Rating: R [for attempted rape and alcohol use]
Spoilers: "It's Greek To Me"
Summary: What if Sam and Lily never got caught and they had gone to the frat party with Brooke and Carmen?
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[Kennedy High Cafeteria-Lunch]
"So---"
Lily looked up from her
lunch and turned to Harrison who was absently staring at the red apple
in his hands.
"How is she?"
Once the last three words
escaped out of Lily's mouth Harrison snapped his head up and stared at
Lily; He shook his head, he knew Lily was only concerned but all day all
he had heard was 'How's Sam?' 'How's she pulling through?' Harrison
wish he knew, but in reality he had no idea what was going on with Sam---
He used to know Sam inside and out, he used to know her better then anyone
knew her but then everything changed when he fell in love with her. Loving
Sam wasn't the easiest thing he had done but no matter how hard he tried
he knew he couldn't stop, he didn't want to stop loving Sam... when he
had been in the hospital fighting for his life, things had seemed so dark,
so useless, but then he remembered Sam, one thought about Sam and things
weren't so bad. Even though Harrison knew Sam loved George he couldn't
stop loving her, because even the tiniest thought that Sam could love him
back was enough for him to keep loving her.
"Yeah man how is she?"
Harrison turned his glance
to George, he shook his head.
"Why does everyone keep
asking me that? Do I look like I have the answers to everything?"
Carmen watched Harrison
sadly, lately she was always feeling bad for Harrison, it just didn't seem
fair that Harrison would never be able to have the person he loved, it
just wasn't fair, but a lot of things weren't fair in life.
"Harrison calm down, it's
just that you know Sam better then anyone"
Brooke nodded. Nicole remained
quiet. Mary Cherry watched him in awe. Josh lowered his eyes. Sugar Daddy
took a bite of his food.
"I used to know Sam better
then anyone! Used being the keyword here! I don't know Sam.... not anymore"
Harrison went to pick up
his lunch but just slammed it back down on the cafeteria table making his
friends jump back in surprise, Harrison pushed himself up and walked out
of the cafeteria bumping into Sam on his way out.
"Hey Harris---"
Sam stopped short of her
sentence when she saw the look on Harrison's face, it was one of anger
and sadness and then to make things even more worse Harrison pushed his
way past Sam, he didn't even look back, it was like he had walked right
through her, like she didn't mean a thing to him.
"Here"
Sam shoved her plate of
food to April Tuna and took after Harrison.
"Harrison! Harrison!"
Sam pushed her way through
the crowd of teenagers who were busily chatting about various things---
things that varied to ramblings about who was better for Joey... Dawson
or Pacey to the latest fashion news---- Sam rolled her eyes and continued
to push her way through the crowd, she had to catch up with Harrison, she
had to find out what was bothering him. Harrison had just pushed right
past her, he had never done something like that, was he mad at her? And
if so, what about?
"Besides the obvious"
Sam pushed through the last
bit of the crowd and rushed out of the school, she let her brown eyes skim
every possible inch of the outside area of the school, her eyes stopped
when she saw Harrison sitting under a weepy and big oak tree. Sam heaved
a heavy sigh, she brushed back the loose strands of her hair that fell
in front of her eyes--- she continued to stare at Harrison, she really
didn't know what to do, she had this huge urge in her heart to run over
to him and take his body in her arms but she knew that things weren't that
simple anymore, nothing was simple anymore. One confession---- one declaration
of love---- changed everything, there was no turning back, Sam couldn't
pretend that Harrison was just her friend---- indeed he was her best friend
but he was so much more to her... he was her steady brick wall that helped
her be strong when she felt she was weak... he was the shoulder she leaned
on... he was her eyes when she was blind... he was her wings that made
her fly... could he be *that* to her too? Sam sighed once
more and shuffled her way over to Harrison.
"Hi"
Harrison looked up from
his shoes, he already recognized whom the voice belonged to, he forced
his eyes not to lower, he looked up at Sam and felt himself become breathless---
she took his breath away---- but what was new?
