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Title: Fighting the Mirror
Part: 3/?
Author: Maiyako
Disclaimer: Don't own em so don't sue
Pairings: 2x1, 3x4, ?5x2? ( ^.~)
Warnings: Yaoi, Yuri, Het,AU, OOCness, cursing, and a little angst.
Archive: if anyone would actually want to sure, just tell me first kay?
C&C: yes please
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Duo's eyes fluttered open as he slowly came to.//God, what a headache.// he thought as everything around him came into focus. "Eeep!" he cried out. The first thing he saw were a pair of very round green eeyes not even two inches from his face.
The eyes blinked, then pulled away and the rest of the person came into view. Duo "Eeep"ed again. In front of him stood a figure, who other than it's bright green eyes looked exactly like him, it even had the same clothes as he had been known to wear. "He's awake!" it called out in a feminine voice.
"I heard." Someone else responded and another voice giggled in the background. The green eyed girl put her face close to his again and smiled.
"Morning dark eyes." She said and this got some laughter from somewhere else in the room.
"Aijou, give our guest some room to breathe." A man said placing a hand on the girl's shoulder. She pulled away from Duo once again.
"I'm sorry Ningyoushi."
Duo's head began to whirl //this is too much.// he winced, /this is too weird….like twighlight zone weird.// He tried to sit up but the pain in his head was to great and he sat flopped back down again. //I must be dreaming but…dreams don't usually hurt this bad.// Duo put his hands against his temples and winced. The man that had spoke earlier helped Duo prop himself up against some pillows and then offered him a cup of something that smelt like tea.
"Drink this, it will help the throbbing subside." The man said with acdemey award winning smile. Duo figured that if they wanted to kill him they would have done it while he was out so he took the cup and eagerly downed its content. Some of the bitter sweet liquid had worked its way down his chin but he barely noticed.
Some one in the room laughed and said, "look at that, he even eats like you Mai!" and the green eyed look alike scowled.
Duo was surprised at how quickly he noticed the throbbing subside. He sat up completely and looked around the room. He was sitting on a small cot in what appeared to be someone's living room. The room was painted a soft yellow and had a matching floral couch, loveseat and armchair along with a small wooden coffee table.
His vision was a bit blurry but he could make out the figures in the room; then man who had offered him the drink sat on the coffee table while across the room stood the look alike, Quatre and Wufei.
The man turned toward the three on the opposite side of the room and said, "I think that it is best if you leave now while I explain this situation to our guest." His look-alike and Quatre looked at Wufei and once Wufei made a movement toward the door ther rest did as well.
Duo's vision had cleared and he got a better look at the man. He could only be in his mid thirties with wavy, sandy blonde hair, and brown eyes that were protected by glasses. His skin was tan and Duo noted again the man's great smile. As he looked the man over Duo noticed he was wearing a lab coat.
"Doctor?"he asked.
The man nodded, "I am doctor Okusankuokuo….but you may call me Okusan, Mr, Maxwell."
"Guess that means I don't need to introduce myself."Duo tried to give his prize smirk but it came out as more of a wince It seems the drink hadn't complete rid him of the pain.
"Yes, Mr. Maxwell. I know a lot about you." Okusan said, his smile never leaving his face but his eyes taking a look of concern at Duo's wince.
Duo looked at the cup to see if he had left anything in there,// I wish I could say the same….// The doctor reached across the table, grabbed a small pitcher and poured Duo another cupful.
"Perhaps, you should tell me the last thing you remember?" Okusan asked as Duo gulped down the cup again.
"Why?" Duo asked, finally managing to smirk his world renown smirk. "If I've learned anything in my life it's that knowing to much and too little are both dangerous things, but telling a stranger all you know is just suicidal."
Okusan chuckled gentle and sat down beside Duo on the cot. "Well how about this, do you remember how you got that nasty bump on your head?"
Duo felt the back of his head and found the lump. "…Sanura…" the events from before began to return to him. "The girl who looked like Quatre..then one who said she had destoryed the LU38 base…and the two voices from behind the door then…there was Wufei and me?" Duo's jaw clamped shut after he realized he had just said everying thing aloud. //So much for keeping quiet.//
Okusan sighed and turned himself to face Duo, "I guess I have some explaining to do…" Then he looked past Duo into the distance, beyond even the walls of the room. "Back when the war first started all of my brothers were eager to join and fight…they all died along with my father and mother…victoms of the war they were so eager to partake in." He began.
