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fit accurately into any timeline, so just think of it as alternate reality.
Don't Love Fairy Tales, Then
Wufei slammed
his fist into a punching bag. "Damn onna," he muttered angrily to himself.
Who did the woman think she was anyway, mouthing off to him like that?
He gave the bag another hit, releasing his anger into an unfeeling medium.
Sally Po might be his equal in the ranks of the Preventer Corp, but the
stupid baka had no right to tell him how to carry out missions. He was
the combat expert, the Gundam pilot, she could just keep her high-minded
reprimands to herself.
He could still
see her, ice-blue eyes blazing as she stood in the hallway outside the
briefing room, where they had just finished giving the report of their
last mission. "Wufei, you can't keep on fighting like this! We're not in
the middle of a war anymore! If you defeat a smuggling ring, that's great,
but blowing up their headquarters in the middle of the city does nothing
but hurt civilians and give the guilty time to escape! The innocent aren't
miles away anymore, they're right under our feet, mingled with the people
we're fighting!"
Wufei couldn't
remember exactly how he had replied, something to the effect that, if weaklings
were stupid enough to get themselves tangled up in the dealings of an obviously
shady business, then they deserved what they got, and stupid women would
do well to stay out of his affairs!
The argument
had carried on for some time after that, ending when Sally finally lost
her patience. "I'm sick of this! Why don't you just find yourself another
partner, if your so tired of being stuck with a 'weak woman'! Good-bye!"
She had stalked off, leaving him stunned, unable to reply, and not knowing
what to say if he had been able.
Growling at the
memory, Wufei attacked the punching bag again. He preferred a live opponent,
but the training area had been quickly vacated when he showed up. No one
was willing to face him when he was this mad, especially considering that
he had defeated most of the members of the base already. Sally was the
only one who could challenge him, and she was gone, having left for another
base. He didn't want another partner, dammit! He and Sally worked well
together, and despite what he had said, he did not consider her to be weak,
or foolish. Her compassion and caution sometimes made straightforward missions
complicated, but he wouldn't trade those "faults" for anything else.
Behind him, he
was aware of a junior officer approaching. "What?" he snarled irritably,
turning towards the younger man.
The officer gulped,
withering under Wufei's glare, "Incoming call from Commander Sally, sir."
"Declined." Wufei
snapped, turning away; he didn't want to talk to her, not now.
"But sir-"
He broke off
as Wufei turned back, his black eyes flashing. "Is your hearing faulty?
I said that I will not accept the call. Dismissed!"
Blanching, his
subordinate managed to stutter, "Y-yes sir", and escape from the gym.
With a snarl,
Wufei turned back to his training, trying to forget his anger and loneliness
in physical activity. Several hours later, he was on his way to his quarters
when he stalked by Commander Noin--almost. He stopped at her exclamation
of surprise and found her looking at him as if she was seeing a ghost.
"Wufei! What are you doing here?"
"I'm stationed
here." he reminded her in a barely controlled growl, "Have been for the
past two months. Is there somewhere else you expected me to be?"
"I thought you
and Sally were out on an emergency mission! Command sent the call out,
one of the smuggler groups you guys were helping with turned out to be
more powerful than we thought--there was information about providing weapons
to rebel leaders. I thought you two had been sent out, but that was hours
ago."
Suddenly, Wufei
remembered the call he had gotten from Sally, the one he had refused to
receive. Had she tried to contact him about the mission? Would she have
gone alone after not being able to contact him? "Shit!" he spat, sprinting
down the hall to the mobile suit storage, leaving a bewildered Noin in
the corridor behind him.
As soon as he
reached his Gundam, he activated the communication system, requesting Commander
Sally. It seemed to take forever, but finally the reply came.
"Commander Sally is currently off base and unavailable. Would you like
to leave a message?"
