What Have I Done?
Ethan:
What have I done? Cruel Chaos, what have I
done?
Become a pawn of the night? Become a dog on the run?
Have
I fallen so far that it is truly too late?
Does nothing remain but
the cry of my hate?
The cry in the dark that nobody hears.
Gods,
have I changed with the turning of the year?
If there was
another way to go,
I missed it so many years ago.
My life was
a war that Chaos won.
I betrayed Giles, tried to love no one.
They
chained me and sent me to jail
Just for changing Giles into a
Fyral.
Oh, why did Giles allow those men
To throw me in a
Nevada jail?
He treated me as a criminal...
So I betrayed his
trust,
We were as close as brothers.
My work is creating Chaos,
can't you see?
For I had come to hate the world,
This world
that always hated me.
Take an eye for an eye.
Turn your
heart into stone.
This is all I have lived for,
This is all I
have known.
If I go to him, he'll send me back
To be
treated as a lab rat.
I have a chance to keep my freedom.
My
love for him inside me, like a knife.
Yes, Giles, I have a soul.
Though you don't know.
It may soon change my life.
There
is another way to go.
I am reaching but I fall,
And the night is closing in,
And I
stare into the void,
At the whirlpool of my sin.
I'll
escape now from the world,
From the world of Ethan Rayne.
Ethan
Rayne means nothing now.
Another story must begin.