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Song Title: Adam's Song
Who does it?: Blink 182
Author: Super Saiyan Alexin
Disclaimer: You know the deal...
Warnings: Cursing, Sniffle alert, very slight Shonen Ai, and suicide.
Notes: ... are song lyrics, I wrote this thinking of one of my brothers Mikey who committed
suicide about a year ago, so this isn't gonna be a happy fic, more on the severly depressing
side.
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I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who's have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
::A tape turns on and we see a young man with black spiky hair sitting in a chair with a sad
look on his face. He starts to talk solomly.:: "I always thought when I died it would be in
a fight, you know, dieng to save others, sacrificeing yourself for the greater good. Instead
here I am about to end it all. I put up such a good front, no one knew how much it hurt. This
was the last straw, here it is my birthday and no one remembered. *No one* came by, *no one*
sent a letter or a card, *no one* even called. ::He glances over to the wall then turns back::
As I glance over to the wall I notice something, the phone isn't even plugged in at all."
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
"Yesterday I had a big test, I was nervous of course, anyone would be. Dad said I should take
my time, Mom said to just hurry up and get it over with. I listened to my Dad and took my
time, too much and I ended up guessing on the last 2 questions. I got 198 out of 200 questions
right,99% and Mom still complained. '*Gohan* would have gotten them *all* right. *Gohan*
would have written his name better. *Gohan* wouldn't have taken so long. Why can't you be as
smart and as good as *Gohan?' SCREW GOHAN!! I am *me* not *Gohan!* I can't take this anyore,
I am tired of being told I'm 'not as smart as Gohan,' I'm tired of not being 'as strong as my
father,' and I'm tired of 'not being a babe-magnet like Trunks.' I don't like girls, I like
*Trunks*, and I'm tired of him only likeing me as a friend. I can't take it anymore. You'll
all take back all the means things you've ever said, and you'll all be sorry when I'm gone."
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days whe I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
"I never conquered any of my fears, rarely came outside my room, much less to party's. Why
can't I just be 16 again? Things were so much easier then, Trunks and I always hung out, my
parents were still together, Dad and Vegeta were always out sparring, and the biggest thing
on my mind was when Mom was going to let me go outside again."
The world was wide to late to try
The tour was over, we survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
to pass the time in my room alone
"I tried to make new friends while Trunks was gone but it was too late, I was already
compairing everyone to Trunks. The Grand Tour was over, Dad wasn't a kid anymore, the
world didn't come to an end, we all survived. I remember half way through Biology 201 I
felt Dad, Pan, and Trunks' ki's. I couldn't wait till I got home, I was so sure that Trunks
was gonna be there waiting to tell me all about the trip. He wasn't. I figured that Bulma
had wanted to see him first so I called over there, Trunks said that his Grandma was on the
other line and asked if he could call back. I waited in my room all night. He never called
back."
I never thought I'd die alone
another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
"I always thought that at the absoulute least if I didn't die in a fight that I would die with
all my friends and family around me, you know, 'on my deathbed' as they say. I never even
made any type of an impact, when my father and Gohan are gone people will remeber them as
'The great defender of the Earth' and 'The Golden Child' or even as 'The Great Saiyaman.' No
one will remeber there was ever anyone named Son Goten. Give my T.V. and VCR to Jordan, give
my stereo to Scottie, give my CD's and videos to Worm, and give Trunks the stack of letters
under my mattress that I never had the courage to give him. I doubt anyone will want this
tape so you should burn it after watching it, whoever you are that found this that is. I know
how it'll go Jordan's brother Micheal died in a car accident last year. They don't go in there
anymore, no one will come in here again either."
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of Apple Juice in the hall
Please tell Mom this is not her fault.
"You'll corner everything off and act like there's an invisible wall there, it'll be like an
abandoned museum. The stains from my childhood will still be there, but you'll all probably
treasure them. I remember when I was 12 I spilt a cup of, I think it was Grape Kool-Aid, in
my room. Mom started screaming at the top of her lungs, she was acting like I had just shot
something and dragged in the body to show her. Whoever finds this please, tell my Mother that
this wasn't her fault, I just couldn't take this life anymore, so instead I'm takeing *my*
life."
