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Black Clouds: Part six- Together Always and Forever
Tai's POV
"Tai... Tai, wake up. Phone for you... Tai?"
"Unnh, go awayyy" I mumbled half asleep and pulled the pillow over my head. If I talked to one more girl over the phone I was going to scream and go crazy like never before. Every girl my dad met he told to phone here, trying to convert me or something stupid like that. Where the hell does he get off trying to force me to like girls? He just can't get it through that thick skull of his. The telephone has now been ringing almost nonstop as all my fanclub girls got wind that I was 'looking for someone'. I wish they would just go to hell and mind their own business, not to mention my father. I refuse to take anymore calls.
My sister's voice came through the pillow, "But Tai, I think you might want to take this one..."
Ignore her and she'll go away, well, at least that's what I keep telling myself. When I don't answer, she keeps going, "Well, I guess Sora will just have to tell Matt that you don't want to talk to him th... AH! Tai watch it! You almost knocked me down!"
I grab the phone desperately and block out Kari's complaints, "Hello? Yamato?"
"Um, no. Don't you even say 'hi' anymore?" Sora's voice came to my ear, and I sigh in irritation.
"Hi Sora, now can I talk to Yamato now please? I really, really, really want to talk to him."
"Sure, just a sec," Some muffled sounds came through the reciever, then the most beautiful voice in the whole world came on. I've been waiting all day to hear that sweet, quiet sound, "Hey Taichi..."
"Hey Yama-chan..." I didn't know what to say. I don't want to be talking over the phone with him, I want him right here in front of me so I can hold him and feel him, run my hands through his gorgous golden hair, feel his soft warm lips on mine. But for now, this is the best I get. "You holding up alright?" I'm worried, he wasn't in top condition when I left him.
"Yeah, I guess. I... I miss you Taichi..." His soft, smooth voice whispered sadly.
"It's only been three days Yama-chan, don't worry about it." I tried to tell him, but my tone is not cheerful enough today, "I miss you too though."
"Why don't you just leave and come over? He's not like, guarding your room or anything, right?"
I sighed, hating to disappoint him, "I can't Yama, he'll check on me. I'm sorry, really."
"Oh... okay. Look, I got to go now, so I'll talk to you in school or something." He was even quieter than before, making me strain to hear him. He wasn't angry was he? He has to understand, I can't just go against my dad's wishes can I?
"But Yama-chan, we just got started talking... don't leave yet." I practically begged. I needed his voice, his reassurance.
"Sorry Tai, see ya around. I love you."
"I love you too Yama-chan" But my parting words word said to a dial tone. He hung up on me! I hurt him, I know I did, but what can I do? Turning off the phone, I threw it across the room and collapsed on to the floor, shaking as the suppressed tears started to break free. I want to go to my Yama so bad, I want to hold him, to comfort him, but instead I'm stuck in this stupid room because my idiot father was not understanding to my situation. It's all his fault! Stupid Dad. Please don't be mad at me Yamato, I love you so much... What am I going to do?
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Matt's POV
"Sorry Tai, see ya around. I love you."
Then without waiting for his goodbye, I clicked the phone off and set it back on the table. My eyes felt hot and itchy, strained from holding back my tears. I wanted to be with Taichi, not talking to him over a stupid phone. I hope he's not upset over my abrupt departure, but I couldn't listen to him anymore without going into a complete breakdown. I needed to talk to him with his melting chocolate eyes staring into mine, I needed his warm comforting arms around me. But talking like this was just teasing me, letting me have only a part of what I wanted. I hate his father for doing this to him, hate him more than anything in the world. Why can't he understand?
"Matt? You okay?"
I turned, wiping away a few escaping tears, and tried to give the girl in front of me a smile. I failed, miserably, "I'm.... I'm fine, just... fine. I... I should go home now, sorry for... for bugging you like this."
She reached over and patted my shoulder, trying to comfort me with a smile, "No problem at all Matt. I'll help anytime, okay?"
