Title: To Love You 2/2
By: GoldStar
E-mail: GoldStar@eternalmoon.zzn.com
Site: http://surf.to/goldstar
Hi hi!!!!!! I'm back!!! I got a lot of comments about this fic saying how
screwed up it was that Mamoru said that he didn't love Usagi back, so now I'm
back to tell you what happens at the end of this fic. You guys decide if you
want an sequel to this and I'll decide by your reviews and e-mails. Ok, enough
of me yapping...on with chp. 2!
- Flashback -
"I...I LOVE YOU!" Oh man!! I had this whole love sappy speech ready and
that's all I could say! I could shoot myself right now. I look at his face and
he is in total shock. Now, I definitely wasn't planning to do this, but this
was an one in a million kinda thing. I kissed him. Yes, me, Usagi Tsukino kissed
Mamoru Chiba; my Mamo-chan. Now, this was my first kiss, so I wasn't a pro or
anything. I thought I felt him respond, but then he stopped and broke it. As soon as
I felt cold air on my lips, I felt like breaking down and crawling into a hole
again. I looked at this face for a sign that I was wrong, but it simply wasn't
there. I could feel water starting to form at the corner of my eye. He looked
guiltily at me and whispered,
"Well, I really wasn't expecting this. And if it's a joke, I'm not
laughing. I'm really sorry Usagi," he used my real name for the first time,
"but I don't feel the same way. I can't love you." My world came to an end at
that very second.
- End Flashback -
- Usagi's POV -
I could feel tears start to crawl up into my eyes, then fall right back
down and splatter on the cool bench. I wanted to run, but my legs just didn't
do what I wanted them to. Mamoru looked at me with pity when he saw those tears.
Kami-sama, the last thing that I wanted now was for him to pity me. He started
to speak,
"Usagi, I'm sorry. I really am. I, I just don't and can't. You
understand, right?" he asked anxiously, not wanting to break my heart again. I
just simply nodded my head...and ran. I didn't know where I was going, but I
just ran. I stopped only because I was out of breath and when I looked up and
saw my surroundings, I realized that I was at the temple. And then I remembered
that there was a meeting. So, without wanting to make the girls even madder (and
wanting comfort), I walked inside the temple, tears still on my cheeks. I could
feel that they were about to complain about my being late when I walked inside.
But as soon as I put my head up, I saw surprise, confusion, and sadness
written all over their faces. I just closed the door behind me and sank down to
the ground, crying tears that I thought were already out. I just sat there. Then
suddenly I felt arms go around me and I looked up to find out it was Rei-chan.
"Usa-chan, I don't know what's wrong, but if you want to talk about it,
then go ahead. But if you don't, just keep crying," and then I felt everyone's
arms go around me. Artemis and Luna settled themselves on my lap. For the
next 5 minutes, it was like this. I appreciated the warmth and love so much.
I stopped crying and gently tried to get out of their warm embraces. When I saw
their faces, it was filled with concern. Mina-chan spoke this time,
"What is it Usa-chan? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" she asked
patiently. I sniffled.
"Well, as you all already know, I love Mamo-chan." They nodded so I continued,
"I heard from Motoki that he was going to go to Harvard in the States in two weeks and
might not come back in 8 years or maybe even more. And since I didn't want him to
leave without telling him my feelings, I told him today. Right before I came
here..."
"What did he say?" asked Makoto-chan, although everyone knew the answer.
I started crying all over again. It was so hard for me to say the next words.
"He said that he didn't...that he doesn't and he couldn't. I could just
tell that he only said those things out of pity though..."
"Oh Usa, if he can't see how special you really are, then he doesn't
deserve you," said Ami-chan. I smiled a little with gratitude at all of them. I honestly
don't know what I would do without them.
"Thank you everyone. If you weren't here, I don't know what I would've
done. Thank you so much."
"Hey girl, it's no problem...I'm sure you would do the same for all of us.
