Wait Until Nightfall
It's been... ten years? No... It can't have been that long since he died... Since I died...
Still, I can't believe that I was such a child at sixteen. I thought that I had all the answers... Then he came into my life...
Zidane...
That name is both a prayer and a curse upon my lips. If only he had never came into my life. Then I would have been a better person... a better queen.
What it they hadn't kidnapped me that day... what if I had ran away on my own as I had planned...
I daresay that life would have been an easier lot for me. I would have been dead. It would have been so wonderful to have never had learned of my past or to have met him!
Or to have fallen in love with him...
Only to have had him torn out of my life, by an insane person.
By his brother...
I damn you Kuja! I damn you for taking away every person that I love!
Why couldn't you have let him live at least? Would it have been so bad to have let me keep one person? Why couldn't you have died earlier?
I can't cry... so tears don't fall. Go back into your ducts, and wait until nightfall. Then I shall let you flow freely, and soundlessly. Drench my pillow and dry before the morn. But just wait...
Maybe it is Zidane that I should damn... Him whom I should hate with a passion. If only he hadn't been so self-confident... if only he had taken Steiner or anyone. Then my dear Zidane would still be here...
Why couldn't you have thought ahead for me? For yourself!?
...But you had to go talk to Kuja... You had to go by yourself.
You had to leave me alone.
I can almost hear your voice saying now, "I didn't leave you alone, Dagger!" Then I see you in my mind grinning and whispering, "I'll always be with you."
Then you vanish into thin air, and I'm alone again.
If I could do it over, I would have kept you with me. I would have found a way to protect you. But how was I to know what was coming? How was I to know that you were going to leave me?
"I'll always be with you."
Liar.
"I didn't leave you alone, Dagger!"
You left me without you. You left me with people who aren't you.
You left me alone.
Now I am left with tears that I can't spill, until nightfall. Words I can't speak until nightfall. Dreams I can't dream, until nightfall.
For ten years I've been saying that I would give you up. But I can't and I won't. I will never stop expecting you to show up with a cocky grin, out of no where. I'll never stop imagining the day I see you again.
So I'll just have to wait until nightfall, for you to come to me.
Author's Notes: In case your wondering, this is a 'what if?' story. And within it Zidane is dead. He never came back, like in the game. Also, this is a short perspective from Garnet/Dagger (like you didn't know). And as I've just had an embarrassing time at the grocery store (involving an Irish accent and talking to myself) I'll go. ^-^; Thank you for reading!