"Hi I'm so sorry this took me forever to get around to put up. "But I made it long to make up for it!"
::::picks up flower::::: "Forgives me, forgives me not, forgives me, forgives me not, forgives me…YEAH!"
"Good I knew you would understand!" ::::Picks flower:::::
"DBZ is not mine, DBZ is mine, DBZ is not mine, DBZ is mine, DBZ is not mine…Well damnit it worked before!"
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Calming down I stared at the ceiling feeling the bump under the pillow. Glancing at my watch, I sighed it had been five hours since he had left. Shaking my head, I forced myself to stay awake and alert. Shivering I curled up on my side pulling the blanket to my chin. Maybe he wasn't coming back tonight.
Shutting my eyes I smiled, maybe he had been killed. Letting my nerves relax I sighed a wave of sleepiness washing over me.
Jumping I herd the door slam my eyes widened my breath catching in my throat. Hearing him, slam things around I bit back a scream when he kicked the door open to the bedroom.
Sitting up I took a deep breath watching him slam the door shut. Opening my mouth to say something I felt my voice catch in my throat. He looked so deranged it was scary to look at him, "Khule?"
With a grunt, he glared at me throwing the blanket on the floor. Swallowing I took a beep breath thinking now or never. Grabbing his shoulder, I pulled myself to my knees seeing his eyes narrow.
"What are you doing?"
Calming my voice I grabbed the bottom of his chest plate, "I was thinking."
Baring his teeth he grabbed my arm, "What are you talking about women?"
Frowning I winced in his grip pushing my lips into a smile, "I-I understand now that I'm yours."
He shoved me roughly on my back his eyes flashing, "Don't lie to me bitch!"
Startled I sat up again trying to calm my breathing; "I'm not lieing to you!"
He gritted his teeth grabbing my arm, "Oh?" Surprised I cried out when he grabbed the back of my neck jerking my lips to his. Not pulling away, I cautiously wrapped my arms around his neck. Wrapping my fingers in his hair I felt his chest plate loosen his hands shoving me back long enough to throw it onto the floor.
Open-eyed I stiffened when he grabbed my legs jerking them around his waist his tail wrapping around my thigh. Seeing him glaring at me, I forced a smile rubbing his cheek. Snorting he jerked his head away his lips clamping over mine. Squealing I felt my back slam onto the soft mattress jerking away from him.
Hearing him chuckle I watched him straddle my hips his hand parting my thighs. My heart going a mile a minute I tried to slow it when his lips covered mine. Letting my hands fall over my head, I slid my right hand under the pillow my fingers tightening over the handle of the knife. Tears slipping down my checks I screamed gasping in pain as he slid into me. His lips covering my cry's I jerked my arm out from under the pillow bring the knife with me.
Screaming I gasped shocked when he sat up his hand roughly grabbing my wrist. Dazed I felt my jaw drop, "H-how!"
He growled his hand tightening around my wrist making me drop the knife, "BITCH!" Lowering his voice he roughly slapped me across the face, "I could hear you!"
Shaking I whimpered my free hand holding my cheek, "Hear what!"
He growled grabbing my arms pinning them over my head, "You were so damned loud when you grabbed that knife! "I should just slit your throat!"
Crying into my pillow, I could hear him in the next room throwing things around. Trying to muffle my crying I pushed my face deeper into the pillow making it hard to breathe. My lower abdomen ached it felt like I was being stab every time I shifted in the bed. However, that wasn't the worst part. The worst part was that I think he broke my hips. Squeezing my eyes shut, I heard a loud bang and a curse.
It took me around three hours to fall asleep that night and I woke up early in the morning. Khule just glared at me baring his teeth in warning when I stated to cry. He left though around four P.M. He didn't tell me where he went but I didn't care. I figured he went with his troops to destroy more cities. He told me we would be leaving for Planet Vegita in a month and changing camp area this week.
Wrapped in my blanket I sunk into a dark corner thinking. My families faces flashing in my mind. Holding my breath, I hoped they were still alive and that I would see them again. I didn't know what to do I knew it was impossible to kill him and he didn't trust me at all anymore. In fact he hid all of the knifes and locked me in the room.
