Author's Notes: Need I say CCS ain't really my property? No? Ok good..I took a little while because really I have no real idea on what's gunna be on the epilogue..*it doesn't me I did it yet!! heheh* The story is like building up I know that the first couple of chapters were rather..*snore snore* BORING but I promise to do better! I'll write more and try to crack my brainy to finish this fic or at least make it a good one!!! Now let's get on with the fic!!!
Sakura: someone is getting a little too carried away.
Syaroan: i want my sakura to be with me!!!
Sakura343 (or might as well be known as Bella): calm down..sugah high me go blab and blab!!!
Chaper 5
Quarrel or Queries?
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As the day slowly proceeded on, Syaroan has been acting pretty weird, more like the way he acted when he first entered Tomoeda High, cold, alone and shy. He'd spent most of the classes practically daydreaming rather then catching up on the classes, but sure he thought of using Yamazaki's notes. He ain't as dense as Sakura at times. Once more, no more then just once Sakura had come up in his mind as he drifted off. He would think back to Eriol's words almost questioning each word he had spoken..but another problem begins to strike back, he may have to return to Hong Kong unless finding a worthy reason to stay. The reason of just Sakura being here, but not being with her wasn't a worthy reason to the 'Li' clan. They had debated countless times and he had blushed furiously each time her name was mentioned in the wide open, it had become a habit then, but at least he learned to gain control over this reaction. Class was over and time to gather his things and head down the lonely streets. Nobody wants to be lonely..he sighed watching a few couples pass by..
I don't get it anymore, I might as well just return to Hong Kong...she no longer needs me, her power has grown much more even though her magic wouldn't be much of use in current times, no real threats up ahead for her to face and need assistance, another minus towards me, she has got Junko..she seemingly sounded happy until I returned to ruin it all for her..my fault. Forgive me my sweet cherry blossom, I shouldn't have left you down, but I just didn't know. Wasn't sure..
Somehow he has walked his way down to Sakura's home and unfortunately to find himself being glared at by Touya..and Junko. Touya didn't seem to looked as disturbed by him as he usually does but seemed a little more upset by Junko, you could just read it off his face 'Don't you have anything else to do then bother my sister?'. Amber eyes meeting with the ebony ones of Junko he smirked lightly, but wondering what did Sakura see in him?
"What are you doing here LI-KUN?" started up, Junko eyeing him in a superior manner.
"Nothing, it just so happens that now my apartment is also the same way as Sakura's house, got a problem?" rebutted Syaroan.
"Nai, so just off with you now will yah? I bet you got a lot of work to catch up since you don't really even pay attention to the lessons.." replied Junko almost being hit straight by Syaroan's remark.
Sh¡t he knows it? Ugh, well might as well play along and play it cool "You don't have to shoo me like a scary cat, and it's no real problem about catching up, I learn things quickly and I'm sure Sakura-chan would be glad to help me." intimated Syaroan and then continuing on his way, bag slung over one shoulder off into the night scene..
Touya prods at Junko's shoulder with a stern look upon his face, "I think you better go now, ja ne."
Nodding he slowly makes his way out of the Kinomoto residence walking down the opposite way that Syaroan took "Hai, ja ne.."
-Sakura's Room-
"Yummy!!! Arigato for the sweets Sakura-chan" mumbled Kero in between bites of a sweet pastries.
"No problem Kero, glad you are happy at least." murmured Sakura still upset.
"Sakura-chan? What's wrong? Did that 'kid' hurt you?!?" hissed Kero, the ever so protective one of her.
"Nai, Li-kun didn't do anything, I'm the blame for it all. He came back and I got everything just confused but he's upset at me..he kept pushing me away, literally today..Junko-kun and him don't seem to get along much..it's just this weird vibe now." sighed Sakura as she unloads her 'baggage' onto Kero.
"Sakura-chan.." he whispers, upset after all no matter the mood of the Mistress it affects him greatly, he flies over to the Mistress' side, laying down upon her shoulder, pushing away the few loose strands of chestnut hair.
The cell phone she has kept since Tomoyo first given her one so the call must have been from Tomoyo obviously, possibly something urgent since they rarely used the cell anymore.
"Tomoyo?"
"Nai.." replied a masculine voice.
A light blush takes over her cheeks at the voice, feeling them to be somewhat soothing.. "Who is this?" questioned the dense Sakura.
