If I Had It All Disclaimer: Sorcerer Hunters are property of. . .other people and I don't have permission to use them. The lyrics "If I Had It All" belongs to (no surprise here) Dave Matthews Band, and I don't have permission from them either.

Author's note: This is a SHOUNEN-AI fic, pretty safe to read (no lemon-y goodness in this fic) ^_^.

Anthy's muse: I will not scream, I will not shout, I will not. . .Dave, Dave, Dave--Argh!
ReiAkari's muse: Hehehehehehe

If I Had It All
by Anthy

Sometimes I can't move my feet it seems
As if I'm stuck in the ground somehow like a tree
As if I can't even breathe
Oh, and my screams come whispering out

After a day's delay, we had finally reached the town. I looked at the empty streets, the town filled with so much poverty and fear that no one dares to show their faces when the sun sets. After tonight, however, they would never have to fear again.

As if nobody can even see me
Like a ghost, sometimes I can't see myself
Sometimes, then again, oh

The sorcerer was an easy defeat, he had grown too cocky with his abilities. Sadly, he was not as powerful as he thought. He fought bravely though, until he got cornered by Gateau. Gateau was reckless, and the sorcerer almost cast his most fatal spell on him. I stopped that from happening before anyone else noticed I moved at all.

"Sorry brother," I muttered as my spell causes the sorcerer's arm to point towards Carrot, his Zoanthropy reacting immediately. The sorcerer watched in morbid fascination as my brother transformed into that large brown beast. The poor man did not even realize that the others had stopped fighting him. As Carrot roared and stomped about, the mansion walls began to crumble. Next thing I knew, I was tackled to the ground, and a large piece of ceiling crashed to where I once stood. I looked up to see Gateau's face over mine, pieces of stone still bouncing off his shoulders.

"Better blow this joint before that idiot gets us all killed," he whispered as he stood and picked me up in his arms. It was unneccessary, really, since I could walk just fine.

"The sorcerer," I asked as I let myself stare into those sky blue eyes. He grinned slightly as he continued to dodge falling cement.

"Under Carrot's foot."

If I were a king
If I had everything
If I had you and I could give you your dreams
If I were giant-sized, on top of it all
Then tell me what in the world would I sing for
If I had it all

Once we reached outside and far away from the steadily falling mansion, I promptly realized that Gateau was still carrying me. I said nothing, however, I wanted to be this close to my friend as long as possible. I knew that the second my feet reached the ground, they would move away from him. I clutched onto his vest and buried my face into his strong shoulder, I must admit I had never felt so safe.

"Gateau, is Marron ok?" Tira asked as she ran towards us. Realizing my folly I released my companion and hopped from his arms.

"Thank you, Gateau," I said to him, nodding politely. I turned to Tira. "I twisted my ankle. I'll be fine."

Both Tira and Gateau raised their eyebrows at my blatant lie, though I must admit I was surprised myself. Where did that come from? Before Tira could inspect my non-existant injury further, Chocolate informed her it was time to bring Carrot back. All inquiries were forgotten as she whipped off her red cloak and sprung into action.

Sometimes I feel lost
As I pull you out like strings of memories
Wish I could weave them into you
Then I could figure the whole damn puzzle out
Then again, oh

"Carrot!" I shouted as I peeked my head into the doorway. Gateau tugged impatiently on my arm, causing me to laugh. "Don't wait up."

"Don't want to hear it!" Carrot answered in a singsong voice.

"You are a pervert!" Gateau mimicked Carrot's tone and as he looked in the doorway. He winked at me and I couldn't help but blush.

"Young love," Carrot grumbled as he flopped onto the couch and reached for the remote, "God, I feel so old. Hey, don't stay out too late, and Gateau you better behave yourself or I'll-"

"Hello, is Tira or Chocolate there?" Gateau said as he pretended to talk on his cell phone.

"I'll, I'll just sit here and watch TV." Carrot stammered as Gateau laughed. Pocketing his cell phone, he reached for my hand and pulled me out the door.

"So, where are we headed tonight?" I asked as I turned to face him. He was no longer smiling. In fact he looked sad, and confused.

"I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to tackle you so hard, Marron." Gateau murmured. He knew I was lying, but he was just saving face.

"Don't worry about it." I said as we both watched Chocolate and Tira carry a very beaten Carrot towards us.

"Do you need help walking?" he asked hopefully as he fell into his usual flirting routine. I felt that same voice rising up again, that same voice that lied--my real voice. Shaking my head, I walked away.

If I were a king
If I had everything
If I had you and I could give you your dreams
If I were giant-sized, on top of it all
Then tell me what in the world would I sing for
If I had it all

I'm sorry, Gateau, this is just how it has to be. We reached the nearest inn and purchased a room and a few extra cots. While the others argued on who got the double beds, I slipped out silently. I slowly walked to the lake that I had went fishing at the day before, I needed to think.

I could take anything
If I had no greed to bring
Only the poison that's tainting the clean
Oh, then nothing

The lake was so beautiful. Large and clear, the pale moonlight bounced across the small waves. There was a light breeze and I relished in the soft sound it caused as it flowed past my hair. Soft strands hit my face, so I tuck them behind my ears. Looking up at the stars I meditate and searched for the most difficult answers, answers I had so much trouble answering. Why must I torture myself?

Remembering times much younger than me now
When my breath was light
When the world raised me up kind

Why do I have to be so aloof, and alone? My love for them would only cause them pain, and it would be my fault. If only I could have more control, even though it is my control that has doomed me to this lonely fate. I wanted to cry, but I'd forgotten how. I could feel his eyes on me, he must have followed me. Though I don't acknowledge his presence, I could sense the warmth radiated from his gaze. He loves me so much, though I don't understand why. Even still, the memory of this evening when I was in his arms crossed my mind, even if it was for a brief moment.

I want to feel those arms around me again, my inner voice screamed.

And here mother comforts child
Every moment was waking up
But now I've grown tired... out

And for once, I listened.

I turned my gaze towards Gateau, his body hidden by the shade of the trees. He stepped into the moonlight, and my head felt very light.

Tonight, my mind whispered, I tell him everything.

If I had it all, you know
I'd fuck it up

To Be Continued. . .


ReiAkari's muse: *bound and gagged* MMMPHHH!!
Anthy's muse: Victory is mine!
ReiAkari: No more Dave until you finish my fic.
ReiAkari's muse:*muffled* NOOOO!
ReiAkari: Sorry for the intrusion, folks, we shall be leaving you now. No more DMB for the conclusion of the series.
Anthy and her muse: Whoo-hooo!

Author's Note: I am really a big DMB fan, I just find writting song fics frustrating as Hell!! *kicks ReiAkari's muse* Thanx to my big sister for letting me borrow her muse, she's all yours now. (thanx bunches for beta reading, too!) ^_^ Part 4 coming soon!!~Anthy