The Lover After Me Part 5: El Punto Final
By Drama
Category: Scully/other, Angst, Story, Scully POV
Rating: PG-13 for some kissing and....
Disclaimer: Drew's Mine! Everything else that you recognize probably isn't mine. I'm not getting paid for this... Don't sue me!
Summary: Scully picks up the pieces in her relationships and realizes her priorities
Notes from moi: well, this is it... the end of my series... sad, isn't it? don't worry, Niki, this one's a definite shipper friendly part! The title is El punto Final partly for the fact that I couldn't come up with a good name for the final part and partly just because on my written copy of part 5, I wrote at the end "el punto Final" and pointed to the last period on the page. In case you don't know spanish, el punto final translates to "the final point" or "the final period". That's it...
El Punto Final
By drama
I stood there and watched the door close behind him. He left. He left and I couldn't do anything about it, because everything he said was true in some context. No matter how much I denied it, Mulder still meant something to me. I just didn't know what.
I walked to the spare room and looked inside. The cause of all my trouble was sprawled out on the bed, sleeping like a cat.
I needed to talk to someone so I picked up the phone and dialed the numbers by heart.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Mom, it's me."
"Dana! It's so nice to hear your voice! What's wrong, honey?"
"Nothing mom, I just-"
"Don't give me that, Dana Katherine, I know when something's wrong with my baby girl. Now, tell me what's wrong, Dana."
I sat down cross-legged on the couch.
"Everything." There was so much to explain.
"Oh dear, is it Drew?"
"Part of it. God, it's so complicated."
"Why don't you start from the beginning then."
I took a deep breath and began.
"I was going down to get the mail this morning..." I related the entire chain of events from start up until that moment. When I finished there was a long pause at the other end of the line. She was thinking.
"So, Fox is still in your apartment?"
"Yeah, he's sleeping in the spare room."
"Dana, how _do_ you feel about Fox?"
I uncrossed my legs and let myself sink into the plush cushions.
"That's just the problem, Mom. I don't know. I mean, I thought that I had desensitized myself to him, but now, I see him again and I don't know anymore. Drew was my anchor to rationalism, but now he's gone and I don't know how to face Mulder alone."
"You know, he still comes to see me, Dana."
"He what?"
"You heard me. Ever since you two ended your partnership, he's still been calling me for advice or comfort, or if he just needs someone to talk to. He doesn't have anyone to talk to since his mother's gone. Not that he was very close to her while she was alive. He told me not to tell you, but I think you need to know that he still loves you, Dana."
I was stunned at what she said. He still loves me. God, I never even thought he loved me in the first place, not after what happened. I could hardly believe it. If he loved me, how could he do that to me?
"Dana?" My mother's voice brought me out of my thoughts.
"He-he told you that?"
Maybe not in those exact same words, but yes, he said he still loves you."
My eyes wandered towards the room where Mulder was sleeping.
"But what about- if he loved me, then why did he-."
"Maybe you should ask him yourself, Dear."
"yeah, maybe."
"You know, Dana, I always knew Drew wasn't right for you."
"then why didn't you tell me?"
There was a pause.
"I thought you knew."
"Maybe I did. Thanks, Mom."
"Anytime, dear. Tell me what happens, will you?"
I told her I would and we said goodbye. I put the phone back into its charger and leaned back into the cushions.
I was scared, of my own feelings, of what Mulder would de, of what _I_ would do. Part of me desperately needed to talk to him, to find out the truth, but another part of me was too scared to face him.
MY dilemma, however, was solved for me when Mulder came walking into my living room fully clothed. He strode past me, barely acknowledging my presence.
"thank you for your help, Scully." He mumbled as he got to the door, fumbling with the locks.
"Wait." I don't know why I said it, but I did and he spun around, expectantly perhaps.
"Mulder-I-" I stammered, trying to think of something to make him stay.
"Can-can we just talk?"
"Let's just make this easier on both of us and just let me go."
"Please, I need some closure on this-on us. I just need to know some things."
His expression hardened.
"Look, Scully, you were the one who severed all contact with me, you were the one that left."
"Well, I'm sorry." I shot back sarcastically. "But you expected me to just go on my everyday business with someone who though our love was a mistake."
He flinched at my words. I'd stuck a chord with him.
"I never thought that, Scully."
"Then why did you say it?"
"I only did it for you." His voice was low and reassuring. "That morning, I was lying there, watching you sleep, and I got so scared. My mind was going like crazy and all I could think of was the danger. Being together was a whole new weakness we couldn't afford. They could use it against us and we could get hurt. You could get hurt. I had to end it before it went any further, so I left. You have no idea how hard to was to walk out of here."
