Dream a little dream of me - 2
2 weeks ago
I look around, surprised at the sight. It's night, dark night, and I'm on top of some strange building. It's a kind of palace. It's rich and elegant, half Arabian and half Indian, with a peculiar style I can't get to locate through any of my history classes. I admire it, it's breathtaking and indescribable... It's beautiful. So beautiful...!!
I'm on the roof, sitting on a stone in one of the many terraces. I'm sitting somewhere above the right wing. I can see both the central and the left wing from here. It must be late. There are few lights on. The only luminous spots I see, standing here, are the torches in the gardens, sparkling inconstantly due to the soft breeze that moves the leaves. It's magnificent. I don't have any idea of where I could be, I feel funny, I knew nothing of such a building. And I'm certain that, if it was on Earth, it would have to be known of. And probably it would be known of as one of the wonders. I feel it almost magical... I take a deep breath. I don't know where I am. But that doesn't scares me at all. I feel safe. It smells like roses and jasmine. I could stay in this place forever, just amazed of it all.
Above me, there are only stars. I can see them shining brightly, more stars than I have ever been able to see at home... It's as if some of the torches down there had somehow flown. I can't explain it. I try to recognise some of them, as I used to do at home. There was not many of them that I could recognise, but I seem to have forgotten them... I look fruitlessly for Orion's belt. But there's no such a configuration. I can't see the polar star... I wonder if I could be in the south hemisphere. But I can't see the South Cross, either...! I look around me again, puzzled. How could it be so...? Either my memory is all upside down or either I'm not under the same sky...
That's it.
I'm not on earth.
But where could I be...?
Where...?!
I try to calm down. I'm not on earth. But I surprisingly don't find it funny at all. It's as if it was normal... But how came that I am not on earth...!? I mean... where was I... before...?
I remember nothing at all. I can't understand it. I know who I am, I know where I am from, I even remember what the stars look like from my planet. But I don't know how I arrived here... And I could not mind less...!
Where am I?
Where...?
I take a deep look at her. A girl, here... could it be..? She.. She is... her...
She's been studying the palace for a while, and then the sky. Her thoughts are as readable for me as if she was saying them out loud. I can hear every single thought in her head as if they were my own. I know what this mean. It has finally happened. And I am astonished of the way she has been brought to me... She knows she's not at home. Well, the sooner, the better. She's not scared... Father told me it would happen. That, when the time came, we won't feel afraid. God, the time has already come...! I tremble only thinking of it...!! She's... she's here...! She's come... for me...!!
I turn aside. What was that that I just heard!!? It was an unknown voice... inside my head...! How was it possible??!
She's seen me...? She's heard me...! uh... What should I do...? Mmh... She's hearing me right now...! Don't... don't be afraid...
What's happening here...?! Someone's speaking inside my head, I can hear someone's voice in my mind... How could it be...? There's no one in sight... But... Suddenly, I feel it. An almost unnoticeable ki standing only a few metres away. I look around me and then I do finally see him. But... who's him...?
He looks at me in the darkness, a hint of a smile lighting his features.
Hello
Hello... I guess... What... What are you doing in my head!?
He smiles shyly and approaches me. He was behind my back, standing up, so silent that I had not heard him until I first "heard" his thoughts... Too bad of me. I should be aware of everything around me. I was taught for years to notice everything even with my eyes closed... And I noticed nothing at all from him... until... But could this be?? Did I really heard his thoughts??!
I must be turning crazy...!
You are not, believe me... ^_^ And the ki... Well, this armour is to keep it hidden... I don't think it really worked with you...
Tired and starting to be distrustful, I stand up as well and wonder if I should adopt some kind of defence stance. He backs a bit, with a smile, and stares straight at my eyes. His blue, sapphire eyes keep locked for a little while with mine, just a little while, but enough time for me to feel dizzy but weirdly surer at once. There's nothing I have to be afraid of. He inspires me more confidence than any person I ever met before... There's nothing at all to be afraid of. And, still looking at me in the eye, he leans to me and sits down next to the place I was occupying only instants before.
And, magnetised as I had never been, I sit down with him, never wanting to unlock our glances.
We sit down, close enough to feel uncomfortable, if the other person is a total stranger, as he happens to be. Moreover if we are staring at each other as we are. But I feel no sign of awkwardness at all. I feel nothing but calm. Peace. Rightfulness.
"My name is Trunks", he whispers, still looking in my eyes, with the same voice I have already heard in my mind. I smile at him and nod a little.