Well, actually, you better!" replied Rei. We all let out a small giggle and had
another group hug.
** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *The Next Week* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **
The next day, I went back to the arcade. I knew that Mamoru wasn't going
to be there because he would be packing. He would be leaving in two days. I sighed and made
my way into the arcade. There stood Motoki, looking like he was waiting for me.
When he saw me come in, the look of concern went to his face. At that moment, I
knew that he knew what I had said and done. I went his way and when we met, we
exchanged hellos.
"How are you doing, Usa? I heard from Mamoru what happened. But I'm here
to tell you something good, Usa." He had on the kind of smart-alec grin. I
smiled a little myself.
"You're supposed to be here anyway. But what is this great news you have
to tell me?"
"Well, all I'm going to say is to be ready at 6:00 for me to pick you up."
I was definitely confused now.
"Huh?" I really hope that Motoki-san isn't asking me on a date out of
pity, and especially if he already has Reika. I narrowed my eyes in a
suspicious looking way. He must've known what I was thinking.
"Hehe, don't worry. I'm not asking you out. I have my Reika. I'm hurt
that you would think of me like that." He pouted. This, however, didn't make me
feel guilty, but more convinced that he was up to something. My brow raised.
"Ok, ok. It's a surprise though, so you're not getting it out of me. Just
dress up really formal and be ready by then. I'm sure you'll like it!" He
winked, then walked away. I might as well just go along with his plan. What
else could go bad?
** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *In the Evening* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **
It was 5:55. I was wearing a pink two-piece dress. The top was a halter: a
neck with two straps criss-crossing halfway at my back and the end was also a V,
letting me show some skin at my stomach sides. It had small diamonds on the
front part of the straps and against the neckline. The skirt was two-layers,
that went to the ground. The bottom layer was plain white, while the second
layer was a sheer pink, having sparkles on it. I had pink heels on, like the
one's Sailor Venus wears. I put my hair down this time and crimped it, also
putting sparkles in it. I checked myself in the mirror and okayed everything. I
sighed and thought that no matter what Motoki had planned for me, I would never
be completely satisfied this night. Unless, of course, it was with Mamo-chan. I shook my
head. No, I have to stop calling him that. He definitely is NOT mine.
Then, I heard the doorbell ring. It was Motoki. Lucky no one was home, or
dad would already have the shotgun pointing at Motoki-san's head. I walked
downstairs, opened the door, and saw that Motoki-san was wearing casual clothes.
I was definitely confused and clueless now. He saw it and laughed.
"Don't worry about it. You'll see. Now, you have somewhere to go
princess." I just merely nodded and followed him into his car. "Here, where
this blindfold. I don't want you knowing where you're going until we're there."
I took the blindfold and put over my eyes. In the next 15 minutes or so, I
could feel the car stopping and turning while I was in a world of darkness.
Then, finally, he stopped and turned off the car. He told me to just sit here,
and seconds later, I could hear the door open. He took my hand and led me out
of the car. I could feel him leading me somewhere, and I just followed,
trusting him. Then, we stopped and were in a building. I could hear him
open a door and push me gently forward. I could feel something feathery
brushing against my foot. Then, I heard Motoki-san say something.
"After I take the blindfold off, I want to you keep your eyes closed.
Don't open them until you hear the door close, ok?" I nodded, and felt the
cloth come off my eyes. Then, I heard the door slowly close. My eyes opened
and I looked at my surroundings. I was in a strange apartment, and there were
ruby red rose petals scattered all over the floor. Candles were the only
light source. In front of me, there was a small table with a rose, lighted
candle, and a note that had my name on it. I opened and it read,
"Come to the balcony where you can see the moon and stars. Bring the
rose..." I was curious about where I was and who was I was going to see at the
balcony. I walked, the rose petals flattening underneath my heels. Soon, I
came to the balcony. When I looked to the left towards the end, there was Mamo-chan.
