I Hear You
Sequel To: I Suffer In Silence
By: Lady Jaya
Started: 5/5/2000
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Touma leaned back in the chair as he watched Seiji who knelt near the fire place carefully
placing the would in a neat stack so that it would quickly catch fire. He was so beautiful
and this time Touma smiled at his friends back still dazed by what had happened earlier
not quite sure he believed it was possible and yet..
He liked the way he could see Seiji's muscles move under his white shirt, the way the
one lamp in the far corner cast a yellowish light over him. It made his hair seem almost as
if it were alive as it shimmered in the light, and gave his pale skin a sort of golden ish look.
But what he liked even more was the way Seiji looked in the fire light or even better yet
the moon light.
Touma tried to stop his grin but he couldn't as he sat there staring at his friends back
thinking thoughts that only the day before it would have never let himself thing if he
could possibly stop himself unless he was alone and even not then...
Suddenly the pile of wood burst into flames and Touma admired his friends grace as he
stood up and stepped back in one fluid movement even after crouching down near the
fire place for nearly five minutes setting it up. His movements were free and easy as he
turned and gave Touma little smile before flopping down onto the couch and turning to
watch Touma from under bangs of golden yellow.
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There are times I understand
And times I question why
And when the time's at hand
Sometimes I want to cry
But cannot shed a tear
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How the hell such a thing had come to pass Seiji had no clue and yet now here he was
sitting in the mansion alone with Touma when just that morning he had found out that his
best friend actually felt he same way as he did... It was so strange, at the same time held
a strange novelty to it that even Seiji could quite fathom yet himself.
I take in a breath and slowly letting it out as I stretch out my slightly stiff muscles with a
yawn watching my blue haired friend who is now staring into the fire. I blush slightly
remember how I had felt his eyes on me the whole time I was doing the fire. Or the way
it had felt to hold him in my arms earlier this morning.
~What would it be like to do more then just hold him. TO share more then just a simple
kiss.~ I wonder... I sigh and wonder how this wonder full thing can be and yet it is so
why should I question it. A dream come true, but if it is why can I not believe it?
He is so beautiful his uneven indigo colored bangs falling down into his sky colored eyes,
and slightly rosy cheeks. To even more beautiful lips and more... I blink and for some
reason my eyes are wet. For some reason I feel like crying perhaps it is just the
strangeness of this all. I don't know as I let my mind consider other possibilities things
that before this moment I had never before even thought possible things that belonged
only in my dreams or in the dark depths of my soul.
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There are moments in the shade
There are moments in the sun
And there are certain days
That I wish would never come
But still they reach me here
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For some reason I find myself memorized by the fire as I have by his beauty and even in
the fire I find things that remind me of the person who is sitting on the couch so near to
me and yet so far in other ways.
~Had it really happened?~ I shake my head and I can still hear his voice saying the words.
~"I love you."~
Yes as I sit here staring into the fire I remember the darkness of those days that seemed
to never end the days that I would never survive before. The days when you were there
so close to me that I could breath you taste you and yet never tell you, never touch you,
never...
Then again there were the days when I would be floating on the clouds just because you
smiled at me. The days when I could almost imagine that you felt the same for me as I
felt for you. When a few words, a smile, or just a look and I would be floating in bubble
while everything else flowed around.
Or the nights when I wished the day would never come when I was so afraid that I would
say something wrong. That I would somehow give it all away. The nights when I couldn't
banish the dreams or the thoughts. Or when I didn't want to. It was the days after those
nights that I feared the worst the days when just a look from you would almost send me
over the edge.
Yet somehow now I am here staring into the flames of a fire that you built and it burns
like the fire in my hearts as I turn to look at you almost afraid that what happens this
morning was just another dream. IT is so unreal and still...
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In the silence in my mind
There's a solace that I find
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As Seiji watched Touma for once his mind was quiet and there was nothing but his simple
beauty that pulled Seiji in and left him there. Lost in it lost to the world around as he sat
there and just stared at Touma with a silly little smile on his face and a sparkle in his eyes
that was hardly ever seen there.
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And when my soul hits the mark
And light splits the dark
I hear you
And when my heart starts to move
I know that it's you I hear
Oh, I hear you
Oh, I hear
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Finally Seiji sat up swinging his legs over the side of the couch to lean closer and Touma
pulled his gaze away from the fire as the light played across his face. Seiji reached back to
flick the lamp off, as he watched the shadows of the fire play across Touma's lean face.
Giving his indigo hair more depth, bathing half of his face and darkness and the other half
in a soft golden glow...
Touma stared into Seiji's blue-violet eyes and felt himself lost in them. Lost in the beauty
of the unearthly being before him. The soft fall of his golden hair, alive in the light of the
fire. Seiji's smile sent shivers down his spin, and he felt himself grown warm just sitting
there unconsciously leaning forward.
"Seiji?" Touma felt the name fall from his lips like water from a cliff as they leaned closer
their lips brushing like electricity as they both pulled back looking a little sheepish.
"Sorry." Muttered Seiji in a hoarse voice...