I nodded and quickly left the room and house. The wind was picking up a bit outside, but the day was still warm with the sun low in the western horizen. A stray leaf whirled around me, then stuck in my hair. I plucked it out and threw it back into the wind bitterly. Stupid Tai, can't even just get up the courage to stand up to his dad. No, no I don't mean that. Shaking my head hard, I wipe away that thought. Taichi loves me, he's proved that over and over, it just is hard to go against a parent's demand. If my dad was keeping me grounded, I probably wouldn't disobey him either. It's Taichi's father who is the one to blame. Maybe he would just get tired of arguing with Tai and let him do what he wants. Maybe, I can only hope.
My apartement building was only ten minutes away from Sora's, and when I got there I found it empty. Typical of my dad to go to work and not even care to how I feel about it. Stop it Matt! Get a hold of yourself and stop thinking all these bad thoughts about everyone. They care, it's just he's busy, that's all. Besides, it's nice to have the house to myself, I need the quiet time. Although, it's a little too quiet in here for me. The news should be on right about now. I turn on the television set in the living room, change to the channel I want, then go to get something to eat. Our refridgerator is practically bare, two guys in one house eat a lot. I decided on some popcorn, and popped some of it into a large glass bowl. This should fill me up some.
With my booty in hand, I made my way back to the living room. One glance at the tv screen and I stopped dead, the bowl falling from nerveless hands to shatter on the wood floor below. I didn't even notice the mess, my attention only on the picture before me. The source of all my nightmares, all my agony, had his huge ugly face filling up the screen. God help me, I did not need to be reminded! As I stood there in shock, holding back a scream, I realized that the reporter was talking about the case.
/.....teenager who was found guilty of participating in a serious crime of gang rape and assult to a seventeen year old boy whom we are not allowed to reveal the identity of at this moment. The young boy was hospitalized with numerous broken bones, head fracture, and open wounds. He has been released only a few days ago, and still is recovering from the trauma. The others involved have still yet to be found, and the leader of this gang will be sentenced to a long term of injailment...../
The rest of the story was cut off as a chair went smashing through the glass screen, sending shards of glass scattering everywhere. I dropped to my knees, body shaking with sobs, ignoring how the glass from the bowl was cutting into my legs and arms. Why, oh why did they have to bring that up? I did not need to see that, to be reminded of my injuries and what those shitheads had put me through. Just seeing that face again brought back all those horrible memories that I had managed to lock away for the time. Will it never go away? The pain, those memories, the hurt and what they took from me?
"Ta...ichi..." The name chokes out of my mouth before I can think, staring around wildly for his comforting embrace. I need him, but he's not here. He's not here to take away the pain again. I want him so bad. Stumbling to my feet, I stagger across the room and out the door. I don't care what his father says, I need him and he needs me. No one is going to keep me from being with the one I love so much. His dad will have to see, he just has to. I can feel the blood running down my legs from the glass cuts, but there's no time to clean them up. I have to get to Taichi. He is the only one who can take away my pain.
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Tai's POV
Pouring a glass of milk, I grabbed a box of oreo cookies and sat down at the table in the kitchen. My dad had finally allowed me to wander around the house at will, thinking that I couldn't get in much trouble involving guys in this place. He still won't let me even use the phone without his checking the line to see who I'm speaking with. There's no trust! Anyway, all there is to do now is just sit around and mope. I wish I was anywhere but here, cuddling my blonde love. He's so beautiful, especially his eyes. His bright azure eyes are what drew me to him in the first place. They are the deepest blue I've ever seen, and so full of emotions behind that cold mask he puts on sometimes. Ever since I had met him, I had been driven to get behind that mask, to let those worries and love come out in the open. I could gaze in those loving twin pools for hours on end, seeking in them the true Yamato. I wanted to-
"Tai! Come here!" Kari's voice yelled from the living room, cutting into my daydreamy thoughts. Annoyed I yelled back a command to leave me alone, but she insisted that I come see the television. She sounded serious. I finally push myself up, grab one last cookie and head on over.
"What?" I ask, irritated. My sister just pointed to the screen, and when I looked the rest of the cookie fell to the floor in a shower of crumbs. Seb's face glared through the tv at me, sneering threateningly. I growled angrily at him and listened to the reporter explain about his 'fun' with my Yamato. Good thing Yama's not here to see this, he'd freak. As it was, I was having trouble keeping myself from punching his ugly nose on the screen. Stupid bastard, I hope he never gets out of jail.