Wiping the tears off me cheeks I sniffled surprised, I could cry this much. Letting the blanket fall off my body, I starred at the bruises and cuts. They were all over my body some were even in the shape of his hand. Red, Blue, Purple…you name the color I had it. I think he wanted to kill me last night…his eyes when he raped me they were filled with anger and hate.
I wondered how much longer I would last it didn't feel like I could make it through this day. Shivering I was forced to pull the blanket over my shoulders again. It was so cold and he never gave me anything to wear. Why would he? I was just his play toy! A sob choking my throat I slumped my head against the wall wishing I could just die.
Shutting my eyes, I felt hunger clinch my stomach he hadn't fed me. I didn't mind it though…the hunger. It took some of the pain away from my aching body. Trying to get warm, I pulled the blanket over my head drifting off to sleep.
Groaning I opened my eyes blinking in the dark. Taking a deep breath I felt the warm stuffy air fill my lungs and pulled the blanket off my head. It was dark out here too. Waiting for my eyes to adjust I wished I had a little light to see the time. Sighing I looked around looking for any windows.
Seeing none, I gave up feeling my way over to the bed. I couldn't turn on a light everything worked to the sound of his voice or his thumbprint. Sinking into the bed, I lied down sleep impossible. It must have been at least five hours before I heard the door open and by that time, you could see in the room.
You see the lights would automatically come on at a certain time my guess was to wake him up if needed.
He stumbled into the room looking exhausted and dropped into the bed his tail lashing around my leg, "Stay."
Glaring at him I swallowed he left the door open and I didn't think I could sleep anymore, "P-please Khule"…
He growled already half asleep his hand grabbing my arm jerking me down, "No."
His armor digging into my chest I whimpered not getting a reaction from him I realized he was asleep.
He woke up in six hours his eyes focusing on me, "Are you hungry?" Nodding he stood up, "I activated a few things in your voice such as the fridge, lights, and bathroom."
Pushing myself to my feet I lowered me head, "Can I have some clothes?"
He glared at me; "Not until you're expecting other wise they'll just get in my way."
Paling I felt my mouth run dry not asking him what he meant. I knew it wasn't good. Feeling my eyes water I lowered them as he rummaged through the fridge.
Swallowing the questions razing to my lips and I wanted to ask him but I didn't want to make him angry. Brushing my cheeks dry, I forced my voice to stop quivering.
"Eat."
Grabbing the weird looking substance in the bowl, I didn't ask him what it was. I did not care as long as it was food it felt as if I had not eaten in days. I felt his eyes on me and dared a look up at him. He was staring at me his tail curling and uncurling. Wishing I hadn't looked at him I glared deeper into my food realizing it was a bloody piece of raw meat and felt my stomach churn.
Dropping it I wondered why I didn't realize what it was earlier, "T-This is raw!"
He grunted chuckling, "Done?"
Not able to talk to him I gagged running out of the room slumping over the toilet. Hearing him stop behind me he slapped me on the back, "Silly bitch cant even handle some real food."
After I stopped shaking and my shoulders giving a final heave, I pushed myself to my feet whipping my mouth, "Flush." Hearing the toilet flush, I stopped infront of the sink ordering it on and rinsing out my mouth, "Oh god." Leaning my head against the mirror I forgot he was in the room until he cleared his throat, "I have to get a shower Khule please leave."
He laughed shutting the door, "Are you ashamed of your body?"
Crossing my arms I commanded the shower on, "No…I'm perfectly happy with my body."
He smirked lowering his eyes, "Then why are you ashamed to take that damned blanket off infront of me?"
Feeling something snap inside of me I grabbed him by his armor giving him a good shake, "IT"S CALLED MODESTY!"
He frowned his hands closing over mine jerking the blanket out of my grip, "FINE BITCH I"LL LET YOU TAKE YOUR DAMNED SHOWER ALONE!"
Crying out I fell against the shower door when he shoved me back storming out of the bathroom. Shaking my head, I starred at the opened door shakily shutting giving the lock a twist. I knew it wouldn't keep him out if he wanted in but it still gave me a small satisfaction of safety.
Glaring at the hot sprays of water sticking my hand under it wondering how they had electricity if the government turned it off. But then again, wasn't the government dead? Wasn't everyone? I knew I was.
