Hey guys! Guess what? The story finally made it to an NC-17 rating!! And this is the ending fic! Phew, I bet ya thought it would never get there... Unique fic ending though! It doesn't end at all like you think it will!!
Hehehe...
Ya pervs... Thanks for reading. ^_~ I love every last one of you.
Enjoy the madness.
******************



The Need to Reminisce: prt. 6 (the end! finally..)

"Duo." I whispered breathlessly as he broke away from my pulsing red lips. Damn he was a good kisser...took my breath right away..

"I-I'm sorry Hilde.." He had murmured uneasily as he rose to his feet.

I was completely and utterly speechless. For some reason when I opened my mouth to speak, nothing came out. I tried again, and yet again, nothing came out.
I sat up quickly, flustered. Why wouldn't my voice come? And why was he sorry?! Did I signal something that had told him I hadn't liked it? Why in the world had I done that? Certainly, I hadn't done it purposely. Frankly, I quite enjoyed the moment. He must've thought that he made me uncomfortable or something...
I tried again to speak, but my voice was quite adamant about staying away from me. Why couldn't I tell him what I needed him to hear?! That I loved him dearly as a friend...and maybe even as something more. That I hadn't minded the kiss at all. That I wouldn't have minded it to last a little longer... That I even wouldn't have minded if he'd turned right around and planted another one on me.

"Duo.." I FINALLY managed to rasp out.

I saw him turn away and hang his head slightly. "Hilde, come on. Lemme show you to my room. You can stay in there if you like. I'm staying on the couch."

I was so frustrated that I didn't even realize I was scowling. Damned voice. It just wouldn't come back to me! It was like The Fates were trying to go against what I wanted! Well, too bad, I didn't believe in them. The Fates are a poor excuse for people who can't make up their OWN minds. I was and still am a very independent girl. The Fates could go to Hell for all I care. I was going to get that boy if I wanted. And if I didn't get him, that would be MY choice...or his...

Duo briefly glanced behind at me. Igh...That's when I realized that I was scowling. I quickly turned neutral, but it was too late. He'd already seen my expression. He must've thought I really really hadn't liked what had just happened. I saw him cringe slightly as I opened my mouth to try and speak again. I guess he thought I was going to say something about the situation that he really didn't want to hear.

"DAMN IT!" was all that came out. And very loudly.. I clapped my hands over my mouth. Yes, my voice finally decided to work for me. And at such a time! Funny how everything was going my way that night..
Right around that point I was beginning to think there really were such a things as The Fates...Ones that liked to screw around a lot with poor little girls like me.

Duo whirled around in surprise after I'd tested my returned voice . "What?! I wasn't suggesting anything! I said I was staying on the couch!"

I almost laughed. "No, no, Duo. I lost my voice...and I was trying to get it back." I'd said.
I couldn't help but chuckle at the situation. He'd thought that I thought that HE was suggesting something? He was still standing and staring at me in shock when I stopped giggling.
"Sorry..." I'd said sheepishly. I realized as he turned back around, he almost looked scared. As if he expected me to run away or something. I felt so terrible...

I sighed and began following him once again. How was I going to say anything then? Would he totally shut me out? Of course not.. We were friends. He would listen to what I had to say and he'd tell me how he felt about it too...wouldn't he? I had hesitated all the way back to his room. I kept reaching out to grab him, but somehow my hand always found itself back at my side instead of his shoulder. This was not working..

When we got to his room, he flipped on the light and motioned for me to go in. I quietly entered, turned, and listened as he leaned against the door frame, telling me that anything in the apartment was mine and that I shouldn't be shy about moving about. I nodded, still angry at myself for not speaking up, but I didn't show my anger this time.. I didn't want him to feel any worse than he already did.

I wanted to grab him, hug him...hell, I even wanted to kiss him and tell him that I loved him. But I was confused. I kept asking myself how it could be so complicated, but I never got an answer...