The story finally ended with a word of caution about walking alone at night, and I flopped on to the couch with a sigh of anger and relief that that jerk was not getting off easy. Kari echoed my sigh, and leaned against me, "Why would anyone do that to others Tai?"
I put my arm around her shoulder reassuringly, "I don't know sis, they're just sick in the head I guess." I leaned back wearily and silently watched the next news story about a rat being served to a customer accidently instead of chicken. It must have fallen into the deep fryer while the cook wasn't looking. I made a mental note never to eat there.
The doorbell echoed through the house and I jerked up out of my doze. Seeing Kari had fallen asleep, I gently laid her down and made my way over to the door. The bell rang again and again. "Geeze, hold your horses, I'm coming" I yelled. Probably my dad coming home excited over finding another 'perfect' girl for me. If it was I am so going to throw a fit.
I was not expecting to see who I saw when I opened the door. A very messed up looking Yamato stood in front of me, tears running down his cheeks in a flood. I stood in shock as he tumbled foreward into my open arms, and he sobbed into my shoulder. "Oh god... Yamato... what happened?" I stared down at the shaking boy, but he didn't answer, just clung harder to me. Then I noticed the blood. A trail of it led straight to him.
"Yamato!" I grabbed his shoulders and pushed him back where I could see him.
The tear streaked face looked at me for a bit, then I saw the light come on behind his eyes. He smiled a bit, "Taichi... I... I missed... you..." I stared at him in confusion. He's here, bleeding half to death, and all he can say is he missed me? What the hell happened to him?
"Yama.... Yama, what's the matter? Did somebody hurt you?" I asked fearfully. I hoped to God that nobody hurt him again. That would be just too much.
Thankfully he shook his head slightly, "N...no. Why?"
"Because you bleeding for crying out loud! What the hell happened to you?" He just looked at me confused, then looked down at his arms and legs.
"Oh..." He trailed off as more tears built up in his eyes, "Oh Taichi... t...take it...it...a...away. Please..."
"Take what away Yama-chan?" I asked gently, closing the door with my foot and slowly leading him to the bathroom where I could clean him up. He shivered against me.
"The... the...pain." He sobbed, clutching my arm with fear.
He looked so frightened, why was he acting like this all of a sudden? And when did the pain just come back like that? Shit, what was going on? "Of course Yama-chan, anything for you." I whispered, setting him down on the lid of the toilet. He just nodded, and sat there shaking, burying his face in his hands as if he could hide from the world.
I heard a gasp behind me and turned to see Kari staring at Matt with horror at the sight he made, "What happened Tai?"
"I don't know. Get me some washcloths and bandages, could you?" She nodded and ran out quickly. Rolling up his pant legs, I heard him draw in a breath of pain, then noticed the jagged pieces of glass sunk through the material and into his legs. What the hell? Slowly I started to pick out the bigger shards, and had to get tweezers for the tiny ones that had sunk really far into his skin. He didn't cry out once, just let out small whimpers at particularly painful spots. I tried not to think about what I was doing, and took the cloth and a box of gauze and bandaids from Kari when she came back. I told her to wait out in the livingroom and that Yamato was going to be fine. At least I hoped he would be.
It took about half an hour to clean out all the cuts, some were pretty deep, but finally they were all bandaged up. Quickly I took another cloth and wiped up some escaped blood up from the floor and toilet seat, then crouched in front of Yamato, trying to get him to explain. He stared at me quietly for a few minutes, then reached out a hand to my face, running his long slender finger across my cheek. I looked up at him questioningly, and the smaller boy slid off the seat and threw his arms around me, pulling me into a hard hug. My hands rubbed Yama's back as he buried his head into my chest. After another few moments, he finally collected himself and pulled away to stare into my eyes. I looked in his, seeing joy, pain and frustration.
"Taichi... thank you" Yamato said softly.
I grinned a bit and squeezed his arm, "No problem Yama-chan, I'd do anything for you. But could you tell me why you came into my apartement bleeding crazily with so much glass stuck in you?"
