Lost Chapter: My Heart and Soul

Sakura slowly walked through penguin park, her books pressed against her chest, eyes on the ground. A single tear slid down her cheek and fell to the ground. She pushed away the unwanted tears and sighed. It had been almost one year since she had seen Syaoran. Now 19, she wished desperately that she knew what was wrong. She hadn't received a letter nor a call explaining why he was gone. She didn't know whether to be angry or upset. She had, of course, sent many letters to his residence in Hong Kong, asking what was wrong but she had never gotten a reply.

Clouds washed over the moon creating erie shadows. Sakura continued walking, head down, wallowing in sadness until she came across an opening from overgrown trees and the cobblestone path. She slowly lifted her head to see the old, rusting penguin slide. She hadn't been there since that fateful night about one year ago. She slide to the cool, damp ground, her back against the slide. She drew her knees closer to her and let her tears flow freely down her cheeks and spill on her arms. "I miss him so much..."

"Really?"

"Really..." Sakura turned around in fright and saw him. Sitting on top of the slide was tall, dark figure. "Syao... Syao.. Syaoran?!" She exclaimed softly in confusion. She stood and roughly wiped the tears that slid from her eyes with her arm. She slowly began to back away, wanting to run from her problems.

"Please don't run." He pleaded. He leapt off the slide and ran up to her. Softly, he placed a hand on her shoulder and she stopped backing away. They stood in silence for a few moments, neither knowing what to say.

"Please explain what happened.." Said Sakura finally. She began to walk away. He followed her and began his explanation.

"I guess it started a little more than a year ago. I guess I just started to....well.. fall apart. I didn't know why then but I do know the reason now. When I went back to Hong Kong, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I only had a small mild case but I still had paranoia and social anxiety. I still am a little paranoid..."

"So you're a schizo?" Asked Sakura, beginning to understand.

He smiled then continued "I guess you could say that. Over the last year I've been going to counselling and now they think I'm cured... although Meiling-san didn't help much." A grim expression had been plastered on his face while he explained this. They had stopped near the park entrance. Slowly, they turned to face each other.

"I didn't realise.. I could have been more supportive.. I could have helped more..." said Sakura. Tears and anger welled inside her. She was disgusted with her own ignorance.

He placed his hands on her shoulders and smiled. "Don't worry. I would have been hard to notice anyway." He smiled warmly and she weakly smiled back.

"I'm glad I know. But why didn't you answer any of my letters?"

"That was Meiling. She figured that I shouldn't write or answer anything. I was cut off from the world for about 10 months. I feel really bad about that." He hugged her close.

"Thank you" she said, letting him hug her. "But will you be with me forever? Even if it doesn't work out....will you still be my friend?" She asked, drawing away from him to look him in the face.

"Hai, I will be. I promise. You'll always be in my heart and soul." they stood bathed in moonlight under the arch near the entrance in the park, arms wrapped around each other, hugging each other close, promising to always be there for each other. Syaoran's words echoed gently in in Sakura's head as a promise she knew he would never break. Heart and soul......

Azarya 2001

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There. A happy ending. Hope this clears everything up. I know it was a little short but hopefully it makes things better. I wrote this after I had first finished Fallen From Grasp and I finally got around to finishing it. Hope you enjoyed it!