"No." He disconnected
and, in the privacy of his Gundam, allowed himself to slump dejectedly
in his seat, a sign of weakness that he usually would not have allowed
himself. So she had actually gone off without him. Before he could have
hoped--had hoped--that she wouldn't actually break their alliance, that
she had simply been angry and had acted out of temper. Now it was official.
"What should
I do, Nataku?" he asked, but neither his Gundam nor the spirit of his wife
answered. Probably because the answer was obvious. He would have to find
another partner, or go into command, neither of which were pleasant options.
Or,
I could apologize, ask her to forgive me, promise that I'll be more considerate.
But Wufei's pride instantly balked at that idea. Why should he have to
go crawling to her, a woman, asking for forgiveness, begging to be taken
back? The idea was ridiculous! But still . . .
Wufei switched
his Gundam to simulation mode and focused on the targets in front of him,
trying to ignore the nagging ellipsis that his mind had left hanging. Anyway,
he couldn't do anything now, Sally was off on her mission. Requesting a
new partner would require loads of paperwork, and Sally was the one that
took care of . . . His mind caught the snag, and his loss of concentration
allowed several of the targets in front of him to escape. Damn! He hadn't
realized just how much he depended on her! Well, he couldn't do anything
until Sally got back from her mission in any event, they would both have
to be present when their superiors were informed.
Distracted as
he was, Wufei gave no thought to the actual mission, assuming that Sally
would simply be leading several troops in a raid and arrest, a routine
mission that they had both executed hundreds of times. This proved not
to be the case.
As he was
finishing the simulation exercise, the communication links in his cockpit
flared to life. It was a broad-band message on all Preventer frequencies.
The screen showed a mottled, wavering mosaic of color, the sender of the
message obviously did not want his face seen.
"Preventer leaders,"
crooned a voice, self-satisfied and arrogant, "Congratulations, you seemed
to have found out about my little operation here." Quickly, Wufei did a
check with Atlong's communications unit. The message was originating from
one of Western Eurasia's larger cities. He tried to cut through the static
that masked the message's sender, but the comm was only drawing audio data,
the visual link was dormant. "You may even now be sending troops in to
deal with me," the voice continued, "but I would advise you to think again."
Wufei began to feel uneasy. Supposedly, Sally had already been sent to
round up this smuggling ring. If so, why was the man acting as though an
invasion was imminent? His question was answered much more quickly than
he would have liked.
The video screen
flickered on, showing a slumped figure held up by two large men. A light
was focused on the captive, and Wufei felt a spear of ice plunge through
his heart. It was Sally! "We've caught your little spy, Preventers. Very
nice of you to send her alone, it made the capture easier, but, of course,
it would have made no real difference, we would simply have had two hostages
instead of one. Yes, Preventers, I said hostage. I have a business deal
to take care of, and I will allow no interference. If my men get any hint
of an attack, then she will be killed. Any hint of attack." From
outside the range of the screen, a lash was extended and scraped along
Sally's chin, forcing her to raise her lowered head. "Pretty thing, isn't
she, Preventers? Don't worry, we won't keep her forever, just long enough
to finish our little operation here, and then you can have her back." The
lash was retracted, and Sally spat in the general direction of the speaker.
A snarl was heard off screen, and the speaker concluded the message with,
"I'd be careful if I was you, Preventers, my men can be, ah, overly enthusiastic
at times. Farewell."
The screen went
blank, and Wufei growled a choice phrase that he had picked up from one
of the less reputable members of Duo's Sweeper group. The stupid fool!
She had gone alone on an infiltration mission! One of the first
rules about combat missions was that there should always be a backup, to
prevent exactly this circumstance!
As quickly as
it had come, his anger evaporated, leaving him with an overwhelming sense
of guilt and gut-wrenching worry. He should have been there! If he hadn't
been so damn stubborn, he would have been with her, and none of this would
have happened.