The blonde just shrugged, looking away, "Sorry, I... I guess I just sort of freaked. The bowl broke on the floor and I fell onto the glass. Sorry" He repeated. Well, that didn't explain much, but at least I know this was just an accident. But what scared him so bad?
"It's alright Yama-chan, not your fault." I easily lifted him up in my arms and walked out of the bathroom to my bedroom. There I set him on the bed. Yamato sat stiffly on the edge, staring down at his hands. Then he looked up at me, unshed tears glimmering in his eyes.
"Oh Taichi... I just wasn't thinking, I... I saw him... his face... and it just brought back so much... pain and memories." So he had seen the news. Damn those reporters, why couldn't they have just let well enough alone? Now Yamato was suffering again because they just had to show that bastard all over television!
Reaching over, I pulled Yamato into a hug, rubbing his back like I always do to calm him down. He sighs and pulls me in tighter, "but you're always here to take it away... I love you Taichi," my blonde love whispers in my ear.
"I love you too Yama-chan, I love you too," I hold him, feeling his fright and confusion melt away within my embrace. I'm glad he trusts me now, 'though God knows I don't really deserve it. My poor, hurt Yama, I'll always protect you...
Then he stiffened in my arms, letting out a small gasp of surprise. I let go of him, looking into his eyes with worry, was he still in pain? Maybe I hadn't gotten out all of the glass. But he's not looking back at me, something over my shoulder has his attention. Slowly I turned around, praying for it not to be what I knew it to be. Standing in my doorway was the menacing figure of my father, rage etched in his features. I cringed unconciously at the look he was giving us.
"Taichi... What the hell do you think you are doing with that... that thing!" He finally growled, taking a step towards us. I only shook my head and grabbed fearfully at Yamato, fearing the worse for us. I had never seen my dad so mad before. "Get out of my son's room. Now." He directed to Yamato.
Beside me, Yamato took a deep breath and stood up. But instead of leaving me, he faced my angry father, staring him calmly in the eye. God Yamato, what do you think you are doing?
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Matt's POV
Taking a deep breath, I stood up and out of the comforting arm of my dear Taichi. I knew what I had to do if I didn't want to lose him. Facing his very displeased father I held my ground, feeling the stare of my boyfriend behind me. No, I was never going to leave him, I was not going to let some narrow minded bastard take him away from me. No way in hell. Now I might have been afraid before, actually scared witless, but this was different. This was something I could stand against for someone I loved. It was my turn to try and help Taichi after he came back and helped me live so many times after that one terrible night.
I looked man in the eye and uttered one defiant word, "No."
Mr. Kamiya stopped, eyes widening in surprise before the rage flowed back into them, "What do you mean no? Get out of here. We don't want freaks like you in our house, and you are confusing my son."
Shaking with anger, fire blazed in my eyes. How could this guy accuse me of affecting Taichi? I might have helped a bit in the final decision, but it's not like I could just turn him gay if he didn't want to be! "I mean no." I told him as calmly as I could. I didn't want to start a fight if possible, it would just hurt Taichi the most, "I won't leave. I love Taichi Kamiya, and I don't give a damn whether or not you agree with it. No, I did not just make him gay, nobody can just become gay. No, I will not leave him behind while you try to convert him to your standards of normalcy since that's a load of bull. No. Got it?" I have no idea where all my sudden bravery was coming from, but it was starting to scare me. I just hope I didn't do anything stupid.
The older man stood there stunned, staring at me as if I was an alien asking him to take me to his leader. He shook his head slowly, not breaking our eye contact, "You... how dare you presume that he even likes you like that!"
Suddenly Taichi was at my side, clutching my hand and enveloping it in his own warm one. "How dare you presume I don't!" he shot back at his dad, tense with defiance. "I do love him, more than anything. He's the one I live for, everyday, just waiting to hold him and stare into those beautiful ice eyes of his. Don't you think I can feel true love when it comes? I know what I'm doing, and I know I love this boy. And I'm sorry, very sorry, if you think you can make me change my mind. There is nothing in this world that could take me from him except death. So if you decide to disown me or beat me, or whatever, go ahead, but it's not going to change anything. I'm not sorry for loving him, but I do wish you could try to understand, even a little..." Taichi finally halted his long tirade, breathing hard. I could feel the tears in my eyes, tears of happiness and joy at hearing how much he really did love me. I wanted to just grab him in a deep kiss and never let him go again. Of course, that might have ruined everything at the moment.
