I've been surrounded by death for about 6 years now and as the slayer I've been prepared for
Anything. Why wasn't I prepared for this? In my mind I saved my mother…in my mind, she's
Tucked in bed resting to go to work tomorrow. But of coarse reality had to hit me with a ton of bricks.
" We're not suppose to move the body!"
" Is she cold?"
" It's not her. It's not her She's gone"
I never answered dawn's question because I knew she already knew the answer. God poor dawn.she
Went through so much in the past 8 months finding out she was the key ...slicing her arm…mom.
If I were her, I would have snapped, crackled and popped. I can hear her crying in her room and a part
Of me wants to go to the sisterly thing and comfort her, but she needs the alone time. We all do.
So I sit here in my mother's room and remember. I remember how I use to spend hours watching her
Put on makeup. I remember how proud she was when I graduated from middle school. I also remember the look on her face when I came back the summer I ran away…. I got up and out of her old bed and silently walked around her room. God how am I gonna go on?
Anything. Why wasn't I prepared for this? In my mind I saved my mother…in my mind, she's
Tucked in bed resting to go to work tomorrow. But of coarse reality had to hit me with a ton of bricks.
" We're not suppose to move the body!"
" Is she cold?"
" It's not her. It's not her She's gone"
I never answered dawn's question because I knew she already knew the answer. God poor dawn.she
Went through so much in the past 8 months finding out she was the key ...slicing her arm…mom.
If I were her, I would have snapped, crackled and popped. I can hear her crying in her room and a part
Of me wants to go to the sisterly thing and comfort her, but she needs the alone time. We all do.
So I sit here in my mother's room and remember. I remember how I use to spend hours watching her
Put on makeup. I remember how proud she was when I graduated from middle school. I also remember the look on her face when I came back the summer I ran away…. I got up and out of her old bed and silently walked around her room. God how am I gonna go on?