Disclaimer: *sigh* No, for the fourth time, I do not own digimon or digi characters, so sue me (or not ^.^;;)
Black Clouds: part four- Up then Down again.
Matt's POV
"Matt, breakfast is on the...uh..."
Oh shit. I pulled back from Tai fast and saw my dad standing at my bedroom door. This was terrible, not so much that he caught us, but he interrupted my one taste of heaven. I had never kissed another before, this was my first time, and I have to admit it was the best thing ever to happen to me. And it was with the one boy that I had admired since the day I had met him. With that one simple kiss, he had proved that he really did love me. I had not believed him to begin with, when he came here to tell me. How could I after how he reacted when I first said how I felt? But it was true. Taichi Kamiya loved me, and I loved him back with all of my heart. Even after all that had happened to me, I trusted him. He would never hurt me again. I hadn't even thought that I would want to be touched again by another guy after what had happened to me, but this was different, I wasn't being forced or anything, I wanted this to happen.
I stared at my dad, and he stared back at me. Actually he just kept looking from me to Tai, then back to me. His eyes were wide, and I am afraid that he might not like what he just saw. Finally after a few silent minutes, my dad raised his hand and waved me towards him. "Matt. We need to talk." Was all he said. I got up slowly and headed out my door. Tai also got up but my dad motioned him to stay put. He did so, but when I looked back he smiled and gave me a wink. My heart leaped and I gave him a small smile back. What would I do if my father didn't approve, I loved Tai so much but I couldn't very well do anything if my own dad grounded me forever, or made us move away or something. With these worrying thoughts in my head, I went into the kitchen and sat in a wooden chair at the dining table, and put my head into my arms. I felt so drained of energy, I had had hardly any sleep last night. Even the terrible thoughts of the rape were dashed from my memory since the kiss. I knew they would come back, and soon, but at least I had gotten a small respite for now. God, I hope my dad understands.
I heard my dad sit down across from me, he sighed and didn't speak. After a little bit, I got curious to what he was doing, why hadn't he started yelling at me yet? Peeking an eye above my crossed arms on the table I found him watching me. He still didn't speak.
Finally I just couldn't take it anymore, "Dad... I..." But he cut me off.
"Do you love him?" A simple question that lifted my head right up, staring at him as if he was crazy.
"Wha...?"
"Do. you. love. him.? Answer me truthfully Matt." He asked again.
What kind of stupid question was that? Would I be kissing some guy if I didn't like him? "Y...yeah. I guess so."
"You guess so?" My dad raised an eyebrow at me, "You were making out with that, uh, boy, and you only guess you love him?"
"Okay, I do! I love Tai!" I almost yelled. What did he want from me?
"That's better." Then he sighed and ran a hand through his hair, "Matt, are you sure? I... mean, this is a pretty big life decision and all. You sure you're like this?"
Was I sure I'm like this? No dad, I'm pretending to love him for the fun of it. "Of course I am! You... are you mad?"
He gave a resigned sigh, then smiled at me, "No Matt, I can't be mad at you. I think you need Tai right now. He'll help you through the trauma of the attack. This might be for the best. I won't make it any harder for you, I just wanted to make sure you weren't feeling like you had to do this, since... you know..."
All I could do was stare opened mouth at him. My dad was approving of this? That was... a miracle. I was so sure he would get mad and throw Tai out. I could feel the tears coming into my eyes as I looked at my dad. He understood. "Oh dad, thank you. Th... thank you." I got up and he wrapped me up into a huge warm hug as I cried into his shoulder. I'm such a baby these days, but it felt so good. I guess it's because I had hardly ever cried back when I was younger. I felt so loved with my dad holding me, telling me that everthing was going to be alright.
"Uh... did you guys forget about me?"
I looked up from his shoulder to see Tai watching us. He looked kind of uncomfortable, probably from not knowing what to expect from my father. My dad also heard him and let go of me to get up and stand in front of Tai. He stared for long moments down at the wild haired boy, as Tai got more and more nervous looking.
