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Where is Sailor Moon?
Where is Sailor Moon? the newspapers asked. Darien stared down at the newspaper and allowed his fist to close around it crumpling it. He angrily threw the newspaper across the table knocking a glass over causing it to fall to the ground with a loud crash. He stormed out of the kitchen.
Damn these dreams he cursed angrily. Damn me, and my stupidity. Why do I always screw my life up? Serena why did you have to go? Where are you?'
He sighed and released his anger. Who was he kidding? The further away she was from him the better off she was. Or was she? Wherever she was he hoped she was happy.
Why do things have to be this way? Ever since Serena left, his dreams had stopped coming. It seemed she was no longer in danger. It didn't make him feel much better however. She was still gone and his heart was slowly being torn from him. He could barely feel her presence anymore. She must have left the city and when she had, Tokyo became a colder place. He grabbed his jacket and walked out of his apartment slamming the door behind him. An appreciative neighbor muttered some curses as the door shook the walls.
Sometime later after a long walk through the city, Darien arrived at the park. Even though the temperature was mild Darien felt chilled as he walked through the park. He was vaguely aware of the sounds of laughing children and scolding mothers. The beautiful sights of the park and the sounds of chirping birds were lost on him as he wallowed in his misery.
He wasn't sure just how he felt right now. He wasn't sure if he'd done the right thing by pushing her away and yet the voice in his dream had sounded so right, he had to protect her even if it meant hurting her. The pain he was feeling right now however, was far more than he'd bargained for.
But he supposed he deserved it. He had been so harsh when he'd pushed Serena away. He had hurt her so badly and now it was his turn to be in pain.
Later that day
Darien walked into the café with Andrew
close behind him. Andrew had the day off from the arcade and when he'd
met Darien angrily storming down the street he'd insisted that he have
a cup of coffee and
discuss just what's bothering him.
Andrew wasn't quite sure just why he bothered to suggest that Darien tell him his problems. Even though he was Darien's best friend, Darien didn't really talk to him about his problems, but that didn't upset him too much because the only person Darien had ever confided in about his feelings or anything else was Serena, before they broke up that is. He could only hope to calm Darien down. Just looking at Darien he could tell whatever he was angry about probably had to do with Serena. Ever since she'd left he'd been in a constant foul mood. Andrew thought that was very weird since Darien broke up with Serena, so why was he so upset about her leaving?
He supposed he should be used to Darien's weird behavior by now. The guy ran off in the middle of conversations and then showed up an hour later looking exhausted. He always seemed to have a rose somewhere, and he always seemed to smell like roses and something else he couldn't quite identify as anything else but Spring.
It was odd enough that he had started to date Serena who was so much younger than him it was practically illegal. In fact he remembered overhearing Serena saying that she had told her parents that he was two years younger than his actual age. After seeing them together and the change that had come over Darien however, he had easily understood that they were perfect for each other. Serena seemed to make him come alive. Whenever she was around he was suddenly funny and charming and quite the conversationalist. It was a huge change from his usual cold indifferent attitude.
Then one moment he was happier than he had ever
been in his life and the next he broke up with the girl he had seemed to
love more than anyone or anything else in the world and back to his old
self except he was significantly colder and more easily angered than ever
before. He had seemed even angrier whenever he was around Serena and yet
when she wasn't watching he gave her these pained looks as though he wished
she
were still his girlfriend.
Darien and Andrew walked in and sat down at one of the tables. Andrew thought he should probably try to get Darien's mind off whatever was bothering him so as they sat down and began talking he said: So Darien, did you see the newspaper? Apparently Sailor Moon disappeared. What do you think happened to her?
Darien simply answered, Yes I heard, in a tone that suggested the end of that conversation. Just then the waitress came over.
Hi guys! What's up Darien?
Hello Liz, Darien answered.
So you say Hi to Darien but not to your own brother? Andrew asked jokingly.
I've already seen you once today. I said hi to you this morning remember? Anyway are you to going to order something or what?"
"Darien you look like you need a shot of double espresso," Andrew said. "I'll have a cappuccino."
As they drank their coffee in silence, Andrew stared at his best friend who was, as had become normal for him recently, staring out the window aimlessly. His eyes seemed fixed on nothing and were completely devoid of any sign of life. Andrew was amazed. How could Darien live like this, but then this was not exactly what he would have defined as living anyway.
He decided to go out on a limb and make a suggestion that he hoped would be beneficial to him. "You're upset, so why did you let her go?"
When Darien answered, his voice was cold and had
undertones of anger. "I don't think you'd understand and even if you did
it's still none of your business." Andrew was shocked that Darien could
be so cold.
"Sometimes Darien, you are such an asshole. You
push anyone away who even tries to help you. I'm beginning to think maybe
it was a good thing you broke up with her because she deserves better than
you."
With that Andrew walked out angrily, leaving Darien sitting by himself staring at his friends disappearing back. Darien was shocked to say the least. What Andrew had said hit him hard. Maybe Serena was better off without him. He should probably move on with his life as best he could because she probably did deserve far better than he could ever give her.
He got up and leaving the money for the
bill, walked out and made a vow to forget about any hope of ever holding
Serena in his arms again. She was gone and eventually she would be happy
without him ever crossing her path again.