My Shadow's Ghost
- A Prologue -
by Amberosia
I look into the mirror and just stare at my reflection- pale and lifeless. I want to smash the mirror because all I see in it is the reflection of a failure- a young man whose life was shattered right before his very eyes- a good-for-nothing- worth nothing, nothing at all. But, if I smash the mirror, I'll have seven years of bad luck, oh who gives a damn? My life's a living hell anyway, and things can't get much worse. No, I take that back, cause every time I say "things can't get worse" they do- but my life's so god damn miserable- nothing but shit- all fucked up- not at all worth living- so why should I care? Quite frankly I don't- I don't feel any more- I don't care any more, and honestly, I wish I didn't live anymore either- but something inside me just says "live"- and all this is because of my childhood, the way I was raised- the environment that I was brought up in- and what can I do about that? It's my past- and now there's no hope for the future-- it's all their fault, mom and dad- especially dad... but that's all in the past- yet still, it hangs over me like a cloud, follows me around like a shadow, and haunts me like a ghost....
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A/N- Okay, so I was in class when I wrote this- indoor recess and all. What can I say, I was inspired somehow- and then, when I'm done, I go up to jinie and say "read and review" (please do that so I know if I should write this so called story, cause honestly, I don't have time..) anyhow, she says( and these are her exact words) "Wowie amber, could ya be anymore depressing? Erg!" yeah well hun, I could get wahay more depressing than that, but hey what the heck- I know this is depressing and all, but I'd like to dedicate this story (each and every chapter) to her (jinie) for being such a good friend and giving me all those smiley times ^_^
*Amber*
P.S R/R sil vous plait! Merci beaucoup!