I Don't Know How
Black Beyond
~'~
This is a sort of sister story to "You Never Did"... or, at least, same idea. Different people, different subject... hehe, slashy! 5x2 suggestion. If you don't like that kind of stuff, don't go any further. But even if you do, I will tell you right now: I will laugh endlessly at whatever pathetic attempt you make at insulting me. Or my ancestry. Or my sexual orientation. It's old. I've probably heard it before.
It's so strange. How can this happen? To me, I mean. I don't fall in
love. Love... love is weak! Love's an emotion, and emotions only get in
the way. I'm not in love. I can't be in love. At all! And certainly not
with you... it's just unthinkable! Injustice! Foolish... oh, Nataku,
I'm in love. Forgive me. I beg of you. I didn't mean for this to
happen. But it did. I don't know how...
I'm in love with you, and you don't know it. How could you? I've done
nothing but push you away, insult you, and tell you to go away. I
didn't mean it. It's just... this, this is so unfamiliar. I've never
cared for anyone in this way. Can you understand that? I think you
can. No other boy would call himself Shinigami... what has happened to
you, my angel, to think of yourself as Death? I want to make your pain
go away, but I don't know how.
You're so beautiful. You're like a male version of Aphrodite. Do you
even know of the effect you have on people? Can you realize how truly
beautiful you are? I've never seen eyes like your's. Such a deep
violet hue... like the most deep of seas. Like the sky just before the
last ray of light vanishes and the Moon claims her realm from the sun.
I want to love you, oh, ever so badly. But I don't know how.
I don't even know if you could love me in that way. You flirt with
Heero, but that's only... at least, I hope it's only to get a
reaction. I could be weak for you, Duo. I would give up my mission to
Nataku if you could only love me. I would travel to the ends of time
and reality for your desire. But... I don't think I could let you know
of this. I'm sorry. I'm... I'm so weak! Shimatta, why can't I just
tell you? Do you know what your every move does to me? Do you!? I want
to just pin you up against the wall and kiss you like there is no
tomorrow... I just don't know how!
I could. I could do it so easily. But I can't. How can anyone live with
this! I am so weak, Nataku. I should be able to at least forget this
silly thing! I should be able to forget... I cannot forget, Nataku.
Just as I can't forget you, my Merian, I can't forget you, Duo. I
don't know how.
Black Beyond
~'~
This is a sort of sister story to "You Never Did"... or, at least, same idea. Different people, different subject... hehe, slashy! 5x2 suggestion. If you don't like that kind of stuff, don't go any further. But even if you do, I will tell you right now: I will laugh endlessly at whatever pathetic attempt you make at insulting me. Or my ancestry. Or my sexual orientation. It's old. I've probably heard it before.
It's so strange. How can this happen? To me, I mean. I don't fall in
love. Love... love is weak! Love's an emotion, and emotions only get in
the way. I'm not in love. I can't be in love. At all! And certainly not
with you... it's just unthinkable! Injustice! Foolish... oh, Nataku,
I'm in love. Forgive me. I beg of you. I didn't mean for this to
happen. But it did. I don't know how...
I'm in love with you, and you don't know it. How could you? I've done
nothing but push you away, insult you, and tell you to go away. I
didn't mean it. It's just... this, this is so unfamiliar. I've never
cared for anyone in this way. Can you understand that? I think you
can. No other boy would call himself Shinigami... what has happened to
you, my angel, to think of yourself as Death? I want to make your pain
go away, but I don't know how.
You're so beautiful. You're like a male version of Aphrodite. Do you
even know of the effect you have on people? Can you realize how truly
beautiful you are? I've never seen eyes like your's. Such a deep
violet hue... like the most deep of seas. Like the sky just before the
last ray of light vanishes and the Moon claims her realm from the sun.
I want to love you, oh, ever so badly. But I don't know how.
I don't even know if you could love me in that way. You flirt with
Heero, but that's only... at least, I hope it's only to get a
reaction. I could be weak for you, Duo. I would give up my mission to
Nataku if you could only love me. I would travel to the ends of time
and reality for your desire. But... I don't think I could let you know
of this. I'm sorry. I'm... I'm so weak! Shimatta, why can't I just
tell you? Do you know what your every move does to me? Do you!? I want
to just pin you up against the wall and kiss you like there is no
tomorrow... I just don't know how!
I could. I could do it so easily. But I can't. How can anyone live with
this! I am so weak, Nataku. I should be able to at least forget this
silly thing! I should be able to forget... I cannot forget, Nataku.
Just as I can't forget you, my Merian, I can't forget you, Duo. I
don't know how.