Chapter 3: One Sweet Day
A/N: Sorry, didn't know it when I was writing it, but this kind of turned into a song fic.
Disclaimer: Don't own anyone in this chapter except Rebecca. 'One Sweet Day,' obviously, isn't mine either.
"Excuse me, they tell me you're John Carter?" a woman asked when she poked her head in. Abby had left five minutes before.
"Yes... Who are you?"
"My name is Rebecca Heraldson. You can call me Becky,"
"Hello, Becky," Carter smiled weakly, "Can I help you?" Becky smiled and closed the door behind her. She made sure no one was coming, watching, or listening first.
"What are you doing?"
"I have some information for you, Carter, about your friend,"
"Which friend?"
"Lucy Knight," Carter's eyes widened.
"She's dead..."
"I know that! I was a friend of hers... Actually, my husband was. But the point is, we talked a lot and she spoke of you often. I'm also a bit of a psychic. I knew, somehow, that that guy was going to hit you. I don't think you're crazy-"
"Who said I was crazy?" Carter asked, slightly suspicious.
"No one. But... She said that she loved you, Carter, she really did. And she said- actually, I think it was a joke- she said if she died before she told you so, then she wouldn't let heaven or earth stand between you until she told you,"
"What? This isn't just some prank, is it?"
"I don't joke about these things," her face was quite serious, "this may sound stupid, but... do you think that's what she's trying to do now?"
"Who told you I was seeing Lucy? I mean, actually seeing her everywhere? Does the whole hospital know?"
"Well... I heard some of the doctors talking. They seemed to all agree that you weren't crazy. They care for you, Carter, but you're too blinded with grief to see that you're hurting them. And, as I said, I am a bit of a psychic... And I don't think the *whole* hospital knows..."
"Thank you, Mrs. Heraldson."
"But-"
"I'd really like to be alone, now."
"All right..." and she left.
That night, Carter was so anxious to sleep that he couldn't. But eventually, he did.
"Lucy!" he screamed. He was in exam room 6 in the ER. It was empty.
"No need to shout, John," Carter turned and embraced his deceased friend. She seemed slightly surprised.
"I miss you so much!" Carter said, the tears forming in his eyes.
"I miss you, too, Carter. But we'll be together... Someday. This is the last time I'll see you for a while, but remember, I'm never truly gone. I love you very much, Carter and I never had the chance to tell you. I guess I was too afraid, really."
"I love you, too, Luce," Carter whispered into her soft hair that he had always taken for granted; always thought she would be there.
"You think I am gone from your life forever but it is just the opposite. I am in your heart forever and there, I can never die. I'm only lost to you when you are lost to yourself and even then, I will find a way to renew your faith. I am always watching over you and I always will."
"Lucy, Please!"
"I'll miss you, Carter," she said, "And the other reason I've been trying to reach you is to tell you it's time to let go of me. You've suffered enough. Really, you're not to blame. Please, stop grieving for me. It's time to move on. Tell Lizzy that, too."
"I will," Carter promised and Lucy kissed him passionately.
"I've been wanting to do that for a long time, now," she admitted, smiling, "Good bye, Carter,"
"Good bye... Lucy..."
The next few days were a blur. Soon, Carter was up again and working. No one spoke to him much. One day, he caught Elizabeth Corday alone.
"Lizzy, could I talk you?"
"Sure, John, what is it?"
"I had a dream... Lucy was in it. She told me to tell you that you can stop blaming yourself. It's time to move on. She doesn't like to see you grieve for her. She doesn't like to see you in pain. She said she misses you. You have to learn to let go, just like me." Lizzy looked up at him with tears in her eyes and hugged him.
Carter went out to a restaurant that night, to forget about the things that had happened in the last few days.
"Are you waiting for someone to join you, Sir?" the waiter asked.
Carter laughed and replied, "More like I'm waiting to join her. No, I'm not expecting anyone, if that's what you mean."
"Very well, Sir," and he went to get the appetizers. The restaurant had some music playing and soon, a fairly old, but still good song began to play that made Carter sigh and think of Lucy again for the thousandth time that week.
"Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say..."