"I know it's kind of messy in here, but the bed feels great." He said, interrupting my thoughts. "Just move all the clothes and crap off the bed. I'm sorry that I didn't have time to clean up a little before ya came."

"Don't worry about it Duo. I'm used to your messes, remember?" I'd meant it in a humorous light, and I think I heard him laugh, but it didn't have the same ring to it as it usually did. I shifted my weight from one foot to the other uncomfortably as he scratched his head. I looked up at him and smiled weakly.

Lord, even though I was smiling, I felt hurt. I knew he couldn't just forget about this and act like nothing was wrong the whole time I was here. But right then, it seemed that's what he planned to do. No way I was going to let it happen that way.

"Duo." I called out as he turned to leave the room.

He turned and questioned me with those deep violet eyes. "Hm?"

"I..." I struggled to figure out the right words. If I messed this up then, I may not even be given the chance to make it right ever again. "Duo, I should've said something earlier..." I started. "..but like I said, my voice wasn't cooperating with me.."

When I stopped his eyes seemed to immediately grow impatient. So I went on without hesitation.

"I didn't mind the kiss, Duo. If I had, I would've pushed you away..." I stopped and grabbed his tense shoulder before he could leave. "I think...I.."

I remember him sadly looking down on me. Those eyes. They made me want to cry. He looked so hurt. So sad... I had needed to tell him right then. There was no way I could've held it in any longer. Not with me so close to telling him the truth already. He deserved to know..

"Duo, I think.. I love you." My voice cracked as hot tears filled my eyes. "God, Duo." I cried out suddenly. "I KNOW I'm in love with you."

He stood there, looking at me with pure shock in his expression. I thought he was going to rip away from my touch and run off to his room. But he didn't. Instead, his eyes softened and he slowly wrapped his arms around me, drawing me close against his chest.

I hugged him gently.

"I love you." I felt him take in a sharp breath as I repeated myself softly. Had it really surprised him that much? "Duo, don't you dare shut me out, or try and pretend nothing is wrong. I love you, damn it!" I cried into his chest, tightening my grip around his middle. "Do you hear me?!"

I felt him reach up and stroke my hair gently. "I hear ya, Hilde... I hear ya..." I don't know whether he believed me or whether he just thought I was saying things to hear myself talk...

I wanted to see his face, read his eyes, but I was too busy burying my own face in his chest. I felt like such a baby. Crying like that. But he let me. He stood there silent and comforted me as I sobbed.
I don't even know what made me cry so much, but I know I did it for a long time. Maybe it was just that I'd finally told him how I felt. I think the feeling was always there, I just didn't let it get to me. At the time, I didn't know if he felt the same way or not. Maybe the kiss had just been a mistake on his part... Maybe I was worried that I really had done the wrong thing by finally telling him...

All I really know now is what happened next had really surprised me.

He picked me up almost protectively, as if I were going to break into a million pieces if he had ever let me drop. He slowly walked over and lay me down on the black silken covers of his bed, leaving my side only for a moment to sweep his things off and out of the way. As soon as he had cleared it, he slipped into the covers, wrapped his arms around me, spooning my body gently with his own. He pulled the sheets over us and held my shaking form close until my crying died down.

It felt wonderful to have his warmth right beside me again after all this time. I kept thinking he would leave me out of courtesy after I fell asleep. I hadn't wanted that to happen. I wanted him by me all night long. I know I probably should've let him leave me and sleep on the couch, but...I couldn't. So I did what any girl would've done... Asked him to stay..

"Duo, don't leave me tonight." I whispered finally, feeling his arms squeeze me gently as I spoke. "Stay with me, okay?"

"Okay, Hilde." he answered quietly. "Go to sleep now..."

I nodded, even though I wanted to stay awake as long as possible. I still tried, but Duo's slow steady breathing soon put me into a light sleep...

******************


I woke up to soft kisses on my chest. Soft, hot, wet kisses. In the pure darkness.

