Blue
Chapter 5
by Mariye
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Disclaimer: I don't own FF8
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Dr. Kadowaki picked up the phone on her desk.
"I'm going to make a request to have you taken off SeeD missions for two weeks."
Quistis sat back in her chair.
"How about only taking me off minor cases. What if something big were to come up where they needed my help."
"That isn't very likely."
"It could happen."
"Fine." Dr. Kadowaki reached into her desk and pulled out a small container. "These are all natural sleep aids. Take them before you go to bed for a week then get back to me."
"Alright. Good bye." Quistis took the bottle and walked out.
~Why does she always have to worry so much?~ Quistis walked toward her room. ~Well, at least now its like 5:15, close to when I'd usually start waking up.~
She started to turn to walk back to her dorms, but right as she reached the bridge to enter, something made her stop. She looked down to see she was almost floating.
~What's happening...~
She shook her head to try and rid herself of this feeling, but couldn't. Another wave came and before she knew it, she was moving slowly towards the gate.
She moved as if in a daze. Seeing and hearing nothing. Oblivious to the things around her, as if she was caught in a net and was being pulled away. A few early morning workers watched puzzled as she seemed to glide towards the main entrance.
Selphie ran up and blocked her way.
"Man Quistis, you're sure up early. Wanna run with me today? I always run around Garden in the morning. Its a great way to start the day."
Quistis ignored her and stared like a zombie through Selphie.
"What's wrong? Are you feeling okay? You're looking like Rinoa did when she was possessed by Ultimecia."
Selphie waited a few seconds. Quistis tried to move around her.
"Hold up! What's going on Quistis?!?!" Selphie demanded. Quistis pushed her aside and continued towards the gate.
"Psh. Fine. Be that way." Selphie said as she ran off.
Quistis kept slowly moving, until she was standing by the road outside. She blinked a few times and raised her hand to her head.
~What in the?~
She looked around. Everything was normal and seemed fine.
~Why was I pulled out here then?~
Just as she began to wonder, she started to notice odd clouds toward the West. She walked forward a few steps.
~Oh God no...~ She thought when she saw the mushroom shaped cloud. She shook her head. ~It can't be real. It was just some foolish daydream. It can't have happened. Not to Esthar...~
She turned around and started running back inside Garden.
~But President Loire, he would have known! They have all that technology and the military there! This couldn't have happened!~
She ran as fast as she could to the elevator, and when she was it was busy, ran for the stairs.
~Maybe its just a small threat. Maybe they knew and were able to escape that! It couldn't be Hyne. It doesn't make any sense at all!~
When she reached Cid's office, she pushed her way past Xu and ran in. Cid stood there, looking grimly at the communications monitor.
"Sir! I have reason to believe Esthar has been..."
"Has been destroyed." Cid turned to face her. "You were going to say attacked, weren't you. Its gone now. Nothing left. Not even a crator. Its like it was just erased from the face of Gaia."
"But, I saw the mushroom clouds." She explained. "And in the vision..."
"Vision?" He looked at her puzzled.
She sighed.
~He'll think I'm crazy.~
"This morning, before I called you earlier, I had a vision in the elevator. It was stupid though."
"Did you see this?"
"Sort of. It looked more like explosions and like fire was sweeping through the city."
"Was there anything else?"
Quistis stopped for a moment.
"No. Nothing at all."
"Alright. I'm going to gather together a team... Squall, Irvine, Rinoa, and yourself... the four of you will head out to the Esthar region in the Ragnarok and search around for refugees. Possibly even for the people responsible for this atrocity." Cid shook his head. "I know you've had a lot of pressure lately, but something's telling me to send you with..."
"What?"
"My gut instinct tells me there could be trouble. I know I can trust you to keep a level head and keep everyone together and on track."
"Oh. Yes sir." She saluted to him.
~For a second I thought he was going through the same thing as me...~
She turned and walked out.
"I'll go get the ship ready."
She walked out of the office and past Xu, who was trying to figure out what was going on. She took the lift down to the basement, and started to walk out onto the deck where the Ragnarok was kept when she felt lightheaded again.
"Noo...." She whispered as she dropped to the ground.
