A/N sorry if the prologue was confusing -_-;; Its suppoesed to say a girl who doesnt want to carry the burden but does and meets a
friend along the way. -_-;; maybe i shouuld've just wrote that....more explainable -_-;; I'll try better! Anyway i dont own ccs or anything!
Well here goes my crazy au fic!(Im gonna call Syaoran Li now because its shorter! ^^ I know I'm lazy!)

Chapter 1~ Meeting Kiama and the memory card(I made up the name and i don't know wut it means so if its bad dont chase me!)

~Exactly were I was and a little preview before~

"I won't let yoou escape!" Sakura yelled. 'Damn, it has quick relflexes! I know! The silence gem!' Sakura thought while blocking out the
horrible memories. "S...Silence gem! Make it so that the card may not hear me!" (In other words, make me unheard towards it.)
A blue light floated up and entered Sakura's throat. The card thought that Li was the real cardcaptor and turned to him. Sakura, Kero,
and Li smirked, what a dense card. " Firey! Release and dispel!" she yelled unheard by the card. The card just looked at her with a smug
smile. "Sakura! That was the HURT CARD! It is unharmed by things that hurt it!" Li yelled barley below a whisper from bleeding so badly.
Suddenly Sakura snapped, 'I know! I'll use a healing spell!' she thought as she did so. The plan worked perfectly. "2 cards down 14 to go, whew"
Sakura said, panting at the energy cost of that healing spell. 'Why did I have to carry this burden on my shoulders!?' she thought
as tears started to well up in her eyes. "Well, what are you waiting for? Lets go." Li said, oblivious that she was on the merge of crying, but
hiding it pretty well. She wiped her tears away and nodded while running towards Miima. Li looked at the running figure and then looked
at Kero with a questioning face. "Everytime she fights a card like that she breaks down wishing that she didn't open the 'box' and
lived a normal life. It pains to see her sad. The only emotions I've seen were sadness, anger, hate or none at all. Its a little tough on a
girl her age." Kero replied knowingly. He liked his mistress, she was strong but he didn't want to see her expressions that were everything
exccept happy. They started to run to Miima, the city of caring people, they would get a kick outta this.

When they caught up to Sakura and went to Miima, Sakura had a sudden flashback, it was a bad one and no doubt, it was a card.
The gang (Kero, Sakura and Li) all had horrible memories and were weak against a card like the 'memory'. Suddenly, out of now where,
a cat ran straight into Sakura. "Gomen, gomen, gomen!! Ja ni!" the cat said. Sakura felt suspicious of her and checked her possesions.
Yup, she was right, the cat had stole her money, and key of the cards, like she needed it anyway, but it was still better to go and get it.
"Well, looks like we got a theif to chase." Sakura said. "You've gone through this before?" Li asked with a little surprise. She and Kero
nodded and Sakura used the teleport gem and went there, the teleport gem was her creation. When she opened her eyes, she was in a
jungle when she saw the cat figure run into her again, but this time she caught the cat. The cat squirmed and yelled for her to let her
go. Sakura soon recieved her money back, but not the key. "Where's my key?" she asked calmly. "I sold it!" the cat said. "To whom?!"
she asked. "To a woman named Kiama." the cat said. "What is your name?" Li asked just incase they she was a liar. "Merna" it said, purring
softly indicating it liked Li. Sakura let go of the fur ball and teleported to were Kiama was, unfortunatly, she was a wealthy merchant with
guards arounf her house. Kero told them tio leave it to him. They stepped aside. About 4 seconds later you could hear soldiers screaming
like girls and ran out of their posts. Kero walked out and told them that it was ok. "Exactly what did you do?" Li asked. "I.....lets just say that
I found some animal dung, and they hated the smell....."(Meaning he threw crap at the guards) Li started to laugh uncontrollably,
Kero laughed a little too, while Sakura walked ahead of them. "Well, well, I think I'm gonna have to lighten up our master some how."
said a voice behind Li. Li and Kero were spooked and yelled out to the mysterious girl, afraid if they move, that they will get hurt.
"Kiama, your still your same old self, quit it and become visible." Sakura said with a smirk of amusment seeing a fully grown man
and a guardian beast scared out of their wits. "Awwww.....I was just having fun! O well, I'll have to start after mistress Sakura is gone.
First lets have something to eat." Kiama said in her visible form. She had red hair, purple eyes, and butterfly wings. Sakura nodded at her
suggestion and turned to the 2 spooked out helpers. They snapped out of it and nodded also, keeping an eye out for Kiama. "I don't bite,
yeesh! Stop staring at me!!!!" Kiama yelled getting annoyed at the staring. Sakura looked at them with a glare and they tensed up
for a couple of seconds before becoming completely serious and following her. 'Geez! Sakura wasn't like this when she was 5! She used
to laugh at everything I said! Poor Sakura, with a big burden on her, she demolished her fears leaving two, regret and memories. She sighed
and Sakura stared at her and asked what was wrong, was she going the right way and so on. (They were in a tunel)She nodded,'I'm gonna
come up with a plan! I'm gonna make her smile again' Kiama thought. 'I wonder how she looks when she smiles? Wait! Baka! You're
her helper! I am a warrior! I am not gonna let my emotions get the best of me! This is ridiculous!' Li thought. 'Poor child, I hope this
over soon, wait I don't, when this is over, she will have to face...' Kero's thoughts were cut off "Kiama, may I have my key back?" Sakura
asked. "Oh! I forgot! hehe! Here ya go!" Kiama replied looking a little sheepish.