"Hi, is this ditch school
day?"
Harrison sufficed out a
chuckle, he needed to do something to break the ice, he watched Sam shrug
her shoulders, she had a serious look on her face--- and that scared him.
Whenever Sam had her serious look on her face he knew things were bad---
yeah you idiot she was almost raped remember? Harrison felt like hitting
himself over the head, how stupid could he be? He could never be what Sam
wanted, hell he wasn't even close to being what Sam deserved, at least
in his own opinion.
"I'm worried"
Harrison tilted his head.
"About?"
Sam bit down on her bottom
lip, pondering for a minute.
"You"
"Me?"
"And me"
"Worried about me and you?
Are you worried about you and me separately or worried about both of us
at the same time?"
"That too"
"So you're worried about
me and you're worried about you and you're also worried about us?"
"Yes"
"Yes what?"
"Yes to what you said"
"Which was?"
"That I'm worried"
"About?"
Sam smirked.
"Let's not start that again"
Harrison let out a laugh,
he moved over motioning for Sam to sit down next to him---- Sam stared
at the spot Harrison cleared for her, she stared at it for a second and
then finally sat down next to him. Sam stared down at the roots of the
old tree, she found it amazing how those roots could be so deep into the
ground, actually it was a very simple thing but it amazed her beyond words
and she had no idea.
"What are you thinking about?"
Sam looked up to see Harrison
staring at her.
"Everything."
"Can you tone it down a
bit? Like pick a specific thing you're thinking about"
Sam leaned her head against
the oak tree, she looked up and watched the leaves blowing the wind---
Harrison watched Sam, he watched the way her hair blew in the wind and
how it whipped across her face gently.
"How we got ourselves in
this situation--- all of us. It wasn't that long ago where everything was
simple, all of us were just friends, just friends depending on one another
and things got so mixed up"
Harrison continued staring
at Sam, he wanted so badly to lower his eyes, but he wouldn't, not this
time.
"You're talking about me
telling you I loved you"
Sam whipped her head around
and stared at Harrison.
"You stopped loving me?"
"What?
"You said loved me"
There was a pause and then
Harrison spoke up.
"I meant love"
What in the world is she
doing? Harrison tried to read what was going on in Sam's head by staring
into her eyes, but her eyes were dark, they refused to start up a connection
with Harrison's.
"You love me?"
Harrison gulped--- why in
the world was she bringing up this situation?
"Yes"
Sam was shocked even more
then the first time she heard those words out of Harrison's mouth, how
could he love her? How could he be so sure that he loved her so much?
"Why?"
Now it was Harrison's turn
to be shocked. Harrison finally lowered his eyes not knowing what to say,
last time he had spilled his heart out to Sam she rejected it, what would
make this time different?
[Meanwhile back in the cafeteria]
Brooke watched Harrison stomp
out of the cafeteria with a sad expression on her face--- Harrison was
her friend, a good friend, so when he was hurting she was hurting too.
Over the past month Harrison and Brooke had grown close, they had got in
touch with their old friendship and in the end Brooke had fallen for him,
but his heart had belonged to another, his heart belonged to Sam. Brooke
had saw the way Harrison looked at Sam, she remembered that she looked
at Josh like that once, when she had loved him more then anything, that
was how she knew Harrison's feelings were true. It broke her heart everytime
she saw the sad expression on his face whenever Sam would walk past him
hand in hand with George--- Brooke wished that Sam felt the same way about
Harrison that he felt for her, she wished that Sam could see how terrific
Harrison was. Harrison loved Sam, it wasn't a fluke, he really did love
her, he loved her for all of her quirks, he loved her just the way she
was--- his love was unconditional--- a love every girl wanted and unfortunately
Sam didn't know how deep Harrison's love was--- Sam had no idea that when
she wasn't looking Harrison would watch her, admiring her and when she
wasn't watching there was love and adoration in his eyes--- and she had
no idea.