"My name is Pan... Pleased... pleased to meet..."
Not as much as I am, his thoughts interrupt me, and I can't help but smile and blush.
Sorry..., he whispers, inside my head, with a hint of shame.
I liked it...!, I exclaim mentally, and chuckle softly once again.
"So Trunks, huh...?", I go on, trying to establish the bases for the confidence that we already have, even being total strangers to each other. "Where are we...?"
Waiting for an answer that I can tell he is thinking of, I stare at him, feeling a bit lost in his eyes, as I try to understand what is happening to me. How it's that I'm there, wherever I am... Why everything is so strange but I still find it quite normal. And where did such a handsome man come from...
He blushes, chuckles and runs a hand through his hair. I can tell he has liked what he... Oh, no. He heard it!
Yes... I did... Sorry... You know that I can hear your every thought, don't you...? I can't help it...
I chuckle unwillingly as well, ashamed. He caught me. But what's it with our thoughts?? I understand nothing at all!!
I know you heard them... So...?
Don't bother speaking... It's not necessary...!
I nod and sigh. This is so strange...! How could it be...!? Nobody can read other people's minds, the less if that people had just met... This is so strange...!
It's a mystery, my Panny... Do you feel bad for it...? Do you want to... I don't know... Try to act as if we couldn't...?
No... Surprisingly not... Besides... it would be impossible... I... I can hear you...
I know... It's magic! Do you feel comfortable like this...?
Yes... I do. But you didn't answer my question...
The place we are at...? It's my palace. On my planet. Vegeta.
Is this another planet...? Really?!
You found it out yourself...! Look at this stars... They are not like yours...
Though they're all the same...
Yes... Weird, isn't it...?
The fact that we have different stars configurations...?
No. You know, I love the stars. I've spent many nights here, just watching them... The fact that we have stared at the same stars for years, and I have probably seen your sun hundreds of times, but it was never special for me, that's what I find ironic. I have always found them empty... They were not special at all, for me. And now I find, so many years later, that they are smiling for in one of them there is the most incredible girl I've ever met, a wonder...
A wonder...? Who...? Me?!
A wonder. You. You're here, Panny. You're not only a wonder. But my little wonder...
Trunks... This... this is nonsense... You don't even know me!
I know. And perhaps it makes no sense. But... it's all so incredible, Panny! It makes me feel so... thankful!
I don't have any clue of what you are talking about. Do you know so?
Yes... But you'll see. Not now. Not today. But soon I'll make you see... And I'll get to know you... In fact, I'm already a part of you... I can see you so... plainly...!
This... this is no good, Trunks... It's just senseless!
Maybe.
I feel weird, Trunks...
You only feel weird because you feel not weird at all...
Well... I – I... Maybe...
I don't feel weird at all, either...
But... where am I? How did I get here???
Well... You're still on Earth, in a way... You're in bed. Dreaming. I can feel you... you're asleep some light-years away...
That I am... what...? D-dreaming...???
Yes... You're safely asleep at your home... In your bed... On your own...
That was it. That's what this is. A dream! The last thing I remember is going to bed, on Earth. My bed... I am still in bed, even as real as this dream may seem...! For this is just... a dream... Although I don't feel it so... I mean...well... this is all... so real...! And I feel so... awake...!
I know it may sound strange, now... But things are not always what they seem to be...
So... you're my dream...!
He only smiles, mysterious.
Earth must be... beautiful... I feel it so...
It is, I recall. I recall my bedroom, the huge window, the tree next to it. Earth, for me, is where I live. Where I normally am. And that is my father's house, the house I've lived forever, sunny and fresh, in the middle of a forest. Earth is beautiful. Once in a while, I go for a trip abroad. Tourism or work, it's all the same. I would like to show you some places... but the one I love the most is home...
It must be wonderful, if it has such a girl as you...
Well... Um... I – I don't know... Do – d-do you think so...?
Yes, I do... Are you afraid...
No... Just a... very little bit... But... what about you...? Where do you live...?
I live here...
I see. Is it a kind of palace...?
A palace is what it is... I live here with my parents and many more people... Lots of servants and so on... It's a bit boring, in fact... Too big, too impersonal...
Don't you like living here...?
I used to. I know I won't, from now on.
Why not, Toran...?
Toran...?
Oops, sorry. It just came out...
I like it. No one uses nicknames with me... I really like it...!
I'm glad to hear that...! Are you alone, here? Is that why you don't like living here any longer...?
Nope. It's Because of you...
Me...?