My heart was doing flip-flops. He _loves_ me! I could see it in his eyes. But it didn't all add up yet.
"You could have told me why, I would have understood."
He sat down in an armchair.
"I couldn't. I had to make you hate me, to never want to see me again. It was bad enough that I had to live through the pain of knowing that I loved you and I could do nothing about it. I at least had to give you a reason for not wanting to be with me. If I didn't, I knew that tension would be too great. We'd slip and get caught. It was too much danger to you."
"Why did you come then, why now?"
He shook his head.
"I don't know, I hit a wall, you could say. I realized that all this was bull and I need you with me, so I came to see you. But Then I heard you and... Drew and I left. I'm sorry for denting your elevator and complicating your life. I hope you and Drew and happy together."
He got up and headed towards the door again.
He didn't know.
"he left me." Mulder stopped and turned around.
"What?"
"Drew left me. He saw you, and he said if I couldn't tell him I had no feelings for you, he would walk out of my life. I couldn't tell him that."
Mulder's face brightened for an instant at my words. I moved to him and took his hand in mine. Slowly, I raised it to my lips, mimicking his earlier actions, and kissed his palm, then his wrist. I could feel his pulse beating beneath my mouth. I drew back and entwined my fingers with his.
"Whatever danger there is, we face it together."
He squeezed my hands and nodded.
"I won't leave this time, I promise."
My lips curved into a smile and I nodded. He leaned down and kissed me, slowly and gently, and I untangled me hands and wrapped my arms around him, savoring the feel of his body against mine, our two hearts beating as one.
X~X
I woke with a smile on my face and in my heart. Mulder's arm was around my waist, our legs intertwined. I leaned into his embrace and felt him kiss my shoulder. I untangled my legs and turned in his arms to face him. He was sleepy-eyed and he had a serious case of bedhead. He smiled sleepily at me and kissed me softly on the lips.
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" He said as he pulled back, smiling still.
"Hmm?"
He pulled me a little closer and kissed the tip of my nose.
"I mean this.. us.. you." I smiled at him as I watched with watery eyes.
"Yeah it is."
I buried my face I his neck and for the first time in a very, very long time, I cried out of pure happiness.
~ fin ~
By Drama
Category: Scully/other, Angst, Story, Scully POV
Rating: PG-13 for some kissing and....
Disclaimer: Drew's Mine! Everything else that you recognize probably isn't mine. I'm not getting paid for this... Don't sue me!
Summary: Scully picks up the pieces in her relationships and realizes her priorities
Notes from moi: well, this is it... the end of my series... sad, isn't it? don't worry, Niki, this one's a definite shipper friendly part! The title is El punto Final partly for the fact that I couldn't come up with a good name for the final part and partly just because on my written copy of part 5, I wrote at the end "el punto Final" and pointed to the last period on the page. In case you don't know spanish, el punto final translates to "the final point" or "the final period". That's it...
El Punto Final
By drama
I stood there and watched the door close behind him. He left. He left and I couldn't do anything about it, because everything he said was true in some context. No matter how much I denied it, Mulder still meant something to me. I just didn't know what.
I walked to the spare room and looked inside. The cause of all my trouble was sprawled out on the bed, sleeping like a cat.
I needed to talk to someone so I picked up the phone and dialed the numbers by heart.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Mom, it's me."
"Dana! It's so nice to hear your voice! What's wrong, honey?"
"Nothing mom, I just-"
"Don't give me that, Dana Katherine, I know when something's wrong with my baby girl. Now, tell me what's wrong, Dana."
I sat down cross-legged on the couch.
"Everything." There was so much to explain.
"Oh dear, is it Drew?"
"Part of it. God, it's so complicated."
"Why don't you start from the beginning then."
I took a deep breath and began.
"I was going down to get the mail this morning..." I related the entire chain of events from start up until that moment. When I finished there was a long pause at the other end of the line. She was thinking.
"So, Fox is still in your apartment?"
"Yeah, he's sleeping in the spare room."
"Dana, how _do_ you feel about Fox?"
I uncrossed my legs and let myself sink into the plush cushions.
"That's just the problem, Mom. I don't know. I mean, I thought that I had desensitized myself to him, but now, I see him again and I don't know anymore. Drew was my anchor to rationalism, but now he's gone and I don't know how to face Mulder alone."
"You know, he still comes to see me, Dana."
"He what?"