The following week was pure hell he never told me where he went at night that made him so tired. However, I never asked. It was the same thing every night he would come home take me to bed and I would wake up wishing I couldn't feel anything…wishing I was dead. Nevertheless, god didn't want me, which made me think…Where was he? Did he exist? If he was, I was mad at him. He should do something…blow up the world save us the pain.
I would have a new bruise every day the old ones fading. Sometimes I would end up with six or seven new bruises I guess it depended on his mood. He was getting frustrated and in a worse mood then usual. I had started to wonder if he had PMS. Psycho, Murder, syndrome.
He wasn't home yet. Glancing at my watch I stood up making my way around his room he started to leave the doors unlocked. I don't know why I hatted him more every day, minute, second. Standing in the middle of the hall, I felt my head spinning. Life was getting too confusing.
Laughing I remembered before the sayens came how I would have petty fights with my teachers, parents…everyone. It didn't matter who it was I didn't care. My reason was always the same…Life was just too hard to deal with! You don't understand! Snapping out of my thoughts, I sighed sitting infront of the door just for a glance of the sky.
I had forgotten what it looked like…when it set. You never really realize these things until you cant see them anymore. Khule didn't let me go outside he said it was too dangerous. Drumming my fingers on my arm, I sighed. Glancing at my watch I read the time aloud, "Five P.M."
Stiffing I heard the clang of the metal latch and saw the door swinging open gasping at what I saw…the sky it wasn't blue or purple it was…. Black…and brown. Leaping to my feet, I wanted to get a better look at it but he blocked me slamming the door shut.
"What are you doing?"
Snapping my eyes away from the door I saw him frowning at me, "I-I-just wanted to look at the sky."
He grunted grabbing me by the arm, "Come here whore."
Letting him pull me threw the house I learned better then to jerk away. Feeling my back push against the bed, I gasped when he held me down with his legs opening a white box.
Wrinkling my brow, I grabbed his arm, "What is that!"
Ignoring me, he pulled out a metal stamp looking thing with an emblem on the bottom.
Startled I watched him use his kia to heat it up to a hot orange color, "Khule…what are you doing." Screaming I bit into his arm when he pushed it into the side of my stomach receiving a rough blow to the head.
Groaning I opened my eyes finding myself alone on the bed. Groaning I felt a sting on my side and winced running my hand over it. Looking at my stomach, I started confused at a half-dollar size mark. It looked like a chest plate and a crown. It was golden and blue with a circle around it made of tiny words in red spelling Property of King Vegita. Feeling my eyes narrow, I leapt to my feet, "KHULE!"
Storming threw the house I found him in the hallway shoving things in a bag; "KHULE WHY DID YOU DO THIS!"
He briefly looked up his eyes scanning my side; "You are my property so thus you also belong to the crown of Vegitase."
Glaring at him, I gritted my teeth, "SO YOU HAD TO BRAND ME LIKE A FUCKING COW!"
He growled lousing his patience, "Go pack your things were changing camp ground."
Laughing I crossed my arms, "What things!"
Slamming his bag down he grabbed me by the arms, "BITCH JUST GET AWAY FROM ME!"
Crying out I fell on my side as he shoved me backwards; "I HATE YOU!"
Freezing he panted his face turning red with anger, "GET AWAY!"
Scrambling to my knees, I pushed myself to my feet, "YOU'RE AN ASS HOLE I HOPE YOU DIE!"
Snarling he punched his fist threw the wall, "DO I HAVE TO REMOVE YOU MYSLEF?"
Frustrated I screamed stomping my foot storming out of the hall. I was so angry every thing was getting on my nerves the way his voice sounded to the way his tail curled. Screaming I threw one of his trophies across the room watching it slam into the wall bouncing onto the floor. Seeing him storm into the room at the sound of things breaking I screamed leaping onto his back unable to take the anger anymore.
Biting into his ear, I clawed my nails into his skin drawling blood. Hearing him growling and cursing in his saiyan language, I clung on tighter. Startled my grip on him slipped slightly when he powered up his body glowing. Gasping I felt his skin and armor start to get hot. Letting go of his ear I winced as the heat started to bite into my skin.