About 2 minutes later, they made it to the opeining of the tunel which brought them to Kiama's mansion, when they arrived,
2 maids rushed up to Kiama and asked if she was aright. When they stopped asking her this and that, Kiama suggested "Hey, lets eat, shower
(she thought they smelled real bad)shop and sleep!" They all nodded.

At the dinner table, there was a lot of food, Li and Kero were surprised how much they were able to eat. "How many gems, and cards
have you caught?" Kiama asked. "All gems, 2 cards" Sakura repled bluntly. "But, but you just started to catch the gems not a while
ago!" Kiama stated in surprise. "Well, I wanna get this over with! Saving the world, and stuff is not what I like to do. And besides, I started
when I was 17 and I'm tomorrow is my birthday, which means I haven't finished my task within 1 year." Sakura replied bluntly. On the
other side of the table Li asked "Tomorrow is her birthday?" Kero nodded. "She started the card/jewel capturing on the day
right before her 17th birthday." Kero relpied. Li looked at her, seeing her looking casual as if it was easy. "She hasn't smiled since then, I've
always wanted to see her smile, but even when I try to she just make me feel like running away." Kero said sadly. "I tried to tickle her once, when
I was in my smaller form and she almost used the fire necklace on me." Kero said a little amused as Li laughed. (The jewels could be rings, necklaces, or braclets!)
Li stayed silent for the rest of the dinner time. "You know what? I think we should go shopping! My friend , Tomoyo will make you the
greatest dress for the carnival of the start of spring and your birthday tomorrow!" Kiama squealed with stars in her eyes. All girls loved to wear dresses.
"No, Kiama, I am not going to wear a dress!" Sakura yelled. Kiama smirked "You promised me, when we were 5 that you would wear
the dresses my friend made for all the times I asked you to." "Damn, how could you remember that!?" Sakura cursed. Li and Kero would
get a kick out of how she looked in a dress, in her opinion, she hated dresses, and thought she looked very stupid in them. Kiama laughed,
"I remeber because I am your best friend! Don't go forgetting that!"Sakura sighed, when they were finished, they went shopping, all
Sakura bought was some medicine, and a flute. Just then Sakura had a flashback.

"MommY!" Sakura yelled with glee, she had just captured a jewel. Sakura's mother was very happy. Then, "ahhh!!!!" her mother yelled,
as the hurt card floated by the city. Sakura panicked and went to catch it, but by the time she made it to the scene, all the people close to her,
in the city had died. Sakura wept. "Mommy, Daddy, Tori, Mina, Yukito, minna-san" she continued weeping. "MINNA-SAN~!!!!!!!!"

~shoppping~

"No!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!! Minna-san, everybody is gone." Sakura said crying, she couldn't take it anymore "Memory card! Show yourself you
cowardly bastard!!!!!!!!!!!" she yelled in anger. Everyone turned to her. Li covered her mouth. Sakura glared at him with watery but fire-filled
eyes. He immediatly let go as she teleported everyone to the location of the memory card. 'Her lips felt so......WAIT, BAKA! YOUR DOING IT AGAIN!'
Li yelled in his head while being teleported. Sakura looked as if she was gonna set the whole place on fire. Kero backed away. "Back down guys!
I don't like the way she is acting, I've seen her like this before." Kero yelled at them "But..." they both started. "Back down or she's gonna kill you!!!!!!!"
Kero yelled. They immediatley went were Kero was and watched. "Memory! You coward, how dare you do that to me! What the hell have I done to you!
Why must you make my memory re-appear?!" Sakura yelled sounding like she was going to kill anything that stands in her way. 'She going to....shes gonna
use the heart gem....'Kero thought in terror.

~Flashback~
"Memory Gem! I dare you to show yourself! I don't deserve this!" Sakura yelled. Sakura looked at it in pain. She held out the heart
gem. "Sakura, don't!!!!" Kero yelled. Sakura was on the verge of smacking the beast. "Don't tell me what to do."Sakura said menicingly, while
clenching her teeth. "Heart gem! Release!" Sakura yelled. Her emotions of her heart spread, anger, pain, loss, and sheer sadness. Her
emotions spread into the Memory gem and it felt her wrath and cried, Sakura got even more mad and soon, her emotions leeked
into the city, everyone was mourning and Kero was too. He remembered the death of his loved ones also. He knew how she felt, as
the whole city of Sand. The card mourned in pain and sorrow as it looked at Sakura. Sakura was on her knees, crying, wishing she wasn't
born and that she had a normal life. Half the city died that day, showing how much pain she carried, the gem vanished into thin air, into
a gem. But not the memory gem, it turned into the gem of sorrow.
~End~

