I'll Love you Forever Momma


Disclaimer: I don't own Evangelion or any of its characters.


~*~You flew away...so far away...too far to return...~*~


Momma?

Where are you Momma?

You left me...

I miss you.

Why'd you have to fly away Momma?

Why did you leave me behind?

Was..was it because I wasn't a good child?

Because I never told you how much I loved you?

Or because I treated you so poorly.

Yes...I admit.

I was a horrible person...

But...but I do love you.

So much Momma that it hurts.

It hurts so much...

I want to ask you.

Ask you when will the hurt go away?

When will this feeling fly away like you did?

Fly into the sky...with the wings I'll never recieve...the wings I dont desearve...

I miss you Momma.

Everytime I think of you...the times we laughed...or when you hugged me...or when you told me that you'd love me forever.

I remember thoughs times.

But..but I also remember the times I shunned you away.

Called you names or turned away from your love.

The regret..sorrow...pain...haunt me with no end.

They'll never go away will they?

The pain I feel..

It'll never go away.

Heh...

I'm laughing Momma.

Bitter laughs with equally bitter tears brimming down my face.

To whom am I asking these questions to?

Who will answer them for me?

No...nobody to answer them...nobody ever to answer...

I'm crying...

I Don't want to but...the tears just wont stop...it hurts again Momma..

No..it always hurts..every little thing is a reminder...that...that you flew away...and left me to look up at the sky....

I miss you Momma...

Im sorry Momma...

I understand if you cant love me anymore but...please remember..as I lay these flowers on your grave...

Please remember..that..that I love you...

I truley do...