"Li-kun."
"Hoe?!?!"
"Ok, I guess you forgot that Tomoyo also game me a cell phone" he remarked with a light sarcastic tone.
"Hehe..gomen nasai, a little busy lately." replied Sakura with a small sweat-drop.
"With Junko I suppose?" he muttered and flinched a little mentioning that name.
"Hoe?"
"Busy with Junko?" he repeated louder holding the cell phone tighter as he leaned against the side of the glass door which led to a small terrace.
"NO!!" screeched Sakura on the receiver.
"Ok..ok...you almost killed my eardrum Sakura-chan!" said Syaroan with a calm down but rubbing his ear in mock pain.
"Gomen, but Li-kun I'm really sorry I never meant to hurt you, I know it's all my fault but I'm really really sorry..ai shiteru Li-kun.."
"Ai..ai..ai shi--- it's ok Sakura..it's my fault" whispered Syaroan, once more not being able to say it. This is pathetic, she can say it straight twice to me and technically straight onto my face but I can't say it..to her face or over the phone!!! Baka..baka..you're a wuss Syaroan Li..
"Li-kun? You there?"
"Hai, well the real reason that I called was that I was er..wondering if I could..er..copysomenotesofyourstocatchup?" scrambled on Syaroan nervously at the quick change of topics.
"Erm, ok I guess..I'll be downstairs in case Touya decides to bother you."
"Arigato Sakura-chan I'll be there in 15 minutes tops."
"Hai, ja ne"
*another phone conversation*
"Hai?!?! You serious?" chirped Eriol like a 3 yr. old baby.
"Eriol-kun equals Koibito?" tempted a darling grey(?) haired girl.
"HAI!!!!" yelled Eriol from the end of the phone line.
She laughs, merely at the excitement he demonstrates at her response towards some question he asked her. (guys, use ur imagination..or –hint hint- b/f? ok back to the fic.)
"Ok I'm over my teen self now Tomoyo-chan"
"Of course..anything else I can do for you?"
"Hmm..any news or updates on S+S?"
"No, one is merely dense and the other is just has a weird problem."
"..."
"Eriol-kun?"
"....."
"Daisuki desu!!"
"What what what Tomoyo-chan?!?"
"Nothing...you just went quiet all of a sudden.."
"Oh, I just sensed something..I'm fooling around a bit with er..somethings.." grinned Eriol at the other end of the phone chuckling as well.
"Riight..ok whatcha planning?"
"Well I figure Syaroan must be going to Sakura-chan's house so why not give them a little 'push'? Let's say, create some storm to keep him there overnight.."
"Evil!!!!!! But how do you know about Syaroan going to Sakura-chan's house and not the other way around?"
"Sheesh, he is a descendent of mine so he is a little predictable besides someone like him..no comments."
"True. Well, my mom is calling me and I promised to have a 'mother & daughter night' today yah know.."
"Alright then, sayonara Tomoyo-chan"
"Sayonara, Eriol-kun"
Once approaching the doorstep for the Kinomoto residence hand is raised towards the varnished wooden surface, a little hesitant at first but just some nervous reaction..
"It's Li-kun.."
"Come in Li-kun, Touya and my father will only be back later so don't worry." she smiled knowingly.
"Umm..good I guess.." shrugged Syaroan blushing recklessly. "You know me too well"
"Not really, you're just a little predictable..with certain issues." replied Sakura shutting the door behind him. "Let's go to my room, my notes and stuff are all there. Would you like some cake and tea as well? I made the cake myself"
"Certain issues? What are you talking about?!?"
"Junko-san..I know you don't like him, and he doesn't seem to like you either.."
"So what?"
"Nothing it's just that..nevermind, let me just go get the notes for you and you can be off on your way once more."
Sakura-chan, being cold? This docile creature now acting up..I am hurt by the fact of her having a boyfriend but I must at least bless her for her happiness..but I just love you way too much to see you with another reasoned Syaroan.."Alright then, I'll wait downstairs for you to bring the notes.."