Kero didn't want to remember that, just then the card showed itself. "Sakura! Please don't! The city's people don't deserve this!" Kero yelled.
Sakura wasn't listening. The card made everyone's most horrible memories return, Sakura couldn't take it anymore, but she wouldn't use the heart gem.
"Hurt card! Show how much pain ths card has caused to others!" she yelled. The hurt gem went straight into the card and within seconds, the card
was weeping with sorrow, and let itself be returned into the card. "Memory card! Return to the gise which you were meant to be unseen from the world!!" Sakursa yelled with pure hate.
She really wanted to burn the card but she couldn't. "3 down, 13 to go." she said crying a little. Just then she couldn't take it anymore and started to cry,
as was everyone else from the effect of the memory card. About 4 hours later Kero, Kiama, and Li had recovered and started to smile a little.
Sakura, on the other hand kept her head low during the rest of shopping, even when she was with Madison, when she gave her her dress,
it was pretty, it was a light blue color with dashes or rose and green all around, on it was cherry blossoms, it was a 1 piece dress, with
a sash tied around the waist, and long sleeves that droped down from the elbow. It was very pretty indeed. Sakura could care less, she
was still thinking about her lost loved ones. When they finished shopping, they went to the hot springs to take a warm, relaxing bath.

On Sakura's side.

"Do you like the dress?" Kiama asked. Sakura looked at her "I could care less, I'm only doing this because I promised." Sakura said to her.
"Fine, be that way! You know tomorrow your gonna be all like yourself and everyones probably gonna ignore you. "They already have."
Sakura said. Kiama looked at her, seeing her just sitting there, looking at the full moon. "No, they haven't. I'm still here, Kero, is and that
helper, Li is here." Kiama said, trying to cheer her up. "You guys are barley my friends, and everyone else is in heaven." Sakura replied.
"I don't even have friends." Sakura said once again. "Yes you do, stop acting like that! You have plenty of friends, you just push them away!"
Kiama said. "AND IF I DON'T THEY'LL DIE!" Sakura yelled back. Kiama stared into her eyes, seeing pain and sorrow, she was quiet for 5
minutes. "I'd rather die, then let you be alone, as everyone else, promise me, that you will be your usual self again." Kiama pleaded.
"I'm glad that you are my friend, and I'll axccept that, but I'm not gonna promise you to be my old self. Thats my weakness, when I
was my old self, I couldn't do anything, and even before the cards people have died because of me, as they do now. I promise you, when this is
over, I will return to be my old self, until all has nothing has to do with these cards, or gems." Sakura replied. Kiama nodded, at least she
was gonna be herself again, someday, someday, she was gonna have her genki friend back, yes, someday.

On the boy's side.

"Kero, have you ever pictured or seen Sakura smile?" Li asked the beast. "No, I wanted to, but, her mother had died on the day of her birthday."
Kero replied. "She must've had a horrible life since then." Li said a little sad. "Probably worse than both of us put together." Kero stated.
Li nodded. They spent the rest of the night, silent, as did the girls.

When they arrived home, they were sent to their rooms. "I'm sorry, but mom is having guests, so you'll have to share a bed with Li."
Kiama told Sakura. "Kero will stay with the other creatures." Kiama told her. Then she went to find Li, when she told him that he had to share a
bed, he freaked. "Shouldn't I stay on the floor?" he asked Kiama. "it's not like she's gonna kill you! Just go." Kiama said laughing, and pusshing
him into the room. When Li walked, I mean pushed into the room, he saw Sakura sleeping already. Her hair was all around her, and
she was in a sleeping gown. Li blushed, and went into the bed as he pulled the blanket up to both of them. 'She looks so peaceful when
she sleeps.' he thought. He was right, the white gown complimented on her rosy skin and she looked as if she was a lot happier when she
slept. Just then the wind blew into the room and blew a few strands of hair over her face. Li fought the urge to wipe them away but lost,
as he wiped away a few strands of hair, her eyes shot open at his touch. He flinched 'Talk about fast reflexes!' Li thought as she glared at him and
turned around. She put up a magic forcefeild. 'Let's see him try to touch me now' she thought with a smirk and powerful forcefield aound her.
She quickly fell asleep, while her forcefield died down and she rolled over. When she did so, Li woke up and looked at her. 'She really looks like an
angel.' Li said as he looked at her he thought 'If only she was smiling.' He smiled to himself and fell asleep.

When Sakura woke up at 5 in the morning, she stratched and changed into her normal clothes and went outside to train. Slash, swipe,
thrust, etc. were heard at the fast motions of her sword. Li woke up when he heard them. He usually woke up at 6 to practice. Li looked
outside and saw Sakura practicing, so he thought that he would get a nice challenge. When he went fown, he saw that she wasn't there,
and suddenly felt a lot force being connected to his back.

A/N hello! how r u doing! I know that it isn't too good but I'm working on it! I'll try to add some suspense or something. Thanx 4 reading, if you want
me to do somthing please suggest it by reviewing.