He was dressed in a tuxedo and looking very handsome. At the sight of him though, my
heart wrenched. I asked angrily,
"Why are you doing this to me?!! Is this something out of pity?! Well,
let me tell you something! I don't need your pity! You think I can't handle
getting turned down? Do you like to see me suffer or something? Are you not
satisfied that you gave me my most memorable embarrassing moment yet when I said
I love you?!!!!" I was crying by now and collapsed on the floor, my head in my
hands. The rose that was previously in my hand was now also on the ground,
forgotten. I could feel the cold night air on my skin, sending me shivers down
my spine. Then, I felt warmth and realized that it was *him*.
"I'm sorry, Usagi. I never meant to hurt you. I wanted you to come here
to tell you something, not to embarrass you or pity you. I would never do
that." I heard his sweet voice carry through the air.
"What then? What could you possibly tell me now?" I whispered.
"I love you," he answered. My eyes widened. I pulled free of his embrace
and yelled again.
"I don't get you!! What do you mean?!! I just don't understand!! One
moment you say that you can't love me and the next you're saying you do?" I
looked at him angrily through my tears.
"Usagi, let me explain. When you told me you loved me, to say I was
beyond shocked is only the start of it. At that time, I thought I didn't. But
then you ran away, and when I came back here, I went through the scenes over in
my head. I realized that I wanted to kiss you again, to feel your warmth, and
most of all, I wanted to hear you say those words again. I realized that I was
in love with you and had never noticed it. Maybe it's because I was blinded and
too ignorant to admit it. But everyday of my life, ever since I first saw you,
I have kept dreaming and seeing you in my head, never able to get you out of my
mind. And yesterday, I realized that I can't and won't keep you out of my
heart. I love you too much to let this one chance of us being together to go,"
I absorbed this into my head and heard him whisper, "I love you, and if it takes
forever for you to be able to trust me again, then dammit I'll give forever to
you." And then, he walked up to me, and held me. I stiffened, but I was
finally able to relax ever since I saw him. I could tell, feel, that he was
telling me the truth. He used his finger to pull my chin up, I looked into his
eyes. They were so full of love, with a little of nervousness and anxiousness
on the side that I simply had to melt. Then, our lips met in a heart-searing
kiss. After a few minutes, we both pulled back and I told him while clinging to
him,
"Let me stay with you. Let me hold you until I can no longer hold
anymore."
** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *At the Airport* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **
We were saying our 'see you laters', but not good-byes. Good-byes meant
that we were never going to see each other again, and that wasn't going to
happen. Not now when we had finally found each other. There were little kisses
and hugs here and there, but I was too sad.
"Flight 614 to USA, boarding now," announced the flight attendance. I
clung onto Mamo-chan harder, longing for him not to go. But I knew this was for
the best. I knew that Mamo-chan deserved the best, and if he had to go the
States for it, then I would see him go.
"Usako, I have to go. Remember, I love you. Don't forget that. I'll
come visit whenever I can, and then, I'll be back for ever as soon as
possible. I love you too much to let you go. Wait for me?" he asked.
"Of course Mamo-chan. I'll wait for you as long as live." We kissed
again, a passionate one.
"Flight 614 to USA, last call." He pulled back, and I tried to hold my
tears back, for the sake of him and me.
"I love you Mamo-chan, see you later." He smiled, and mouthed 'I love you,
Usako', walking away from me. He gave his ticket to the flight attendant, and headed
towards the plane. He looked back and I yelled,
"We'll see each other again!" He nodded again, turned, and left from my
sight. Tears were flying down my cheeks freely now.
"Right?"
The End !!
AN: That's it peoples!! Seriously! I don't know if I should do a sequel or
not. Your e-mail will answer that! Hehez! I really, really love how this fic
turned out. I changed the title after the whole story was finished because the
old title of this fic fit with my original idea, but then when I changed the
whole thing, I figured it wouldn't be such a great title after all, so that's
why I changed it. Hope you like!