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days when I still felt alive
We coudn't wait to get outside
"I never conquered any of my goals, never even came close. Everything was so much better when
I was 16, the sun was brighter, the grass was greener, and Trunks didn't aviod me like he does
now. When I was 16 I wanted to live, and I wanted to go outside. Now I don't even want to
leave my room."
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we survived
I coudn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone.
"It's a big world out there, I could have just gone out and tried to find someone else who
understood me like Trunks did. But no one woulnd I mean let's face it, if you tell someone
that your Dad was born on a different planet and you weren't
fully Human they would have you committed. The tour ended and no one died, except the bad
guys. But if you told someone that your best friend, your niece, and your father, who was just
turned into an 8 year old, were traveling across the galaxy so that the world wouldn't come to
an end because your Dad hadn't even hit puberty yet they would call you a liar. Everyday at
school all I did was count the seconds till I got home so that I could wait all night in my
room alone for a call that would never come."
I never conquered, rarely came
Tommorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
"I tried this once before, but unfortunetly Gohan found me, I remember begging him not to tell
anyone. I promised I would never do it again, he tried to convince me that things would get
better, that all I needed to do was tell my crush how I felt. I couldn't tell him it was
Trunks, he wouldn't have understood. He told me to 'give it time, that I'd get over her.'
I think he thought I was talking about Paresu. He said that in no time I would be begging Mom
to go outside again. Bullshit."
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over I've survived
And I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
"It is a big world out there you know, and the time goes by rather quickly. The time passed
even faster while Trunks was gone, because all I did was try to keep myself busy till they all
got back. Because I belived the saying, 'time flies when your haveing fun.' But now time goes
by slowly, especially today. Last time I tried this I slit my wrists, but beacause I'm 1/2
Saiyan Gohan got there before I bled to death. This time I'm makeing sure I don't fail." ::He
powers up a ki blast in his hand and holds it over his heart:: "I'm sorry everybody, I love you
all. And I'll see you in Kai-sama's kingdom. Good-bye." ::We see him let the blast go, the
expression on his face never changing as the blast rips through his chest and his heart. He
slumps in his chair, his arms falling showing the hole where his heart once was. A tear slips
down his cheek as the tape stays on that scene for a few minutes before the tape runs out and
shuts off::
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The End
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Song Title: Adam's Song
Who does it?: Blink 182
Author: Super Saiyan Alexin
Disclaimer: You know the deal...
Warnings: Cursing, Sniffle alert, very slight Shonen Ai, and suicide.
Notes: ... are song lyrics, I wrote this thinking of one of my brothers Mikey who committed
suicide about a year ago, so this isn't gonna be a happy fic, more on the severly depressing
side.
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I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who's have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
::A tape turns on and we see a young man with black spiky hair sitting in a chair with a sad
look on his face. He starts to talk solomly.:: "I always thought when I died it would be in
a fight, you know, dieng to save others, sacrificeing yourself for the greater good. Instead
here I am about to end it all. I put up such a good front, no one knew how much it hurt. This
was the last straw, here it is my birthday and no one remembered. *No one* came by, *no one*
sent a letter or a card, *no one* even called. ::He glances over to the wall then turns back::
As I glance over to the wall I notice something, the phone isn't even plugged in at all."
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
"Yesterday I had a big test, I was nervous of course, anyone would be. Dad said I should take
my time, Mom said to just hurry up and get it over with. I listened to my Dad and took my
time, too much and I ended up guessing on the last 2 questions. I got 198 out of 200 questions
right,99% and Mom still complained. '*Gohan* would have gotten them *all* right. *Gohan*
would have written his name better. *Gohan* wouldn't have taken so long. Why can't you be as
smart and as good as *Gohan?' SCREW GOHAN!! I am *me* not *Gohan!* I can't take this anyore,
I am tired of being told I'm 'not as smart as Gohan,' I'm tired of not being 'as strong as my
father,' and I'm tired of 'not being a babe-magnet like Trunks.' I don't like girls, I like
*Trunks*, and I'm tired of him only likeing me as a friend. I can't take it anymore. You'll
all take back all the means things you've ever said, and you'll all be sorry when I'm gone."
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days whe I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
"I never conquered any of my fears, rarely came outside my room, much less to party's. Why
can't I just be 16 again? Things were so much easier then, Trunks and I always hung out, my
parents were still together, Dad and Vegeta were always out sparring, and the biggest thing
on my mind was when Mom was going to let me go outside again."