He started to
flick switches all over the cockpit, preparing for flight. The Preventer
leaders wouldn't allow a hostage to stop them from their duty, they would
proceed with whatever attack plans they had made, knowing that the smugglers
weren't planning to return their captive in one piece. The warrior side
of Wufei could recognize and appreciate that view, but some other, long
hidden part was screaming at him, he had to save her! Suddenly nothing
else mattered but the fact that Sally was in danger, and nothing was going
to stop him.
Unfortunately,
the other Preventers were not aware of this. As he was taking off, his
comm screen flickered on, showing Noin's worried face. "Wufei, what are
you doing?"
"I'm going to
get Sally." he answered, as he flew out of the hangar.
"Wufei! If they
see you, they'll kill her!"
"They won't see
me." And they wouldn't. His Gundam might not have the stealth abilities
that Deathscythe had, but there were other ways of reaching a target unnoticed.
"You don't know
that! Return to the base now!" her eyes narrowed. "That's an order!"
"I'm not your
subordinate. You don't have the authority to order me back."
"Wufei, you'll
be court martialed!"
"I don't care."
He disconnected the comm on her spluttered reply. "What are you going to
do woman, shoot me down?"
Wufei linked
to the Preventer's main computers and brought up all their information
on the smuggling group, which was extensive. He wondered why they had put
off a raid so long as he downloaded partial blueprints of the building,
guard stations, approximate security systems, and any other information
he thought might be useful. He found the answer to his question when he
discovered the orders for the mission. This smuggler's group specialized
in ground-based defensive weapons, and had built up an impressive defense
front. Originally, Sally and he were supposed to disable the group's defenses
from the inside, but when she had been unable to contact him, she had gone
alone. And been caught.
As he soared
over assorted cities and countrysides, he was thinking of his former partner.
Was she blaming him for not being there? Was she hoping that he would rescue
her? No. He would not belittle her with his own worries. Sally was strong
and independent, she wouldn't blame him when she had made the decision
to go on her own. And she certainly wasn't sitting around waiting for rescue,
she was probably even now figuring out her own escape plan. More puzzling
was his own desire to rescue her. As partners, they had always worked together
and looked out for each other, but now that they were no longer partners,
he no longer had that responsibility. Maybe, said a small voice
in his mind, it's because she's become more than just a colleague.
No! He had learned that lesson long ago, love made you vulnerable. Remember
Nataku? He asked the voice furiously. It was a fairy tale, everyone
said. Such a perfect union would bring our families great honor, they all
said. It was a happily ever after. Well, look what happened to our happily
ever after! He pounded his fist against the control panel of his Gundam,
the only link he had to his now-dead wife, the mobile suit that had been
meant for her and that he had flown in her name. People who you care
about are people who can hurt you! Never again would he give anyone
that power. Fool! Retorted the voice, do you think you have a
choice?
*
* *
He landed in a
forested area on the outskirts of the city where he could hide Atlong,
and waited for the cover of night. As soon as it was dark he set out into
the city on foot, covering ground quickly. Before long he had reached the
building where Sally was being held captive. Luckily, the compound was
also a loading port for incoming trucks. He slipped onto one of these while
it waited at the gate and, not waiting to reach the unloading port where
there would undoubtedly be a thorough check of the vehicle, he slipped
off again into a pile of boxes and crossed into the shadows, heading towards
the prisoner compound.
It was no secret
where the most important prisoner was being held, a ring of guards surrounded
one of the many doors in a long hallway, causing Wufei to stay far back
in the shadows. It wasn't his ability to defeat the guards that stayed
his hand, but the fact that it would be hard to defeat all of them without
sounding the alarm. Then he spotted the intercom on the wall. Surely they
wouldn't resort to so primitive and unreliable a method of contact? Maybe
it connected the guards outside with someone on the inside, left there
to dispatch with the prisoner at a moment's notice. The guards must also
have another means of contact, this one with the command center of the
base, but they would be counting mainly on the intercom for contact with
whoever was watching the prisoner.
