Disclaimer: All the hp stuff belongs to J.K Rowling. The song "My Life" belongs to Dido, D. Armstrong, R. Armstrong & M. Bates
A/N: My very first songfic! It's really weird that I wrote this cause normally I don't even like songfics much. Ah well, my insanity is complete…
My Life
What I choose to do is of no concern to you and your friends
Tomorrow is the big day. Tomorrow we graduate from Hogwarts. Wow.
I'm going on to travel the world next year. Take some time before I settle down with a proper job. Harry and Ron think it's stupid - a girl, traveling on her own in this day and age. I don't care anymore. It's not like they really give a damn about me. Playing the parts of the concerned friends.
Where I lay my hat may not be my home, but I will last on my own
I can make it out there without them. That's what they can't stand. They want me to be the helpless little girl, so that they can be the big, strong heros, saving me from the perils of life.
If they were really my friends, they would know me better than that by now.
My parents don't care what happens to me either. They'll just be glad to get rid of me for another year. They were so pleased when I went off to boarding school, although of course they didn't say it. They acted all sad to see their baby leaving them each year, but inside I could see they were jumping for joy at the idea of being free again.
It's not their fault really. They were so young when they had me - my father was twenty one and my mother barely nineteen. They didn't want to be tied down by a child at that time of life. They wanted to be free.
It was never really my home. Not like Hogwarts has been. No matter how hard they tried, I always felt unwelcome there. It was their home, not mine.
'Cause it's me, and my life
it's my life
Harry and Ron want to hold on to what things have always been like. They seem so childish still, wanting to stay kids forever. They want to hold me back with them. To keep me tied to childhood.
Once, I would have been happy to go along with that, but not anymore. I want to be free of them. To live my life in my way. I want to be my own person, not just tag along with them, hiding behind their personalities'.
Seven years is a long time when you're only seventeen. A big portion of your life. I almost can't remember what it was like before I started here. Before I met him.
I didn't love him at first. You could even saw that I hated him. Harry Potter and Ron Weasley were inseparable from the day they met, but they ignored Hermione Granger, the swot. Then we became friends and, over the years, everything changed.
Oh the world has sat in the palm of your hand not that you'd see
He was always "Famous Harry Potter", no matter how much he tried not to be. He could have had any girl he wanted, but he didn't. He remained in blissful ignorance of the effect he had on every female within a million-mile radius.
I always dropped hints about how I felt, but he never bothered to pick them up. I practically put my heart in the palm of his hand for him to do what he wanted with, but he ignored it.
and I'm tired and bored of waiting for you and all those things you never do
Even if he had squashed it, it would have been better then the eternal waiting. I wasted half my life waiting for him. But not any more. I will be free.
He can stuff it. I don't care about him any more, or at least, that's what I'll tell myself. I can't wait for him any longer. I have my own life to live.
'Cause it's me, and my life
it's my life
It's my life to live. As of tomorrow, I can start again. I can put all this behind me.
If I like, I never have to see Harry, Ron or my parents again.
Maybe I will, maybe I won't.
The point is that it's my decision now.
They can't hurt me anymore.
'Cause it's me, and my life
it's my life