Disclaimer: I don't own any part of Digimon or its characters.

AN: I still have trouble dealing with the topic that was presented by the episode titled "A Very Digi X-mas."

Christmas, the word has all kinds of meaning.

It symbolizes a time of celebration of the human spirit.

It celebrates family and friends.

It is a time that you spend with your loved ones.

Normally I love Christmas.

I mean who doesn't; you get all those great gifts and all the great food.

And this year I had finally gotten enough guts to do something, which had eluded me for so long.

I was finally going to tell her how I felt.

I was going to tell Sora, that I loved her.

I had everything planned out.

I was going to ask her to Matt's concert and then tell her after we had a great time.

Then I would give her my present, a promise ring.

I had everything planned out so perfectly in my head that I didn't think that anything could go wrong.

But of course with my being the butt for all of fate's cruel jokes, it flopped.

The biggest part of my plan didn't come off as I had hoped.

She had rejected me.

No mind you it wasn't the kind that was harsh or anything, but it hurt just as much.

She made it amply clear that she wanted Matt and not me.

To be honest, I'm not really surprised.

I mean he is a rock star and famous with hundreds of girls fawning over him.

And I had always thought that just because we were such good friends then she would wait for me.

But I guessed wrong.

I had put off the confession for so long that she moved on.

They are both my friends and I know that I should be happy for them.

But I just cant.

Every time I close my eyes, I see them together.

And it just kills me to see that.

I just never wanted to admit defeat.

But now I may have no choice.

I finally discovered that if I truly loved Sora, my angel, as much as I think I do, then I'd have to let her go.

Being bitter about this wouldn't help anyone.

So I guess I'll just settle for being the one who sacrifices my heart.

I guess I'll be the leader I always wanted to be.

I'll be the leader who puts the welfare of others above his own.

And so now all that I will ever have are the words that actually seem to comfort me.

Words that were found in a book I read long ago.

For all the sad words of tongue or pen,

The saddest are these: It might have been.