You. I won't like living anywhere where you are not...
Uff... I think... I'm already blushing...!
You're even more beautiful when you blush, my Panny...
I look down, shy. He touches my chin with a finger, and lifts my head.
Really. You are. You don't believe me. But I assure you I've never seen such a beauty in my life.
I try to change the subject and, at this thought, he chuckles and caresses my cheek while removing his hand.
You don't like being complimented...?
I'm... I'm not used to...
I see... Sorry... But it will be difficult for me to have you next to me and not to think of how beautiful you are...
You're so sweet, Toran-kun...
He smiles and kisses my cheek.
I've been lucky, Panny... I can't believe my own luck...!
How have you been lucky...?
Long history... Do you want to hear a tale...?
Only if you feel like telling me...
I do.
Then, tell me...!
Well... It's rather romantic and I can't say I had ever believed it... not until tonight... You know, we are on Planet Vegeta... Do you know what it is...?
Mmh... No... I don't think so... I've never heard of it...
It's the land of sayjins... Like you. Like me.
You...?
Yes.
So, this is the planet where my grandfather was born...
Exactly. Kakarrot, isn't it...?
It's... it's quite different from what I expected it to be... It's... better...
It has grown better lately... My father settled everything out many years ago. Now we have no lack of technology, as we used to... So we don't need to fight to get the new electronic devices... We have established ourselves and became more of a society than we were when my grandfather was the king...
Wait a minute! You're a king...?!
No... I'm the heir to the crown.
Mmh... Should I... be more respectful, your highness...?
No...!, he chuckles. No way! I want us to be equal!
Alright. Go on...
The tail I want to tell you is one of the costumes we sayjins have. It's about love... We are told to be a warrior's race... Well... even if we are, there's much more to be a sayjin... In love affairs, for example, it is said that every sayjin has a mate. Someone who will be his perfect partner in everything. As if they were one soul in two bodies. Someone to complement him and to love forever. Sayjins only mate once in life. If his mate was to die, he'll either die as well or either live a life of sadness and loneliness...
Dad has never... After Mom died, he has always been so sad...
He must be...
You say they were bonded...?
Probably. Else, they would not have got married... I know you are know sceptical. I was, too. It sounds romantic and rather a fairytale. But it's not so. Believe me. I've seen it happen to many of them... They bond and they live a full life together.
Are you saying that everyone of us has a mate who will fulfil us completely, forever more...? Is it that easy...?
Easy...? No, not at all! We all have someone. The right one. But I've not seen them all bonded. Every sayjin meets his mate some time in his life. It's something we all know and we all hope to find out in time... So it's also a huge weight added to any relationship. You are always wondering if she's the right one... Most of times, besides, your mate-to-be is someone you've known forever. And you don't realise until it's perhaps too late. Sometimes it is also difficult to realise who is your mate, or it's difficult to let her know... So very few times the bond is strong enough to be... felt... in such an absolute way... I mean... the rightfulness exists. And they are happy, as every normal couple. But at the beginning it's soft... It's not something absolute, I mean... it's easy to miss, to skip...
I see... So very few ones know immediately of their... bond...
Yes. They are the luckiest, the ones which bond is stronger...
How do you know who is him...?
I have no idea. I just... feel it. But I know I've been lucky. So lucky...! I have no doubts of who is to be my mate, if she agrees... And I'm sure that she is the one...! I've been so lucky... When I think that I could just have never met her...
My heart aches so much!!! Could it be true?! He's bonded...?! But... but...
So... so... you... you've already found your... mate...?
Yes... yes... I've found her...!
I close my eyes and try to take a deep breath for I feel I'm running out of air...
I don't feel well...
Pan, no, no... Panny... don't...
I look at him, who is also in pain, and I know somehow he's sharing mine. He tries to shake his head at me, trying to tell me something.
Don't leave... No...
But too late. I feel myself vanishing and, with a soft knock, I blank out.
I sit up, on my bed. It was a dream. Just a dream. Just a dream, a dream.
But, if it was so... why does my heart still ache...?
A dream.
A dream, after all.
It's dark outside. It's not dawn, yet. I lay down again, and try to clear the mess that my mind has become into.
A dream...
No doubt, that was what it was... one of my dreams...
What could it mean...? What in the world...?
Ugh, I'm rather confused... My mind must be half asleep, still... I find it difficult to order my thoughts... It's as if in my brain his words were still repeating, his figure mixing it all up again...
I must relax. Relax and think, Panny...
Panny... Panny...
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