"Look... Mr. Ishida. I... I know what you must think of me, but... but I love Matt. I really do, and no matter what, I can't stop loving him. I'm sorry." Tai broke the silence, looking my dad straight in the eye. He must be very brave, or very stupid, to stand up to him like this.
My dad stared at Tai in stony silence for a moment, I could see the sweat form on Tai's forehead. He looked over at me for help, but all I could do was shrug, I didn't know what my dad was up to. Then I think Tai went into major shock as my dad nodded solemly to him and held out his hand. Tai stared at it then back up to my fathers face, trying to figure out if this was a joke. Finally he shakily took the hand and they shook.
"You take good care of Matt. If I hear of anything you do to hurt him..." He left the threat unfinished. Then turned back to me to give me a reassuring smile before grabbing his coat off of a chair. "I have to go to the office for a few hours. I'll be back before eleven. You going to be alright until then?" He asked me.
"Yeah... sure dad, no sweat." I smiled back happily. This was great, he even trusted me to be alone with Tai. How awesome was that? I saw my dad to the door, then after locking it behind him, I turned back to a very confused looking boy.
"Hey, you okay Tai. You look kind of pale." I grinned slightly as he turned around to face me, feeling almost happy for the first time since the past events.
"What... just... happened? I was expecting more than a handshake and a small threat. Is your dad sick or something today?" He shook his head before walking over to me. God he's beautiful.
"It's okay. He doesn't mind that we're... uh... you know," I ended pathetically. What were we doing? I looked into his eyes, a bit confused. Everything had happened so fast, it just seemed all a dream. I broke the staring contest and looked down at my feet. Maybe I didn't know what I was doing, what was I getting myself into? Why was I suddenly having these doubts?
Then I felt a warm hand cup my chin and lift my face until I was staring back into the deep chocolate brown eyes. I wanted to melt into them right then, they stared back at me with so much love and affection. Maybe I did know what I was doing afterall. And with that, he pulled me into another deep kiss.
"I love you Taichi." I mumbled into his mouth.
"I love you too Yamato."
I was safe, Tai wouldn't hurt me. He knew to be gentle, knew what I was feeling. It was as if we were meant for each other all along.
*>>>>>*
My eyes snapped open, blinking against the bright lights as sweat poured from my hot face. Pain. It was back, they had come back! Why couldn't they just leave me alone? Pain, it wouldn't go away, it shot through me as if it was still real. Oh god, it hurt. Every time I close my eyes it comes back, I can't get away, it's all so real, it was real.
Two strong arms were wrapped around my quivering body, they held me, they wouldn't let go. What if it was one of them?! I have to get away, I don't want to hurt anymore.
Still in a feverish dream while being half awake, I start to scream. This also happens everytime I wake up. I can't help it, I'm so afraid. Scream, struggle, got to escape the pain, the nightmare. "Let go! Let go! Please stop! It hurts! Let go!" Gasping for air, I can't even put up a good fight, they won't let me go. "Please stop!" It hurts, it hurts. Slowly through the fog in my head I become aware of a voice yelling back at me. It's all a bunch of jumbled words at first, I can't understand, and still I scream and plead and cry. I can feel the hot tears pouring down my cheeks, I hate seeming weak, but it's impossible to stop. It hurts!
"Matt... sto... ease..." Can't listen to them... I don't want to die, I don't want to hurt!
"God Matt, listen to me! It was only a nightmare, you're safe, Matt! Matt, snap out of it, it's me! Tai! Matt, you're awake, Matt!..." That voice, it was becoming clearer, I knew that voice. Where was he? Tai... help me! I can't find you! Wait... the arms... where am I? This isn't the alley, it's too bright... too warm... I'm so tired...
Slowly I stop moving as reality hits me full force. I'm safe, I'm home. Why was I so scared? It was just a dream... but it was so real. Shivering, and still gasping, my screams die away to wracking sobs. Why can't I just forget about it all? But I can't, it was too terrible, too horrible, I can still feel the pain. Tai...
