Everybody's got something,
they had to leave behind,
One regret from yesterday,
that just seems to grow with time,
Tifa Lockhart
walked slowly into the small town of Nibelhiem. This was her first time back
since that fateful day. Since the day….. She still couldn't bring herself to
think of that day. I thought I was only giving you up for a few days she
thought bitterly, pushing open the door to the house Cloud owned in Nibelhiem.
Why did it have to be forever?
There's no use looking back or wondering
(or wondering),
How it could be now or might have been (or might have been),
Oh this I know, but still I can't find ways to let you go,
She walked around
the small living room. Chairs were turned over and lamps were shattered on the
floor. She righted some chairs and avoided stepping on the shards of glass. A
picture frame on an end table caught her eye and she slowly walked over to it.
She picked it up with surprisingly steady hands and gently brushed her thumb
over the faces in the picture. It was a picture of the group at the Gold
Saucer. Everybody was smiling; even Vincent had what appeared to be a ghost of
a smile of his face. You are so happy she thought gazing down at Cloud's
smiling face, forever frozen in time. Would you still be smiling if I hadn't
left she thought with a sigh? She could, in her mind, see him walking down
the stairs a large grin plastered on his face.
"I can't let you
go Cloud," she whispered to the misty figure in her mind. "I can't."
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby,
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you.
Flashback
She slowly walked towards
the train station in sector 7. It was a daily ritual for her, coming to wait
for what never came. But today was different today dreams were answered.
Sitting against a light post was a man with familiar spiky blonde hair. Cloud
she thought increasing her pace.
Present Day
If only I had
told you she thought placing the
picture frame back on the table. She felt so empty now, as if half of her soul
was gone. Her friends told her she should move on and she reassured them that
she had. But she could never move on when half her soul was floating in the
lifestream, lost to her.
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time,
And tomorrow can never be
cos yesterday is all that fills my mind,
She sat in an
armchair, Cloud's Buster Sword resting in her lap. She didn't have the courage
to pick up his Ultima Weapon. It broke her heart to see it's normal glow dead,
it's owner gone. She gently stroked the blade with its cracks and many dents,
each one telling a different story. Time slipped away from her as she dove deep
into her memory. 'I love you Tifa' a tear escaped, 'Why didn't you
wait for me?' another tear followed.
There's no use looking back or wondering
(or wondering),
How it should be now or might have been (or might have been),
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go,
She finally rose
from the chair as the sun lowered itself from the heavens. She placed Cloud's
sword in the chair, careful to not cut the material. A pen and pieces of paper
were scattered over the table. She walked over to stand next to the table. She
reached out and gently touched the pen, brushing the paper with her fingers.
With a scream of anger she grabbed the edges of the table and flipped it over.
She grabbed the flying paper and ripped it to shreds. She quickly regretted her
actions, realizing she had just torn apart the last thing Cloud had ever
touched.
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby,
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
She staggered
around the living room her vision blurry from unshed tears.
"I have to get out
of here," she told herself. She ran from the room, throwing the door open she
ran into the center of town. Her feet were carrying her somewhere and it wasn't
until she noticed the Shinra mansion growing smaller behind her did she realize
she was heading into the mountains of Nibel. Traveling the same path as Cloud.
You'll always be the dream that fills my
head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will oh baby,
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget,
Flashback
"Look Tifa,"
Johnny yelled prancing around. Tifa gave him a smile and then directed her
attention to a face peering out of a window. Young Cloud Strife was watching
her from his window. She raised her hand and waved to him. His bright blue eyes
widened and he disappeared behind the curtain. She frowned sadly but inside she
was smiling. I'll never forget those blue eyes she thought, never.
There's no use looking back or wondering
(or wondering),
Because love is a strange and funny thing (and funny thing),
No matter how I try, I try I just can't say goodbye, no no no no,
She stopped running
at the edge of the cliff. Her instincts told her this was the same place Cloud
had jumped from. She looked over the ledge and could swear she saw his body,
lying broken and mangled at the bottom. When she blinked her wine colored eyes
the image was gone. She took a step closer, her toes now protruded dangerously
over the ledge. This is it she thought taking a deep breath the step
to end it all.
I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby,
I never found the words to say (never found the words to say),
You're the one I think about each day (you're the one I think about each day),
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
A part of me will always be with you, oooohhh
The rock under her
right foot crumbled and invisible hands keep her from plummeting to the bottom.
She fell backwards onto her rear, loud beaten sobs escaping her. She pounded
the ground angrily, mentally yelling at her weakness.
"Killing yourself
won't solve your pain," she told herself out loud. A breeze kicked up, blowing
her long hair into her face. It tickled her skin and made her smile.
"Living on is for
the best." The wind howled louder. Cloud was sending her a message with the
wind. He was telling her something important. Something she should never
forget. "A part of me with always be with you." She turned away from the edge
and began the long walk home.
"My love."
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Authors Note: Well
here it is. The sequel to "Leave" It took me such a long time because I wanted
to find the perfect song and just couldn't find one. Instead of having Tifa
commit suicide also I decided that she should live. Don't want depress people
anymore than they already are. J This may be my last
stand along Final Fantasy story for a while. I'm going to try and write Harry
Potter fanfics now. Hope you enjoyed. The song "Never Had a Dream Come True" is
by S Club 7, they and their label own all copyrights. Please review! Thanks so
much.
