A/N: This chapter is in Kari's POV. That's about all you need to know...
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Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon. Can you believe it?! -_-
~Family Ties~
~Chapter 2: On My Own
Should I have done that? I just don't know... It seemed like the perfect thing to do at the time, but now I'm having my doubts. However, I do know two things: One, that I love my brother Tai, and two, that it's love beyond what a sister should have for her brother. That it's wrong for me to feel this way.
Once, I even wished on a shooting star that he would love me back, but as far as I can see It hasn't worked yet. Maybe I'm still too young, too immature to understand all of this. It's going to take a miracle for my dream to come true. Too bad there's no such thing as miracles...
People think that I'm a perfect little angel. It's not true... I never have been perfect, and I never will be an angel. The only reason I even act half decent is because of Tai. I want him to see the good side of his little sister. He always looks out for me, just like Matt looks out for T.K. Maybe that's why Matt and my brother are such good friends.
Everyone says that these kinds of things are evil. I'm not blaming them... After all, they don't know how it feels...to have the Flame of Courage as a brother. He's always come through for me when I've needed help. He catches me before I even begin to fall. No one else has an angel in their family...I, I am the lucky one. They are just overcome by jealousy.
When I first became a Digidestined, I thought it might help me. I thought that if I had something more important on my mind that my feelings for Tai would fade away, or even better; disappear all at once... But now, now I'm glad that didn't happen. If I lost my feelings for Tai...I would have lost my happiness, the very reason I get out of bed in the morning. Why does this have to be so utterly confusing?
Does anyone besides me know how it feels? To have someone you long to be close to but are kept away by a barrier of uncertainty, of other peoples' foolish thoughts? I try not to think of what they would say if they knew. What about my friends, those who are so dear to me? Would they understand? Or would they be like the rest of them would, just point their fingers, laugh and scorn me? They would then deny our friendship, but if that's what has to be done, then so be it. That's how much I love my brother Tai... and that's a lot.
Sora...her crest is that of Love. Maybe she would understand. Maybe... She used to love Tai. She would know how I feel. No....she's not his sister...
What about T.K? He's always supportive of me. But how would he react if he found out I'm in love with my own brother? No, I will not tell him.
Willis...in America, the so-called 'Free Country'. I wonder... If I were there would I be able to be with my brother the way I want to? Or is it all a lie? Nowhere is free. I have learned that over time... I've learned it the hard way.
Joe or Izzy: They're smart. But I doubt science or computers would serve me as any good. They can't help me in a situation like this...
No one can help me in this... Not Kindness, not Sincerity, not even Friendship. No one. I guess I'm in this on my own. But I have to find a way to tell him how I feel. And I have to do it, using just my Light. I have to do this...on my own...
~There, I made it a few paragraphs longer. It doesn't make much of a difference though, oh well ^_^ Reviews!!! Cat, a.k.a Crystal Gatomon ~
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Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon. Can you believe it?! -_-
~Family Ties~
~Chapter 2: On My Own
Should I have done that? I just don't know... It seemed like the perfect thing to do at the time, but now I'm having my doubts. However, I do know two things: One, that I love my brother Tai, and two, that it's love beyond what a sister should have for her brother. That it's wrong for me to feel this way.
Once, I even wished on a shooting star that he would love me back, but as far as I can see It hasn't worked yet. Maybe I'm still too young, too immature to understand all of this. It's going to take a miracle for my dream to come true. Too bad there's no such thing as miracles...
People think that I'm a perfect little angel. It's not true... I never have been perfect, and I never will be an angel. The only reason I even act half decent is because of Tai. I want him to see the good side of his little sister. He always looks out for me, just like Matt looks out for T.K. Maybe that's why Matt and my brother are such good friends.
Everyone says that these kinds of things are evil. I'm not blaming them... After all, they don't know how it feels...to have the Flame of Courage as a brother. He's always come through for me when I've needed help. He catches me before I even begin to fall. No one else has an angel in their family...I, I am the lucky one. They are just overcome by jealousy.
When I first became a Digidestined, I thought it might help me. I thought that if I had something more important on my mind that my feelings for Tai would fade away, or even better; disappear all at once... But now, now I'm glad that didn't happen. If I lost my feelings for Tai...I would have lost my happiness, the very reason I get out of bed in the morning. Why does this have to be so utterly confusing?
Does anyone besides me know how it feels? To have someone you long to be close to but are kept away by a barrier of uncertainty, of other peoples' foolish thoughts? I try not to think of what they would say if they knew. What about my friends, those who are so dear to me? Would they understand? Or would they be like the rest of them would, just point their fingers, laugh and scorn me? They would then deny our friendship, but if that's what has to be done, then so be it. That's how much I love my brother Tai... and that's a lot.
Sora...her crest is that of Love. Maybe she would understand. Maybe... She used to love Tai. She would know how I feel. No....she's not his sister...
What about T.K? He's always supportive of me. But how would he react if he found out I'm in love with my own brother? No, I will not tell him.
Willis...in America, the so-called 'Free Country'. I wonder... If I were there would I be able to be with my brother the way I want to? Or is it all a lie? Nowhere is free. I have learned that over time... I've learned it the hard way.
Joe or Izzy: They're smart. But I doubt science or computers would serve me as any good. They can't help me in a situation like this...
No one can help me in this... Not Kindness, not Sincerity, not even Friendship. No one. I guess I'm in this on my own. But I have to find a way to tell him how I feel. And I have to do it, using just my Light. I have to do this...on my own...
~There, I made it a few paragraphs longer. It doesn't make much of a difference though, oh well ^_^ Reviews!!! Cat, a.k.a Crystal Gatomon ~