"You heard me. Ever since you two ended your partnership, he's still been calling me for advice or comfort, or if he just needs someone to talk to. He doesn't have anyone to talk to since his mother's gone. Not that he was very close to her while she was alive. He told me not to tell you, but I think you need to know that he still loves you, Dana."
I was stunned at what she said. He still loves me. God, I never even thought he loved me in the first place, not after what happened. I could hardly believe it. If he loved me, how could he do that to me?
"Dana?" My mother's voice brought me out of my thoughts.
"He-he told you that?"
Maybe not in those exact same words, but yes, he said he still loves you."
My eyes wandered towards the room where Mulder was sleeping.
"But what about- if he loved me, then why did he-."
"Maybe you should ask him yourself, Dear."
"yeah, maybe."
"You know, Dana, I always knew Drew wasn't right for you."
"then why didn't you tell me?"
There was a pause.
"I thought you knew."
"Maybe I did. Thanks, Mom."
"Anytime, dear. Tell me what happens, will you?"
I told her I would and we said goodbye. I put the phone back into its charger and leaned back into the cushions.
I was scared, of my own feelings, of what Mulder would de, of what _I_ would do. Part of me desperately needed to talk to him, to find out the truth, but another part of me was too scared to face him.
MY dilemma, however, was solved for me when Mulder came walking into my living room fully clothed. He strode past me, barely acknowledging my presence.
"thank you for your help, Scully." He mumbled as he got to the door, fumbling with the locks.
"Wait." I don't know why I said it, but I did and he spun around, expectantly perhaps.
"Mulder-I-" I stammered, trying to think of something to make him stay.
"Can-can we just talk?"
"Let's just make this easier on both of us and just let me go."
"Please, I need some closure on this-on us. I just need to know some things."
His expression hardened.
"Look, Scully, you were the one who severed all contact with me, you were the one that left."
"Well, I'm sorry." I shot back sarcastically. "But you expected me to just go on my everyday business with someone who though our love was a mistake."
He flinched at my words. I'd stuck a chord with him.
"I never thought that, Scully."
"Then why did you say it?"
"I only did it for you." His voice was low and reassuring. "That morning, I was lying there, watching you sleep, and I got so scared. My mind was going like crazy and all I could think of was the danger. Being together was a whole new weakness we couldn't afford. They could use it against us and we could get hurt. You could get hurt. I had to end it before it went any further, so I left. You have no idea how hard to was to walk out of here."
My heart was doing flip-flops. He _loves_ me! I could see it in his eyes. But it didn't all add up yet.
"You could have told me why, I would have understood."
He sat down in an armchair.
"I couldn't. I had to make you hate me, to never want to see me again. It was bad enough that I had to live through the pain of knowing that I loved you and I could do nothing about it. I at least had to give you a reason for not wanting to be with me. If I didn't, I knew that tension would be too great. We'd slip and get caught. It was too much danger to you."
"Why did you come then, why now?"
He shook his head.
"I don't know, I hit a wall, you could say. I realized that all this was bull and I need you with me, so I came to see you. But Then I heard you and... Drew and I left. I'm sorry for denting your elevator and complicating your life. I hope you and Drew and happy together."
He got up and headed towards the door again.
He didn't know.
"he left me." Mulder stopped and turned around.
"What?"
"Drew left me. He saw you, and he said if I couldn't tell him I had no feelings for you, he would walk out of my life. I couldn't tell him that."
Mulder's face brightened for an instant at my words. I moved to him and took his hand in mine. Slowly, I raised it to my lips, mimicking his earlier actions, and kissed his palm, then his wrist. I could feel his pulse beating beneath my mouth. I drew back and entwined my fingers with his.
"Whatever danger there is, we face it together."
He squeezed my hands and nodded.
"I won't leave this time, I promise."
My lips curved into a smile and I nodded. He leaned down and kissed me, slowly and gently, and I untangled me hands and wrapped my arms around him, savoring the feel of his body against mine, our two hearts beating as one.
X~X
I woke with a smile on my face and in my heart. Mulder's arm was around my waist, our legs intertwined. I leaned into his embrace and felt him kiss my shoulder. I untangled my legs and turned in his arms to face him. He was sleepy-eyed and he had a serious case of bedhead. He smiled sleepily at me and kissed me softly on the lips.
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" He said as he pulled back, smiling still.
"Hmm?"
He pulled me a little closer and kissed the tip of my nose.
"I mean this.. us.. you." I smiled at him as I watched with watery eyes.
"Yeah it is."
I buried my face I his neck and for the first time in a very, very long time, I cried out of pure happiness.
~ fin ~