"Ta..Taichi?" Finally I feel the arms around me loosen their grip and I can move enough to turn my head up. Tai looked down at me, tears streaking his face, brown chocolate eyes full of water and worry. One of his cheeks is starting to turn purple, did I do that? "Oh..god...Tai...I...I..."
"Shh, it's okay now Yama-chan. I won't let them hurt you, I'm just glad your out of it." He smiled down at me adoringly. I don't understand how he puts up with me all the time. Especially after this. He... wait, did he just call me Yama-chan? His arms tightened around me again as I buried my face into his solid chest. I can't hold back the sobs, the tears, it's all just too much. I can feel his hands rubbing my back as he whispers into my ear a bunch of uncomprehensive loving words, trying to soothe me. Why? Why would he do this for me? He loves me, he told me that, is that why he doesn't leave?
It must have been almost an hour before I finally calmed down enough to get myself under control. This never should have happened, I don't cry this much ever. Life is getting too messed up these days. I managed to push away finally, and Tai let go with what seemed reluctance. All I can do is stare at his wet shirt in dismay, "I... I'm sorry... for getting your shirt... all wet." My mind is whirling, I'm exhausted. I've gotten next to no sleep at all for the past month. I feel so tired that I'm sick, I want to throw up, but I haven't really eaten that much either. I want to sleep, but I can't as I once again proved. What would it take to clear my mind?
"Don't worry about it Yama-chan, I don't mind in the least bit. You feeling any better?" He's staring at me with concerned eyes. All I want to do is hide my head in shame. Is it going to be like this forever? Never to have a peaceful sleep again? I sure hope not.
"Yeah, I... guess. Taichi?"
"Hmm?" Tai reaches over and starts stroking his fingers through my tangled hair. It feels good, he has such a nice touch.
I lean into his body again, trying to get warm. It's so cold in this house, or maybe it's just me. Shivering slightly, I wrap my hands around his sides, holding on for dear life it seems. He hugs me right back, rubbing my back again, trying to calm me down and warm me up. "Do you... do you think they'll ever leave me alone?"
"Bastards, I'll... I'll..." I heard him growl deep in his throat, he must be really pissed off at them, "Who? Who did this to you Yamato? Tell me!" Tai held on to my shoulders and pushed me back so that we met eye to eye, and I could see the anger and frustration flashing through his watery chocolate eyes.
But I pulled away, trying to keep my drooping eyes open, and stood up to pace. It was so hard not to just fall down and go into sleep, but I knew with sleep came dreams, horrible dreams, so I have to keep awake. "I'll, uh, go get you some ice for that bruise." I told him, hurrying to the kitchen to get an ice pack out of the freezer. I just wasn't ready to talk about them. The cold air washed over me when I opened the freezer door. It felt nice, refreshing, and I thought about going outside for some fresher air, but then rejected that idea with the thought of what could happen if I went out. No, safer to stay inside. Oh man, I feel so weak, so tired. My head's aching again like it does every few hours, still sore from the banging it got and the exhaustion. I can feel my body trembling with fatigue, trying to find the strength to support me just a little longer.
"Yama-chan! Are you hurt?" I looked up at Tai standing over me, worry and guilt written all over his face. I hadn't even realized that I had fallen to my knees on the hard tiled floor. Dazed, I quickly stood up and leaned on the counter as another wave of dizziness washed over me. With a shaking hand I held out the ice pack at Tai, "Here... here... t...take it..."
"Oh god!" In confusion I look at those chocolate eyes, feeling his arms around me. That's funny, I don't remember him moving. My head feels so light, like I'm floating out of my body, what a strange sensation, "Hold on Yama, I'm calling the doctors, right now! Just hang in there, please!" Why is he calling a doctor? I'm alright now, they let me out of the hospital saying I should be okay. I don't want to go back, I hate hospitals. I try to stand up, to show Tai that I'm fine, but my body's not responding, I can't move my legs, or anything else for that matter! What's going on?! Why is everything black? Can't see! Tai's voice is so distant, like its fading into the back ground. I hope he doesn't leave me! Taichi, don't go!
