Chains of Ivory White
By DuoLordOfDeath
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these guys, so don't
send any God-Forsaken Lawyers to my front doorstep! They're worse than
salesmen!!
Alone...that is the best word
to describe it. Even in paradise, my heart yearns. I am alone because of one
fateful mistake that cost me more that I can ever replace.
Everyday is the same, sad routine. Often, my sister Irina and mother Quaterine
will walk up to my sitting area and ask why I sit everyday gazing down to
Earth. My reply has always been the same.
"To watch an angel."
Yes, that was what Duo Maxwell
was to me. An angel, my angel, with wings as black as the night and hair soft
as the wind's gentle whisper. An angel whom I can only gaze upon from afar or
follow behind, silent and unnoticed, guarding him with my graceful wings of
white.
An angel's ivory wings, a
symbol of hope and freedom. How ironic that they have become the chains and
shackles upon my lost soul, a sign of despair in my eyes.
I was torn from his arms because of one tragic misunderstanding. Even now,
though what Heero tried to do was wrong, I bear him no malice. My day of fate
came to my doorstep on June 23, After Colony 201. Duo's 21st birthday...
~Flashback~
I sighed as I stepped out of
the hot shower and began to dry off my wet body. I glanced at the clock through
strands of dripping pale gold and saw that it was about 6:00 pm. 'Duo should be
getting home from the salvage yard soon. Then I can set my plan into action.
I'm going to make sure that this is the best birthday he's ever had!' I smiled
slyly to myself as I finished drying my hair and wrapped the damp towel over my
nude body. I stepped out of the bathroom and stopped dead at the silent figure
who was sitting on mine and Duo's bed. He was staring intently at me with his
Prussian blue eyes, and I was starting to get a bit uneasy.
"Hello, Heero..." I
walked over and sat beside him on the bed, wondering what The Perfect Soldier's
intentions were for seeing me. "To what do I owe the pleasure?"
Heero said nothing at first,
his eyes looking me up and down. I began to get wary of him. Even for Heero,
this was highly odd.
"Heero?"
"Believe me, the pleasure
will be all mine." And he suddenly placed his overpowering hands against
my body and shoved me to a laying position on the bed, his lips forcefully
pressed against mine. I struggled vainly with his grip as he pulled the towel
from my body, and began to work off his own black spandex shorts. I knew what
he was after, and, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't break free from his
iron like grip. He was too powerful, too strong, so unlike my true lover, whom
I silently prayed would rescue me from this nightmare. I could not fight the
Perfect Soldier successfully, but I could try.
I pressed my hands up against
Heero's now bare chest, trying to ward off his advances. I could feel my body
betraying me as I slowly became aroused, and I started to whisper curses in
Arabic, praying that this would be stopped. 'Duo…please...hurry and get
here...I need your help...'
Suddenly, what appeared to be
an angel of mercy burst through the door, long braid swinging jauntily. He
stopped dead at what he saw, and stared. Why was there a slowly growing shock
and sadness deepening in his eyes?
"Duo!" I cried,
watching him with wide eyes.
My beloved's hands fell to his sides as he took in his sight, and
I suddenly knew what that painful emotion was in those beautiful amethyst eyes.
It was betrayal and heartbreak.
"Duo...please..."
I watched Duo's hand reach shakily
for the doorknob, and stared at him with urgent, pleading eyes. 'Please,
Duo...why can't you see what's happening??'
"I'm sorry..." I
heard him mumble, and then he slammed the door shut. I heard his heavy
footfalls echo down the hall as he ran. Suddenly, I found the strength that I
had needed and shoved Heero to the floor. I jumped up and threw some khakis and
a shirt and vest on. I bothered without socks as I stepped into my shoes.
"Duo!!" I called. I
reverted my gaze back to Heero, who sat upon my floor, glaring.
"Heero, I suggest you
leave before I do something drastic..." I picked up his gun from his pile
of clothing on the floor and shoved it into my vest before rushing out the door,
yelling Duo's name. I ran past Wufei, who was staring out the door confusedly.
"Maxwell...is acting
strange...he just ran out the house and started to drive off..."
"Oh God!" I ran
outside onto the lawn, screaming Duo's name at the top of my lungs. I saw him
glance over at me with pained eyes, then saw him flip on the radio, trying to
drown out my calls.
"Damn it!" I cried.
I ran over to the other vehicle we had and hopped in, pulling the car keys from
my pocket. I knew that something like this was going to happen if he took
Heero's actions as my own, so I was prepared. I was going to follow him and set
things straight.
I peeled out of the drive and
sped after Duo's fleeting vehicle. My heart was hurting at the memory of the
look of betrayed heartbreak in Duo's eyes, but my eyes were intent upon the
road as I gained speed.
"Please, God...please don't let this be the end..."
I stopped at the corner as I
watched Duo park. I pulled the keys from the ignition and stepped out as he
did. He was across the street from me, so I ran up the sidewalk until I was
perfectly in line with him. His hands were shoved in his pockets, and his head
hung low. He was headed towards a bar. I knew at once that I had to stop him.
"Duo!"
He stopped dead in
his tracks and looked at me, and I could see the deep sorrow and tears in his
eyes. I suddenly felt afraid of Duo's reactions, but I tried not to show it. I
heard him softly say my name as I started to run across the street, not paying
much attention to any vehicles that might be coming. All I was thinking about
was how much I loved him. I didn't even see it coming.
The loud screech of tires
registered in my ears right before I felt the blow of hard, swiftly moving
chrome against my body. Things became a blur after that. I heard what sounded
like Duo's rough tenor cry out my name, but I wasn't so sure it was him. My
body was slowly growing numb, there was no pain, and my breathing was becoming
labored. I could feel blood begin to drip down my forehead, and I closed my
eyes for a few moments.
I felt strong arms wrap around
my fallen body and pull me into their grasp, so I opened my eyes and found
myself gazing into the terrified eyes of Duo Maxwell. I saw tears form in his
eyes as I heard the driver of the vehicle rush in the call an ambulance. But it
was odd, because although I could hear him, all I could see was Duo, nothing
else. I smiled weakly up at my love, eyes wide in fear and love. I could tell
that he was desperately trying to hold back any tears that he had. He was
trying to be valiant, but from the soft fall of his tears upon my face, I could
tell that he had not succeeded. I tasted his salt tears and my own blood on my
lips, and I reached up and wiped away a few of his tears. Everything suddenly
became very clear for a few moments as I did this, and I blinked away a few
tears. I knew what was coming.
"Aishiteru...Duo..."
I don't remember what
happened next. Everything blanked out after I closed my eyes after that. I vaguely
remember a pair of strong arms pulling me up from the pain, and a cry of
desperation.
"Quatre? Quatre!?
QUATRE?!"
And I knew then...that he was
lost to me forever.
~End Flashback~
On many sleepless nights, I
will descend to Earth and sit in our room, watching him toss and turn with
nightmares. My heart cries out for him, my body longs to feel his touch, but
yet all I can do is watch in silent vigil as he suffers. All I want to do is
take him in my arms and tell him that everything will be alright, that I'm
here, but then, I feel my chains of ivory white hold me back as I sit next to
him as he sleeps, watching him.
Then, every night, he wakes up
and says my name, as though it was all a dream, that I am still there in body.
I close my eyes tightly, holding back tears. Then, he turns over and finds that
his nightmare was a reality. And he weeps.
If I am truly an angel, a
being known for healing and faith...then why am I not able to heal his heart?
~*Owari*~
