The Vague Memories of a Lifetime
Chapter 9
By Moony
"'I was now on my way to the last battle, but there was still something I had to do. Tell her good bye. I thought this last mission would be the end for me. I knew that she needed to know how I felt about her. I don't know how she grew on me so much. I don't know how those eyes lured me in, but she was something that I could never defeat and I knew it. As I boarded my Gundam she was begging me to stay, even then she caused me to waiver. I wanted only to please her, but I knew that defeating Zechs would be the best way to do this. I pulled her to me and with our helmets open I told her my plan. I tried to tell her how I felt. With her eyes so close to mine all I could do was smile. I wanted to kiss her, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I quickly shut her mask and pushed her away. She was crying for me. I don't think she knows how much that hurt me,'" Odin read. Relena gasped, her own memories swarming back to her mind. Odin looked up for a minute and tried to think of them. Nothing happened. He sighed and looked down at the keyboard. Suddenly a voice was talking to him...
"Why do you have to fight?" The girl said over and over and every time he heard it, it made his heart ache... he was remembering. He stood up. Everyone in the room became tense and leaped up they all retreated to the wall, all except Relena. Odin looked over at her his eyes wide and full of fear. She took a step forward. Suddenly his complexion. It became the face she loved, Heero's. He looked deep into her eyes.
"Heero," Relena reached out to him. She touched his hand. "Heero, listen to me. I need you back... Heero I love you. I can't live without you. I want you back, but don't hurt Odin... It's not his fault. Please listen to him." His eyes changed again. He began to scream.
"I love Relena too, Heero. We can do this together... please!" Odin grabbed his head. Relena took another step towards him and touched his face. He looked up. It was Heero again.
"Relena, get back. It's dangerous..." Heero said.
"No, Heero. I love you too much to leave you now," Relena said. It was so strange to tell him this, not knowing if he really heard or understood. "You can't leave me again Heero. Please..." He grabbed her hand that was on his cheek.
"I won't leave you," he promised. Suddenly he began screaming and his body was flying in a wild frenzy. Duo quickly ran up and grabbed Relena and pulled her out of the line of fire. Heero or Odin, which ever he was, Relena didn't know now, was grabbing his head and screaming. Relena's heart felt like it was being ripped out and stepped on. Duo had to hold her down from going back to Heero's side. Tears were streaming down her face as she cried Heero's name. Suddenly everything stopped and everything when black for Relena.
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Duo held Relena's lip body as they watched the insanity as it unfolded in front of them. Heero or Odin now stopped moving and his riot was over. He stood with his back to them. He turned and looked at them. His eyes dark and deep.
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Relena opened her eyes. She looked into deep Prussian eyes only she understood.
"Heero," Relena whispered. "I had the oddest dream..." His eyes danced, but his mouth didn't move.
"Get up Relena," he ordered. She obeyed. She looked around and saw she was still in Odin's room, but everyone was gone. She really wondered if she hadn't dreamed the whole thing up. He took her hand. "Do you remember?" he asked. She nodded.
"Yes, but the question is, do you?" Relena replied. Heero smiled. For a moment she thought it was Odin.
"Yes. I know everything. Odin and I are one again. I've figured the whole thing out," Heero said. "And I know all this happened for a reason."
"Where is everyone?"
"You are full of questions!" Heero cried. Relena gave him a confused, but annoyed look. She was starting to understand. He was Odin and Heero and they shared emotions. That was just Odin's emotion there. "But your answer is, I asked them to leave. I told them I'd take care of you. You and I need to talk." He took her hand and led her to the bed. They sat and he looked deep into her eyes. "You want to know what happened. This is it. I had locked Odin up since the day I began training because emotions were not what I needed. When I hit my head our positions switched. We were always one, but I just kept him locked up. When he was set free the only way for me to get back is to open up and let my emotions free. We really are one person." Relena smiled.
"You'll be acting differently now?" she asked.
"No, I'll be acting like who I was supposed to be," Heero smiled.
"What name do you want to go by now?"
"I want to be known as Heero. I've known it for the last six years. I think I'll stick to it," Heero smiled. "But all of this is not what I wanted to speak to you about. What you did. What you said to free me. You know I love you. I'm not afraid to say it now. And I want to know if you were being honest. Do you still love me? I'm sorry I never told you earlier. I was a fool and lived without my emotions for so long that I was scared of those sort of things." Relena looked at him shocked. She didn't reply for a while, but Heero seemed to sit there with a serene patent look.
Finally Relena found her voice, "Heero, it's been six years since I met you and from the first day I knew you were different and something special. At the time I thought that I loved you, but it was just a school girl crush, but as I got to know you and we became closer, even after the war I grew mentally and physically and started to have a conception of what love really is and I found those feelings to stand by how I felt for you. I fought for so long against them, thinking you did not feel the same. I know now that you can't deny love, even if the other person doesn't love you, you should be glad that at lease you know how to love. Heero, I do love you. I always have, but it's grown. I want to know you better and love you more." Heero smiled. Relena returned the smile. He touched her cheek.
"Then lets begin how we should of," Heero stood up and helped Relena up. "Hello, my name's Heero Yuy and I could help wondering if you wanted to go out on a date."
"I'm Relena Darilan, and I'd love to," Relena replied.
"Then," Heero smiled and offered her his arm. She took it. "lets go." The two walked out of the room.
The End