//Oh great,// Duo rolled his eyes //this guy is gonna tell me his life story.// He thought but didn't inturpt.
"I hated war and all of it's senseless killing…" Okusan explained the soft smile never leaving his face, "…so when I heard of a group of me attempt to end all of it's foolishness I was all but too eager to help. I wanted to help in the actual building of the Gundams, you see, but I was given a job more suited to my…talents."
With the mention of Gundams, Duo suddenly realized what 'group of men' the doctor was talking about.
"They had given me the job og creating…a sort of decoy. In case any of the Gundam pilots got in a fix, the 'decoys' were to be sent out to cause a little trouble from the real pilots. I was eager to do my best so I searched for the perfect candidates. I thought of all the things they would need to be. Similar appearance, combat ability, and they would have to believe. They would have to beliece that they were the real Cundam pilots in case the got caught, they wouldn't feel the need to release valuable information. That's were my 'talent' came in.
"Previous to my association with the Gundam Project I had already started studing Hyakuhei Teisei (1), the process of subconciuos brain manipulation, futher broken down, the actual act of creating multiple personalities.
"I found that this process wrked better on humans with psychic abilites and futhermore its also been presumed that woman are subseptable to this form of maniputlation than men. (2) and seeing as how all of you are so…small…it was simple to find girls your size.
"I guess I got carried away because at some point I stopped looking for 'decoys' to the Gundam pilots and started looking for…someone who could change the world…and I found five people who I thought had the ability to do that…without realizing that there were already five destin to do that…"
"The first four all had great psychic ability and each had their own litte…special ability, sort to say. I found those four easily enough…it was almost as if they found me, but anyways their appeances ditated who they 'became.' That left me with one Guncam pilot to create a 'decoy' for. Heero Yuy. I instatnly saw the problem with trying to place such an extreme personality into the mind of someone that didn't have the experience to control it…but I did it anyways.
"I choose a girl with a weaker psychic level thinking that it would produce the best results." Okusan grimaced and Duo guessed he had made the wrong choice. "So when I had finished I had five gils who would be the decoys for the Gundam pilots…that's when the order came in to destroy them.
"They were afraid the decoys would go out of control and try to take the places of the real pilots, even at the exstent of killing them." Duo saw Okusan's eyes glaze over and he fidgeted. He really couldn't stand staying quiet so long but he wanted to hear what the doctor had to say, so he asked, " But you didn't?"
Okusan shook his head, "I had thrown myself so emotionally into my work before I had even realized I had fromed a sort of rapport with the girls and I decided I would jealously defend them and their well being. I chose to abort the mission in its entirety and keep them for myself. I think that I could have dealt with losing the other four but not Aijou. I never told them of the command but I did stop the Hyakuhei Teisei treatments and the stronger girls were able to override and assimilate ther other 'personality'…except for Kimera."
"Kimera, was she the one who had Heero's personality?" Duo cut in.
"Hai," Okusan ansered, "she would have fits in which she would entirely believe she was Heero Yuy and then she got a hold of the mission plans for the last order. The one for the destrustion of the decoys and saw that as her mission."
Duo knew what that meant; he knew that if Heero ever got informed that his mission was to destroy the Gundam pilots. He shudder at the fact that he wasn't absoulutely sure that Heero wouldn't. Okusan turned to Duo and looked at him inquizitively, asking, "Are you protective?"
"hnn?" Duo was caught off guard by the question.
"Would you die for the ones you held close?" Okusan reiterated, "I always wondered if she got that from you or if it was comeplete her true 'self."
"She," Duo hesitated slightly, he still wasn't sure how much of the doctors story h believed." The one like me…with the green eyes."
Okusan nodded and continued, "Kimera attacked the group and tried to kill them but Maiyako tried to stop her, but at the same time she would fight back against Kimera, she just let Kimera keep on attacking her but never let her attack the others or fight back…but when Hyoma, the decoy for Trowa Parton, Maiyako realized she had no choice but to kill Kimera…so she did."