Which meant that
if he attacked, he would only have to make sure none of them reached the
intercom. Wufei gave a tight smile as he realized where the guards had
made their mistake. The door to the cell was completely surrounded, but
their only means of communication with the prisoner was set off to one
side, near the edge of the protective ring. It would be simple to slip
in along the shadows and attack from that side, he would merely have to
be sure that none of the guards sneaked in behind him.
No more than
a lithe shadow in the surrounding gloom, Wufei approached the ring of guards.
A swift jab to the neck dispatched the first one, and Wufei took up his
position in front of the intercom. It took an instant for the guards to
realize that they were being attacked, and by the time they located the
intruder another of their number bit the dust.
Confident at their opponent's smaller size and the fact that Wufei was
outnumbered, the remaining guards closed in. In a sudden blur of movement,
Wufei sliced the legs out from under one of the men and, sweeping upward,
flipped his neighbor on top of him. A swift kick finished them both off,
and Wufei turned his attention to the remaining two guards.
One of
them started forward with an ugly sneer on his face and a knife in his
fist, but his companion held up a hand, halting him. The leader, for so
Wufei assumed he must be, smiled in anticipation and drew his sword, nodding
at Wufei to do the same. Accepting the challenge, Wufei drew his own sword
and attacked, slicing across in a blow that would have slashed his opponent
from shoulder to hip. The man blocked skillfully and retaliated with a
series of swift thrusts, causing Wufei to take several steps backward.
Then he lunged in an attempt to spit the Gundam pilot on the blade, but
Wufei struck it aside with a downward slash and sliced back upward, causing
the man to leap backward. With his opponent still off balance, Wufei launched
himself forward and felt his sword strike flesh. The man doubled over,
clutching his side, and Wufei sensed movement behind him. The remaining
guard was looming over Wufei, preparing to plunge his knife into the other's
unprotected back when Wufei switched his sword's direction and stabbed
back over his shoulder. The man gazed with astonishment at the sword blade
that had appeared in his chest before his eyes misted over and he slumped
to the ground.
Extracting his
sword from the dead man's body, Wufei turned back to the fallen leader.
To his surprise, the man was no longer on the ground but was limping down
the hall as fast as he could. Regretfully, Wufei drew his dagger and threw
it at the retreating form, which fell back to the ground, never to rise
again. It was dishonorable to strike a man from behind, but Wufei could
not allow any of the guards to escape.
The battle had
been mainly silent, but Wufei was not willing to trust his luck. Moving
to the fallen leader, he searched the body, finding a set of old fashioned
keys that matched the lock on the cell door. After retrieving his dagger,
Wufei moved to the door of the cell and selected the key that seemed most
likely to fit the lock. Dagger ready, he unlocked the door and swung it
open, keeping to one side, out of view of anyone in the room.
One glance told
him that his caution had not been in vain. Inside, Sally was seated in
a chair, hands tied behind her. Standing to one side, leaning against the
wall and almost invisible at first glance, stood another guard, gun in
hand.
Gun in hand,
but the firearm was not pointed at Sally. Out of instinct the guard had
aimed at the more obvious threat, and his hesitation as impulse and orders
conflicted cost him his life. A flicker of movement, and Wufei's dagger
buried itself up to the hilt in the guard's neck.
With a gurgle,
the man collapsed to the ground. Sally was staring at Wufei in astonishment,
her mouth open in amazement. "Wufei! What are-"
"Come on, we've
got to go," he cut her off, slicing through her bonds. "I took care of
the guards, but there's no guarantee that they didn't contact their superiors."
She stood. Her
golden hair was disheveled, but her eyes still shone as brightly as ever
and she seemed unharmed. Instantly recovering from her shock, asking no
questions, she quickly relieved the dead guard of his gun and joined Wufei
at the door.