"I've suddenly lost my appetite"
Brooke dropped her plastic
fork down on her cafeteria tray.
"Me too"
Josh nodded at Carmen and
Lily and rested his chin in between his hands--- the way things were going,
things could only get better--- well hopefully.
"I just wish Sam would talk
to me, she keeps avoiding me"
Nicole looked up from her
recently purple colored fingernails, she stared at George as he continued
to mope about Sam and how she was avoiding him and wasn't telling him if
she was okay or not, a huge, conniving smile spreaded across Nicole's face,
maybe things were looking up. If Nicole Julian loved anything more then
herself--- it was love triangles and there was definitely love triangles
going on here.
Harrison loves Sam. Sam loves George. Mary Cherry loves Harrison. Brooke loves Harrison.
How amusing was this?
"So amusing..."
Nicole muttered underneath
her breath and continued to smirk as she thought of the possible outcomes
of these various love triangles.
[Outside of Kennedy High]
"Harrison, you still here
with me?"
Harrison nodded, his eyes
still lowered to the ground, he didn't know what to say, he didn't want
to hear the same words he heard the first time he told Sam he loved her,
it would break his already fragile heart, he loved her but he didn't know
how many times he could handle the rejection.
"Why-why do you suddenly
want to know?"
Sam noticed the stammer
in Harrison's voice, why am I doing this? Sam asked herself, it was like
her mouth was just taking control over her body, or maybe it was her heart.
"I don't know"
Harrison finally looked
up and saw the glitter in Sam's eyes.
"You don't know why you
want to know why I love you?"
Sam nodded.
"Why do you love me Harrison?
You know I'm with George"
It was Harrison's turn to
nod.
"I know. But it's just now
that I know how it is to love you I don't ever want to stop. I know that
there isn't a chance in hell you will ever feel the same way about me,
but just because you don't love me it doesn't mean that I can't love you."
Sam bit down on her lip
trying to stop the tears from flowing out of her eyes.
"But why do you love me?"
"I don't know, I just do
what my heart tells me to do, I just follow it"
Sam opened her mouth to
say something but Harrison cut her off.
"The tough thing about following
your heart is what people forget to mention is that sometimes the heart
takes you to places you shouldn't be. Places that are as scary as they
are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring. Sometimes your heart
takes you to places that cannot lead to happy endings. And thats not even
the difficult part.The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you
leave normal, and you enter the unknown, and you can never go back."
Sam stared at Harrison and
felt the tears escape out of her eyes and down her face.
"I-Harrison-"
Sam leaned over to Harrison
and brushed her lips against his, Harrison was shocked at first but then
he closed his eyes and kissed Sam back---- god this felt so right--- only
if she knew how long he had dreamed and wished for this to happen. Harrison
popped his eyes open and pulled away from the kiss and looked back at Sam.
"You don't mean it. You're
vulnerable, you're hurt and you're scared and that is why you kissed me.
Sam I know you and I know that you don't know what to do, you're so confused
Sam and I would be too but kissing me won't make the problems go away,
it will just create more problems."
Harrison pushed himself
up---- you have to do this---- she can't feel the same way about you----
it's better this way--- Harrison gulped down the lump in his throat and
proceeded to walk away but turned around instantly when he heard Sam screaming
his name--- sissy--- Harrison felt like screaming at the little voice at
the back of his head but stared at Sam once she ran up to him.
"Harrison---"
Sam paused for a minute,
gathering her courage and her breath--- In the words of Nike 'Just Do It.'----
"Ever since I was a little
girl no one has treated me the way you do and the funny thing is you still
treat me the way you did when I was little. You look at me and there is
this glimmer in your eyes and a smile on your face like staring at me is
the most exciting thing you want to do. When my father died, you were at
the funeral and when I started to cry you held me---"
Sam took a deep breath and
let more tears fall out of her eyes--- Harrison watched Sam and had the
urge to take her in his arms but he knew she wasn't done speaking so he
let her continue.