Duo wrinkled his brow in thought, //this is just too much information to take in at once.// "Is this Maiyako based on me?"
Okusan nodded. Duo nodded as well and asked another question, " So the ones that are left are mine, Quatre's and Wufei's?"
Okusan paused before answering, "they aren't really anybodies…they were their own indivual selves be for I came in…but yes the ones left are the ones based on you, Quatre, and Wufei."
Sanura popped her head in the door, and shortly after the rest of her body followed. She was wearing a yellow sundress that came just below her knees and hung loosely on her small frame. In her hair she had a white head band with sunflowers on it.
At first it struck Duo as odd, as if seeing Quatre in a dress, and that thought brought a smile to his face.
"I thought if we changed out of our 'work clothes' it would be more comfertable for him." She said gentely.
Okusan nodded and bekoned her close, "That's good, perhaps it would be interesting to see hwo he and Aijou, react to one another…it would make some decisions easier."
Sanura called out of the room, "Mai, Ningyoushi wants you."
The green eyed girl popped her head in the door, "Yes ningyoushi?" she asked while Okusan guided Sanura to the door by the small of her back. He towered over the girl. "I decided that the data I take from your reaction to Kan Kokushibyou will play a major role in future actions."
The girl did not move. Eventually Okusan had to push her into the room. //I guess the thought of being alone with me isn't that appealing to her…// Okusan smiled and said, "be good Aijiou."
The girl stood ackwardly on the other side of the room. She was wearing a pair of blue jeans that were baggy and sagged only on enough to show the waistband of what appeared to be boy's boxer shorts and a plain whit cotton t-shirt that went just past her belly button. She had her hair pulled back into a high bun with two long braides coming out of the bottom of it, "Her eyes aren't the only difference, her skin is darker and her hair is lighter than mine…not to mention she has breast." Duo let his eyes fall to the girl's bust.
Maiyako turned beat read forcing Duo to realize that he was speaking aloud again. "So you're Kan Kokushibyou?" she asked then before he could give any response she continued, "Well I'm Maiyako…"
"How did I not notice that before? I mean they are an obivious clue to your gender." Duo cut in.
Maiyako's face went red again when she realized he was still talking about her breast. "Hey!" she scowled; this was an ackward situation enough without him discusing her breast.
He shook his head and said, "I'm sorry, I'm just not used to having a copy of myself…it's gonna take some getting used to, ya know."
She shook her head, causing her braids to dance behind her, as if fending off his words, "I'm not your copy, I'm Maiyako. Yes, granted for awhile was subconsciously manipulated into believing that I was you but you'd be amazed what someone can make you believeing by teling you day in day out, 24-7 that it is the trueth. Try living knowing that even though the treatments have stopped a part of you will always be some one else. Something put inside of you and you can never really know if it's you or someone else making your decisions."
Duo looked up at her regretting what he had said, "yeah…sorry I didn't mean it that way…"
Maiyako looked down at him then sat down beside him on the cot. She shrugged, "yeah…well…can I ask you something…I mean you don't have to answer if you don't want to but it's something I have always thought about…"
Duo looked at her and smiled, happy that she moved the subject along, "yeah, sure. Shoot."
"What was he like." Maiyako asked staring off into space, " I have visual memories of him, and I know I cared about him a lot but…I have no idea what he was like. He is one of the strongest memories I have…" she turned to face him, " could you please tell me about Solo."
The smile left Duo's face. // Oh my god…when they were making her like me…they must of given her my memories…or something close to them.// He realized now how sorry he was for this girl. He had always forced himself not to have self pity…nothing would get done that way but he did realize that it wasn't an easy past. And this girl had her past must have been hard enough with out having to have his too. He looked down at the ground and remembered Solo.
She looked at him, "you don't have to tell me now of course…in time…but it's just something I would like to know before I die."
Duo nodded, glad he didn't have to bring up all of that now…someday he would tell her of course.
"I tape them down." She said smiling and when he looked at her confused added, "my…chest..I tape it down."
Duo laughed softly and figured he might as well start asking some questions to understand what is going on around here, "So why does Okusan call you Aijou (beloved daughter)?" Duo asked changing the subject.
Maiyako was quiet for a second, considering what she should tell him, then responded slowly, "He's in love with me."