After a quick
glance down the corridor, Wufei started forward, motioning for Sally to
follow him. Moving as a single unit, they made their way down the twisting
maze of passages. The hallways were deserted for the most part, and Wufei
was just starting to get suspicious when a group of figures turned a corner
in front of them. They were strolling along casually, and though the hallway
was dimly lighted, they were very likely to spot the two intruders.
Silently, Wufei
and Sally retreated, ducking into a side passage, hoping that the men would
pass them by. No such luck. As they retreated further, the group of smugglers
turned into the same corridor. Unwilling to continue this game of blind-man's-bluff,
the pair scanned the hall behind them for some means of concealment. Wufei
noticed a door that was partially open, and, taking a chance, slipped inside,
pulling Sally with him.
The room would
have been as dim as the hall outside, if it hadn't been for the screens
and control panels inside, which filled the room with an electronic glow.
But dim lighting or no, it took no time at all to realize that they were
not alone in the room. Two technicians sat at their stations, shocked into
silence by Wufei and Sally's sudden appearance. Before either of them could
recover, Sally pulled out her gun and aimed it at the two. "Silence." she
whispered at them, "Don't move; don't speak." Whether or not they heard
her words was questionable, but the universal threat conveyed by the pointed
gun spoke clearer than any statement.
A tense moment
passed as all four listened to the sound of passing footsteps in the hall
outside. The two technicians sat in petrified silence. When the footsteps
had faded, Sally looked at Wufei. "Well, what are we going to do with these
two?" She couldn't let them go, since they had seen the intruders, but
she was obviously reluctant to kill the pair.
Wufei solved
the problem by reaching out and banging the technicians' heads together.
"They won't be a problem." he said curtly, as he shoved the unconscious
forms out of view. "Have you realized where we are?"
Sally nodded.
"Control room for the outer defenses. We shut this place down, and
Preventer troops would have no problems getting in."
"But if we simply
shut it down, they would have it running again by the time the troops got
here." Wufei replied, "We'll have to destroy it."
"Not necessarily."
Sally went over to one of the consoles and started typing, "If I can .
. ." Her voice trailed off, and after a few moments she straightened
and gave a triumphant smile. "There. I've programmed in an error that will
cause the defenses to malfunction if they are activated." She tilted her
head to the side apologetically, "Sorry, you don't get to blow it up."
"Hmpf." was Wufei's
only reply as he stuck his head out into the passageway and gestured for
her to follow. The rest of the way was uneventful, and eventually they
ended up in the loading area, surrounded by the hustle of shipping.
"This
how we're getting out?" Sally asked, her voice barely audible. When Wufei
nodded, she questioned further, "Any idea how we're going to get past the
guards?" The place was crawling with workers and soldiers, there was no
way that they would be able to sneak past them all.
"We don't." Wufei
lead the way behind the loading areas, to where giant boxes were being
carried along conveyer belts. "We let them carry us out."
"What? No explosions?
We're just going to sneak out unnoticed?" Sally raised an eyebrow in surprise.
"Who are you and what have you done with Wufei?"
"Very funny."
Wufei observed dryly. "I thought you were the one that-" He broke off as
a loud alarm sounded out, causing a buzz of agitation among the workers
and guards.
Sally snorted.
"Took them long enough to notice I was gone. We'll have to find another
way out now, they're probably going to shut down the shipping."
Wufei shook his
head. "It's automated. It will take them awhile to shut everything off.
But you're right, we do need to hurry."
The boxes were
big enough to hold several people, so the only problem was wrestling one
of them off the conveyer belt. They finally managed it, and pried the top
off. When she looked inside, Sally gave a gasp of surprise. "These are
mobile suit parts! They must be transporting enough parts for hundreds
of suits!"
"Doesn't matter.
Without the outer defenses, this place is a sitting duck; won't take long
to shut it down." Wufei started to lift out the contents of the box, emptying
it. They raised the box back onto the conveyer belt, and were almost safely
inside when a shout was heard. Looking back, Wufei saw a guard standing
in the door, yelling into his communicator.