By: GoldStar
E-mail: GoldStar@eternalmoon.zzn.com
Site: http://surf.to/goldstar
Hi hi!!!!!! I'm back!!! I got a lot of comments about this fic saying how
screwed up it was that Mamoru said that he didn't love Usagi back, so now I'm
back to tell you what happens at the end of this fic. You guys decide if you
want an sequel to this and I'll decide by your reviews and e-mails. Ok, enough
of me yapping...on with chp. 2!
- Flashback -
"I...I LOVE YOU!" Oh man!! I had this whole love sappy speech ready and
that's all I could say! I could shoot myself right now. I look at his face and
he is in total shock. Now, I definitely wasn't planning to do this, but this
was an one in a million kinda thing. I kissed him. Yes, me, Usagi Tsukino kissed
Mamoru Chiba; my Mamo-chan. Now, this was my first kiss, so I wasn't a pro or
anything. I thought I felt him respond, but then he stopped and broke it. As soon as
I felt cold air on my lips, I felt like breaking down and crawling into a hole
again. I looked at this face for a sign that I was wrong, but it simply wasn't
there. I could feel water starting to form at the corner of my eye. He looked
guiltily at me and whispered,
"Well, I really wasn't expecting this. And if it's a joke, I'm not
laughing. I'm really sorry Usagi," he used my real name for the first time,
"but I don't feel the same way. I can't love you." My world came to an end at
that very second.
- End Flashback -
- Usagi's POV -
I could feel tears start to crawl up into my eyes, then fall right back
down and splatter on the cool bench. I wanted to run, but my legs just didn't
do what I wanted them to. Mamoru looked at me with pity when he saw those tears.
Kami-sama, the last thing that I wanted now was for him to pity me. He started
to speak,
"Usagi, I'm sorry. I really am. I, I just don't and can't. You
understand, right?" he asked anxiously, not wanting to break my heart again. I
just simply nodded my head...and ran. I didn't know where I was going, but I
just ran. I stopped only because I was out of breath and when I looked up and
saw my surroundings, I realized that I was at the temple. And then I remembered
that there was a meeting. So, without wanting to make the girls even madder (and
wanting comfort), I walked inside the temple, tears still on my cheeks. I could
feel that they were about to complain about my being late when I walked inside.
But as soon as I put my head up, I saw surprise, confusion, and sadness
written all over their faces. I just closed the door behind me and sank down to
the ground, crying tears that I thought were already out. I just sat there. Then
suddenly I felt arms go around me and I looked up to find out it was Rei-chan.
"Usa-chan, I don't know what's wrong, but if you want to talk about it,
then go ahead. But if you don't, just keep crying," and then I felt everyone's
arms go around me. Artemis and Luna settled themselves on my lap. For the
next 5 minutes, it was like this. I appreciated the warmth and love so much.
I stopped crying and gently tried to get out of their warm embraces. When I saw
their faces, it was filled with concern. Mina-chan spoke this time,
"What is it Usa-chan? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" she asked
patiently. I sniffled.
"Well, as you all already know, I love Mamo-chan." They nodded so I continued,
"I heard from Motoki that he was going to go to Harvard in the States in two weeks and
might not come back in 8 years or maybe even more. And since I didn't want him to
leave without telling him my feelings, I told him today. Right before I came
here..."
"What did he say?" asked Makoto-chan, although everyone knew the answer.
I started crying all over again. It was so hard for me to say the next words.
"He said that he didn't...that he doesn't and he couldn't. I could just
tell that he only said those things out of pity though..."
"Oh Usa, if he can't see how special you really are, then he doesn't
deserve you," said Ami-chan. I smiled a little with gratitude at all of them. I honestly
don't know what I would do without them.
"Thank you everyone. If you weren't here, I don't know what I would've
done. Thank you so much."
"Hey girl, it's no problem...I'm sure you would do the same for all of us.