She was in a dark space. Nothing around her. She could feel something solid beneath her feet.
"Where am I?"
~Am I in a dark space? Or is it just that I am unable to use any of my senses...~
"Does it matter little one? And you shouldn't worry about such senses. You never needed them in the first place."
"Who are you?" Quistis asked, spinning around. The voice echoed in her head, although she wasn't even aware of having a body there.
"In a way, I'm you, and you're me. Everything is everything else if you try to really understand what is true."
~Why can't whatever this is speak normally?~ Quistis thought.
Suddenly there was a flash of white and she found herself in sealed room with no doors or windows. Everything was a shade of gray. She held her hands in front of her face, trying to convince herself she was alright and real.
"You shouldn't worry little one. You're real. More real than anything there anyway."
"Its rude to read people's thoughts." Quistis replied, brushing off her skirt.
~Not that I know though. But it just seems like it would be rude.~
"What do you mean I'm more real?"
"It will come to you in time little one. Soon you'll know."
"I'll know what?"
"You'll come to your senses."
Quistis walked along the edges of the room, feeling the walls for a switch.
"Were you the one who destroyed Esthar?"
"Do I sound like him?"
The thoughts became a true voice then, rich and deep. It was very articulate and precise. Almost like the way Quistis was accustomed to speaking. It was also decidedly female.
"Why did it happen?"
"I don't know why he does these things. To be difficult perhaps? I can never know, and I know him almost as well as he knows himself."
"So why do you keep haunting me?" Quistis stopped in the center of the room and looked up.
The voice remained silent.
"Well?"
"I have only visited you once before this, and when I did you were still a young child."
"Listen. I can't take this okay? What are you, some kind of god?"
"Goddess."
"Well if you are one, then why waste your time with me?"
"Soon you'll know little one."
"Fine. Can you just leave?" Quistis said exaspirated.
"Alright."
The light came again, and then Quistis was in darkness again.
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Will there be survivors? Did Laguna and the others see the disaster coming?
Why is a goddess concerning herself with Quistis?
Why would a god want to destroy Esthar?
Chapter 5
by Mariye
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Disclaimer: I don't own FF8
======
Dr. Kadowaki picked up the phone on her desk.
"I'm going to make a request to have you taken off SeeD missions for two weeks."
Quistis sat back in her chair.
"How about only taking me off minor cases. What if something big were to come up where they needed my help."
"That isn't very likely."
"It could happen."
"Fine." Dr. Kadowaki reached into her desk and pulled out a small container. "These are all natural sleep aids. Take them before you go to bed for a week then get back to me."
"Alright. Good bye." Quistis took the bottle and walked out.
~Why does she always have to worry so much?~ Quistis walked toward her room. ~Well, at least now its like 5:15, close to when I'd usually start waking up.~
She started to turn to walk back to her dorms, but right as she reached the bridge to enter, something made her stop. She looked down to see she was almost floating.
~What's happening...~
She shook her head to try and rid herself of this feeling, but couldn't. Another wave came and before she knew it, she was moving slowly towards the gate.
She moved as if in a daze. Seeing and hearing nothing. Oblivious to the things around her, as if she was caught in a net and was being pulled away. A few early morning workers watched puzzled as she seemed to glide towards the main entrance.
Selphie ran up and blocked her way.
"Man Quistis, you're sure up early. Wanna run with me today? I always run around Garden in the morning. Its a great way to start the day."
Quistis ignored her and stared like a zombie through Selphie.
"What's wrong? Are you feeling okay? You're looking like Rinoa did when she was possessed by Ultimecia."
Selphie waited a few seconds. Quistis tried to move around her.
"Hold up! What's going on Quistis?!?!" Selphie demanded. Quistis pushed her aside and continued towards the gate.
"Psh. Fine. Be that way." Selphie said as she ran off.
Quistis kept slowly moving, until she was standing by the road outside. She blinked a few times and raised her hand to her head.
~What in the?~
She looked around. Everything was normal and seemed fine.
~Why was I pulled out here then?~
Just as she began to wonder, she started to notice odd clouds toward the West. She walked forward a few steps.