It was too late
to try another means of escape, so as Wufei swung himself into the box,
Sally fired her gun, and silence was all that followed them out of the
room.
Carried along
the conveyer belt, they replaced the top of the box and waited in tense
silence, anticipating the yells that would mean discovery, or the halting
of motion that meant the shipping line had been stopped. Nothing happened,
however, and soon they were being bumped and jostled by the robotic loaders.
After that came the smooth motion and gentle rumbling that meant
they were on a truck.
Wufei waited
until he was sure they were out of the compound before he carefully lifted
the top of the box. They were in the back of the truck and it was dark,
but there would be no problems in getting out. He helped Sally out the
box before climbing out himself, and they slipped off of the back of the
vehicle. It carried on without them, disappearing past a bend in the surrounding
trees, until the yellow glow of its headlights had disappeared, leaving
only the slanting moonlight to illuminate the sleeping forest around them.
They moved few
yards into the trees, out of sight of the road. Then Sally turned to Wufei
with a smile. "Well, we made it out."
Wufei nodded,
pulled out a small device, and typed in a command sequence. "Wufei!" Sally
said, reprovingly, "All that to get out quietly, and now you're going to
blow it up anyway?"
Wufei shook his
head. "It's not a detonator." he explained, "It's a remote for my Gundam.
I sent a message to Preventer HQ, telling them that we disabled the outer
defenses and that they can move in at any time."
Sally looked
away, not meeting his eyes. "And that your rescue mission was successfully
completed?" Her voice was bitter.
"What?"
"Do you have
any idea how embarrassing this is?" she looked at him now, and her eyes
held more anger than chagrin. "I go off on a solo mission to prove that
I don't need to be protected and patronized, to prove that I am fully capable
of handling missions on my own, and what happens? They have to send you
out to rescue me."
You say that
as though anyone else would have been preferable. And then he realized,
with considerable surprise, that anyone else would have been preferable.
But why?
"First of all,"
he said, slipping the remote back inside his uniform jacket, "They did
not send me out to rescue you. Noin tried to order me back to base, and
will probably have a court martial waiting for me when I return. And second,"
He stepped closer, forcing her to meet his eyes. He had grown in the years
since their first encounter, and now she had to look up at him.
"Do you actually think I would burden myself with someone who needed to
be protected and patronized?"
Sally glared
up at him for a heartbeat, her eyes blazing in angry frustration, and then
she seemed to deflate, as if half of her had known what he was going to
say all along, and actually hearing the words allowed her to recognize
their truth. "You've got a point," she conceded with a slight smile, "I'm
sorry-"
But before she
could get any further, he placed a finger across her lips, halting her
explanation. "Don't apologize," he ordered her softly, "There is nothing
to forgive." He was suddenly, alarmingly aware of how close together they
were standing, but for some reason, he was unable to pull away. His body
did not seem to want to obey his commands; instead of retreating to a respectable
distance, he found himself leaning closer. The finger he had placed across
Sally's lips moved under her chin and, ignoring his increasingly panicked
orders to himself to stop, he felt himself bend forward and place his lips
gently against Sally's.
For an
instant the universe froze, threatening to whirl around and crash into
nothingness. Baka! He screamed at himself, What do you think
you're doing!? This couldn't be happening; it wasn't real. Somehow
he was back inside the Zero System, and this was some kind of twisted hallucination.
The scene, however, did not dissolve into nothingness; if anything it seemed
to become more concrete. But it doesn't really matter, does it?
An annoyingly familiar voice was nagging him, as its still your emotions
at work. No. This was ridiculous, he neither needed nor wanted--but
his line of reasoning was broken when a thought broke through the haze
of self-concern that enveloped his mind. What would Sally be thinking?
