Disclaimer: We
do not own Digimon. Maybe in the not to distant future we could,
but we don't now. So do not sue. "How Did I Fall in Love
with You?" naturally belongs to The Backstreet Boys. Go
complain to them.
Riko's Notes: Incestful goodness. This is the song that
started it all. Thanks to our friend "Finnie"
misinterperating the lyrics. But really, can we blame her?
Fluffier than most of our fics, I think I'm getting sappy in my
old age.
Lianda's Notes: I almost regret letting Ri listen to this
song. Almost. But it did turn out to be a pretty good fic. Get
the kleenex out ppl!
How Did I
Fall in Love with You?
By Riko and
Lianda
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" Remember when
We never needed each other"
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Is it just me? Or
is the moon colder tonight? I think it is. Ever since you left I
just can't seem to stay warm. I shiver and pull the blankets up
to my chin, but it doesn't help. Why did you leave us? Why did
you leave me? You said you had to move on with you life, but was
that just an excuse? An excuse to get away from me?
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"The best of friends
sister and brother"
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I can't sleep.
Quietly I slip out of bed and wrap a blanket around my shoulders.
I step out into the hall, careful not to wake Mom and Dad. I
think they're almost happy you left. They didn't want me to
influence you. You were they're perfect child and I was their
failure. And it may be they're right. I wouldn't want to change
you at all. I just want you here with me; I miss you so much.
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"We understood
We'd never be
Alone"
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I wander down to
the kitchen and open the fridge. I grab the milk jug and smile
fondly, so many memories. You were my partner in crime. You'd
distract Mom and Dad while I stole cookies and then we'd share
the bootie. 50-50 or 60-40 it all depended on the mood you were
in that day. I didn't care though, I was just proud to be part of
your life.
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"Those days are gone
Now I want you so much."
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I pour myself a
glass, and quickly drain it. All the while remembering. There, on
the floor, I remember I skinned my knee one-day. You heard my
trying to choke my tears and you came running. I never had to be
brave around you, did I? You found a Band-Aid and put it on my
scrap. Our skin touched, do you remember? I can't forget. I can't
forget the way you held me until I finished crying; you were so
gentle back then. What did I ever do to deserve being touched
like that?
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"The night is long
And I need your touch"
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I shudder and
pull my blanket tighter around me. So, cold. I can't remember
when it all started. When I started to see you as more than a
More than you ever could be. Did you find out? I never wanted you
to, but I couldn't help myself sometimes. Watching you out of the
corner of my eyes I mean; your hair always fell across your face
in this way. I smile just thinking about it. Even your memory
means more to me than I think you could possibly know. And I'm
sorry, because part of me knows how wrong it is for me to feel
like this.
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"Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight"
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We were just
children back then. I think if I'd paid more attention maybe I
could've seen the way you looked at him. I hate him, you know? I
hate his blond hair! I hate his blue eyes! I hate him for making
your eyes light up whenever he was near. I hate him for the
emotions he could bring into your voices with a look that with
all my trying I never even got near. It's childish, but it's true.
I hate him for making you happy like I never could!
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"I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child
That I resemble"
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I'm done my milk
so I leave the glass on the counter and head back to my room.
Along the way I pause and think. I think of my first girlfriend.
Do you remember the look on Mom's face when I brought her home? I
think I killed all her faith in me that day. Of course that fling
didn't last long, I was just trying to hide from myself. And then
my boyfriend, you remember him of course? By that point I don't
think anything I did could've surprised Mom. But he loved me,
didn't he? He loved me, but I couldn't love him. He looked so
much like his brother, his brother whom I hate. I couldn't stand
being around him. And I know it's awful to say but I thought of
you that whole time.
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"I cannot pretend
That we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight"
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I didn't cry when
you left, not because I'd shed no tears for you. I've shed more
than my fair share over the years. No, because I didn't believe.
I didn't believe you'd really gone. I told myself you'd come
back; I'd see you again. But I won't will I? You've left with
him, and you aren't coming back. Was there anything I could've
done? It's crazy I know, but I want you more than anyone ever has.
And I wonder how this happened, how you ever became more than a
sibling to me. How? Was there something you said? Something you
did? What can I do to see you again?
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"What can I do to make you mine?
Falling so hard, so fast this time"
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I close the door
silently and look around the room, our room. I'm leaving tomorrow.
Leaving my childhood behind, leaving you behind. There are too
many memories here. This room even smells like you. So I'm
leaving. I'll start my life and maybe, just maybe, it isn't too
late for you to be proud of me. Since it's obviously too late for
there to be an 'us'. There'll just be you and me. Sister and
brother, but no more, I'll leave it all behind.
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"Everything's changed, we never knew."
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Please be proud
of me. That's all I think I can ask. Is that too much?
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"How did I"
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Tears. Now I'll
cry. I'm growing up. No more foolish dreams. Time to start living
my life.
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"fall in love"
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I have you to
thank. You're my strength although you'll never know it. So much
you'll never know. But if you learn anything tonight, remember
this:
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"with you?"
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I love you, Tai.
Thank you. Thank you and goodbye.
Thanks for your patience all! Our next should be more exciting.
Reviews are welcome! Goodnight ev'rybody!
