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Author´s
note: It happens during "Angel" - BtVS season 1. This fiction won´t
talk about the B/A first kiss with fangs and game face. This is only a fluff
piece that talks about how idiot we women get when we want a guy soooo badly.
2nd
note: Buffy doesn´t know that Angel is a vamp.
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It
were an everlasting day. Going to school, pretending that everything was normal
while Angel was still hiding at her place really had tired Buffy to the bones.
She could not hide he pleasant smile that insisted in showing up on her face
as she though about Angel in her bedroom. That dark, tall and handsome guy
pacing around, sitting in her bed...
"Shame!
Shame on me!" though Buffy, but still she kept the smilling face all
day long..
After
have done all hers tasks, which included talking to Giles about the three
strange vamps that had followed and tried to kill her last night, and conving
him of letting her use the crossbow, she finally headed home.
Buffy
had some extra food with her, food that she hoped was enough for Angel and
herself. As soon as she got home, she headed upstairs.
Why
do you come here
Why do you hang around?
Step
by step she started to think about him.
"Were he still here?"
Well,
she hoped so. He was always hanging around her, appearing from out of nowhere,
to save and to protect her.
"What a man!" she tought
Angel´s
misterious way gave him a romantic look, like some old movie star. Buffy stopped
at the middle of the stairs and closed her eyes. She could clearly see Angel
in a black and white movie, wearing a black suit, a dark hat and holding a
cigarette on his lips. He was leaning on a wall and she could almost hear
his deep voice saying "hello, babe". Buffy felt a sudden wave of
heat passing through her body as she started to imagine other things.
I'm
so sorry
I'm so sorry
"Damn
it!" she though as she restarted to climb the steps. She looked ar the
food in her hands and in order to try to change her lusty toughts she murmured:
"So
little food for two people."
As
usually, Buffy was hungry.
As
she opened her bedroom door, she slipped inside and called his name out loud,
while she was thinking "Jesus, what a sweet name. I could spend my lifetime
saying his name: Angel, Angel, Angel..."
"Hey"
he answered.
Why
do you come here
When you know it makes things hard for me?
When you know
Oh, why do you come?
Why do you telephone
And why send me silly notes?
Angel
stepped out of the shadows as if he were a shadow himself.
She
smiled and said:
"Brought
you some dinner." And as he simply stood there looking at her face she
continued to talk. "What'd you do all day?"
"I
read a little." Angel answered. "And just thought about a lot of
things." He had a deadly serious look on his face. "Buffy, I..."
At
that very moment she saw her diary on the top of the dresser. Her face showed
all the terror she felt inside. "Oh, my God! He read it!" she tought.
"My
diary?" she squeaked. "You read my diary?"
You
had to sneak into my room
Just to read my diary
It was just to see, just to see
All the things you knew
I´d written about you
And so many illustrations
She
walked towards the dresser, and protectively put the diary on the top drawer,
shutting it angrily.
"That
is not okay. A diary is a person´s most private place and you don't
even know what I was writting about."
Good, Buffy... you can´t even convince yourself, she though as she continued
to speak: " Hunk can mean a lot of things, bad things , and where I say
your eyes are 'penetrating' I meant to write 'bulgy'." as she continued
her fast speech she was sure to be getting into bigg trouble, cause now Angel
would knew that she thought of him eventually... eventually everyday.
She
barely noticed him.
"Buffy,
I.." he said stepping toward her.
She
continued with her non sense speech:
"And
A doesn't stand for Angel, for that matter. It stands for... Achmed, a charming
foreign exchange student, and so that whole fantasy part has nothing to do
with you at all."
Angel
cut her in:
"Your mother brought the diary. I was hidden but I saw her bringing it.
I´ve not touched your diary."
I
am so very sickned
I am so sickned NOW
"Shame
on me!" she though flushing "Bad thoughts leads to these ridiculous
situations" Buffy felt her skin burning and figured out that her whole
babling were even worse than if Angel had read the diary. She could feel Angel´s
eyes fixed on her and as she had nothing intelligent left to say she just
opened her mouth:
"Oh..."
"Good
again, Buffy! Now he´s sure that you´re a complete idiot, besides
being a teenager, and you´ll never have the chance to tell him how badly
you want to kiss his tender lips."
As
Angel stood there, looking at her, she forced a smile and offered:
"Do
you want a cookie?"
I´m
so sorry....
+The
End+
