Dear Diary,
Aaaaahhhhgggghhhhhh! Ron! He drives me INSANE. How one person can be so obnoxious, so annoying, so insensitive....he just makes me so ANGRY! I can't stand being around him for another second! He ALWAYS has to insult me. "Hermione, you sound like you swallowed a dictionary!", "Hermione, you sound like my mum!", "Hermione, bug off!", "Hermione, you're such a know-it-all!"
And I hate that I care.
No, that's foolish. Anyone would care. He's being mean and insensitive and anyone's feelings would be hurt. I just...I don't know. I'm not sure what I feel about him.
With Harry it's simple. He's one of my best friends. I love him-like a brother, like a friend. Not romance-novel love.
But with Ron....
Sometimes he's my friend, sometimes I hate him as much as Malfoy, and sometimes....sometimes I just don't know what to think. It's just....in History of Magic yesterday, I felt someone's eyes on me, and turned around to see him staring at me. Just openly staring-it felt like he was looking into my soul. Oh, I don't like sounding like this! It sounds so shallow. So much like Lavender or Parvati or...I should be doing homework. I have a huge essay for Potions due, and I still have five inches to write. But...I don't know. For some reason right now, I'd just rather be sitting here than doing something productive. Because when I think about Ron...it's strange, I just want to keep sitting there, thinking about him.
This is so stupid. I should just throw this away.
But at the same time...
It's kind of nice seeing my feelings on paper. Being able to say all of the things that I've been thinking about for so long.
Still....what if Ginny reads this? What if Parvati or Lavender read this? What if Harry reads this?
What if RON reads this?
Oh, this really IS stupid. I'm going to just throw it away...throw it away, and go back to my school work, and stop thinking about Ron.
He's my friend.
Or my enemy.
But NOTHING else.
Nothing more.
Aaaaahhhhgggghhhhhh! Ron! He drives me INSANE. How one person can be so obnoxious, so annoying, so insensitive....he just makes me so ANGRY! I can't stand being around him for another second! He ALWAYS has to insult me. "Hermione, you sound like you swallowed a dictionary!", "Hermione, you sound like my mum!", "Hermione, bug off!", "Hermione, you're such a know-it-all!"
And I hate that I care.
No, that's foolish. Anyone would care. He's being mean and insensitive and anyone's feelings would be hurt. I just...I don't know. I'm not sure what I feel about him.
With Harry it's simple. He's one of my best friends. I love him-like a brother, like a friend. Not romance-novel love.
But with Ron....
Sometimes he's my friend, sometimes I hate him as much as Malfoy, and sometimes....sometimes I just don't know what to think. It's just....in History of Magic yesterday, I felt someone's eyes on me, and turned around to see him staring at me. Just openly staring-it felt like he was looking into my soul. Oh, I don't like sounding like this! It sounds so shallow. So much like Lavender or Parvati or...I should be doing homework. I have a huge essay for Potions due, and I still have five inches to write. But...I don't know. For some reason right now, I'd just rather be sitting here than doing something productive. Because when I think about Ron...it's strange, I just want to keep sitting there, thinking about him.
This is so stupid. I should just throw this away.
But at the same time...
It's kind of nice seeing my feelings on paper. Being able to say all of the things that I've been thinking about for so long.
Still....what if Ginny reads this? What if Parvati or Lavender read this? What if Harry reads this?
What if RON reads this?
Oh, this really IS stupid. I'm going to just throw it away...throw it away, and go back to my school work, and stop thinking about Ron.
He's my friend.
Or my enemy.
But NOTHING else.
Nothing more.