I groaned when I felt a warm tongue flick briefly across my nipple.
Geez, what was this? Some sick joke? I couldn't be awake. Hilde was the only one in bed with me...and I didn't need a wet dream with her in the bed. I really, really didn't need that.

I shuddered when my seducer bit down hard. Electricity was shooting throughout my entire body from that one spot. I felt the sting go away as she lapped gently at the puckered flesh. I tried to speak out, but the words in my throat came out only as a low groan. I hadn't really wanted this to stop in the first place, but I also didn't want to wake Hilde up by moaning wildly in my sleep...

I had to wake myself up somehow...

My body shivered as soft delicate hands brushed over my bare chest. This had to be a dream. I had fallen asleep with a shirt on, I know. Now, though, I had none... and whoever had me in their hands was obviously the one who'd released me from the barrier. If this had been real, I surely would've woken up while they worked to get it off...wouldn't I?

Oh, but the touches...they felt so unbelievably real.

I finally lifted my head to see who this dream woman must be. At least, I sincerely hoped I was dreaming about a female...

And I almost choked when I saw Hilde's outline through the darkness.

"H-Hilde?!" I stuttered, still halfway in a sleep.

"Duo..." She replied breathlessly. "You're awake...finally."

Well, that confirmed my suspicions of it NOT being a dream...

"Hilde, what are you-" I started.

"Please, Duo...I.." She began, her voice wavering on what seemed to be on the verge of her crying.

"..Just for tonight..." She sounded even more hesitant as she continued. "..Let me love you..."

"Hilde, I--"

"Duo," she interrupted. "I'm confused about some things...you must be confused too..."

In the middle of her sentence, I suddenly realized she had a firm grip on my hips with her thighs. I felt myself go hot and my pants tighten. Damn it.. I wondered why I hadn't woken up as soon as she decided to proclaim me a comfortable seat... I was sure feeling it now..

"But for some reason, Duo," she continued, "this is the one thing I'm sure of. Maybe some of our questions will be answered..."

I was silent as she slid her hands up my chest and around my neck.

"Please..." she pleaded softly. "I have to know.."

We hadn't had much time to discuss anything...

We'd only just recently been able to meet up with each other...it had been so long..

And we were going to do something that we both agreed required years of love and friendship?

What the hell was I hesitating for?! We had all that. Friendship...love... We'd had it for quite some time.

To hell with slowing down. We'd done it for years without realizing either of us should've spoken up and quicken the pace. She was mine. I was tired of moping around like an idiot and acting like I wasn't good enough for her. Acting like I was supposed to only be a good friend and nothing more...

But what if it didn't work out? What if, afterwards, she found that she didn't really love me that way at all?

Maybe it was selfishness...

Maybe it was the moment...

Or maybe it was just something that finally clicked in my mind as 'right'...

"Hilde, take that damned shirt of yours off...now." I growled.

Whatever the hell it was, it had me making love to her all night long....
************

"Hilde..." I'd heard him start. He almost sounded angry. "take that damned shirt of your off....now.."

I felt my lower lip go numb. Nervousness had caused me to bite down hard and cut off circulation. Lord in heaven, I was shaking too. He must've felt it, but I don't think it bothered him...

I finally loosened up on the flesh of my pulsing lips and licked the feeling back into them. Didn't really help anything, though. As soon as I'd regained the sense, Duo had quickly helped me off with my shirt and rolled me over onto my back, crushing my lips with his own in a searing kiss. Which eventually numbed them, yet again.

I felt my cheeks go hot. His lips were so soft and sweet, and even though the kiss was fire-filled...it was gentle...he wasn't smothering... And thank God he wasn't a slimy slug kisser. Todd had been a full fledged tongue kisser...unfortunate for me, I had found that out just the other night. It had been nasty as hell. My first kiss, and it had to be with THAT dolt..

Now Duo... Duo could kiss your socks off, WITHOUT choking you to death with his tongue.

