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Summary: Set 6 moths after Part Two. Angel is looking back over the last 6 months of having Catherine and Alain in his care. A maturnal event leaves Angel wonderingf about the twins future.
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Baby Steps.
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* Today provide one of those memories that make being immortal not all that bad. In fact the last Six months have provided memories that will make my unnaturally long life that little bit easier to handle. I happened like this:
Cordelia was out for the day at an audition and i was left to babysit, not that i minded. It has brought me so much happiness to watch Catherine and Alain grow, a happiness i never thought i would feel again. They started to speak about 3 months ago. Alain was the first to speak, his first word was mamma, which kinda of upset me. Catherine spoke later that day. She looked at me with her big brown eyes and smiled, or broke wind, and she said dadda. I have never felt so happy. Just as well my soul is bound or i would have lost it when the babies first arrived in our life.
I had just finished the manly task of changing both dipers and i sat Alain down at his activity center. Catherine had crawled over to the sofa and started to pull herself up. She was always trying that but she would get to the top and hover on her feet before falling back down onto her butt. She would look over at me with her liquid eyes with a look that said 'Stop Laughing And Help Me.' I had tried to help her walk but Cordelia insisted that the books said it was too early. So far these books haven't mentioned any special rules about babies that were gifts from the Power That Be. Catherine had fell over again but she landed with a heafty bump. She started to cry and crawled over to me.
I know your meant to love all of your children equally but i can't help it, Catherine is my favourite. She reminds me so much of my little sister. Just like her, Catherine can wind me around her little finger. I can see this having problems when she starts dating. Does the future queen of the PTB date. That's another thing that bothers me about this looking after them thing. I won't get to see her marry, i won't see her go through Collage. Neither Alain or Catherine are going to have kids, that we know of. That i won't ever have grandchildren. I know that i should be very grateful for even having the chance to bring up children but i wish i could watch them grow up into doctors or whatever ever they want. But they don't have a choice, they're like Buffy, she didn't have a choice when she was called.
I picked Cathy up and carefully put her back on her feet. I held her around the waist as she wobbled around. She took a few tentative steps forward, her arms out. I could hear the diper rustleing against her legs as she waddled about under my support. She seemed to find her feet so i let her go, expecting her just to fall. She stood still for a few second before her body seemed to take on a life of it's own and started to move forward. She stumbled forward for about four steps before crashing to her knees. I watched my daughter take her first steps. I couldn't believe it. Catherine turned to look at me smiling like she knew that seeing her first steps had filled me with so much love.
I have now one more memory i can warm myself by when Catherine and Alain have taken their place. Me and Cordelia can swap their childhood stories when she is 41. Then i will have the memories of the three of them together when Cordelia is gone. I will have photographs that will join the creased ones in my box. A box that contains the momentos of both my lives. I long ago accepted that the memories whould have to be enough until my Shansu happens, but these are special memories, these are memories i never thought i whould have.
Summary: Set 6 moths after Part Two. Angel is looking back over the last 6 months of having Catherine and Alain in his care. A maturnal event leaves Angel wonderingf about the twins future.
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Baby Steps.
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* Today provide one of those memories that make being immortal not all that bad. In fact the last Six months have provided memories that will make my unnaturally long life that little bit easier to handle. I happened like this:
Cordelia was out for the day at an audition and i was left to babysit, not that i minded. It has brought me so much happiness to watch Catherine and Alain grow, a happiness i never thought i would feel again. They started to speak about 3 months ago. Alain was the first to speak, his first word was mamma, which kinda of upset me. Catherine spoke later that day. She looked at me with her big brown eyes and smiled, or broke wind, and she said dadda. I have never felt so happy. Just as well my soul is bound or i would have lost it when the babies first arrived in our life.
I had just finished the manly task of changing both dipers and i sat Alain down at his activity center. Catherine had crawled over to the sofa and started to pull herself up. She was always trying that but she would get to the top and hover on her feet before falling back down onto her butt. She would look over at me with her liquid eyes with a look that said 'Stop Laughing And Help Me.' I had tried to help her walk but Cordelia insisted that the books said it was too early. So far these books haven't mentioned any special rules about babies that were gifts from the Power That Be. Catherine had fell over again but she landed with a heafty bump. She started to cry and crawled over to me.
I know your meant to love all of your children equally but i can't help it, Catherine is my favourite. She reminds me so much of my little sister. Just like her, Catherine can wind me around her little finger. I can see this having problems when she starts dating. Does the future queen of the PTB date. That's another thing that bothers me about this looking after them thing. I won't get to see her marry, i won't see her go through Collage. Neither Alain or Catherine are going to have kids, that we know of. That i won't ever have grandchildren. I know that i should be very grateful for even having the chance to bring up children but i wish i could watch them grow up into doctors or whatever ever they want. But they don't have a choice, they're like Buffy, she didn't have a choice when she was called.
I picked Cathy up and carefully put her back on her feet. I held her around the waist as she wobbled around. She took a few tentative steps forward, her arms out. I could hear the diper rustleing against her legs as she waddled about under my support. She seemed to find her feet so i let her go, expecting her just to fall. She stood still for a few second before her body seemed to take on a life of it's own and started to move forward. She stumbled forward for about four steps before crashing to her knees. I watched my daughter take her first steps. I couldn't believe it. Catherine turned to look at me smiling like she knew that seeing her first steps had filled me with so much love.
I have now one more memory i can warm myself by when Catherine and Alain have taken their place. Me and Cordelia can swap their childhood stories when she is 41. Then i will have the memories of the three of them together when Cordelia is gone. I will have photographs that will join the creased ones in my box. A box that contains the momentos of both my lives. I long ago accepted that the memories whould have to be enough until my Shansu happens, but these are special memories, these are memories i never thought i whould have.