"Should we..." Touma's voice trailed off and he quickly sat back in his chair looking any
where but at his friend.
"The others will be back tomorrow." Seiji said finally staring at the floor. "And..." But he
didn't finish his sentence either. Finally he stood up when Touma said nothing more and
went over to the fire.
Touma watched Seiji fighting a private war inside himself as he was entranced by the way
Seiji moved again, the way his body was clothed in shadows and golden light. The grace
in his every move from picking up a piece of fire wood to the way he flicked his hair out
of his eyes.
Seiji paused in front of the fire, letting it's warmth flow over him as he listened to the
distant rumble of the fire out side. Slowly he stood up and turned away from the fire his
eyes locking with Touma's as he turned. For a minute neither one of them moved and
then he took a step forward. Each finding it all too easy to see the want... The need in
the others eyes as Touma stood up and then hesitated before moving towards Seiji. They
both stood there for a second that seemed to stretch for a life span of years barely inches
apart... Then before either one of them knew what was happening their lips touched
again and this time it lasted for more then a few seconds.
As they pulled apart this time eyes sparkling nervously both smiling neither daring to say
anything that might break the spell that had settled over the room.
"Seiji." Whispered Touma again in an awed voice.
"What?" Seiji asked back in an equally quiet voice.
"Have I ever told you how beautiful you are?" Touma blushed even as the words left his
lips. But the smile that it brought to Seiji's face was more then worth it.
"No." Seiji said. "You know your beautiful when you blush?"
"Iiieeee." Hissed Touma as Seiji slowly slipped his arms around him as their body
brushed and Touma drew in a sharp breath.
"And the light splits the darkness." He whispered gently kissing Seiji's neck. "That's what
you are Seiji my light in the darkness. Without you it's dark and now that your here...."
"You are the drink that my soul longs to partake of." Seiji gasped back as his heart rose
into his throat as he felt Touma's body against and his lips on his neck. "Oh Gods
Touma!"
"Hai." Hissed Touma pulled away as Seiji paused for a sec and then closed the barely
noticeable gab between them locking lips again as they both started to get a little braver
in this new exploration of sensations.
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Some are who they say they are
And some are not at all
Some will catch their raising star
While others watch theirs fall
Through the hands of destiny.
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For a while they played the game of touch and play exploring with hands a lips as they
stood there near the fire though neither had need of it's ample heat. For they were both
bathed in another kind of heat As they explored a new side of them selves that neither
had ever totally realized before now. Something that before had always been hidden in
the dark of night never something to be exposed to day light. And yet here it was and
neither could deny it's simple truths.
"Touma?" Seiji pulled away this time his eyes searching the others sky blue ones slightly
glazed with the passion that he felt and Seiji had to admit that he to felt a little light head.
It was a wonderful feeling.
"What?" Touma finally managed swallowing hard before he got it out.
"Are.... Are you sure?" Seiji whispered though it hurt him to even ask he knew he had to.
"Are you sure we should do this?"
Touma nodded without the words to say anything else as he leaned forward to captures
Seiji's lovely lips with his own pressing his body against his friends before Seiji had a
chance to question again...
"It's destiny." Touma hissed in Seiji's ear as he slowly began kissing his neck again and
Seiji leaned back letting out his breath through clenched teeth.
"Hai." He gasped pulling Touma harder against himself as his friend continue to kiss his
neck his one hand kept Seiji from falling back to the ground while the other slowly began
to work Seiji's shirt free of his pants. Slipping underneath to feel the smooth contours of
his stomach.
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Some are taught to live a lie
Some are searching for the truth
Some are caught between their pride
And the innocence of youth
Which of them is most like me?
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"Touma?" Asked Seiji again barely getting the name out as the other paused and looked
up.
"Wha...?" Touma looked up to see the smile on Seiji's face and smiled back. He loved it
when his friend smiled such a rare occasion it was that he cherished each one that he had
the privilege of seeing. Touma admired Seiji in some ways his friend seemed so young
and yet in others he was older then any of them. It was a strange and yet alluring
combination almost like the smell of Seiji. So many different things mixed together but
still they smelled good. Not over powering... Just right.
Seiji smiled at Touma, and shook his hair out of his eyes. Touma's gaze was full of love
and passion something that he had longed to see since he couldn't remember when and
now here it was. Touma was so strong some times never wanting anyone else to see his
pain. So strong and proud and yet inside longing for someone to share it with... So much
like himself and yet so different at the same time.
Slowly Seiji pulled Touma back to him, slipping his tongue between his lips tasting the
warm insides of his mouth, as his hand slowly plays across Touma's body as he did so.
For a second he pulled away and brushed a hand across Touma's flushed cheek and saw a
flash of innocent wonder in his eyes as their lips met again, with a violent passion that
sent everything else through the roof and out of their minds. They were both different
and yet right now they were the same...
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In the silence in my mind
There's a solace that I find...
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As they fell back to the couch lost in the passion of each others touches and kisses with
abandon cloths fell to the floor and soon new wonders presented themselves. Too much
to take in all at one time.
Which was just fine with them.
THE END!!!
Lady Jaya
5/5/2000