Unable to bear the heat anymore I flung myself off his back curling in a ball as the pain passed. Examining my skin I sighed relieved to see it wasn't burnt just a little red. Hearing loud uneven breathing, I looked up over my shoulder. Cringing I slowly turned to face him, as he just stood there powered up his eyes narrowed harshly.
Snapping my head to the side, I waited for him to hit me as he raised his hand. Looking at him out of the corner of my eye, I realized he hadn't moved. Feeling all my anger drain, it was replaced by fear. Swallowing I looked at his bristled tail he was so mad he didn't even hit me. Probably afraid he'd kill me before he had all his fun.
Straitening I stood as still as I could when he powered down gently grabbing my chin. Trying to hide my confusion I avoided his glance glaring at his neck as little rivulets of blood flowed down it.
"You act so saiyan…"
Hearing his voice, I glared up at him noticing he was confused too, "WELL I'M NOT!"
Frowning he glared at me touching his ear, "No your not." Turning his back on me he picked up his trophy, his tail still bristled.
Feeling the wind lick at my bare legs, I shivered against his chest plate. He had given me a blue, silky cape. It came down to my knees and he wouldn't let me out of his sight infact he had hit me when I left his side to sit at a bench. It had hurt to I almost started to cry which made him grouchy at my weakness.
I sighed I really wanted to go look around too the planet had changed so much. In the worst ways,...It looked like the sky had been contaminated with car exhaust for years and the air reeked of scorched flesh. Most of the trees were burnt and split like lightening had hit them and as for flowers and grass. Ha! What flowers and grass? It was a dying planet.
Or next campground was pretty much the same…infact it was exactly the same. Khule was getting more aggressive as the week passed to the day we were supposed to go to planet Vegita. He got mad easier too and one of his favorite things to do was take it out on me. At least that's what it felt like.
Slumping against the bedpost I sighed he had told me we would leave for Planet Vegita tonight. It was my last day on Earth. It really scared me I mean what would Planet Vegita be like? I don't think I'll have a long life there. Shaking I took a deep breath Khule had given me something to ware. I guess he had to the cape just wouldn't cut it up there. I'd probably be picked up by a higher ranking soldier.
It was nothing fancy but I was glad to have some clothes. It was saiyan made but I wasn't complaining I didn't really expect human clothes from him anyway. It was a plain black body suit with and inch of a sleeve with a low neck. It was made of a rough material but it was stretchable and comfortable. It had a circle cut out at my side just big enough to show the royal symbol so everyone would now I was just a piece of property. It came with two simple white boots with a gold tip.
He had also given me a brush along with a few other needed items and some weird looking things he said saiyan women tied their hair up with. I had told him again I wasn't saiyan and he growled telling me to shut the hell up. He wasn't here now he went to the ship to make sure everything was being taken care of.
I sighed bringing my knees to my chin I couldn't stop hopping something happened to the ship and wouldn't able to leave Earth. It felt like that was one of the only things I had left and now I was lousing it too. Whimpering I felt my red rimmed eyes drip with more tears. I was scared for my family and for my friends. I wondered if they were still alive.
I thought about that a lot it always made me sad and the more I tried to block it out of my memory the worse I felt. So now I just let if fill every cell of me. I was getting used to pain and it felt natural and as weird as that sounds I cant imagine anymore a life with out it.
Don't get me wrong I don't like it. Hell no I'm sure my heart beat stays at an abnormal rate of light speed. Tea used to calm my nerves but the only warm drinks I get are some nasty saiyan drinks. I think Khule called one 'Strule.' It is a light green color and very bitter but has a pleasant smell.
Khule came back around ten at night. Feeling weak I followed him to the living room were he had all his bags and my small green one he gave me to put my stuff in.
"Leave it here the servants will load our baggage into the ship."
Nodding I didn't answer homesickness already sweeping over my body.
"Come here."
Slowly reacting I sighed he sounded tiered and annoyed. Not in the mood to test him, I made my way over to him, "What?"
Growling he grabbed my upper arm glaring at me, "You will watch you're behavior and I expect you to address me with an appropriate title.
Numbly staring at him I frowned, "Title?"