~Oh God no...~ She thought when she saw the mushroom shaped cloud. She shook her head. ~It can't be real. It was just some foolish daydream. It can't have happened. Not to Esthar...~
She turned around and started running back inside Garden.
~But President Loire, he would have known! They have all that technology and the military there! This couldn't have happened!~
She ran as fast as she could to the elevator, and when she was it was busy, ran for the stairs.
~Maybe its just a small threat. Maybe they knew and were able to escape that! It couldn't be Hyne. It doesn't make any sense at all!~
When she reached Cid's office, she pushed her way past Xu and ran in. Cid stood there, looking grimly at the communications monitor.
"Sir! I have reason to believe Esthar has been..."
"Has been destroyed." Cid turned to face her. "You were going to say attacked, weren't you. Its gone now. Nothing left. Not even a crator. Its like it was just erased from the face of Gaia."
"But, I saw the mushroom clouds." She explained. "And in the vision..."
"Vision?" He looked at her puzzled.
She sighed.
~He'll think I'm crazy.~
"This morning, before I called you earlier, I had a vision in the elevator. It was stupid though."
"Did you see this?"
"Sort of. It looked more like explosions and like fire was sweeping through the city."
"Was there anything else?"
Quistis stopped for a moment.
"No. Nothing at all."
"Alright. I'm going to gather together a team... Squall, Irvine, Rinoa, and yourself... the four of you will head out to the Esthar region in the Ragnarok and search around for refugees. Possibly even for the people responsible for this atrocity." Cid shook his head. "I know you've had a lot of pressure lately, but something's telling me to send you with..."
"What?"
"My gut instinct tells me there could be trouble. I know I can trust you to keep a level head and keep everyone together and on track."
"Oh. Yes sir." She saluted to him.
~For a second I thought he was going through the same thing as me...~
She turned and walked out.
"I'll go get the ship ready."
She walked out of the office and past Xu, who was trying to figure out what was going on. She took the lift down to the basement, and started to walk out onto the deck where the Ragnarok was kept when she felt lightheaded again.
"Noo...." She whispered as she dropped to the ground.
She was in a dark space. Nothing around her. She could feel something solid beneath her feet.
"Where am I?"
~Am I in a dark space? Or is it just that I am unable to use any of my senses...~
"Does it matter little one? And you shouldn't worry about such senses. You never needed them in the first place."
"Who are you?" Quistis asked, spinning around. The voice echoed in her head, although she wasn't even aware of having a body there.
"In a way, I'm you, and you're me. Everything is everything else if you try to really understand what is true."
~Why can't whatever this is speak normally?~ Quistis thought.
Suddenly there was a flash of white and she found herself in sealed room with no doors or windows. Everything was a shade of gray. She held her hands in front of her face, trying to convince herself she was alright and real.
"You shouldn't worry little one. You're real. More real than anything there anyway."
"Its rude to read people's thoughts." Quistis replied, brushing off her skirt.
~Not that I know though. But it just seems like it would be rude.~
"What do you mean I'm more real?"
"It will come to you in time little one. Soon you'll know."
"I'll know what?"
"You'll come to your senses."
Quistis walked along the edges of the room, feeling the walls for a switch.
"Were you the one who destroyed Esthar?"
"Do I sound like him?"
The thoughts became a true voice then, rich and deep. It was very articulate and precise. Almost like the way Quistis was accustomed to speaking. It was also decidedly female.
"Why did it happen?"
"I don't know why he does these things. To be difficult perhaps? I can never know, and I know him almost as well as he knows himself."
"So why do you keep haunting me?" Quistis stopped in the center of the room and looked up.
The voice remained silent.
"Well?"
"I have only visited you once before this, and when I did you were still a young child."
"Listen. I can't take this okay? What are you, some kind of god?"
"Goddess."
"Well if you are one, then why waste your time with me?"
"Soon you'll know little one."
"Fine. Can you just leave?" Quistis said exaspirated.
"Alright."
The light came again, and then Quistis was in darkness again.
======
Will there be survivors? Did Laguna and the others see the disaster coming?
Why is a goddess concerning herself with Quistis?
Why would a god want to destroy Esthar?