Mr. Kamiya's mouth hung open, not knowing how to answer to Taichi's speech. He looked at me, then back at Tai, trying to figure this out. Some people are just so deep into their theories of right and wrong that it takes a lot to break them. While Taichi's dad stood there deciding, Kari peeked around the corner, eyes wide with fright and curiousity. She slowly walked in, up to her father and looked at us with questions flitting across her eyes.
"Dad?" She asked. Mr. Kamiya started, then looked down at her. "Don't be mad at Tai, please. He really loves Matt, he told me, and I can see it. Can't you just try to be okay with it? Please don't kick Tai out or hurt him, I'd miss him." She took his hand and looked pleadingly up at his face. He stared down at his daughter, almost as if he didn't see her, then his eyes flickered up to us. Taichi held me tighter, like I was the only thing keeping him from falling, and I leaned a bit into him, taking in his warmth.
I could see pain and weariness tug at the older man's face as he watched us sadly, taking in the sight of his son holding me. Mr. Kamiya sighed and shook his head slowly as if trying to clear it, "Tai? Do you... do you really...love... him? I mean... really do?" he whispered.
Taichi nodded without hesitation, "Yes I do, with all of my heart."
Mr. Kamiya sighed again in defeat, "I see... I think." he took in a shaky breath, "okay then. I'm not going to do anything against...this. But, just... try not to do anything within my sight. You have to understand too that after all these years of being against this... sort of thing.... it's hard to just accept it that easily. I'll try not to discourage it anymore, but you can't push me, okay? I rather not like to see you... uh, boys... together too much around me." He nodded his head sharply and turned to leave the room. Only turning around when he heard Taichi call his name.
Taichi pulled out of my grasp and ran over to his father, giving him a huge hug and crying into his shirt. After a few minutes of Taichi's thank you's, and I love yous, and Mr. Kamiya's embarrassed looks and pats, Taichi let go and came back over to me. He smiled fondly into my eyes and reached a hand over to run it along my cheek. I gave a small happy laugh, then fell into his arms, longing to feel his warm embrace like never before. I had missed him so much over the last few days, more than I had realized, and had been scared that I would lose him forever. But he was here, and wasn't going to leave me alone. Never, never.
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Tai's POV
I couldn't believe it! My dad was allowing me to love Yamato! Not that he couldn't stop me, but I felt better with his partial acceptance. Yamato buried his head into my chest, wrapping his arms tightly around my waist. He must be just as happy. I can't believe how he stood up to my father like that, it was incredible, something that was totally surprising out of this quieter, shy boy. "Thank you, Yama-chan." I whispered in his ear, brushing my hands through his soft golden main.
Yamato looked up at me, tears bright in his eyes, and smiling like a lost puppy come home, "No... no thank you Taichi... for loving me... for putting up with me. I love you too you know?"
Laughing a bit at his joyful look, I nodded, "I know." and I reached down to kiss his forehead lightly. He smiled back at me, flinging his arms around my neck.
"I don't know what I'd do without you Taichi. Never leave me, right?" He asked quietly, love and adoration shining in his ocean depths.
"Never Yama-chan. I will never leave you." Then I pulled Yamato's head up, pressing my lips to his inviting soft ones. He leaned into it with eagerness and need.
Nothing could ever separate us forever. Our bond and love ran deeper than any other. I can feel his heart beating in time with mine, feel his slender body melding with my own. I will protect him with my life, never running off again. Everything would be alright, as long as we're together. Always and forever, my Yama.
"I love you, Yama-chan"
"I love you, Taichi."
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(A/N) Hehe, short and sappy, but hey- it's an ending!
A happy one at that! Anyway, that's a wrap, I think...I'll probably
end up making a sequel to this, you know, more rough times.
Hey, did you know that rat thing is true? I read it somewhere
that a girl found out her supposed chicken breast was a rat after driving
through a late night fast food place. I have know idea where, but
it happened a while ago. Pretty gross.
Anyway, I hope this was an okay part, and please Review?
>^_^