DISCLAIMER: Digimon is not my property. This piece of work is written by me; the storyline is the only thing I own, but the characters, I don't own them… I don't make money out of this so please don't sue me. ^-^
I Cry, I Smile, I Wonder…
by Kristine
Chapter I
A piece of autumn leaf lands just next to his feet. He stands there, completely immobile, unaware of the slowly changing surrounding around him. His blue eyes are up on the gray sky, where clouds hover across the wide sky. The twinkle in his eyes disappears as he hears thunder. He still stands there… as if he is waiting for someone, someone that he doesn't even know himself.
Wind blows across his already-pale face and he slightly shivers as he feels its cold touch. He can hear the cries of the cold wind as it picks up again. He hears the crunch of the red and yellow autumn leaves flying all over the area. It is misty now. Wet, cold, and… depressing.
He doesn't know how long he's been here, nor does he look forward to find out. What matters, however, is the fact that he's here—right now and on time.
Again, he hears thunder, and he doesn't budge from his spot. Not yet.
He wonders what's been keeping that someone he is waiting for.
But when he suddenly feels a cold wet touching his nose, he looks up again at the sky, and frowns. The rain gradually picks up. It showers down gently until he is completely drenched. He still stands there in the midst of the rainfall as if nothing has happened. He looks as though he is a bit refreshed in the rain. It is like all his sins are completely washing away with the gentle rainfall.
Even so, the thunder begins to become closer to his ears as its volume slowly rises in the thick fog. The gentle drizzle also becomes a bit more active and his face has turned a paler white. Despite so, he still doesn't do anything but stand all alone in the middle of the rain. His mind is filled with lots of thoughts and it is as if he does not even care about his entire body being there. He is completely engrossed in his meditation and he stands there, just thinking, waiting, and wondering.
He thinks about his past in which he has kept a secret from his friends. He thinks about his loving and caring brother who died in a car accident. He thinks about all these things right there as the rain falls heavily now… until his own eyes also waters.
He let the tears roll down his cheeks. It is as if he is completely giving in and letting go of his sins and his guilt. It is as if the heavy burden he's been carrying all along has suddenly slipped away with those tears.
A smile has suddenly appeared. There is a sudden feeling of relief overwhelming him. For the first time, he feels as though he is free from everything, free from all his deep, dark, and evil desires of becoming the "kaizer" of the other world. He feels as though his heart has taken this big leap of change and once again another teardrop streams down his cheek.
With smiling lips and watering eyes, he takes a step on a puddle of water. He looks down and sees his fuzzy reflection. No longer he sees the old Ken that everyone knew; instead he sees a brand new Ken, the "kind" and "gentle" boy that existed years ago, but with new goals in life this time. His mind plays back to those old days for a while… and now he smiles again, wiping away his tears this time.
…::TBC…::
A/N: If you have any questions, please contact me (Kristine) at aeris_15@yahoo.com. Please don't try emailing me at my other yahoo account b/c it is currently disabled. As for my other fics, I WILL finish them when I have time… I just keep forgetting what I am supposed to write.
A/N: If you're curious to know, this will be a Kenyako fanfiction…