She was gone in a hurry, she couldn't bear it, seeing one she completely is in love but yet her heart is torn partially towards Junko..was she just simply using him as a rebound? Maybe. She couldn't tell him that otherwise Junko-san would be heartbroken, he had almost devoted every waking moment of his to her, but he doesn't know about her history with the Clow Cards and the transformation of them into the Sakura Cards. Shutting the door of her room she sniffles, bitter liquid forms at the brim of eyes, arms outstretched leaning against the small stack of notebooks. Clutching the sides of the notebook, lids close over emerald orbs allowing the salty liquid to flow down the sides of her cheeks freely. "Syaroan-kun, I love you so much but you seem to barely care about it ignoring the complete fact I had told you..twice!!!" she cried in misdoubt. "i don't know what to do since you came back, and Junko-san...I care for him but I don't feel pure love for him as I do for you! Damn you Li-kun..." she uttered silently her mind just a jumble of contemplation's.
"I can hear Sakura-chan crying Kerberus, shouldn't we go check on her?"
"Look, kid I know you care for her deeply but I rather have you leave her alone for now at least, she's completely confused you have no idea..lately she hasn't been able to sleep peacefully. I'm as worried as you are." confessed Kero from downstairs.
"I can't do that!! I've been leaving her alone enough time!! I really just want to get this all straightened out for once, is will be either me or Junko. That's final." remarked Syaroan irritably as he began up the stairs.
"Sakura-chan? May I come in?" said Syaroan in a calm tone.
'...' nothing, just the quite, secretive sniffling of hers.
Turning the door knob hearing it 'click' he pokes his head into the room, finding the crying Sakura. It just sinks his heart deeper, seeing her in sadness is more then he can bear now carrying a burden of guilt...
"Sakura-chan?"
"Go away!!" cried Sakura, arm slicing across the air pointing towards the door firmly.
"No, not until me what's wrong." he states, shutting the door behind him and standing a few feet behind Sakura.
"Leave, or I will use the Cards on you" replied Sakura, bitterly.
"I'll fight them off then, you know my magic has improved like yours did. Just talk to me, it kills me to see you downhearted"
"Well it's all your fault!!! You came back and screwed it all up!!! I was perfectly living a normal life which I was supposed to lead on but then I opened that stupid Clow book then later on you showed up, aggressed me, made my onii-chans blazer catch on fire, made me put up with Meilin's antics and then you left!! You have no idea what I've been through and without a word from you?!!?!?" she pauses shortly to give her self a break and to keep herself from saying more insolent language (hehe) "Oh, wow and then you come thinking all will be fine and that I will be the same little Sakura-chan as always, the Card Mistress but no I straightened my life out and broke your promise of coming back. Thanks to Eriol-kun, Tomoyo-chan, Yukito-san, Kero-san, Chiaharu-chan etc. I was able to overcome my depression period I don't know what you were up to in Hong Kong but it seemed to be a whole lot more interesting then me, I just knew you were never really into someone as ingenuous and dense as me not once you showed real affection after I told you how I felt...twice!! You don't know how hard it is to come out saying it straight onto the love of life face!! Now leave, Junko called before you got here so you better leave if you don't want to see him." panted Sakura, almost as surprised to herself being so aggressive to someone else, and especially to..him?
What to feel : enraged, deceived, aggravated, shattered, used, worthless or stupid? This trip back to Japan had only complicated things more then they already were from the start, why the good vibrations about coming back? He just now feels completely, unwanted..somehow.
"I'm so sorry Sakura-chan, I know you won't– "
"Don't 'I'm so sorry Sakura-chan' me. Just leave. I do not wish to input the force of my Cards on you."
"Fine Sakura!! That's the way you want it so be it, you're being pretty selfish now. Take care. I won't be bothering you any longer." Turning away he sets off opening the door letting it slam harshly behind himself, fist clenched tightly with his breathing rate a little frayed, sometimes he has to learn to contain his bottled anger and not let it all burst like a nuclear bomb. Heading down the stairs stiffly he nods to Kero, head lowered leaving his unruly hair to cover the flaming tanned orbs of his. Approaching the exit door of her house he sighs, unbelieving the always docile dear of his has become so fierce to him, was it all really his fault? Reaching a hand out to pick the knob, it begins to turn himself, unveiling a ebony-haired male...
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Ok I know this must have sucked..or I just put too much drama on it? Probably S+S fans want to kill me but gomen nasai!! I promise it will get better!!! But R+R if you want me to have some motivation to continue!! –evul grin- I love cliffhangers... ~*~Bella AKA sakura343~*~ if there's another Bella on fanfiction.net..well I'm just another that will go on being known as sakura343.