You don't seem to understand at all. If
you had, you could, and would, stop me. But you don't, so I'm leaving.
To tell the truth, I hate how you read my face like a book. No matter how
I feel, you know exactly how to make me feel better.
But you don't.
And when I ask for advice, it's just for
your own amusement that you answer me.
It doesn't help.
I catch glimpses of you out of the corner
of my eye, and you know it. Not a smile, or even a glare.
You're killing me.
So here I am, laying on the cold, polished
wooden floor, dying in a pool of my own damned blood. A rough, almost psychotic
laugh just barely escapes past my lips as I take what might be my last
breath. Maybe you hear me, because you just opened the door. I'm sorry
I can't give you a smile, but you really aren't worth the effort.
Goodbye.
Within a second, you're by my side, holding
my head up. It hurts now, how you look deep and hard into my eyes. Do you
see anything? I wish I could ask, but I've run out of time. Now would you
just fucking stop looking at me as if you care? As if you'll miss me?
I'm pretty sure you just picked up my gun.
What are you planning to do?
I'm scared. You smile as though you know
what you're doing. Tears stream down your face and fall onto my own as
you put the gun to your temple. You pull the trigger and the gunshot echoes
inside my head louder than it should, louder than it could. Your blood
splatters onto my face and mixes with the tears you forgot on my cheek.
And you're gone.
You put your head on mine as we watch the
others run into the room. They look at our bodies, half not believing what
they see, before tears run down their now deathly pale faces.
I stroke your soft cheek with a callused
hand and resist the urge to hit you. You shouldn't be here. It isn't your
time to die. You see, I really am sorry this time. I could have stopped
you if I had been alive when you came in. But I was dead. And now you're
stuck with me --
in Hell.
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