I forgot
To tell you I love you
And life's too long
And cold here, without you
I grieve for my condition,
For I cannot find the words to say
I need you so
(I Love You - Sarah McLachlan)
*******
TAP
TAP
"Wha?" Willow, being a lighter sleeper than her Xander, looked around
for the source of the intrusion upon her sleep. She caught the time on
her alarm clock. "For 4 am, this had better be really important," she
said to...nobody in particular. She located the source of the sound,
and went to her window.
Xander dropped the rest of the pebbles, and waited for her to open her
window. "Sorry," he said. "It's really important."
Willow sighed, and said, "Gimme five minutes and I'll meet you down
there."
True to her word, she was outside in five minutes, wearing jeans and a
t-shirt. She saw the look on Xander's face, and said, "What happened?
And whose hand met your face at full-force?"
"Buffy's," Xander said sadly.
"I repeat, what happened?" Willow asked again.
"I didn't tell her that you were trying the curse, Willow," Xander
replied.
"Huh? .... Oh.... Xander! Why on earth would you do that? .... She
found out!" Thus Willow went through the events of the previous hour
in five seconds flat.
"She found out, I told her tonight," Xander replied. "Thus the
hand-mark on the face. She's furious, as she should be. As for why I
didn't tell her, I'm not sure. If I could take it back and do it
over, I would. Especially since she told me tonight that the curse
did work, but it was too late. She had to kill him anyway."
Willow sat down suddenly on the porch step. "Wow, what else have I
missed while I was sleeping?"
Xander sat next to her, and said, "That just about covers it. Anyway,
she's upset, and angry, and a lot of other stuff, and I don't think
she
should be alone right now. And since I've been banished would you--"
"Already there," Willow answered. "Where's there?"
"Angel's mansion," Xander replied.
"Okay," Willow stood, but then saw the pathetic look that was still
lingering on Xander's face. "Hang in there, Xander. It'll work out."
Xander put his head in his hands, "I'm the slime of the earth," he
said.
Willow sat back down next to him, and said, "No, you're not. You did a
stupid, misguided---"
"Wills," Xander interrupted. "Bad Xander, I get it."
"Sorry, you're already beating yourself up," Willow sighed. "But no
matter what you did, the reasons behind it were far from awful. You
love her, and you were trying to protect her. Wasn't that it?"
Xander nodded, "It wasn't like I thought it out in full detail, in all
of half a second. I just had a feeling that if she knew, it would end
in badness. He would've killed her if she wasn't totally on her game."
"Maybe, Xander. But that wasn't your decision to make," Willow said
gently.
"I know that, Willow. And if I could turn back the clock and change
it, I would," Xander replied.
"I believe you," Willow replied. "I know you'd do anything for her. I
think she knows that too, Xander. Give her some time, and maybe things
will work out."
"I hope you're right," Xander said. "I can't lose her, Wills. I--"
"Hey," Willow put a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "I know. Go home,
go to bed. I'll take it from here. I'll come by your place later."
"Thanks," Xander replied. He looked over at her, and made an attempt
at a smile, but it didn't stick. "I forgot, you know. Or maybe I just
figured I'd have more time."
"You forgot what, Xander?" Willow asked.
"To tell her how much I love her," he said sadly. With that, he stood
up and walked back to his house.
Willow watched him go, then stood up and headed in the opposite
direction, toward the Mansion.
******
To tell you I love you
And life's too long
And cold here, without you
I grieve for my condition,
For I cannot find the words to say
I need you so
(I Love You - Sarah McLachlan)
*******
TAP
TAP
"Wha?" Willow, being a lighter sleeper than her Xander, looked around
for the source of the intrusion upon her sleep. She caught the time on
her alarm clock. "For 4 am, this had better be really important," she
said to...nobody in particular. She located the source of the sound,
and went to her window.
Xander dropped the rest of the pebbles, and waited for her to open her
window. "Sorry," he said. "It's really important."
Willow sighed, and said, "Gimme five minutes and I'll meet you down
there."
True to her word, she was outside in five minutes, wearing jeans and a
t-shirt. She saw the look on Xander's face, and said, "What happened?
And whose hand met your face at full-force?"
"Buffy's," Xander said sadly.
"I repeat, what happened?" Willow asked again.
"I didn't tell her that you were trying the curse, Willow," Xander
replied.
"Huh? .... Oh.... Xander! Why on earth would you do that? .... She
found out!" Thus Willow went through the events of the previous hour
in five seconds flat.
"She found out, I told her tonight," Xander replied. "Thus the
hand-mark on the face. She's furious, as she should be. As for why I
didn't tell her, I'm not sure. If I could take it back and do it
over, I would. Especially since she told me tonight that the curse
did work, but it was too late. She had to kill him anyway."
Willow sat down suddenly on the porch step. "Wow, what else have I
missed while I was sleeping?"
Xander sat next to her, and said, "That just about covers it. Anyway,
she's upset, and angry, and a lot of other stuff, and I don't think
she
should be alone right now. And since I've been banished would you--"
"Already there," Willow answered. "Where's there?"
"Angel's mansion," Xander replied.
"Okay," Willow stood, but then saw the pathetic look that was still
lingering on Xander's face. "Hang in there, Xander. It'll work out."
Xander put his head in his hands, "I'm the slime of the earth," he
said.
Willow sat back down next to him, and said, "No, you're not. You did a
stupid, misguided---"
"Wills," Xander interrupted. "Bad Xander, I get it."
"Sorry, you're already beating yourself up," Willow sighed. "But no
matter what you did, the reasons behind it were far from awful. You
love her, and you were trying to protect her. Wasn't that it?"
Xander nodded, "It wasn't like I thought it out in full detail, in all
of half a second. I just had a feeling that if she knew, it would end
in badness. He would've killed her if she wasn't totally on her game."
"Maybe, Xander. But that wasn't your decision to make," Willow said
gently.
"I know that, Willow. And if I could turn back the clock and change
it, I would," Xander replied.
"I believe you," Willow replied. "I know you'd do anything for her. I
think she knows that too, Xander. Give her some time, and maybe things
will work out."
"I hope you're right," Xander said. "I can't lose her, Wills. I--"
"Hey," Willow put a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "I know. Go home,
go to bed. I'll take it from here. I'll come by your place later."
"Thanks," Xander replied. He looked over at her, and made an attempt
at a smile, but it didn't stick. "I forgot, you know. Or maybe I just
figured I'd have more time."
"You forgot what, Xander?" Willow asked.
"To tell her how much I love her," he said sadly. With that, he stood
up and walked back to his house.
Willow watched him go, then stood up and headed in the opposite
direction, toward the Mansion.
******