Well, actually, you better!" replied Rei. We all let out a small giggle and had
another group hug.
** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *The Next Week* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **
The next day, I went back to the arcade. I knew that Mamoru wasn't going
to be there because he would be packing. He would be leaving in two days. I sighed and made
my way into the arcade. There stood Motoki, looking like he was waiting for me.
When he saw me come in, the look of concern went to his face. At that moment, I
knew that he knew what I had said and done. I went his way and when we met, we
exchanged hellos.
"How are you doing, Usa? I heard from Mamoru what happened. But I'm here
to tell you something good, Usa." He had on the kind of smart-alec grin. I
smiled a little myself.
"You're supposed to be here anyway. But what is this great news you have
to tell me?"
"Well, all I'm going to say is to be ready at 6:00 for me to pick you up."
I was definitely confused now.
"Huh?" I really hope that Motoki-san isn't asking me on a date out of
pity, and especially if he already has Reika. I narrowed my eyes in a
suspicious looking way. He must've known what I was thinking.
"Hehe, don't worry. I'm not asking you out. I have my Reika. I'm hurt
that you would think of me like that." He pouted. This, however, didn't make me
feel guilty, but more convinced that he was up to something. My brow raised.
"Ok, ok. It's a surprise though, so you're not getting it out of me. Just
dress up really formal and be ready by then. I'm sure you'll like it!" He
winked, then walked away. I might as well just go along with his plan. What
else could go bad?
** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *In the Evening* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **
It was 5:55. I was wearing a pink two-piece dress. The top was a halter: a
neck with two straps criss-crossing halfway at my back and the end was also a V,
letting me show some skin at my stomach sides. It had small diamonds on the
front part of the straps and against the neckline. The skirt was two-layers,
that went to the ground. The bottom layer was plain white, while the second
layer was a sheer pink, having sparkles on it. I had pink heels on, like the
one's Sailor Venus wears. I put my hair down this time and crimped it, also
putting sparkles in it. I checked myself in the mirror and okayed everything. I
sighed and thought that no matter what Motoki had planned for me, I would never
be completely satisfied this night. Unless, of course, it was with Mamo-chan. I shook my
head. No, I have to stop calling him that. He definitely is NOT mine.
Then, I heard the doorbell ring. It was Motoki. Lucky no one was home, or
dad would already have the shotgun pointing at Motoki-san's head. I walked
downstairs, opened the door, and saw that Motoki-san was wearing casual clothes.
I was definitely confused and clueless now. He saw it and laughed.
"Don't worry about it. You'll see. Now, you have somewhere to go
princess." I just merely nodded and followed him into his car. "Here, where
this blindfold. I don't want you knowing where you're going until we're there."
I took the blindfold and put over my eyes. In the next 15 minutes or so, I
could feel the car stopping and turning while I was in a world of darkness.
Then, finally, he stopped and turned off the car. He told me to just sit here,
and seconds later, I could hear the door open. He took my hand and led me out
of the car. I could feel him leading me somewhere, and I just followed,
trusting him. Then, we stopped and were in a building. I could hear him
open a door and push me gently forward. I could feel something feathery
brushing against my foot. Then, I heard Motoki-san say something.
"After I take the blindfold off, I want to you keep your eyes closed.
Don't open them until you hear the door close, ok?" I nodded, and felt the
cloth come off my eyes. Then, I heard the door slowly close. My eyes opened
and I looked at my surroundings. I was in a strange apartment, and there were
ruby red rose petals scattered all over the floor. Candles were the only
light source. In front of me, there was a small table with a rose, lighted
candle, and a note that had my name on it. I opened and it read,
"Come to the balcony where you can see the moon and stars. Bring the
rose..." I was curious about where I was and who was I was going to see at the
balcony. I walked, the rose petals flattening underneath my heels. Soon, I
came to the balcony. When I looked to the left towards the end, there was Mamo-chan.