Carter felt almost exactly the same way...
A/N: Sorry, didn't know it when I was writing it, but this kind of turned into a song fic.
Disclaimer: Don't own anyone in this chapter except Rebecca. 'One Sweet Day,' obviously, isn't mine either.
"Excuse me, they tell me you're John Carter?" a woman asked when she poked her head in. Abby had left five minutes before.
"Yes... Who are you?"
"My name is Rebecca Heraldson. You can call me Becky,"
"Hello, Becky," Carter smiled weakly, "Can I help you?" Becky smiled and closed the door behind her. She made sure no one was coming, watching, or listening first.
"What are you doing?"
"I have some information for you, Carter, about your friend,"
"Which friend?"
"Lucy Knight," Carter's eyes widened.
"She's dead..."
"I know that! I was a friend of hers... Actually, my husband was. But the point is, we talked a lot and she spoke of you often. I'm also a bit of a psychic. I knew, somehow, that that guy was going to hit you. I don't think you're crazy-"
"Who said I was crazy?" Carter asked, slightly suspicious.
"No one. But... She said that she loved you, Carter, she really did. And she said- actually, I think it was a joke- she said if she died before she told you so, then she wouldn't let heaven or earth stand between you until she told you,"
"What? This isn't just some prank, is it?"
"I don't joke about these things," her face was quite serious, "this may sound stupid, but... do you think that's what she's trying to do now?"
"Who told you I was seeing Lucy? I mean, actually seeing her everywhere? Does the whole hospital know?"
"Well... I heard some of the doctors talking. They seemed to all agree that you weren't crazy. They care for you, Carter, but you're too blinded with grief to see that you're hurting them. And, as I said, I am a bit of a psychic... And I don't think the *whole* hospital knows..."
"Thank you, Mrs. Heraldson."
"But-"
"I'd really like to be alone, now."
"All right..." and she left.
That night, Carter was so anxious to sleep that he couldn't. But eventually, he did.
"Lucy!" he screamed. He was in exam room 6 in the ER. It was empty.
"No need to shout, John," Carter turned and embraced his deceased friend. She seemed slightly surprised.
"I miss you so much!" Carter said, the tears forming in his eyes.
"I miss you, too, Carter. But we'll be together... Someday. This is the last time I'll see you for a while, but remember, I'm never truly gone. I love you very much, Carter and I never had the chance to tell you. I guess I was too afraid, really."
"I love you, too, Luce," Carter whispered into her soft hair that he had always taken for granted; always thought she would be there.
"You think I am gone from your life forever but it is just the opposite. I am in your heart forever and there, I can never die. I'm only lost to you when you are lost to yourself and even then, I will find a way to renew your faith. I am always watching over you and I always will."
"Lucy, Please!"
"I'll miss you, Carter," she said, "And the other reason I've been trying to reach you is to tell you it's time to let go of me. You've suffered enough. Really, you're not to blame. Please, stop grieving for me. It's time to move on. Tell Lizzy that, too."
"I will," Carter promised and Lucy kissed him passionately.
"I've been wanting to do that for a long time, now," she admitted, smiling, "Good bye, Carter,"
"Good bye... Lucy..."
The next few days were a blur. Soon, Carter was up again and working. No one spoke to him much. One day, he caught Elizabeth Corday alone.
"Lizzy, could I talk you?"
"Sure, John, what is it?"
"I had a dream... Lucy was in it. She told me to tell you that you can stop blaming yourself. It's time to move on. She doesn't like to see you grieve for her. She doesn't like to see you in pain. She said she misses you. You have to learn to let go, just like me." Lizzy looked up at him with tears in her eyes and hugged him.
Carter went out to a restaurant that night, to forget about the things that had happened in the last few days.
"Are you waiting for someone to join you, Sir?" the waiter asked.
Carter laughed and replied, "More like I'm waiting to join her. No, I'm not expecting anyone, if that's what you mean."
"Very well, Sir," and he went to get the appetizers. The restaurant had some music playing and soon, a fairly old, but still good song began to play that made Carter sigh and think of Lucy again for the thousandth time that week.
"Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say..."
Carter felt almost exactly the same way...