Disclaimer: Flame of Recca is not mine. I'm broke and I ain't making no money offa this so don't sue. It would be fruitless.
Surrendering to the pain
Hanabishi Recca sat down on a bench. He watched as Yanagi fed some birds. He turned his head when he heard a loud screech. There he saw Fuuko and Domon fighting, as usual. Kage Houshi was siting next to him looking at Yanagi. They were waiting for two people to arrive.
"Oi Recca-niichan I found him!" Koganei Kaoru called out waving his hands. Behind him walking in a slower pace with his hands in his pocket was one Mikagami Tokiya. His hair in a high pony tail looking very handsome.
"Where were you?" Domon asked eyeing the swordsman suspiciously. "We had a meeting at two and we had to get Koganei to find you."
"My affairs are none of your concern, Gorilla." Tokiya answered coldly.
"Gorilla! Listen you-"
"Konichiwa, Mikagami-sempai." Yanagi said dense and cheery as ever. Tokiya's features softened and a microscopic twitch of a smile appeared on his rigid face.
"Konichiwa Yanagi." Tokiya said softly. Yanagi smiled brightly.
"Why were you so late?" Yanagi asked.
"I had a few affairs that I couldn't get way from right away," He replied. Yanagi smiled again and returned to the birds.
"Why is he so nice to Yanagi-chan and so mean to everyone else?" Domon whinnied to Fuuko, whose facevaulted.
"Because he knows that if he hurts my Hime he'll have to answer to me!" Recca said proudly. "Hanabishi Recca!"
At this moment everyone sweatdropped. While Tokiya closed his eyes letting out a loud humph.
"Why would I be afraid of a sea monkey?" Tokiya asked calmly. Recca glared at swordsmen.
"All right, all right." Kage Houshi, "Let's change the subject to why you're all here."
Everyone nodded and moved closer to her, except for Tokiya who stayed away as far as possible. Kage Houshi began to explain why she had called them all to her. Everyone listened and added their opinion whenever it was needed.
After they were finished Fuuko sat down and began to talk to Recca and Domon, until they pissed her off and then they began to fight. Tokiya sighed; he turned, beginning to leave without saying a word.
"Oi!" Kaoru called out, making Fuuko, Domon, and Recca stop bickering. "Tokiya-niichan! Where are you going?" No answer. "Tokiya-niichan!" Kaoru began to run after him.
"Don't bother." Domon said making Kaoru stop his chase. The one fanged boy turned his attention to Domon. His small face a mixture of confusion and annoyance.
"Why?"
"Because a snob like Mikagami will never want a punk like you anywhere around him."
"Yeah." Fuuko agreed, still mad at Tokiya about what had happened a few days ago. "Don't you know that a heartless jerk like him will never care about anybody?" she screamed loud enough for Tokiya to hear. She received no response from the longhaired boy. She folded her arms and let out a long Humph. "See? You'd get more emotion out of block of ice."
Kaoru rolled his eyes and chased after Tokiya calling out his name and asking him to wait. Fuuko rolled her eyes.
"I don't know why he bothers." Fuuko said as she stalked off in the other direction.
Yanagi watched Fuuko walk away. She looked at Recca and sat down next to him. She pushed a strand of hair behind her ear before specking.
"Recca-kun?" Yanagi asked. Recca looked at her. "What's wrong with Fuuko-chan?" Recca sighed.
"She's still pissed off at what Mikagami said to her a few days ago." Recca replied in a matter of fact kind of way. Domon began to fume.
"How dare he say such things about my glorious Fuuko-chan!" Domon began to rant. "He does not deserve to live after what he said. I will avenge Fuuko's honor!" With that said Domon ran off, beginning his plans of revenge and laughing like an idiot. Recca, Yanagi, and Kage Houshi all sweatdropped at this. Then let out a long collective sigh. After a few minutes of silence Yanagi turned to Recca once more.
"Recca-kun?" she said, calling his attention to her. "What did Mikagami-sempai say?" Recca smiled slightly and shook his head.
"I cannot say, for your ears are to delicate for such profanity," he said as he put his hands over her ears. Yanagi smiled.
"Arigato Recca-kun."
"For what?"
"For being so considerate of my ears." Kage Houshi stood up and began to walk away.
"I must be going now, I have a few errands to run." She said, "Syonara Recca, Yanagi."
"Jaa Ka-chan." Recca said waving good bye. Yanagi bowed her head politely as she said her good bye.
I am tired, he thought as he walked towards the bridge. I am tired of this facade that is my life. He stopped in the middle of the bridge and leaned against the railing looking down at his reflection in the water. My life is an endless cycle of pain and anguish. I can't take it anymore.
He climbed over the railing and stood on the small edge, between life and oblivion. He looked at the water, so inviting, ready to envelop him in its depths, ready to ease his aching soul. He closed his eyes and moved a foot off the edge, beginning to loosen his grip on the railing.
"Don't you know that a heartless jerk like him will never care about anyone?" How little she knew. "See? You'd get more emotion from a block of ice." Of course she knew so little, he never told anyone about his true feeling.
He never told her that he was tired of the pain, the mourning, the solitude. He never told her how much he envied Hanabishi and Ishijima for what they had. He never told her how much it hurt him to look at Yanagi and see his sister. How hard it was for him to keep from breaking down into tears, wrapping his arms around the girl and just crying.
He never told her how much he'd wish to be able to feel her arms around him. To feel her body so close to his. To run his fingers through her purple hair. How much he yearned for her to chase the monsters away. The monsters who wouldn't let him sleep at night. The monsters who left him scared and shivering in his bed, knees to his chest, tears cascading uncontrollably down his face.
He never would tell her these things. He let go of the railing and let himself fall. He closed his eyes and awaited the impact. He fell towards the painless oblivion that awaited him. He smiled. His life would soon come to end. Its not like anyone would miss him. No one had cared for him. He had no reason to live, so he was ending it. He was ending what those murders had begun, but weren't able to finish.
Now as he plummeted he realized that there was no hope for him in this world and that he was doing the right thing. Never again would he cause pain to anyone that he cared about.
No one cares for me. But why would they? I never show any feeling to them—to her. Why would they—she care for me? I don't deserve any of these things. This is the right thing. The right thing…