He had been so wrapped up in the confusion of his own mind that he hadn't
stopped to consider how Sally would react. She hadn't moved away, wasn't
resisting, but she could simply be paralyzed with shock. Shock that would
probably turn to anger and indignation as soon as she had gathered her
wits enough to realize what was happening. I'll just have to apologize,
he thought, tell her I'm sorry, I didn't mean anything by it, I never
should have . . . It was a pitifully weak excuse, but until he could
explain his actions to himself, there was no way he would be able to explain
them to her. Didn't mean anything by it, hmm? observed the part
of him that was terrifyingly becoming his voice of reason. Then
why are you still kissing her?
He drew back
instantly, turning away so that he would not have to meet Sally's eyes;
would not have to see the expression of horror and dismay that must be
filling them. "My apologies," he blurted, falling back into the formal
speech of his upbringing, "I never should have--"
"Don't apologize."
Sally interrupted him softly, "There is nothing to forgive."
Caught off guard,
Wufei looked up, surprised to hear his own words quoted back at him. There
was no anger in her face, no dismay, only a serene calm, like that of a
sleeper who is slowly emerging from a pleasant dream. Realization slowly
began to dawn, and Wufei realized that the mistake he had committed went
beyond his own embarrassment and conflicting emotions. If Sally was thinking
what it looked like she was thinking, he had just done the stupidest thing
he possibly could have done. He remembered the entire reason they were
here in the first place. She had wanted to prove . . . How could
he have been so blind!
Oh well, he would
have to say this sooner or later, would have to explain. "No, Sally, I
do have to apologize, because I didn't mean--"
But she cut him
off again, not with words, but with her eyes, looking at him with such
understanding that it was impossible to tell her that she had been wrong.
She didn't speak until his words trailed off, but merely waited. "What
are you afraid of?" was all she finally said.
Afraid? Ridiculous.
Fear was an emotion he had banished from his life, not acknowledging it,
not allowing it. The life of a warrior had no room for fear; he had not
been afraid since. . .
Since the day
that Nataku had died. Since the day that his happily ever after had crumbled
around him and left him with nothing but a war which he was unprepared
to face alone. But he had survived that time, survived the war, and in
the process, had discarded his fear like an unwanted garment.
Wufei opened
his mouth to disown fear as he had done many times since that day so long
ago, but the words changed on the way to his mouth. "Fairy tales," he heard
himself admit in a voice that was so soft he barely recognized it as his
own.
Sally couldn't
have understood what he had said, but the knowledge that he had admitted
anything was obviously enough for her. Relaxing slightly, she sank to the
ground, crossing her legs under her and looking up at him in an invitation
to follow her example. He didn't sit, but leaned against a tree, trying
to convey the message that he could leave at any time if it suited him.
"Wufei," she began, her voice full of conviction, "don't try to tell me
that you didn't mean anything just now. I've known you long enough to know
that you're not impulsive, long enough to know that you don't often bother
with romance, and long enough to know when you're lying." Then the conviction
in her voice wavered slightly with uncertainty, "Or at least not telling
the entire truth."
She looked at
him, asking for a reply, a response, anything. But he couldn't think of
anything to say. The silence stretched on, congealing in the moonlight
until it became a substantial thing, a substance that filled the
air and pressed against him, stopping any words before they even formed
in his mind. What could he say?
The silence was
suffocating him, and with the suffocation came heat. The heat of anger.
It was an old defense, but one that had served him well. What was he doing
here, wasting his time playing word games? There was nothing he could say
that Sally wouldn't twist to serve her own purposes; nothing that he wanted
to say to her that would quiet his own turmoil.
His anger flared
outward, dissolving the silence and leaving him free to speak, but there
wasn't much that he had to say. "Listen, woman." he snarled, and he was
pleased to see Sally jerk slightly with surprise. "I don't know what games
you're playing at, but leave me out of them!" He paused just long enough
to note with satisfaction the look of dismay on Sally's face before he
turned sharply and headed into the forest. Good. If he had to be disorientated
and confused, she had no right to seem so calm, so assured, so smug. And
why are you so confused? He tried to ignore the question, but it remained,
reminding him that he did not have full control over some corner of his
mind, and that merely added to his anger.