Duo looked at her in disbelief, she couldn't be more that 16 years old, and Okusan had to be in his early thirties. She pulled closer to him and whispered in his ears, "I didn't do it…I didn't make him but it happened. He calls me that to make the others think he loves me like a daughter but he told me. He told me he loved me."
Duo wondered why she whispered then he remembered the doctor talking about taking data from their first meeting and realized he was probably recording this.
"And you?" he whispered back, surprised to find himself hoping not.
"He is Ningyoushi, that is all he is to me. Besides one day the person he was destine to be with will appear and he forget about me."
"Ningyoushi…why call him the 'doll maker'?" Duo asked.
"Because that's what wer are. 'Dolls' to be discarded when we've been out grown or broken. Whe are pretty to look at but on the inside we are hollow and because he made us this way, because he made us dolls, he is the doll maker."
He pulled her closer and said, "you are not hollow. I've just met you and I see you're full of beautiful emotions and no matter where those emotions came from, they are beautiful."
There they remained, Duo sitting on the cot his arms around Maiyako with her head gentlely resting on his chest. Duo thought about Sanura and the way she said she felt about Maiyako, about how Okusan would feel when he watched the tape, if he was really in love with her, and about the familiar stranger, who was so much like him but so different, with her beautiful green eyes. Duo wondered if the feelings he had developed in such a short time for her were w betrayal to the feelings he had for Heero.
Maiyako didn't pull awau and Duo didn't let go. They remained there, together, entwined.
Koigokoro
Footnotes
1) Hyakuhei Teisei- literally translated means something like all evil whisper, I think, and I thought it was a good name for the type of brainwashing that was done to the girls.
2) It's true in this case- It's kinda explained like this, supposedly women have a more complex way of thinking then men::smirks:: so they're easier to breinwash or manipulate, kinda like that whole it's easier to hypnotize smart people or it's easier to fool and adult that a child because when you throw yourself into something trying to defy it or prove it wrong, then by the very nature of what you are doing you become entangled in what at first maybe a very simple and blunt lie. Does this make any sense cause it's hard to explain.
Title: Fighting the Mirror
Part: 3/?
Author: Maiyako
Disclaimer: Don't own em so don't sue
Pairings: 2x1, 3x4, ?5x2? ( ^.~)
Warnings: Yaoi, Yuri, Het,AU, OOCness, cursing, and a little angst.
Archive: if anyone would actually want to sure, just tell me first kay?
C&C: yes please
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Duo's eyes fluttered open as he slowly came to.//God, what a headache.// he thought as everything around him came into focus. "Eeep!" he cried out. The first thing he saw were a pair of very round green eeyes not even two inches from his face.
The eyes blinked, then pulled away and the rest of the person came into view. Duo "Eeep"ed again. In front of him stood a figure, who other than it's bright green eyes looked exactly like him, it even had the same clothes as he had been known to wear. "He's awake!" it called out in a feminine voice.
"I heard." Someone else responded and another voice giggled in the background. The green eyed girl put her face close to his again and smiled.
"Morning dark eyes." She said and this got some laughter from somewhere else in the room.
"Aijou, give our guest some room to breathe." A man said placing a hand on the girl's shoulder. She pulled away from Duo once again.
"I'm sorry Ningyoushi."
Duo's head began to whirl //this is too much.// he winced, /this is too weird….like twighlight zone weird.// He tried to sit up but the pain in his head was to great and he sat flopped back down again. //I must be dreaming but…dreams don't usually hurt this bad.// Duo put his hands against his temples and winced. The man that had spoke earlier helped Duo prop himself up against some pillows and then offered him a cup of something that smelt like tea.
"Drink this, it will help the throbbing subside." The man said with acdemey award winning smile. Duo figured that if they wanted to kill him they would have done it while he was out so he took the cup and eagerly downed its content. Some of the bitter sweet liquid had worked its way down his chin but he barely noticed.
Some one in the room laughed and said, "look at that, he even eats like you Mai!" and the green eyed look alike scowled.
Duo was surprised at how quickly he noticed the throbbing subside. He sat up completely and looked around the room. He was sitting on a small cot in what appeared to be someone's living room. The room was painted a soft yellow and had a matching floral couch, loveseat and armchair along with a small wooden coffee table.