So tired... can't... stay...awake...
*>>>>>*
Tai's POV
This is all my fault, all my fault. Why did I have to bring up his violators. And I should have seen the exhaustion and stress. I mean, I did see that, but I should have known.... I should have helped... I... I...
"Tai?... You okay?" Jerked out of my self loathing thoughts I looked up to find a pair of azure eyes staring down at me with concern. They looked so much like Matt's eyes, but they belonged to his younger brother, TK. Holding back a sob, I just silently nodded my head and tightened my grip on my love's thin hand. Matt lay there on a hospital bed motionless. The doctors had given him all sorts of drugs to keep him in a dreamless but restful sleep, they say that he is just weak and sick with exhaustion, starvation and stress overload. Ha! is that all? I should have noticed it sooner, instead I was only thinking about myself again and how lucky I was to have him.
I've been by his side since he got in here, and can't be forced to leave no matter how the others try to get me to. All I can do is stare at his peaceful face, for once not full of pain and fear while he sleeps. They should have done this sooner for him. Should of...should. So many should haves and what if's.
"He's going to be fine now Tai. You really should get something to eat, or at least rest. We don't want you ending up in a bed like Matt you know." I shake my head stubbornly, I don't care if I die, as long as Matt is okay.
TK is still staring at me with worry, so just to get him to leave me alone, "I'm fine. Why would you care?"
"I care because my brother cares. What would he say if he wakes up to find his boyfriend has fainted?" My eyes widen and my face whips around to stare at TK with shock. The younger boy's eyes also widen and he slaps a hand over his mouth, "Oops, I... I didn't mean... to..." He shook his head and stared at his brother with tears of horror in his blue eyes, "Did... did I just assume... something wrong?"
I can't help but smile at the young blonde. He's too smart for his own good, and I should have realized the Matt would tell his own brother about his feelings for me. They tell each other everything. "No... no it's okay. You're right. I was just surprised you knew." I reassure him, my voice sounds cracked and dry.
TK looked back at me, a huge grin lighting up his face. He's so much like Matt that it almost hurts to look at him. "I knew it! That's so cool! Matt's been going on forever about how much he loved you, but never knew how to tell you. Ever since the digital world he's been moping around about you, and I had to hear every time I saw him how wonderful and hot you were!" His grin widened and he laughed a little. That kid can lighten up any bad situation. He diffently deserved the crest of Hope.
I smiled back at him, "Really. You'll have to tell me all about it one of these days." He laughed again.
"Yeah, maybe. But I think Matt would kill me if I did. Anyway, you coming for something to eat?"
"Uh, no... I'm not hungery. I'll just stay here with him, okay?"
TK sighed and shrugged, "Fine, but don't say I didn't try. I'll just be at the cafe downstairs with Kari, Sora and Dai, alright? Just in case he asks if he wakes. And I'll bring you something to drink when I come back."
My head snapped back as I heard that name, "Sora? Sora's here? You didn't tell her did you?" She can't know yet, I need to break it to her myself. I just hope she still wants to be my friend, I do enjoy hanging out with her.
"Know about you and Matt? No, I don't think so. Don't worry, I won't tell her. Nobody else knows either, 'though I think Kari might suspect something." He nodded, gave me another grin, and with a last look at Matt he walked out of the door.
My stomach growled a bit, but I ignored it as I looked back at the frail form layin beside me. He looked so weak and thin, about to break at the slightest touch. My poor, poor Yama. I'm so sorry. I know he would hate me feeling guilty, but I can't help it. Somehow it's my fault, I just know it, everything always is.
