove. "Isn't it odd that we three are stuck together?" Hilde said.
"It is," Relena agreed. Quatre smiled.
"I think it's odd that Hilde is standing by Heero," Quatre said with a suspicious smile. Hilde stuck her tug out at him. Quatre and Relena smiled.
"I'm not," she stated. "I'm staying here for you and Relena." Relena smiled.
"Thank you Hilde," Relena said and put her hand on Hilde's shoulder. Hilde smiled at her. Quatre pulled into the hospital parking lot. They found a spot quickly and walked into the hospital.
"Oh hello Miss Darilan," a nurse said when she saw Relena.
"How is Heero today?" Relena asked.
"Oh, You mean Odin? Oh he's fine and such a wonderful man. So delightful," the lady smiled and kept walking.
"Heero, delightful?" Quatre said confused.
"He's changed Quatre. I don't know how, but he has. He's not Heero anymore," Relena said as they came to his door. She put her pointer finger to her mouth and shushed Quatre from making a reply. She knocked on the door.
She heard a cheerful voice say, "Come in." she pushed the door open and saw Odin sitting up in his bed. "Oh, Relena, uh, hi," He said and dropped the book he was reading. He tried to pick it back up while he looked at her, but he fumbled with it until it fell on the floor. She smiled.
"Odin. I have two friends, who want to see you," She said and came to pick up the book. "You met one last night." She handed the book to him. He looked nervous and confused. He took the book.
"Uh, thanks," he said and sat the book down beside him on the bed.
"Quatre, Hilde," Relena called to them. They walked in.
"Hi there Heero," Hilde said without thinking. She quickly covered her mouth. Her eyes were wide. Relena gave her a look. Quatre tried not to laugh. Odin gave her a weird look.
"Why do you guys call me Heero?" he asked.
"It's a long story, Odin," Quatre said. "And most of it, your, uh, other self only knows."
"Oh, well, fill me in on what you know," Odin said. Relena grabbed a chair and motioned Quatre to sit in it. Quatre gave her a questioned look.
"I think you'd better tell him. You know more than I do about everything that, uh, happened," She explained. "Hilde and I will go and get something to drink." Relena motioned for Hilde to come with her. Hilde followed Relena out of the room and Quatre began.
"It all started with something called Operation Meteor..."
"He is odd! That's not Heero in that room. I saw his eyes and they weren't hiding anything!" Hilde said as she and Relena sat in the hospital cafeteria.
"I know," Relena replied and stirred her coffee with a spoon.
"So this is what Heero would have been like with out all that training and stuff? Wow, he's a pretty cool guy. Maybe better than Duo," Hilde said incoherently. Relena knew Hilde was just thinking out loud.
"Hilde how old are you?" Relena asked.
"I'm twenty one, why?" Hilde answered.
"I think you and I both need to get over these guys in our lives," Relena said calmly.
"What do you mean?" Hilde questioned.
"I guess I've gotten over Heero, that's all. I mean I knew there was never anything there, or at least on his part and now I think it's time for me to move on and find some one new," Relena elucidated.
"Are you saying that I should give up on Duo?" Hilde cried.
"Well look at it Hilde! You've known him for six years and he's even lived with you and has he once shown you any affection other than friendship?" Relena pointed out. Hilde dropped her eyes and they filled with tears. "Oh, Hilde, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. I shouldn't have said anything." Relena put her hand on Hilde's shoulder.
"No, no, you're right," Hilde said and looked up at Relena. She wiped away the tear that was rolling down her cheek. "I've just been in denial about it lately. I guess when I first met Duo and we were both young I was hopeful that he would see more from me than just a little sister or a best friend, but he never did and I just now realized it."
"It took me a while too," Relena said quietly.
"But now Heero's a different person and maybe now you'll have a chance with him," Hilde noted.
"No," Relena sighed. "I'm afraid I couldn't do that. I'd feel like I was playing a trick on Heero, or he was playing a trick on me. I think I'll just have to look for love some where else."
"But what if there is no 'some where else'?" Hilde said. Relena looked at her wide-eyed.
"Then I won't get married or fall in love again," Relena sighed and looked back down at her coffee.
"Quatre is pretty good guy," Hilde said. "Maybe he..." Hilde stopped when she saw the bewildered look on Relena's face.
"You mean you don't know about him?" Relena gasped.
"No," Hilde said confused.
"He's in, uh, love with, uh, Trowa," Relena said bluntly. Hilde gasped.
"No!" she cried. Relena nodded and took a sip of her now cold coffee. "I never would have, I mean I thought they were just friends!"
"Well they are, just really, really, really close friends," Relena smiled.
"And you aren't bothered by this?" Hilde asked.
"No, well, I was at first, but I saw how much they care for each other and I just accepted it."
"Oh," Hilde sighed.
"We should get back," Relena said after a very long period of silence. "Quatre should be done with his story by now." Relena and Hilde stood up and went back to the room. Sure enough Quatre was done and waiting for them. Odin smiled when the two walked in.
"Hello Relena," he grinned. Relena still couldn't get used to him smiling.
"Hello," She replied.
"I was a pretty crazy guy," Odin smiled. "I did more stuff then I could have thought possible. I'd like to go and see the colonies someday."
"Did any of that make you remember anything?" Hilde asked.
"That is what's weird, I could sometimes remember stuff, but it's really blurry," Odin sighed.
"Don't strain your self, Odin," Relena smiled and took his hand and looked deep into his eyes. He looked like he was blushing. "If Heero's still in there he'll come out in his own time," she assured him, then smiled lovingly.
"Well Odin, we better get going," Quatre said and stood up. Relena released his hand
"Okay, I'll be leaving tomorrow right?" Odin said.
"Yes, tomorrow. We're looking forward to it," Relena smiled.
"So am I," Odin said in a strange voice. Relena nodded. They began filing out of the room. Relena was the last.
"Sweet dreams, Relena," Odin said. Relena looked at him for a moment. He smiled seductively at her.
"Good night, 'Odin'," Relena replied and shut the door.