"You held me until I stopped
crying, when I felt like I was drowning and no one was trying to help me,
you didn't let me drown. In all my life I have never felt more alive, then
I do when I'm with you. When you told that you loved me, I didn't know
what to say, I was afraid of losing the one thing that has made me keep
going on with life no matter how hard it would get. I didn't want to lose
you and I thought I was in love with George but in reality I was in love
with you"
Harrison stood still for
a second, he blinked a few times but as many times he blinked Sam was still
in front of him.
"Did--- did you just say
you were in love with me?"
Sam walked up closer to
Harrison and cupped his face.
"Past tense Harrison, I
told you I am in love wih you"
Before Harrison could say
another word Sam leaned up on her tip-toes and kissed Harrison passionately---
She's really kissing me!-- Harrison wrapped his arms around Sam's neck
as he kissed her back--- the kiss was long and passionate and it made Harrison
felt like he was floating on cloud nine. Harrison closed his eyes.
*start of flashback*
"He's gone"
Sam spit the words out of
her mouth as if they were venom, she tightened her grip on the black sweater
she had on, her eyes were lowered to her hands which had a little bit of
a shake in them.
"Sammy"
Harrison sat down next to
Sam on her bed, he stared at her face, which had turned into a pale color
of white, she looked like she saw a ghost. It had only been a few hours
since the funeral but the big rain cloud was still hanging over Sam's head,
he's gone... gone.... he was gone forever and there wasn't anything they
could do, they couldn't change what happened.
"He's dead, he's gone and
he's not coming back, he's not coming back is he?"
Sam turned to Harrison,
her brown eyes wet with tears, she stared into Harrison's eyes waiting
for his answer, she already knew what the answer was going to be, but she
needed to hear if from someone else's mouth.
"No Sam he' s not coming
back"
Harrison felt himself choking
over the sentence, he promised himself for Sam's sake that he wouldn' cry,
he couldn't cry, he had to be the strong one---- the strong one--- he had
to be Sam's brick wall--- he had to be the one that was the brave one---
she could cry, he would remain silent, he would never let the tears fall.
"You know, If this happened
3 years ago, I would be running to Josh telling him everything. But Josh,
he isn't my friend anymore, neither is Brooke--- they're suddenly too popular
to be our friends."
Harrison put his arm around
Sam.
"You still have me"
Sam nodded and leaned her
head against Harrison's chest as she let the tears flow, she couldn't stop
them, they were in control. Harrison wrapped both of his arms around Sam's
body and rocked her as she cried, the hot tears soaking into his shirt,
he didn't care that his shirt got wet with tears--- as long as they were
Sam's--- as long as she got it all out.
*end of flashback*
[Back in the cafeteria]
George sat in between Nicole
and Mary Cherry, he kept moving his cream corn in circles, the silence
at the cafeteria table was getting to him, ever since Harrison stormed
out of the cafeteria, everyone had become silent and the silence was deafening.
George let out a sigh, he stopped playing with his cream corn and started
to tap his fingers against the edge of the cafeteria table making a tapping
sound but after a few minutes he got tired with that too.
"I'm gonna go find Sammy"
Brooke nodded as George
pushed himself up, he walked past his friends and into the hallways of
Kennedy High trying to find Sam, he pushed past the crowd and headed towards
the entrance of the school, he stopped at the big doors, he looked out
the glass part of the doors and froze at what he saw.
Sam and Harrison kissing.
George leaned against doors, letting his nose brush against the glass, he couldn't believe what he was seeing--- his girlfriend--- was kissing another guy--- a guy that was supposely her best friend.
Sam finally pulled away from
the kiss, she opened her eyes and looked up at Harrison who was now staring
down at her with a dazed look on his face.
"That was good"
Harrison nodded.
"Yes it was"
Sam's smile faded when she
saw George.
"George?"
Harrison turned around to
see George but before he could say a word George's fist came in contact
with Harrison's face.
[end of chapter 3]