He grunted slightly out of anger, "Yes…Like captain or Master."
Feeling my jaw slack in my mouth I chuckled, "Master?"
He snarled slinging me over his shoulder, "Shut up slut."
Growling I was tempted to grab his tail which seemed to be lashing just to call me to it. Following it with my eyes, I sighed forgetting about pulling it. There really wasn't a point it wouldn't hurt him. Shifting uncomfortable I felt his shoulder protector digging into my stomach, "Khu…Captain…can I walk?"
He sighed annoyed, "No."
Exasperated I squirmed on his shoulder tying to get more comfortable. He took his time before getting onto the ship two hours actually. He kept stopping and talking to other saiyans and it was making me mad. I was uncomfortable and I didn't like the idea of being around them.
But when he finally did get on the ship he took me immediately to his chambers and had the nerve to lock me in without a word. Growling I starred blankly at the wall gritting my teeth. If this was how it was going to be for the rest on my life, I was going to go insane. Cursing I screamed punching the wall giving it a small dint. Wincing I rubbed my soar red hand. I didn't now how to act anymore…scared or angry. Therefore, I chose both. Storming threw his courtiers I gaped at its size. Stunned I could only stand in the middle of his living room. He had a T.V and a couch!
Shocked I shook my head I didn't think saiyans had TVs. Actually, I just didn't think they were smart enough to build one. Flipping it on, I felt my face fall when I noticed the news broadcaster was a saiyan and was speaking in their language. Leaving it on I sighed turning it up. It reminded me of home even if I could not understand it. I just pretended it was the Spanish cannel.
Wondering around his rooms more I turned on all his lights by pushing a simple blue button. Finding a window, I climbed up onto its window seat watching saiyans squiring all over, the ground dragging bags and loading slaves. It was sick most of the slaves were in terrible shape some were even missing an arm.
Seeing Khule talking to a big bald sayen except for a little black curly hair on the sides of his head, I curled closer to the window watching him. Feeling my eyes widen I watched him examine the slaves, "Oh no"...
I screamed covering my eyes when he easily threw his fist threw a slave's chest. Shaking I rocked on my heals unable to look away as he killed the other weak slaves. It was disgusting some had even had gone as far to kiss his boots in begging for their life. But he still slaughtered them kicking them away.
The healthier ones were lined up female in one line male in the other and took into the ship. Gasping I felt my eyes widen as I recognized one of the slaves being shoved into the ship…it was my mom!
Feeling my heart sink I felt my eyes water and franticly looked around searching every slave's face for my brothers or father. Relieved she was a live and in the same ship, I was made me feel a little better. Not good enough though because now I was scared that the rest of my family didn't make it.
I don't know how long I sat there until I felt two hands grab me from behind. Screaming I felt my heart leap into my throat and struggled out of the hands.
"Bitch calm down what are you doing?"
Recognizing the voice as Khule's I lowered my eyes jerking away from him as he tried to pin me against the window seat, "NO!"
He growled grabbing me by the shoulders shaking me, "Knock it off whore I thought I beat some sense into you!"
Horrified I screamed fighting as hard as I could against him surprising him into stiffening, "MONSTERS YOU'RE ALL FUCKING MONSTERS!"
He growled in anger jerking away from me, "IF YOUR SMART YOU"LL BEHAVE!"
Curling into a corner I fought to get as far away from him as I could choking on tears, "Why did you kill them!"
Glaring at me he narrowed his eyes crossing his arms, "Bitch is that what has you so damned scared?"
Turning my eyes away from him I gasped for breath my fingers digging into my palms, "You're…a cruel son of a bitch"…
He chuckled his anger disappearing as he grabbed my wrists jerking me against the wall, "Now wore listen…they were weak and the saiyans in the ship would have treated them worse the I did."
Spitting in his face, I kneed him between the legs earning a few minutes as he winced in pain to run out of the room. Slamming the door shut I hid under a desk in his study. Hearing him throw things screaming my name, I was sure he was going to hear my heart pounding.
"GET OUT HERE RIGHT NOW YOU DON'T ANT ME TO HAVE TO FIND YOU!"
Shutting my eyes felt frozen to my spot as I heard him slam the door to his study open. Wishing he would just go away, I heard him stop infront of the desk.