Shaking myself out of my jumbled and nervous thoughts, I mustered up a little courage and ran my hands across his chest and around his back. Incredibly tight and hard, that's how to describe that man's body. Sculpted perfectly. And I, of all girls, was in bed with him...

He nibbled lightly on my lower lip, almost making me giggle, and then decided my neck was also fair game. I couldn't help it at that point...

I laughed out loud as he nipped at the nape of my neck. And I think I scared him.

"Hilde!" He had jumped back and almost yelped.

"What?!" I laughed. "I can't help it. You're tickling me!"

"Oh, I'll tickle you, alright..."

I couldn't stand it. He began relentlessly poking me and prodding me with the tips of his fingers , never taking his mouth from my neck.
My ribs, my stomach, my sides. Nothing had been safe... I'd almost thought it had turned into a tickling contest instead of what we'd originally planned...

I stopped laughing though when I felt his hand slowly slide from my stomach to the inside of my thigh. The friction of his rough callused hand across my skin was like fire on ice. Melting was definitely an option...

"Duo?"

****************

I heard her call my name questioningly...but I didn't listen. I didn't want her calling out my name out in a question unless it was begging... She was hesitant. I'd show her there was nothing to be worried about..

The silk of her panties was so soft...I fingered the material, hearing her gasp sharply when I gently pressed my finger into the already dampened cloth. Ha, that wasn't even half of it and she was already making noise. If I had my way, she'd be screaming by the end of the night. I pulled up on the material sharply, thonging it tightly between her warmth. She clenched her teeth and lightly dug her nails into my back,

I could feel her toes curl against my leg as I brought the material back down and slipped it over her legs.

"Duo." She called again..

I couldn't just be silent... "Yes...Hilde.."

"Duo, I..."

I waited nervously for what she was about to say. Was she having second thoughts? I couldn't push her...I didn't want to push her... I could wait..

"Duo," she continued as she gestured toward an open window, "I don't want the readers of this fanfiction watching us.." she sighed and paused briefly. "Do THIS.."

"Oh, is that all? I can fix that easy, Hilde..." I chuckled.. "Real easy.."

I got up from the bed and went over to the open window. I looked at the many DuoxHilde fanatics outside our window and smiled. "Pah...voyeurism.. Yah, once I thought I was into that too. But it ended up I was just going through a 'phase'. You'll get over it." I closed the window and let the blinds down. "Yep, you'll get over it..."

And just before I crawled back into bed with my beautiful creature, I wondered..

'How in the hell did everyone get up to the outside of the 5th floor of this building?!'

************

"Wow, I didn't think selling ladders and ropes could make so much money." As she leaned over the pile of money, the girl blew strands of her long silky brown hair out of her eyes, finally hooking them behind her ears when they wouldn't stay out of her face. She happily began to count the rest of the money, neatly setting the already counted ones aside. "Hmm...Maybe I should've thrown in some cameras too..."

***************

THE END!!!
(hmm...WHO in the world could that GIRL have been... ^_~ and WHY in the world was she selling ladders?!?! Gee...)

Well, that's the end! Yep, that's right. 'The Need to Reminisce' is over. Once and for all. What a way to end this long and drawn out story, huh?
Aw, guys... I'm sorry. I just don't write lemons anymore. Doesn't feel right for me now. So any fic you see of mine now, will only be sweet fluff...no sex. If there is sex, it will only be implied, not explicit. So, no more NC-17 for me. (unless it's a MST3K fic of a certain NC-17 story...) I apologize, because I did promise a lemon to some of my readers. But for them, I will make many many fanarts... That should pay for at least half of the damage. ^_~ Again, I'm very sorry. *hugz* But please know that I wouldn't push YOU to write something for ME if you didn't feel right doing it. (ps. What happen to Duo and Hilde? Well, I would like to think that they stay together...get married...have a few kids. But whatever you would like to think, you go right ahead! That's partly why I left it kind of open ended..)