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Coming
Out Of Hiding
Chapter 3
The
big day had come. And it was strange that he felt as much relieve as he felt
fear.
Soon
it would be over.
Soon
it will be out.
From
this day on he wouldn't be hiding anymore. And if it was the end off everything
that he worked for he would take it as well.
Still
as he was sitting there in the little room behind the stage he once again felt
as if he was making a mistake.
He
felt a soft hand brush over his cheek. Even without looking he knew who is was.
Gazing up he meet two trusting eyes.
"You
know that this is the first time that you are nervous before a gig..... Are you
doubting your decision?"
"Are
we doing the right thing" he didn't plan on saying it out loud, but he couldn't
stop himself either.
Everything
would be different soon.
One
action that would change their whole life.
"We
are. And no matter what will happen afterwards. It will always be be the right
thing." He paused "Or are you afraid of the people that might hate you?"
He
shook his head "I am more afraid of the chance that you might hate me. When all
this starts you will have as much of the hate as me." he whispered closing his
eyes.
The
decision had felt so easy back then.
Making
it feel more like a big weight leaving both of their backs.
But
now that the time was coming closer with each moment he was more afraid than
any other time in his life. Not even when their life had been a daily struggle
for survival he had felt such a strong urge to just run away.
He
felt himself being drawn forward and enclosed his hands around his lovers back.
So
much comfort.
He
felt Tai's chin rest softly.
"It
will be alright" he heard him whisper. "We will find a way."
It
would become his mantra for the next few hours.
***~~~***
"I have been thinking about you"
The way up stage felt long and dangerous and his lovers absents at his
side made him feel cold.
"What were you thinking"
And
as he reached the last step to the stage. It felt different for the first time.
"Actually I was thinking about you."
And
it was. It was no longer the same comfort that it had given him before. And
after he had told the band today the first changes had already taken place.
Leaving him with one backgroundsinger and one guitarplayer less.
This
was reality as it would be.
"And what were you thinking?"
The
audience shouted that they loved him and threw presents. But he knew that it
wasn't true. They only loved the image and not the person. The person was only
loved by few people. One of them standing behind the curtain, feeling with him
for every step of the way.
"I was
thinking on how you would feel when I told you I loved you"
Waiting for the screams to die down he fell into his role easily. The
role that pretended to love them as much as they loved him l
The role that was smiling as he looked down at the mass.
"Were
you just thinking or actually planning to tell me"
Greeting the people with a
smile that was a fake as theirs calls of love.
"Well if I would. How would you react"
He started to speak. Not
his own words but the ones that were to be his when he started a concert.
"I guess I would tell you that I love you
back....Would that make you happy"
He knew that it was to late
to stop things from happening.
"Actually it would make me gay"
And that tomorrow won't
just be another day.
"Of all the people that I know. I just *had* to fall
in love with the insane one"
Everything would be
different.
"But you have"
It would be another life.
"Yes. I definitely have "
And as the music started to
play.
The show began.
***~~~***
It felt so strange to watch
him there.
As if it was like any other
day.
Still it wasn't.
And when he thought about
it tomorrow seemed to be more than a day away.
Almost like a lifetime.
So much would be different.
So much that might be gone
forever.
Especially a certain letter
that he left his parents on the table. They would find it when they would come
home. He was afraid on how they would react.
He just wished he knew.
But all he could do was
hope and pray that they would understand.
He almost felt his heart
stop when the last song was played to the end and he felt Matt's eyes meet his.
And as one show ended.
Another one had just begun.
****~~~~*****
It was about the same time that his parents came home
to find the letter at the kitchen table waiting for them
Taking it with marvelled glances. About what their son
would be writing them and knowing that it couldn't be anything good. But opening it nevertheless.
Dear Mum dear Dad!
///
The Audience was screaming
happily at Matt. And it took him a few minutes till they had calmed enough to
listen to him.
"First of...I wanted to
thank you"
///
You have been wonderful parents.
And I love you with all my heart.
But there is something I have been meaning to tell you
for a long time.
//
"I have not been as
truthful to you as you my fans would
and should deserve"
He could see Matt taking a
deep breath
"There is someone I need to
tell you about"
///
Someone special that I haven't been telling you the
truth about.
///
And as there is so much
that you know...or think to know about me. There is this one person that I kept
from you so far. However I think it is time now that I tell you.
///
I am in love. Yet before you start getting happy about
it. There is something else I need to tell you. Something that might change
your mind. Although I hope that it won't. The person I am in love with is Matt.
///
He has been my lover for
the last 4 years and my closest mate for a lot longer.
Believe me. I am not
telling you this to hurt you.
///
I just want to stop lying.....Need to stop lying.
///
Please don't try and change
my mind.
///
I made my decision a long time ago.
///
And even thou it is much to
ask. I can only hope for you that you will accept it
///
Accept us.
///
Because I rally hope you
will
///
With Love
///
"Tai?"
Matt had left the stage and
was now standing in front of him. The audience still silent and apparently in a
state of shock. Although the first
voice were already starting to raise.
Picking up the other ones
hands he held it tightly wrapped in his own. Looking deep into his blue
eyes. A worried gaze and a question
that was almost displayed there.
"Did we the right thing?"
"We did...no matter what
comes next."
~~~~~~to be cont.~~~~~
So their secret is out.
And so are they.
But how will the rest of
the world react.
Will they accept or reject?
How about their families?
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