"Unnh... don't... no... don't leave... me... Taichi... don't... go..." He's waking up! I get to my feet and watch carefully as Matt starts rolling his head around. He seems scared, but I won't leave, don't worry Yama, I'm here. "Ta...chi... come back... please..."
"I'm right here Yama-chan, I'm here for you. I'm not going anywhere, don't you worry, I'm not going to leave ever again. Open your eyes Yama, look at me, I'm here for you." I try to tell him, and almost instantly he does open his beautiful blue eyes. They are full of unshed tears and fear, fear that I'll not be here. God, how I wish I had never ran that first time. Will he ever trust me again?
He looks up at me, calming down when he sees me standing over him. "Hi Taichi." He smiles that stunning smile of his.
Smiling back I brush back his golden bangs from his eyes, "Hi Yama. How are you feeling?"
"Better, I think. Am I back in the hospital?" I nodded and he sighs sadly, "I hate this place. How long?"
"You've only been here a day, you were exhausted. They gave you a bunch of shots and you've been asleep for hours. No nightmares I presume?" Matt really did look better, more alive and awake.
Matt shook his head then threw me a concerned look, "You've been here the whole time haven't you?" He frowned when I nodded, "Why? You at least ate didn't you?"
I gave him a guilty grimace and looked down, studying the his delicate hand in mine carefully. He shouldn't be so worried about me, I'm not the one who is hurt here. "No I haven't eaten. I wasn't hungery. And I stayed because I couldn't leave you alone here, I wanted to stay with you. I love you, you know." I said the last part softly and risked a glance back up to see his reaction. Matt's eye's lit up and he smiled again, squeezing my hand as tears formed him his blue depths.
"Thank you Taichi, I... I love you too." I smiled back and leaned down obligingly as he pulled me. My lips pressed against his cold ones, warming them up instantly, and ran my other hand through his hair. So gorgeous, so soft, I opened my mouth slightly and slipped my tongue through. He let it in and I fell into a passion filled joy as I explored him all over again. My head felt light, no sense left in it, and the only thought in it was my Yama, he was mine and love filled me so completely that I pressed harder. I couldn't get enough of his sweet taste. Matt groaned beneath me in equal happiness as I ran my hands all over his head and arms, never breaking off our kiss. That is until I heard a noise behind me that sounded like a gasp of surprise. Matt and I both broke off as we turned toward the doorway, both blushing like a couple of little boys caught with our hands in the cookie jar.
There at the entrance stood a gaping Daisuke, Takeru, Kari and Sora. Before either of us could say anything, Sora ran off away from us, and Takeru ran after her throwing a "I'll talk to her," behind him. The spiky haired brunette who wore my goggles and my sister just stayed where they were, frozen in shock. I didn't know what to say, what do you say to something like this? and apparently neither did Yamato. Finally after a few minutes of uncomfortable silence Daisuke gave a nervous laugh, breaking through our shock.
"Oh... my... god... Does dad know about this Tai?" Kari asked, plopping down into the vacated chair. That got my brain working as I stared down at her.
"No he doesn't, you... you won't tell will you? You know how he is, please don't tell him." My voice shook at the thought of my dad finding out his own son was one of the fags he hated so much.
My sister shook her head slowly, then smiled a little, "No, don't worry Tai, I won't tell him. But you won't be able to keep it a secret forever you know."
"I know, I know. I'll tell him when I'm ready." I reached over and mussed her hair, then turned to the person I was more worried about telling everyone about this, "Uh Daisuke?"
Daisuke had sidled up beside the bed and was watching us with great interest. At least he wasn't freaking out like I had expected him to. He was grinning at Matt, then when he heard me, turned the look to me, "Uh, yeah?"
"You can keep a secret right? I mean, people are going to find out sooner or later, but I rather you didn't go blab it to everyone right away." I gave him a stern look and hoped he would take me seriously for once.