"Get…out."
Whimpering I new he had found me and reused to move with a choking sob.
Grunting he snarled as he shoved the desk off the ground flipping it across the room. Shrieking I tried to run out of his reach as he roughly grabbed me by the neck his eyes blood shot. Trying to get a breath in I, felt his thumb push firmly over my air tubes grabbed onto his arm.
Realizing he wasn't going to let go I started to freak my heart stopping as my face began to turn a deep red. Not believing he was trying to kill me I saw little black spots appear before my eyes and felt my fingers slide off his arm going limp.
Faintly aware of him letting my neck go I inhaled a big gulp of air feeling him gently pick me up caring me out of the room. Almost like I was a little baby. My head thumping against a soft material I slowly took in the information that I was on a bed. Forcing my eyes to focus I realized he was straddling my waist glaring at me a vain pulsing in his forehead.
Wetting my lips, I tried to shove him off gasping for breath my face still slightly red. He grabbed my hands pushing them back at my sides. Once my breath was back to normal I felt my eyes water and turned my head away not wanting to look at him.
"Whore why are you doing this?"
His voice sounded calm but I could tell he was ready to hit me his muscles flexing. Staring at the wall, I gritted my teeth, "Because you're a monster. "How could you do that to those slaves!"
He growled annoyed, "I TOLD YOU WHY! "ALL THOSE SLAVES ARE GOING TO DIE BEFORE WE REACH PLANET VEGITA ANYWAY! "DAMNIT LOOK AT ME!"
Flinching I looked at him my eyes hardening as I felt my anger boil over, "MY MOM IS ONE OF THEM!"
Glaring at me he nodded to himself, "I see."
Watching him, confused I felt him peal himself away from me, "You…you understand?"
He nodded pulling me against his chest, "Aha Bitch I get it your not going to be able to relax while your mothers a slave." What is her name?"
Feeling my eyes water I sniffled smiling slightly, "You'll set her free?" Her name is Jan Cash."
Looking at me hard for a minute, he nodded, "Yes."
Flinging my arms around his neck, I gasped for breath between happy sobs kissing him. I knew I shouldn't but I was so happy and I had no other good way to show it, "Thank you!"
He sneered his hand slipping up my shirt before he roughly threw me against the wall three feet away. Screaming I felt my feet leave the ground and slammed against the wall my head banging painfully.
Confused I looked at him feeling blood trickle down my neck, "W-What are you doing!"
He snorted his eyes looking tiredly rolling over my bloody hand where I had touched my head, "I have to go take care of your mother. "That was for defying me wait here and when I come back, I'll let you finish what you started."
Wrinkling my eyebrows, I wobbled to my feet not liking how he sounded, "Khule what do you mean take care of her!"
He smirked walking up infront of me; "I want you to belong fully to me. You wont as long as she is alive and you respect her, sorry bitch."
Felling my eyes widen I screamed throwing my arms around him hugging onto him as tight as I could, "NO YOU SAID YOU WOULD LET HER GO!"
Laughing he threw his head back, "Eh whore? I did but I meant to another dimension."
My heart struggling against my rib cage to rip threw my chest I felt myself pale and grabbed onto his arms for support, "No"…
He pushed me away glaring down at me, "Maybe next time when I try to take you to bed you won't fight back."
Screaming I tried to keep him from leaving when he made his way to the door puling on his arm, "STOP NO!!! "PLEASE!"
He growled tossing me across the room on the bed angrily pointing at me, "STAY DAMN-IT!"
Leaping to my feet I screamed when he stepped out of the door slamming it shut locking it behind him. Slamming myself against the door, I pounded screaming on the top of my lungs.
Panting I franticly twisted my fingers backing away from the door. There was no use trying to get threw that way. Running threw the rooms I ran to the window slamming against it trying to break it. Groaning in pain, I rubbed my soar shoulder my eyes searching a metal pole. Grabbing the cold, black strip of metal, I held my breath letting it out in a scream as I slammed it against the window.
Shocked I started at it not even a scratch… Slumping against the cool glass, I broke into loud sobs. The throbbing pain in the back of my head reminded me that it was only going to get worse. And in space…no one can hear you scream.