His vision was a bit blurry but he could make out the figures in the room; then man who had offered him the drink sat on the coffee table while across the room stood the look alike, Quatre and Wufei.
The man turned toward the three on the opposite side of the room and said, "I think that it is best if you leave now while I explain this situation to our guest." His look-alike and Quatre looked at Wufei and once Wufei made a movement toward the door ther rest did as well.
Duo's vision had cleared and he got a better look at the man. He could only be in his mid thirties with wavy, sandy blonde hair, and brown eyes that were protected by glasses. His skin was tan and Duo noted again the man's great smile. As he looked the man over Duo noticed he was wearing a lab coat.
"Doctor?"he asked.
The man nodded, "I am doctor Okusankuokuo….but you may call me Okusan, Mr, Maxwell."
"Guess that means I don't need to introduce myself."Duo tried to give his prize smirk but it came out as more of a wince It seems the drink hadn't complete rid him of the pain.
"Yes, Mr. Maxwell. I know a lot about you." Okusan said, his smile never leaving his face but his eyes taking a look of concern at Duo's wince.
Duo looked at the cup to see if he had left anything in there,// I wish I could say the same….// The doctor reached across the table, grabbed a small pitcher and poured Duo another cupful.
"Perhaps, you should tell me the last thing you remember?" Okusan asked as Duo gulped down the cup again.
"Why?" Duo asked, finally managing to smirk his world renown smirk. "If I've learned anything in my life it's that knowing to much and too little are both dangerous things, but telling a stranger all you know is just suicidal."
Okusan chuckled gentle and sat down beside Duo on the cot. "Well how about this, do you remember how you got that nasty bump on your head?"
Duo felt the back of his head and found the lump. "…Sanura…" the events from before began to return to him. "The girl who looked like Quatre..then one who said she had destoryed the LU38 base…and the two voices from behind the door then…there was Wufei and me?" Duo's jaw clamped shut after he realized he had just said everying thing aloud. //So much for keeping quiet.//
Okusan sighed and turned himself to face Duo, "I guess I have some explaining to do…" Then he looked past Duo into the distance, beyond even the walls of the room. "Back when the war first started all of my brothers were eager to join and fight…they all died along with my father and mother…victoms of the war they were so eager to partake in." He began.
//Oh great,// Duo rolled his eyes //this guy is gonna tell me his life story.// He thought but didn't inturpt.
"I hated war and all of it's senseless killing…" Okusan explained the soft smile never leaving his face, "…so when I heard of a group of me attempt to end all of it's foolishness I was all but too eager to help. I wanted to help in the actual building of the Gundams, you see, but I was given a job more suited to my…talents."
With the mention of Gundams, Duo suddenly realized what 'group of men' the doctor was talking about.
"They had given me the job og creating…a sort of decoy. In case any of the Gundam pilots got in a fix, the 'decoys' were to be sent out to cause a little trouble from the real pilots. I was eager to do my best so I searched for the perfect candidates. I thought of all the things they would need to be. Similar appearance, combat ability, and they would have to believe. They would have to beliece that they were the real Cundam pilots in case the got caught, they wouldn't feel the need to release valuable information. That's were my 'talent' came in.
"Previous to my association with the Gundam Project I had already started studing Hyakuhei Teisei (1), the process of subconciuos brain manipulation, futher broken down, the actual act of creating multiple personalities.
"I found that this process wrked better on humans with psychic abilites and futhermore its also been presumed that woman are subseptable to this form of maniputlation than men. (2) and seeing as how all of you are so…small…it was simple to find girls your size.
"I guess I got carried away because at some point I stopped looking for 'decoys' to the Gundam pilots and started looking for…someone who could change the world…and I found five people who I thought had the ability to do that…without realizing that there were already five destin to do that…"
"The first four all had great psychic ability and each had their own litte…special ability, sort to say. I found those four easily enough…it was almost as if they found me, but anyways their appeances ditated who they 'became.' That left me with one Guncam pilot to create a 'decoy' for. Heero Yuy. I instatnly saw the problem with trying to place such an extreme personality into the mind of someone that didn't have the experience to control it…but I did it anyways.