He just snorted, "Of course I won't tell, I'm not a girl you know. I don't gossip about stuff like that." He ignored the death glare coming from Kari at that statement, and then grinned sheepishly at the ground, "Besides, didn't Matt tell you?"
I looked over at Matt, confused, "Tell me what?"
Daisuke answered quietly, looking embarrassed as a redness creeped across his cheeks, "Well, Me and Takeru are kind of... sort of... going out. Hehe."
"No, Yama didn't tell me." I grinned at his discomfort, and then I remembered how TK had given the nickname 'Dai' earlier, I guess I'm a little dense when it comes to love. "Well, um, congrats."
Daisuke smiled happily and went over to sit beside Kari who obviously had already known about that relationship as she didn't seem the least bit surprised. Either everyone never tells me anything that goes on, or everybody had figured everything out when I was too stupid to see it. Of course, they did know some of the kids that I hung around with and probably thought it wise not to tell me about two of my friends being gay. Suddenly I didn't feel too good, all this time that I've been dissing gays with my so called friends, I've been with three of them the whole time. What had they thought of me? I never had thought to keep my mouth shut around Daisuke, Takeru or Yamato about what I had thought, they must have had the hardest time keeping from punching me.
I fell down on my butt with a thump and buried my head in my arms, sobbing as realization and shame overcame me. I was so stupid! How did they put up with me? I heard the bed creak behind me and a pair of hands rested on my shoulders, "Taichi? What's wrong?" I heard Matt whisper in my ear.
My sobs got under control enough for me to gasp out, not looking up, "Why? Why didn't... you guys... tell me! All this time... I...I put down... you guys... and... and you didn't tell me! I deserve... I deserve to be beaten shitless... to...to die! I... I can't believe... I said... all those things... in front of you... How can you not... not hate me?" My crying started up again and I couldn't think. They must hate me, they have to. All that I said about fags, especially to Matt! I could hear the others trying to talk to me, but I shrugged off the hands and stumbled to my feet and ran out the door. They couldn't want me to be there, not after how stupid I had been. That's why they hadn't told me about TK and Davis, that's why it took so long for Matt to talk to me, that's why I had ran. I was such an idiot, moron, bastard, and every other bad name in the book.
"TAICHI! DON'T RUN AWAY! YOU PROMISED!" I stopped in my tracks as I heard the scream and turned back in shock. I was almost halfway down the hall, and I stood there stunned. What was I doing? I was leaving Yama again! After I had told him I would never run from him again. I took a hestitant step towards his room, then started to run back to him as I heard another scream of terror. Shit Taichi, you heartless bastard!
I skidded into the room and took a second to register the scene infront of me. Daisuke and Kari were almost on top of Yamato, trying to hold him down as he yelled and fought to get up. He looked hysterical, and I winced as he lashed out at my sister. Then I ran up to the bedside and shoved them away, grabbing him in my arms myself, sobbing as I saw the look of horror in his eyes, of fright and hurt, "Oh no... Yama..I...I didn't... mean to... run...I'm so... so sorry... So sorry... I'm such a baka... You should...hate me... I'm such a... a freaking jerk..."
Matt clung onto my shirt with a vice like grip, burying his head into my shoulder. We stayed like that for only a moment before Matt pulled away from me and held me out where he could look at me straight in the eye. He seemed to have calmed down somewhat. Avoiding his gaze, I tried to pull him back, but he held firm, "Taichi, look at me." I did, surprised at the tone he used, more forceful than I was used to, "I want you to listen to me okay?" I nodded silently, still not sure about myself. "None of us hate you, not for anything you said. We've talked about your little dissing episodes before and decided that you didn't know and couldn't mean it. You weren't talking about us, you were just following your, uh, 'friends' and... and we understand. I could never hate you Taichi, never. Don't ever think that I do. Just... just don't leave me, O...okay? Please... stay with me?" His voice started to waver, and I could see uncertainty return to his eyes and a far off fear. I looked over at Daisuke and Kari, they just nodded and smiled at me, they didn't hate me either. I was stupid, but they forgave me. Then I turned back to Matt and didn't say anything, instead I pushed his lips into mine and gave him a crushing kiss. He returned it with just as much passion, then broke off to lean against me. I held him gently and then realized that someone else had entered the room. Looking up I saw TK hesitate at the doorway and gave him a friendly smile. He smiled back, clearly relieved that whatever had happened was okay.
