Battles of Love
Chapter 6: Revelations and Mistakes
Disclaimer: Do I have to write one every time I upload a chapter? Everyone knows I don't own DBZ, otherwise, hehe, I'd be in heaven!!
Author's Note: Hey people I'm so sorry for taking so long in uploading a new chapter, but since I'm leaving to Washington DC (or more specifically, Chevy Chase, Maryland) for a week, I'm going to be very behind, and I have had to do so much work (also do to the fact that I've had writers block!!)!! Again I apologize for not uploading sooner, and hope you like this new chapter. REMEMBER: this is and ALTERNATE UNIVERSE, so if it doesn't go along with the story you know, then please forgive me. It finally has revelations and some action, so that you won't fall asleep. I want to dedicate this chapter to Ashley Taylor, a great DBZ fiction writer. I recommend all you people (If you already haven't) read her fics, especially Killing Me Softly. GO Ashley!!!
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Mirai Trunks was kept in suspense all day. 'What could Pan want to talk to me about?'
At last night time came, and although Mirai Trunks was anxious and nervous to know what she wanted to talk to him about, he was also happy that he was going to spend some time with her. 'Since when does the thought of speaking to someone make me happy?!' he chastised himself. 'Just one more hour' he thought, and tried to ease his nerves.
Pan was ready to meet Mirai Trunks, but Bra was still outside yelling angrily at Goten.
"Bra, I'm so sorry!"
"You should've thought of the consequences before you acted on impulse, you idiot!! You're lucky my father's not here, otherwise I wouldn't stop him from killing you"
"You don't mean that Bra. You're just speaking in anger."
"Don't be telling me what I mean or don't mean!! That's another thing! I hate it when….!"
Bra and Goten kept on arguing, and Pan getting frustrated at their endless arguments and noticing that they would go on for hours, interrupted them.
"If you haven't noticed, you two aren't the only people here! Can't you see we're trying to get some sleep?! Besides, you've been arguing for hours without coming to an agreement, and I think now would be a good time to stop arguing and go to sleep. If you two haven't noticed, we've been here for a week already and have so far not found any help at all on how to get home. Now, GO TO SLEEP!!"
Both Bra and Goten stared dumbfounded at Pan, and both went their own ways, bowing their heads in shame.
'Finally! I thought they would never leave. Now I can go to the river without being noticed'.
Mirai Trunks was already awaiting Pan by the river, leaning against a tree, legs stretched out. He wanted to appear cool and casual, not wanting her to notice his nervousness. Pan was equally as nervous, thinking to her self why she had done this in the first place, forgetting her purpose of this 'talk'.
"Hello, Mirai Trunks"
"Hi Pan. I almost thought you wouldn't make it. You know, fell asleep or something."
Pan laughed at his remark. "No, I was actually late because of your sister and my uncle."
"Are they still fighting?! Man, they need to get a life."
"Actually, I prefer them arguing then all lovey dovey because it at least makes it interesting for us, don't you think?"
"Yeah, it is more fun when they're arguing. So, what did you want to talk to me about?" Trunks asked casually.
"I wanted to ask why you were always so serious. Are you mad at us, or do you not like us at all?"
"No! I prefer this timeline than the one I came from. I really don't know how to explain, it's just that I'm not so used to being emotional. I was trained not to let emotions overrule. Besides, someone else taught a valuable lesson…" Mirai Trunks broke off, unwilling to reveal the causation to his misery.
"See what you just did?!"
Mirai Trunks looked at Pan confused. "What did I do?!"
"You were just about to tell me the reason to this whole situation, and you just stopped, blocking me out. That's what I wanted to know. Why can't you finish saying what you started?"
"You're giving me advice?! What about you, huh?
"What do you mean?"
"I know for a fact that you 'love' Trunks, yet you don't have the courage to tell him about your feelings because you don't want him to know how much you truly feel about him."
"That's not true!"
"Then if you're not lying, why don't you tell him right now? I'll take you to his tent!"
"No!"
"See, now who's the one who won't 'show their emotions'? You're afraid of being rejected, aren't you?"
"No, you got it all wrong!"
"No, I have it all right! That's why you don't want to talk to him!"
"I…I…, well, that's not the only reason. The truth is I'm interested in someone else, but it will be more difficult for me to tell him my emotions than for Trunks."
Mirai Trunks stared at Pan thoughtfully, wondering who this new 'fellow' was, unable to reject the overwhelming urge to kill whomever it was that Pan loved. 'What the hell is wrong with me? I can't care for her. She just told me she loves another. Damn him, he better make her happy, otherwise he'll have to deal with me.' Mirai Trunks was pondering on that thought, while another one surged in his head. 'Oh Dende! I can't believe I fell in love with her!! But…, how? I've only known her for a week!! No, these feelings have to stop…'
"Mirai Trunks? What's wrong?"
"N-n-nothing. It's just that I was just thinking on what you said. Did you just realize that you opened yourself to me, and told me something you weren't even sure about?"
"N-no, I mean, y-yes. How weird! But that still doesn't answer my question! Why don't you like to talk to someone about your feelings?"
