He woke slowly, surprised to find himself in his own room. Stripped to
the waist there was a bandage where the blood had been earlier. He could
remember it running over his fingers....
"You've lost blood," explained the one who had done this to him. "You could
have died, you silly child. Why didn't you let me in?"
Green eyes narrowed. "Don't hurt me anymore."
The old man sighed. "It was an accident. I'll never hurt you like that
again. I promise."
I don't believe you....I'll never believe you. Not anymore. I won't fall
for that anymore. I'm not stupid.
Promises
mean everything when you're little
And
the world's so big
"I said I promise."
He grunted in reply.
"It will be fine."
Still no coherent answer.
There was a knock on the door, and the old man jumped. He answered it.
"What?"
"Where is he? What did you do to him?
"You stay out. It was an accident."
"Oh? Was it?"
The old man growled, pushing past the visitor and leaving the room.
The visitor stepped inside and looked at him. "How are you?"
Green eyes met familiar crimson ones. "It hurts."
"You'll heal fast..." the older man muttered, suddenly looking away from
the boy.
Green eyes squinted in concern. "You all right?"
The older man turned away, but not before shedding a few tears. Waving
a hand he said, "fine. I'm fine."
What is he hiding? Why won't they just tell me I'm different?
I
just don't understand how
You
can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When
you tell me everything is wonderful now
I'm so cold and scared....
No
Why can't they fight when I'm not there?
No,
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
Why won't he come visit me?
No
Why
don't they just tell me? What are they hiding? It hurts more than this
cut...
No,
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
His teacher told him, "he's just very busy. when you're older you'll understand."
As he was alone in his room, crying a river of tears, that was something
he didn't want to understand. He just wanted a father who gave a damn.
I
don't wanna hear you say
That
I will understand someday
His father left not long after.
"We couldn't stay together," his mother told him.
As he was alone in his room, thinking about how he would never see his
father ever again, that was something he didn't want to hear. He just wanted
his
family to stay together.
No,
no, no, no
I
don't wanna hear you say
You
both have grown in a different way
"He says it might scar."
He closed his green eyes, shutting out the crimson eyed man. "Oh."
"Perhaps you'd like some visitors.....?" he suggested.
"No," he replied firmly. "Leave me alone."
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
He picked himself up, moving out of the alley, hugging himself for warmth.
Where to now? A new chapter? How long would this one last? All he wanted
was to be home, in his own bed, like he was not so long ago....
And
I don't wanna start over again
I
just want my life to be the same
Just
like it used to be
He heard Vincent leave, and only then did Sephiroth reopen his eyes. I
hate Hojo, yes, but sometimes I even hate you, Vincent. Why won't you tell
me why I'm different? Why won't you tell me why I didn't die today?
Somedays
I hate everything
I
hate my father, Rufus thought bitterly, wiping away his last tears.
Just
like he hates me. I can hate too. You taught me how, father. By not coming.
By never coming.
I
hate everything
The fights
were in the past, but as Reno lay in bed the next night he wondered why
he couldn't have a real family anymore, and he wouldn't mind one more fight...just
if it kept them all together.
Everyone
and everything
The streets
were deserted, and Tseng wondered how late it was. Hungry and chilled right
down to the bone, he stood in the center of the road, wondering why, just
why, he had pulled out of those flames, only to fall into this.
Please
don't tell me everything is wonderful now...
I
don't wanna hear you say everything is wonderful now.
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