TK went over to Daisuke, and I saw him whisper something in the goggle headed boy's ear, and Daisuke gave a nod towards us and whispered something back, then gripped the blonde's hand. Kari stood up, saying something quietly to the other boys and TK nodded to her, then out loud, "I'm going downstairs to talk to Sora, Tai. It seems she's hiding out in the girl's washroom and TK was too scared to go in there," TK grinned and punched her lightly in the arm, "So I'll go talk to her. Don't worry Tai, I'm sure she'll forgive you. You guys have been best friends for like ever. She just needs to get over the shock." She gave me a bright smile and a wave for Matt than cheerfully walked off. If anyone could talk sense into Sora, it was her, and I really really hoped that Sora wasn't too mad at me. The other two boys gave me a shrug when I turned my gaze on them. Then Daisuke grinned and pulled TK onto his lap, wrapping his arms around the thinner boy and leaned back. TK's eye's widened and he looked at me, then relaxed against his boyfriend when he saw that I wasn't freaking out or anything. Although why I would when I was with his brother like this was beyond me.
I looked back over at my golden love and smiled while I gently lay him back down onto his pillow. His ocean blue eyes opened half way as he watched me quietly, his lips curved ever so slightly. He started to say something, but stopped with his mouth part way open and frowned past me. Turning, I spotted the focus of his attention, a person who I'd never have expected to see around here ever. "Seb... What are you doing here?" I managed to growl out, I hated that jerk, and he had no reason to be here at all.
The taller teammate of mine (though I'd never call him that) just ignored me with a mean smirk, and turned his attention to Matt as his nasty smile grew wider. I looked over and saw Matt was looking seriously worried, and thoughtful, as if he was trying to recall something that wouldn't come to him. Then Seb spoke, "Well, well, well. How's it going, blondie?"
Yamato went stiff, and I mean hard as a board. All colour drained from his skin, and his eyes were wider than I have ever seen them in my entire life. That's when I realized he had stopped breathing, he just lay there, unmoving, staring with horror filled eyes, his hand squeezing mine so hard that he crushed the bones together. Scared out of my wits I yelled for Takeru to get the doctor, and he agreed hastily racing out of the room. I turned my gaze to my long time rival and was filled with hate. What the hell did he think he was doing? I don't know why Yama was reacting this way, but somehow that true bastard was involved. "Get out" I grated through clenched teeth at the still smirking intruder.
"Sure Tai, old buddy. I just came to see if blondie here was alright, his girl fans are getting pretty upset you know," Seb gave a small amused laugh, one that sent shivers down my spine. I was about to retort back to the annoying bully when I heard Matt start to gasp. Then the thin blonde shook with such force that I immediatly forgot about Seb and instead turned around to hold Matt down gently, let him know that I was there for him.
Matt didn't even seem to notice I was there, his icy blue eyes shone feverishly and he started to scream. As the first high note was issued, I swore and tried to talk to my love, but Matt wasn't listening. The pale head tossed back and forth, eyes staring out, seeing something that no one else could see. The screams got louder, more frequent and then he started to spasm. Matt's whole body tensed, and his back arched up as a painful sound came out of his mouth. His lips were were curved in a silent plead.
Oh god not again, please, why is he doing this so suddenly?
*>>>>>*
Well, well, well. How's it going, blondie?
It can't be him, it just can't be, what the hell is he doing here? But no, I recognize that voice now, and his nickname for me. No, no, no, please, what does he want? Didn't he get enough out of me?
Can't breath, can't see. I remember, he was the leader of that wolf pack. Please don't let him get me, please!
