I'll Be
Chapter Three
Liz woke up in her studio not exactly sure how she got there. When she tried to get up it was then that she saw him leaning against her table sleeping. The previous evening came rushing back to her. She was sure she had been dreaming; to be lying there on the ground crying then to have Jason appear and take her away from there.
"Jason..." He looked so peaceful, but the urge to have him wake up so she could see those mesmerizing blue eyes staring back at her was too tempting.
Jason had never been a deep sleeper in his line of business that could be dangerous, so when she said his name his eyes immediately flew open, "Liz, are you okay?"
"Yea, I just woke up and was trying to remember what happened last night, then I saw you. How did you find me?"
"I was actually going there to.... I guess, you could say to prepare myself for coming back here and seeing you." Jason thought to himself that he should be embarrassed to admit that to her, but this was Elizabeth he wasn't going to lie to her. "I saw the car and didn't know who it was; when I came out of the woods I saw you...crying."
"You always seem to be there when I need you. How do you keep doing that?"
"I wasn't here when Lucky died." The subject was eventually going to come up, he might as well break the ice.
"That is true, but I think it was best for both of us that you weren't."
"Why do you say that?" Jason knew that he couldn't compete with a ghost. He also knew that he wasn't a good manipulator, but he knew that his love would not stay hidden for long. If she could not or was not ready to move on then he needed to know now.
"I hurt you so much before, that watching me mourn him again would only be more pain for you." Liz had bottled up any emotion as far as Jason was concerned months before Lucky died. She only recently had allowed herself to remember what he had meant to her.
"Liz, I am sorry...about Lucky. I know how much that you loved him." Jason stood up and started for the door. He thought that he would be able to come back and listen to her. Or did he? Some part of Jason had thought, now it is my turn. He hadn't thought this through at all. "I should probably go now."
He was fast but so was she. She made it to the door almost at the same time, but fast enough to grab the door handle. "Aren't you going to ask me why I was there?" Her voice was pleading for him to talk to her.
Jason voice was barely audible. "No." He wouldn't look her in the eye.
"Why?" Liz had never seen Jason cower away from her before but he wanted to run. She could feel the tension and see the stiffness in his body.
"Because I know you won't lie to me and I don't really want to hear that you went to our place to escape to mourn your boyfriend." Jason sounded much more offensive than he had meant it.
He still avoided looking at her. "Jason, I know how much that I hurt you..." With her hand she gently took his face and made him look at her. "I cannot apologize for staying with Lucky when I did, but as much as I mourned him when he died..."
"Liz, I thought that I could do this, but I can't. I am sorry." When she felt him try to open the door, she let him go. She had been so happy to see him. There were so many things that she needed to say, but obviously she was saying them all wrong.
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Jason was not normally a chicken but there was absolutely no other excuse as to what just happened. She was happy to see him he felt that. He had never had so many emotions hit him so hard. She looked at him and his heart just exploded, with love, regret, sadness, and the thought that she would never love him like she loved Lucky. Her miracle. How could he contend with that?
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The elevator opened at the penthouse. He turned the corner and there was Johnny as always. "Hey Johnny."
"Welcome back Mr. Morgan."
"Is Sonny in?"
"Yes, He and Mrs. Corinthos"
Johnny opened the door. Sonny was sitting at his desk and Carly was coming down the stairs. "Mr. Morgan, sir."
Carly was the first to react. "Jason..." She took of running and through her arms around him. "I didn't know you were coming home." She looked at Sonny for an explanation.
He shrugged his arms, then turned to Jason. "Good to see you. When did you get in"?
"Last night." Jason had a frazzled look about him. His eyes screaming at Sonny to get rid of Carly for a minute.
"Hey Carly, don't you still have to get to work?"
"Do I have IDIOT written on my forehead? I think not. Why don't you just say 'Carly, get lost.'"
Sonny smiled "would that work?"
"No." She turned to Jason "Will you be here when I get home?"
"I am staying in town for a while."
"Okay then, I am gone." She kissed them both goodbye and was gone.
Jason was sitting on the coffee table his head in his hands when Sonny came over and sat down in front of him. "What is going on Jason?"