He was dressed in a tuxedo and looking very handsome. At the sight of him though, my
heart wrenched. I asked angrily,
"Why are you doing this to me?!! Is this something out of pity?! Well,
let me tell you something! I don't need your pity! You think I can't handle
getting turned down? Do you like to see me suffer or something? Are you not
satisfied that you gave me my most memorable embarrassing moment yet when I said
I love you?!!!!" I was crying by now and collapsed on the floor, my head in my
hands. The rose that was previously in my hand was now also on the ground,
forgotten. I could feel the cold night air on my skin, sending me shivers down
my spine. Then, I felt warmth and realized that it was *him*.
"I'm sorry, Usagi. I never meant to hurt you. I wanted you to come here
to tell you something, not to embarrass you or pity you. I would never do
that." I heard his sweet voice carry through the air.
"What then? What could you possibly tell me now?" I whispered.
"I love you," he answered. My eyes widened. I pulled free of his embrace
and yelled again.
"I don't get you!! What do you mean?!! I just don't understand!! One
moment you say that you can't love me and the next you're saying you do?" I
looked at him angrily through my tears.
"Usagi, let me explain. When you told me you loved me, to say I was
beyond shocked is only the start of it. At that time, I thought I didn't. But
then you ran away, and when I came back here, I went through the scenes over in
my head. I realized that I wanted to kiss you again, to feel your warmth, and
most of all, I wanted to hear you say those words again. I realized that I was
in love with you and had never noticed it. Maybe it's because I was blinded and
too ignorant to admit it. But everyday of my life, ever since I first saw you,
I have kept dreaming and seeing you in my head, never able to get you out of my
mind. And yesterday, I realized that I can't and won't keep you out of my
heart. I love you too much to let this one chance of us being together to go,"
I absorbed this into my head and heard him whisper, "I love you, and if it takes
forever for you to be able to trust me again, then dammit I'll give forever to
you." And then, he walked up to me, and held me. I stiffened, but I was
finally able to relax ever since I saw him. I could tell, feel, that he was
telling me the truth. He used his finger to pull my chin up, I looked into his
eyes. They were so full of love, with a little of nervousness and anxiousness
on the side that I simply had to melt. Then, our lips met in a heart-searing
kiss. After a few minutes, we both pulled back and I told him while clinging to
him,
"Let me stay with you. Let me hold you until I can no longer hold
anymore."
** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** *At the Airport* ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** ** **
We were saying our 'see you laters', but not good-byes. Good-byes meant
that we were never going to see each other again, and that wasn't going to
happen. Not now when we had finally found each other. There were little kisses
and hugs here and there, but I was too sad.
"Flight 614 to USA, boarding now," announced the flight attendance. I
clung onto Mamo-chan harder, longing for him not to go. But I knew this was for
the best. I knew that Mamo-chan deserved the best, and if he had to go the
States for it, then I would see him go.
"Usako, I have to go. Remember, I love you. Don't forget that. I'll
come visit whenever I can, and then, I'll be back for ever as soon as
possible. I love you too much to let you go. Wait for me?" he asked.
"Of course Mamo-chan. I'll wait for you as long as live." We kissed
again, a passionate one.
"Flight 614 to USA, last call." He pulled back, and I tried to hold my
tears back, for the sake of him and me.
"I love you Mamo-chan, see you later." He smiled, and mouthed 'I love you,
Usako', walking away from me. He gave his ticket to the flight attendant, and headed
towards the plane. He looked back and I yelled,
"We'll see each other again!" He nodded again, turned, and left from my
sight. Tears were flying down my cheeks freely now.
"Right?"
The End !!
AN: That's it peoples!! Seriously! I don't know if I should do a sequel or
not. Your e-mail will answer that! Hehez! I really, really love how this fic
turned out. I changed the title after the whole story was finished because the
old title of this fic fit with my original idea, but then when I changed the
whole thing, I figured it wouldn't be such a great title after all, so that's
why I changed it. Hope you like!