"I choose a girl with a weaker psychic level thinking that it would produce the best results." Okusan grimaced and Duo guessed he had made the wrong choice. "So when I had finished I had five gils who would be the decoys for the Gundam pilots…that's when the order came in to destroy them.
"They were afraid the decoys would go out of control and try to take the places of the real pilots, even at the exstent of killing them." Duo saw Okusan's eyes glaze over and he fidgeted. He really couldn't stand staying quiet so long but he wanted to hear what the doctor had to say, so he asked, " But you didn't?"
Okusan shook his head, "I had thrown myself so emotionally into my work before I had even realized I had fromed a sort of rapport with the girls and I decided I would jealously defend them and their well being. I chose to abort the mission in its entirety and keep them for myself. I think that I could have dealt with losing the other four but not Aijou. I never told them of the command but I did stop the Hyakuhei Teisei treatments and the stronger girls were able to override and assimilate ther other 'personality'…except for Kimera."
"Kimera, was she the one who had Heero's personality?" Duo cut in.
"Hai," Okusan ansered, "she would have fits in which she would entirely believe she was Heero Yuy and then she got a hold of the mission plans for the last order. The one for the destrustion of the decoys and saw that as her mission."
Duo knew what that meant; he knew that if Heero ever got informed that his mission was to destroy the Gundam pilots. He shudder at the fact that he wasn't absoulutely sure that Heero wouldn't. Okusan turned to Duo and looked at him inquizitively, asking, "Are you protective?"
"hnn?" Duo was caught off guard by the question.
"Would you die for the ones you held close?" Okusan reiterated, "I always wondered if she got that from you or if it was comeplete her true 'self."
"She," Duo hesitated slightly, he still wasn't sure how much of the doctors story h believed." The one like me…with the green eyes."
Okusan nodded and continued, "Kimera attacked the group and tried to kill them but Maiyako tried to stop her, but at the same time she would fight back against Kimera, she just let Kimera keep on attacking her but never let her attack the others or fight back…but when Hyoma, the decoy for Trowa Parton, Maiyako realized she had no choice but to kill Kimera…so she did."
Duo wrinkled his brow in thought, //this is just too much information to take in at once.// "Is this Maiyako based on me?"
Okusan nodded. Duo nodded as well and asked another question, " So the ones that are left are mine, Quatre's and Wufei's?"
Okusan paused before answering, "they aren't really anybodies…they were their own indivual selves be for I came in…but yes the ones left are the ones based on you, Quatre, and Wufei."
Sanura popped her head in the door, and shortly after the rest of her body followed. She was wearing a yellow sundress that came just below her knees and hung loosely on her small frame. In her hair she had a white head band with sunflowers on it.
At first it struck Duo as odd, as if seeing Quatre in a dress, and that thought brought a smile to his face.
"I thought if we changed out of our 'work clothes' it would be more comfertable for him." She said gentely.
Okusan nodded and bekoned her close, "That's good, perhaps it would be interesting to see hwo he and Aijou, react to one another…it would make some decisions easier."
Sanura called out of the room, "Mai, Ningyoushi wants you."
The green eyed girl popped her head in the door, "Yes ningyoushi?" she asked while Okusan guided Sanura to the door by the small of her back. He towered over the girl. "I decided that the data I take from your reaction to Kan Kokushibyou will play a major role in future actions."
The girl did not move. Eventually Okusan had to push her into the room. //I guess the thought of being alone with me isn't that appealing to her…// Okusan smiled and said, "be good Aijiou."
The girl stood ackwardly on the other side of the room. She was wearing a pair of blue jeans that were baggy and sagged only on enough to show the waistband of what appeared to be boy's boxer shorts and a plain whit cotton t-shirt that went just past her belly button. She had her hair pulled back into a high bun with two long braides coming out of the bottom of it, "Her eyes aren't the only difference, her skin is darker and her hair is lighter than mine…not to mention she has breast." Duo let his eyes fall to the girl's bust.
Maiyako turned beat read forcing Duo to realize that he was speaking aloud again. "So you're Kan Kokushibyou?" she asked then before he could give any response she continued, "Well I'm Maiyako…"
"How did I not notice that before? I mean they are an obivious clue to your gender." Duo cut in.