We're going to pay Tai back for stealing our fame. You're going to help us blondie.
No, no, not again, please, why is he doing this to me? I don't want to go through this again!
W...what do you want?
Sorry blondy, no time to explain, you'll find out
soon enough.
GET ME OUT OF HERE!! Don't let them hurt me again, please. Tai! Help me! The memory is too much, it's going to kill me...
...Now here's where the fun begins...
Please... please don't... please...
Pain! God help me, I can't stand the pain. I'm so scared
Taichi, I need you, why'd you run? Why? Why do you hate me? Why are they
doing this to me? Because of you, they're paying you back through me. How
do they figure this will hurt you when you hate me?
It hurts so bad, pain is filling me, I want to die. LEAVE
ME ALONE!!! Pain is taking over, they just wont stop! Over and over and
over, it just won't go away. Please let me die, it hurts, it hurts! Taichi,
please don't hate me, I need help. The darkness won't leave me, let it
take me, please. I'll never have to go through this stupid nightmare again,
let me go, LET ME GO!! I want to die...
You want to live...
No I don't! There's no point to staying, I'll just be in pain! Everybody hates me...Taichi hates me...
Taichi loves you
No! No... he ran from me, I told him but he hates me, he left me to the darkness and pain!
Don't you remember?
Remember what? What? Who are you? I don't know who you are!
Remember his love, your love... don't leave him... he loves you...
Who? Taichi? He doesn't love me... I can't remember... too much pain... too much hurt
He needs you Yamato, he needs you now... Don't leave him alone, you can live
What? What? I can't live, I need to die! How do you know my name? Taichi loves me?
You need to remember his love, darkness is not the solution to your pain, love is...
But... but... how? Why won't you answer me dammit! AAH! It hurts! They're hurting me!
**Yamato, please wake up, please, I love you... don't die... please don't leave me**
Who's that? Hello? I can't see...
**I don't think I can live without you Yama... I... can't... I'm so sorry for everything**
Can't live... without me? Taichi? Is that you?
**I'm so stupid... stupid, stupid, stupid... I promise never to leave you Yama... Never**
No, you're not stupid, I am. I'm sorry. Why can't I find you? I can hear you... I love you.
...
Taichi? Are you still there? TAICHI! COME BACK! Please... No, I don't want to leave you. I coming Taichi, hold on, wait for me...
*>>>>>*
Tai's POV
Over and over I replayed the scene in my head. The answer was right in front of me, I just know it, if only I wasn't so dense. Come on Taichi, think! Seb came in, said a few things to Matt, then my poor Yama went into seizures and unconciousness. It seemed that something about Seb scared Matt really bad, so bad that Matt started to go into the nightmare...once...again...
Dammit Taichi, you baka... that was it, that's the answer! It all came to me like a blow in the stomach, SEB, he did it, he was the one all along! How could I have been so stupid as not to have realized that sooner? And I let him get away, but not next time. He hurt my Yama badly, and he was going to pay big for that. Nothing was going to stop me from beating the shit out of that bastard. All I can see is red, the whole room is a blurry red as I jump to my feet.
The only thing on my mind as I storm out of the hospital room is how much I'm going to hurt Seb for this. He... he almost KILLED my LOVE!! That alone gave me all the reason in the world to wipe his fucking ass off of the face of this world. He was going to hell.
I am going to KILL him! No mercy for the wicked.
As I left I didn't even notice the motionless golden haired
boy start to blink his sapphire eyes open and come to life slowly. Only
the thought of revenge was with me.
(A/N) Ooh, Sora caught Tai, Yama's frightened and hurt,
and Taichi on the rampage!
Yeah, Matt's a little clingy to Tai,
and is very emotional, but can you blame him? Anyway, I hope this
lived up to an okay fic, and review to let me know what you think, I love
reviews (positive ones anyway...) And everyone's been so good to
me so far, and... I'll shut up now and start working on the next part ^_^;