"It's very hard for me Pan! Don't you think I've tried to before?! I have, and that person taught me a lesson I will never forget!"
"See, there you go again, talking about a 'mysterious' someone whom I don't even know. What do you mean by 'valuable lesson'?"
"Damn it Pan, can't you realize that it's something that hurt me? Something of my past that I would rather keep in the past and not bring up anymore?"
"But it's when you talk to someone about those things that you finally realize that they are from the past, and can no longer affect you because you are now in the present, telling someone that horrible past so that you can move on with your life. I know there are certain people you can really talk to, and I want to help."
"You can't help me! Just stay out of my business!" Mirai Trunks didn't know why he had shouted those cruel words at Pan, but felt it would be necessary in helping him forget her. 'It'll be easier to forget her when she hates me.'
Pan felt hurt, the cruelty of those words lashing at her heart, giving her deep wounds. She remained silent for a moment, then replied "I realized that I like talking to you because you understood me even before I did, and that is important. I know how it feels like to have something deep inside you, killing you on the inside, and not being able to do anything about it. But you know what? Your right, I'm not the one whom you should talk to obviously, so let's just forget we had this conversation and pretend like nothing happened."
Pan turned around and began to walk back towards her tent. She had only walked a few steps when she felt a strong warm hand on her arm.
"Pan, wait."
Pan stopped dead in her tracks, confused, angered, and excited at the same time. She felt her blood surge, flowing rapidly, her heart pumping faster and faster with just the mere contact with his hand.
"Turn around and look at me." She felt the urge to turn around and compel to Mirai Trunks' order, but she only gave him her back, knowing she wouldn't be able to look at him in the eyes.
"I thought you were perfectly clear and didn't want me to intrude in your personal life. Now if you would kindly let me go, I'll gladly move on to more important things, like getting ourselves out of here."
"Pan, please wait. Please!"
She knew she had to walk away from him to at least save some of her wounded pride, but the desperation in his voice got to her.
"Mirai Trunks, kindly hurry up and tell me what you want because I do want to get some sleep."
"Pan, I didn't mean to hurt you. That was just my pride talking, and I hope you forgive me. I really didn't mean to hurt you, I swear! Please, just give me one more chance, and hear me out."
Pan thought for a moment, then nodded in agreement. "Fine. But if you're just going to come up with you bull shit of excuses, then just release my arm and let me go to sleep."
Mirai Trunks didn't know where to begin, but finally thought that it would be better for her to understand if he told her everything from the beginning.
"In my timeline, I never knew my father because he was dead by the time I was born. All my childhood years were spent with my mom, and seeing how everyday people were dying because of the androids. I wanted to fight them, kill them for what they had done, but all I could do was stare. Finally, Gohan agreed to train me to become a super saiyan, but even as a super saiyan, I couldn't defeat them. All those years of intensive training, and not letting my emotions overrule my mission, I forgot what it was to just stop and talk to someone, and open myself to them.
"Finally, I met a girl. A very beautiful, patient, and intelligent girl who helped me open myself up. I was really happy with her, and I thought she was too, but I never realized that she was out to get revenge through me. Turns out she was the daughter of a man who had loved my mother, and because of my mother, the happy couple began to have many problems. They fought constantly, when before they never used to even raise their voices at each other, and because of my mother, the lady killed herself and her husband, saying she if she couldn't have the love of her husband, then no one would, leaving a poor child with the horrible memory of her parents' death. All because of one woman who didn't even know the man, let alone what he had felt for her. Like her parents were taken from her, she was planning to take away from my mom the only thing left to her that she loved: me.
"My mom and I never saw it coming. We had always thought of her as a sweet and shy girl who would make me a great loving and caring wife. In fact, the only way I ever found out was by chance only, when she was talking to her old nursemaid, telling her how great her plans were going. I walked out of her house and her life, never once looking back or knowing whatever happened to her." Mirai Trunks looked away, still hurt by the painful lose he had felt when he had heard her cruel cold words. Amazingly, even though it hurt, the pain didn't feel as bad as it had before. In fact, he was beginning to feel somewhat relieved.
He turned around to look at Pan, who sat very quietly, at the edge of the lake, her feet inside the cool water. It looked like she was crying. 'But why would she be crying for me? It doesn't make sense.'
"Pan, are you okay?"
"I'm so sorry Mirai Trunks, but I didn't understand you until now. I really thought you were just too full of yourself, but now I know why. Please forgive me for thinking horrible thoughts about you."
"Pan, it wasn't your fault. Truth is I don't blame you for thinking like that. I know there's still much more to talk about, but I think we should go. I've been getting an eerie feeling about this place, and even though it looks deserted, I wouldn't trust my self on that. I think we should go."
Mirai Trunks helped Pan up to her feet, holding her close for just a moment. Just as they were about to kiss, Mirai Trunks was knocked out in the back of his head, and the last thing Pan remembered was her screaming, watching as the trees and bushes surrounded them.
Author's Note: I'm so very sorry for not writing sooner. These past weeks I've been preparing for a national conference in DC, and I was there just last week, so now I have free time, and this story should be going a lot faster. Again, my apologies, and I hope this is a good long chapter. Don't forget to Read and Review!!!