Maiyako's face went red again when she realized he was still talking about her breast. "Hey!" she scowled; this was an ackward situation enough without him discusing her breast.
He shook his head and said, "I'm sorry, I'm just not used to having a copy of myself…it's gonna take some getting used to, ya know."
She shook her head, causing her braids to dance behind her, as if fending off his words, "I'm not your copy, I'm Maiyako. Yes, granted for awhile was subconsciously manipulated into believing that I was you but you'd be amazed what someone can make you believeing by teling you day in day out, 24-7 that it is the trueth. Try living knowing that even though the treatments have stopped a part of you will always be some one else. Something put inside of you and you can never really know if it's you or someone else making your decisions."
Duo looked up at her regretting what he had said, "yeah…sorry I didn't mean it that way…"
Maiyako looked down at him then sat down beside him on the cot. She shrugged, "yeah…well…can I ask you something…I mean you don't have to answer if you don't want to but it's something I have always thought about…"
Duo looked at her and smiled, happy that she moved the subject along, "yeah, sure. Shoot."
"What was he like." Maiyako asked staring off into space, " I have visual memories of him, and I know I cared about him a lot but…I have no idea what he was like. He is one of the strongest memories I have…" she turned to face him, " could you please tell me about Solo."
The smile left Duo's face. // Oh my god…when they were making her like me…they must of given her my memories…or something close to them.// He realized now how sorry he was for this girl. He had always forced himself not to have self pity…nothing would get done that way but he did realize that it wasn't an easy past. And this girl had her past must have been hard enough with out having to have his too. He looked down at the ground and remembered Solo.
She looked at him, "you don't have to tell me now of course…in time…but it's just something I would like to know before I die."
Duo nodded, glad he didn't have to bring up all of that now…someday he would tell her of course.
"I tape them down." She said smiling and when he looked at her confused added, "my…chest..I tape it down."
Duo laughed softly and figured he might as well start asking some questions to understand what is going on around here, "So why does Okusan call you Aijou (beloved daughter)?" Duo asked changing the subject.
Maiyako was quiet for a second, considering what she should tell him, then responded slowly, "He's in love with me."
Duo looked at her in disbelief, she couldn't be more that 16 years old, and Okusan had to be in his early thirties. She pulled closer to him and whispered in his ears, "I didn't do it…I didn't make him but it happened. He calls me that to make the others think he loves me like a daughter but he told me. He told me he loved me."
Duo wondered why she whispered then he remembered the doctor talking about taking data from their first meeting and realized he was probably recording this.
"And you?" he whispered back, surprised to find himself hoping not.
"He is Ningyoushi, that is all he is to me. Besides one day the person he was destine to be with will appear and he forget about me."
"Ningyoushi…why call him the 'doll maker'?" Duo asked.
"Because that's what wer are. 'Dolls' to be discarded when we've been out grown or broken. Whe are pretty to look at but on the inside we are hollow and because he made us this way, because he made us dolls, he is the doll maker."
He pulled her closer and said, "you are not hollow. I've just met you and I see you're full of beautiful emotions and no matter where those emotions came from, they are beautiful."
There they remained, Duo sitting on the cot his arms around Maiyako with her head gentlely resting on his chest. Duo thought about Sanura and the way she said she felt about Maiyako, about how Okusan would feel when he watched the tape, if he was really in love with her, and about the familiar stranger, who was so much like him but so different, with her beautiful green eyes. Duo wondered if the feelings he had developed in such a short time for her were w betrayal to the feelings he had for Heero.
Maiyako didn't pull awau and Duo didn't let go. They remained there, together, entwined.
Koigokoro
Footnotes
1) Hyakuhei Teisei- literally translated means something like all evil whisper, I think, and I thought it was a good name for the type of brainwashing that was done to the girls.
2) It's true in this case- It's kinda explained like this, supposedly women have a more complex way of thinking then men::smirks:: so they're easier to breinwash or manipulate, kinda like that whole it's easier to hypnotize smart people or it's easier to fool and adult that a child because when you throw yourself into something trying to defy it or prove it wrong, then by the very nature of what you are doing you become entangled in what at first maybe a very simple and blunt lie. Does this make any sense cause it's hard to explain.