"Wufei." Sally's
voice followed him out of the clearing, and he stopped in his tracks, not
able to run away. He whirled around, still full of righteous anger and
resenting her control over him.
"What do you
want now?"
She hadn't moved
from her spot on the forest floor, hadn't even turned her head to follow
him with her eyes, and when her voice reached him it seemed to come from
miles away, but the words lost none of their impact. "Wufei, do you love
me?"
He felt his mouth
open in surprise. Anger was wiped out by pure shock, leaving a kind of
numbness in its place. How could she ask that? After what he had just said,
how could the question even arise? But the answer at least was easy enough.
He was sorry, he didn't want to hurt her, but she couldn't be allowed to
go on thinking like this. He would just have to explain to her that they
could never be anything but comrades.
That was what
he intended to say, but once more his words changed, twisting into the
verbalization of doubts he had never acknowledged. "I don't know," was
the answer he heard himself give in the same distant voice that Sally had
used, "I'm not sure if I could ever love again."
His words fell
away into silence, but before he could fully grasp what his subconscious
had just admitted to a third party without consulting him as a midpoint,
Sally rose to her feet and turned to face him.
"Thank you,"
she said, and, showing unusual shyness, did not meet his eyes as she went
on. "Thank you for the truth. But . . . I will not insult your honesty
by telling you that I share your uncertainty."
Yes. Sally loved
him. She had probably always loved him, and he had been too blinded by
his own selfishness to realize it. He wanted to apologize, but the words
wouldn't come, and besides, he had a feeling that she wouldn't want an
apology.
Suddenly, the forest stillness was
broken by the thunder of an approaching vehicle. Yellow headlights sliced
through the trees and stopped just short of them as the vehicle ground
to a stop. Wufei's body tensed, ready to fight if the smugglers had returned,
but the voice that drifted through the trees was not that of the enemy.
"Commander Sally? Commander Chang? Is that you?"
"Yes, it's us,"
Sally called back. "How did you find us?"
"We picked up
your signal. Need a ride?"
"Sure." Sally
turned to face him, her voice soft. "Wufei, I can't pretend to understand
how you feel. But, if you never allow yourself to become close to anyone,
you'll never find out how much you can care for them. Will you come with
me? Will you try to find out?"
Wufei
didn't answer right away. Fairy tales, he thought. Did he want another
happily ever after for the fates to rip apart? He wondered if he would
be able to say no, wondered if his words would betray him again, wondered
if he really wanted to decline. Didn't he owe this to her? She had been
waiting a long time. Didn't he owe them both this chance?
He opened his
mouth to reply, and this time his words stayed the same. "Yes, I will."
Fairy tales be damned.
They went back
to the road, back to the military truck that was waiting for them. They
climbed into the back and, as the night road unwound behind them, Wufei
spoke. "Are you sure this is what you want? I can't be your Prince Charming,
I can't give you a happily ever after." He wanted her to know what she
was getting into, wanted her to know that he couldn't make any promises.
"I know, and
I'm sure." In the darkness, he could almost hear her smile. "If I'd wanted
a happily ever after, I would have stayed with Leon."
Wufei sat bolt
upright. "Leon?! Who's Leon!?"
THE END
Author's Notes: Okay, first of all, I apologize:
this is my first attempt at romance and in my opinion, was successful only
in that it proved I *cannot* write romance. I know there are several inaccuracies;
Noin is supposed to be on Mars and the Gundams are supposedly history,
but I started writing this before I saw Endless Waltz (Yeah, *before* Endless
Waltz. This thing has taken me forever to write!) and decided that the
parts in question were trivial enough, so as I said before, just put this
one in the alternate timeline genre. Also, in case you're wondering, the
title is the name of a track from the GW Operation 3 CD.