The world was wide to late to try
The tour was over, we survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
to pass the time in my room alone
"I tried to make new friends while Trunks was gone but it was too late, I was already
compairing everyone to Trunks. The Grand Tour was over, Dad wasn't a kid anymore, the
world didn't come to an end, we all survived. I remember half way through Biology 201 I
felt Dad, Pan, and Trunks' ki's. I couldn't wait till I got home, I was so sure that Trunks
was gonna be there waiting to tell me all about the trip. He wasn't. I figured that Bulma
had wanted to see him first so I called over there, Trunks said that his Grandma was on the
other line and asked if he could call back. I waited in my room all night. He never called
back."
I never thought I'd die alone
another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
"I always thought that at the absoulute least if I didn't die in a fight that I would die with
all my friends and family around me, you know, 'on my deathbed' as they say. I never even
made any type of an impact, when my father and Gohan are gone people will remeber them as
'The great defender of the Earth' and 'The Golden Child' or even as 'The Great Saiyaman.' No
one will remeber there was ever anyone named Son Goten. Give my T.V. and VCR to Jordan, give
my stereo to Scottie, give my CD's and videos to Worm, and give Trunks the stack of letters
under my mattress that I never had the courage to give him. I doubt anyone will want this
tape so you should burn it after watching it, whoever you are that found this that is. I know
how it'll go Jordan's brother Micheal died in a car accident last year. They don't go in there
anymore, no one will come in here again either."
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of Apple Juice in the hall
Please tell Mom this is not her fault.
"You'll corner everything off and act like there's an invisible wall there, it'll be like an
abandoned museum. The stains from my childhood will still be there, but you'll all probably
treasure them. I remember when I was 12 I spilt a cup of, I think it was Grape Kool-Aid, in
my room. Mom started screaming at the top of her lungs, she was acting like I had just shot
something and dragged in the body to show her. Whoever finds this please, tell my Mother that
this wasn't her fault, I just couldn't take this life anymore, so instead I'm takeing *my*
life."
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
days when I still felt alive
We coudn't wait to get outside
"I never conquered any of my goals, never even came close. Everything was so much better when
I was 16, the sun was brighter, the grass was greener, and Trunks didn't aviod me like he does
now. When I was 16 I wanted to live, and I wanted to go outside. Now I don't even want to
leave my room."
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we survived
I coudn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone.
"It's a big world out there, I could have just gone out and tried to find someone else who
understood me like Trunks did. But no one woulnd I mean let's face it, if you tell someone
that your Dad was born on a different planet and you weren't
fully Human they would have you committed. The tour ended and no one died, except the bad
guys. But if you told someone that your best friend, your niece, and your father, who was just
turned into an 8 year old, were traveling across the galaxy so that the world wouldn't come to
an end because your Dad hadn't even hit puberty yet they would call you a liar. Everyday at
school all I did was count the seconds till I got home so that I could wait all night in my
room alone for a call that would never come."
I never conquered, rarely came
Tommorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
"I tried this once before, but unfortunetly Gohan found me, I remember begging him not to tell
anyone. I promised I would never do it again, he tried to convince me that things would get
better, that all I needed to do was tell my crush how I felt. I couldn't tell him it was
Trunks, he wouldn't have understood. He told me to 'give it time, that I'd get over her.'
I think he thought I was talking about Paresu. He said that in no time I would be begging Mom
to go outside again. Bullshit."
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over I've survived
And I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
"It is a big world out there you know, and the time goes by rather quickly. The time passed
even faster while Trunks was gone, because all I did was try to keep myself busy till they all
got back. Because I belived the saying, 'time flies when your haveing fun.' But now time goes
by slowly, especially today. Last time I tried this I slit my wrists, but beacause I'm 1/2
Saiyan Gohan got there before I bled to death. This time I'm makeing sure I don't fail." ::He
powers up a ki blast in his hand and holds it over his heart:: "I'm sorry everybody, I love you
all. And I'll see you in Kai-sama's kingdom. Good-bye." ::We see him let the blast go, the
expression on his face never changing as the blast rips through his chest and his heart. He
slumps in his chair, his arms falling showing the hole where his heart once was. A tear slips
down his cheek as the tape stays on that scene for a few minutes before the tape runs out and
shuts off::
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The End
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