Dreams of Children Part 3 – My Ayanami-san
Written by Rei-chan (Ayanami00)
All characters in this Neon Genesis Evangelion fan fiction belong to the creators at Gainax.
I hope you have read "Dreams of Children – The Beginning." It sets the tone for this part and the rest of the fan fiction. I must say that Part 3 – My Ayanami-san is the hardest to write just because Rei does not really have a mother and she never ever talks.
Enjoy this one and please write a review for it ^_^
Dreams of Children – My Ayanami-san
Silence…just silence. Not a sound echoes through the air, not an object is moving. There is nothing to taste; there is nothing to feel. Where is this place where you cannot use any of your senses? Are you human or are you a machine? Good question.
Swirls of golden yellow colors begin to fade into view. This is all that anyone can see. The yellow is not in full view. It is pure water with a dim light showing through it. A figure begins to take form from inside.
A dark silhouette of a person floats in the calm liquid. More colors come into view. The hair color of the person is light and short. It is a little girl. She floats up and out of the water. Opening her eyes, she reveals two beautiful red eyes. A blinding white light flashes and immediately, the little girl is clothed in a simple white and blue dress.
Looking around she sees nothing until she turns around behind her. Standing behind her is herself, an older version of herself. This other Ayanami is dressed in a Unit-00 plugsuit. She quietly stares at the little girl.
Behind Rei II is another Rei, an even older Rei. Rei III is dressed in a traditional Japanese school uniform carrying her books with a lollipop in her mouth. She set her eyes on the little girl.
A sudden crashing sound startles little Rei-chan. The Rei look past Rei III to see yet another form of her. Rei IV is sitting on the ground with her collection of CDs scattered on the floor. Her CD player is still in her backpack. She wears a beautifully colored tank top with black shorts. She has roller-skates on her feet.
Rei IV: Ouch! That hurt! Can someone please help me?
Little Ayanami (Rei I) walks slowly towards Rei IV and bends down to help her pick up the scattered CDs. Rei II and Rei III each stand on one side of Rei-chan. She looks up slowly with her hands full of CDs. Rei IV stands up before her without the girl noticing. Forms of herself now surround her.
Rei II: Are you afraid?
She asks the little one quietly and calmly.
Rei I: No…
Rei III: Are you happy?
She asks her serenely and lovingly.
Rei I: I do not know what happiness is…
Rei IV: Are you lonely?
She asks little Ayanami-san sympathetically.
Little Ayanami-chan never expected such a question. Is she lonely? She looks down at her hands and quietly reply.
Rei I: Am I lonely? Yes… I do not want to be alone. I dislike it.
The Reis reply to little Rei-chan in unison.
Rei II, III, and IV: Release your soul. Unite with others. Find happiness amongst other people.
They surround her and repeat themselves repeatedly. A single tear rolls down her cheek as she thinks about her life. Such a little girl yet so much pain. Is it right to feel this way? A childhood should never fill with pain but with happiness. Where are the people who should make her happy? Who is responsible for taking care of her and where is that person now?
The scenario instantly changes. It is no longer an indescribable place. In this place, a dark tint of red hangs over the silvery gray floor. In the distance, she sees a waterfall and dark rolling hills. The other forms of herself are now gone, but she can still hear them echoing in the distance.
Rei I: Release my soul…I dislike being lonely. Arigato…
She closes her eyes in hope that she will understand what she wants to do. A wonderful little girl confronts such a tremendous task. She walks toward the waterfall and reaches her hands out to it. Water is the source of all things, the source of life. Part of the waterfall separates from the rest of the water, and comes forth to Rei's fingertips. Oh, how calm and serene the water can be. It can create life, and it can take life away. It is a giver and a taker.
Rei I: Release my soul, and fill myself with happiness…fill others with happiness.
She pushes the water back from her fingertips and stand before the enormous waterfall. She steps into it without any hesitation.
Rei I: Cleanse me….
Rei Ayanami, age 14, encounters a dark ceiling and the dim moonlight from outside her window. She lies very still, staring into nothingness.
Rei I: Why…little me…loneliness…happiness…release my soul…unite with others.
With that, she closes her eyes once more, and places her hands over her heart. The voices of her other three forms echo in her mind. She sighs and gives a little smile before she drifts off into a deep sleep.
Next is "Dreams of Children Part 4 – My Savior."